Abnormal

From the county seat to the urban area for about a hundred kilometers, I passed the muddy mountain road and got on the provincial road.

The car merged with the night, galloping like the wind, passing by the surrounding streetscapes, factories and fields in turn.The lights on both sides of the highway guardrail blurred into a light and shadow under high speed driving.

Silence, silence.No sound, no sound from heaven and earth.

Gao Tong has been quietly curled up in that corner since just now.His body is very close to the car door, his hands seem to be leaning against the handle; his thin body is also bowed guardedly, as if he will flee at any moment.

But he was still there stiffly like a puppet, he didn't say a word, he didn't move.In the darkness, Bai Xiuwen stared at him without blinking, just like back then, he was also the same covert and lurking boy who was spying on the next bed.

At that time, the boy was full of contradictory and ridiculous arrogance and cowardice, but now it seems that only the latter is left.Obviously not many years have passed, no more, no less than six years...

Gao Tong has indeed been smoothed out by life.

The disappearance of this kind of thing is natural and subtle, just like water flowing eastward and sunset westward, which is common sense in the world.But it is also really regrettable.

——It’s not sharpness, it’s not ambition, if you insist, it’s just a cluster of faint flames, which is dispensable to anyone.

Bai Xiuwen probably knew a thing or two, but he really couldn't feel any emotion of regret or sympathy.

He has seen the youth's life trajectory in the past few years, monotonous and step-by-step, and the other party is like a simple line drawing to him.Bai Xiuwen knows all about the places Gao Tong has been to, what he has experienced, and the people he has known.The young man lives in the panorama prison he set up, but the prisoners don't know it.

What he did was cruel, perverted and absurd, and he knew it too.

He lacked a certain sense of empathy since he was a child.When I was an introductory biology class, I did an experiment of dissecting a frog. Children of the same age turned away their eyes and couldn't bear to do it. Some timid girls even hid aside and cried. Only he was wearing a mask and gloves. Eyes, fix the frog corpse on the dissection tray, open it up and dismember it with a scalpel neatly, and finally mark and identify the internal organs one by one according to the instructions.

The scalpel was polished and gleamed coldly under the laboratory lights.As he cut open the belly of the corpse, the wound was neatly cut without any blemish, not even blood spattered out.

There was one step that he remembered clearly.Due to the embalming fluid applied to the corpse, the frog's limbs were slightly stiff.He rubbed them slowly according to the teacher's instructions, bending its legs and softening the joints until the frog lay softly on its back on the dissecting tray.

It felt amazing.He felt the pores all over his body open and the blood cells whistling, which concealed a strange and grotesque sense of control, even if the object was a small and humble animal corpse.

While praising him, the biology teacher called him to the office after class and tentatively asked him how he felt when he dissected the frog.

At that time, Bai Xiuwen had already sensed the teacher's intention.He looked directly at the teacher's probing gaze, thought for a moment, and then replied——

"I do feel scared and disgusted. But since it is an experimental task, it must be completed." He exhaled and added with a smile: "Afterwards, the classmate buried the body in a flowerpot, and set up a tombstone, saying This is a dedication to science, and I hope their spirits in heaven will not punish us."

The biology teacher was also happy when he heard it, and lamented how much he thought - this is just a little precocious kid, how can there be so many abnormal personalities in the world.At that time, when he watched the opponent dissect the frog, although he was not very proficient in the technique, his expression was so calm and calm when he cut and dissected the frog, and his hands didn't even shake. The perverted killer in the TV series.That's when I called someone over to ask a question.

In fact, a person can always understand himself more clearly and deeply than anyone else, the difference is only whether he is willing to admit it.

In the process of growing up, Bai Xiuwen gradually discovered that he suffered from a certain degree of empathy disorder-such as emotions like helplessness, fear, sympathy, pity...whether good or evil, good or bad, extreme or normal, regardless of Whether the source is others or himself, he is indifferent.

Later he gradually learned that behaviors are learned.It couldn't be simpler. Behavior is the expression of emotions. Through a perfect and meticulous socialization process, he imitated all the behaviors required by society in different scenarios, and successfully pretended to blend into the ranks of normal people.

Even more normal than anyone.

The heating in the car was turned on quite high, and the heat and the faint smell of car perfume seemed to make people drunk.Bai Xiuwen glanced at Gao Tong again, he was still in the same posture, as if he was asleep.

No wonderful adjectives in the world can describe his feeling at this time, which is more exciting than all orgasms, and he can feel the tremor in his chest—the pores are open, the blood, cells and molecules are whistling, a kind of secret And the frenzied pleasure is coming - just like dissecting that frog back then.

It's just too heartless to describe Gao Tong as a young frog.Because Gao Tong is different, he is different from anyone who is boring in this world, and he is more precious than any rare treasures hidden in the castle.He may be neither dazzling nor eye-catching, even more inconspicuous than the cigarette butts on the side of the road, but he is different.

Because this person is his.Always and always is, a term that spans the past, present and endless future.

Arrived at the hotel without hindrance.

Chen Peng opened the car door, glanced back, and said deliberately: "Brother Bai, we're here, I'll go to the door to pick up whoever, so you don't have to wait for me first. Just go up first when you're ready."

Bai Xiuwen nodded, and said lightly, "Go."

He felt the young man around him tremble suddenly, and then fell silent again.

He turned his head and said warmly to Gao Tong, "Are you hungry? Haven't you had dinner yet?"

Gao Tong slightly glanced out the window.

The cold wind howls, but it is like the roar of evil spirits; the dark lights flicker, like the eyes of devils; the boundless night is their invisible but infinite body.

After so many years, see this man again.

Still heart stuffy, hard to breathe, still empty body but can't find the courage to speak.

The other party opened the door and got out of the car.

However, Gao Tong suddenly took out his mobile phone.He opened the chat software, found the person who had been dusty for many days but was still on the top, and sent a simple period.

Then he saw a tall man appearing from the car window.Bai Xiuwen opened the car door and said to him in a deep voice, "Come down."