Sad Jiangnan

Although the ugly time has passed, there is still a long time before dawn.

People who live honestly in this world, despite their labor, clumsiness, and bad luck, are extraordinarily happy.There are joys in every corner of life that I can't imagine.

In contrast, the self who lived in the lie from the beginning settled down on the bridge built by the lie.Every action is acting, lest others lose interest, try to go to the extreme.When everything is over, continue to deceive the past, without any progress or guilt.What is really scary is that in this great sense of loneliness, if you are not careful, you will fall into the eternal hell.

At this time, even if my brother rushed here from home, I would stay here forever without a single complaint.

Fujidai Nayan sat in the dark for a long time, his hands and feet became cold, and Fengmae's blood spread to his toes.The warm touch made him startled.

A word suddenly appeared in my heart.

I do not say that all dharmas are silent and formless, nor do I say that all dharmas are completely absent.

I recited it silently over and over again, like a kindling in the cold for no reason, my body became warmer,

The mind, which was already like stagnant water, gradually became surging.In the dark, the twisted face of Fengqian can also be kissed, and an unprecedented sense of relaxation fills the whole body.I began to slowly consider the aftermath of the work.

There should be a lot of charcoal in the miscellaneous house, which needs to be used to light the fire.Fujida Nayan poured out all the clothes in Fengzen's room from the cupboard and piled them on the ground.The tatami mats, rugs, lampstands, tents, and cabinets were all moved to the middle of the room and pressed together.It took nearly half an hour just to finish these, and the time is running out, so we need to find the miscellaneous house quickly.Fortunately, not far behind this house, there is a simple hut with firewood piled up.I moved everything I could find, panting with exhaustion, and scattered it all over the room.

Although it was done in a hurry, I was lucky enough to find a bundle of straw.Fuji Da Nayan put it together with a few screens of clothes.The oil lamps were also collected, and the remaining oil was poured on the furniture and the floor, which were not easy to burn.After finishing all this, Fuji Da Nayan picked up a lantern outside and took out the burning fire.The first two times, my fingers were still sore.

The straw pile in front of him finally lit up, and the fire burned peacefully, like a child running around and playing, even though he was jumping around, he didn't feel the heat at all.But after a while, the fire, like bamboo, almost shot up to the roof, shining the whole room like daytime.The blazing flames coming from all directions are like dancing people, so lively, like a fire festival.Heat waves and thick smoke rushed towards the face, and the blood on the floor exuded a strange fragrance because of the fire.Soon, the clear smell of meat mixed with smoke echoed in the air.

Fujita Nayan has never felt a happiness comparable to this.

There was a big fire in the Hongmei Palace, the wind was not strong, but the houses in Youjing were row upon row, and the fire still spread to the location of the imperial palace.It was not until night that the fire in the palace was extinguished.When the fire at the source was extinguished, it was already the early morning three days later.

There were about eleven or two dead, and Teng Da Nayan, who visited Hongmei Temple that day, was also in critical condition because of being hit by a burning beam on his legs.The skin of the three palms was completely melted, and the beams of the house were so heavy that it seemed that the bones had been injured. However, for two nights, both legs were swollen like balls, and Fujita Nayan developed a high fever.

On the first day, Guan Baigong was by Teng Da Nayan's side every step of the way.

"What do you want to eat, what do you want to drink?" asked one by one.

I just shook my head and asked my brother, "Why did this happen?"

My brother said, "All of this is my fault. God will punish me too."

"No, please think about it again."

Elder brother can't say anything except confession.The wound started to become painful.

In the middle of the night, my brother suddenly said that he would rush to the fourth princess.Fujita Nayan almost jumped out of the tent.The wound on the leg became more and more swollen, and the yellow pus had to be wiped and squeezed out several times a day. I was so painful that I burst into tears, my hands were full of sweat, and the quilt on my body was scratched.Even though I was very sleepy, I couldn't fall asleep no matter what. It turned out that this was the taste of life being worse than death.

Where there are four princesses, such a person should not exist in this world.

I almost lost my temper and lost my temper, "Don't go there, don't go!"

"Stop messing around," my brother said with an unusually firm and calm attitude, "There are only ten days left."

"Ten days what? The fourth princess is a fake!"

Brother was stunned.

"This person won't marry you at all, why don't you understand?" At this point, my brother suddenly stood up and raised his voice: "Is it interesting to talk nonsense?"

"Aren't I doing enough? I have also experienced the pain you have experienced. Are these not enough?"

My brother couldn't understand what he was saying at all.I didn't even have the strength to cry falsely.

"What's wrong with you?"

"Nowhere is comfortable."

"There is also a limit to acting like a baby. Where is it?"

"I'm in so much pain, I'm in so much pain! I can't sleep because of the pain!"

The elder brother leaned over and inspected those legs pretending to be reassuring.

"When I come back, I'll stay with you all the time, okay? Please be considerate of my brother. My brother has worked very hard."

My brother left anyway.

Sitting on the zizi at night, there is not a single star in the night sky.When my brother came back, he was also sick and unable to fulfill his previous promise.

At first, he had a high fever, and then he was bedridden, unable to walk.When I was sitting in the room, the only scenery I could see every day was the attendants of various colors who frequently went in and out between the two halls.

According to Dingguang Dajin, my brother's body became weaker and weaker, and he began to stop drinking water as usual, and when he woke up at night, he was talking in his sleep.I have no way to bring the "medicine" back.I had to ask someone to help me, and went to the main hall to visit my brother.There was a strange smell coming from my brother's room.

It was the smell of pus, and Fujita Nayan thought it was coming from himself at first.But different from itself, the excess stench is closer to carrion.He had smelled it during the first serious illness of his brother's burnt face.This illusory stench is covered in the lush garden like rotten leaves, silently.

Fuji Da Nayan's sensitivity is destined to be able to find the clues of rotten leaves, just as he can find the goldfinch that fell in the lisianthus.Although he didn't know what the indescribable stench was at that time, now that the smell was sent into his nostrils again, he immediately remembered it.

Teng Da Nayan hurriedly rushed to the front of the account and shook his brother awake.

"Hello, hello."

"What's the matter?" My brother closed his eyes and frowned slightly.

"Besides the headache, is there any other discomfort?"

In fact, I was also in severe pain, and the sense of despair once again filled my heart.

"No, no." My brother kept shaking his head, "It's okay."

The skin of the brother's exposed arm showed a thick red color, and the yellow water droplets seemed to float on the red skin drop by drop.Teng Da Nayan stretched out his finger to wipe it there, and put it in front of his nose, and the stench rushed towards his face.

"It can't go on like this. Call He Dian Yaotou to come over."

Brother Piao immediately sat up, his red eyes fixed on his face.

"What do you want to do?" the brother asked himself.

"Brother, do you want to change back?"

My brother's eyes widened again.

"What will happen to the former face if it changes back?"

"Don't say any more, it won't happen." The elder brother lowered his head, and the hands holding his shoulders suddenly dug into his flesh.

"It hurts." Fujida Nayan shed a tear.

The elder brother was startled, and quickly let go of his hands, "I'm sorry, I'm sorry..."

"I'm sick too."

My brother kept nodding, "Then, what do you want to eat tonight?"

Seven days left.

Dingguang Dajin said this morning, "General Zuo, the great companion on the way to exile, died suddenly the night before yesterday. His younger sister who temporarily stayed in the Kurama Temple knew about this, and she couldn't find anyone yesterday. She probably went to seek death."

He let out a long sigh.

Fujida Nayan asked, "What happened to the matter I asked you to ask the source of?"

Da Jin seemed a little timid, "I'll ask."

Today's mood is exceptionally calm, with the bright blue sky imprinted in his eyes, he subconsciously nods his head.

"The source said, I don't know."

"What?" I smiled at Da Jin, "What is this talking about? How could he not know. Impossible."

With the look of ease before, he asked himself if he would pursue the fourth princess.As if it happened yesterday.

Da Jin's face became painful, "Actually, what he meant was..."

The blue sky outside was still as peaceful as ever.

"I know too." Fujida Nayan looked deeply at the sea-like sky, feeling his own thoughts wandering in it.In fact, I have never seen the sea once, so I don't know why I associate it like this.The word sea is really full of fantasy and beauty.What kind of genius would think of creating this word?

Fujida Nayan murmured, "Will my legs still get better?"

Da Jin suddenly put on a very serious expression, "It will be fine."

"really?"

"Really." That voice seemed to cast magic.Suddenly there was the sound of a bird outside.

"Birds have come out by this time."

"It was there yesterday."

"Is it building a nest?"

"It's spring, and the cherry blossoms in the yard are blooming. Winter always goes by quickly."

"How could it pass so quickly? I had a small hole in the sole of my foot a long time ago, and it still hurts there!"

At night, after my brother's car went out and came back, he had fallen into a deep sleep.Teng Da Nayan ordered Da Jin and You Wei to help him into the bullock cart and rushed to Da Nei overnight.With the excuse of admonishing His Majesty to go to the Ise Jingu Shrine, I was able to enter the Forbidden City Zhaoyang House.The palace has not yet been affected by the fire, and most of the palace people maintain their original residences.Because of the sudden fire, they stayed up all night, and most of them were exhausted. At this time, they all fell asleep.

In the main hall of Zhaoyang House, the women's rooms are all separated by screens, and they live in hibernation in it, passing through the grating and wing rooms, and the innermost room is where the four princesses live.

I have limited mobility, so I need Da Jin to help me to the front of the corridor.This time, he can pretend to be his elder brother and teach Dajin to report inside.After a while, Da Jin came back and told him that he could go in and visit him because he needed to be informed in person.

Fearing that others would see the clues, Fujita Nayan pressed on the pain and dragged his legs before he could move forward.There are several tents in the house of the four princesses, and the two sit on both sides with curtains.

After exchanging greetings for a while, the fourth princess did not say a word.In order to maintain his kneeling posture, Fujita Nayan was already sweating coldly because of the severe pain in his legs.Seeing that there was no one around at this time, he propped up his body with his arms, suddenly jumped over a few curtains, and hugged the fourth princess tightly in his arms.

The frightened face of the fourth princess was indeed in the eyes of Teng Da Nayan.But in the blink of an eye, the firm body in his arms suddenly lightened.When I fixed my eyes, there was nothing in my hand except for a long and thin piece.

It seemed that dozens of insects were crawling on his back, and Fujita Nayan felt as if he was stabbed by something in his heart, and almost fell to the ground.Only he stood firm.The lingering fear in my heart is actually much more terrifying than falling to the ground.

The woman who was very similar to Buomae disappeared without a trace.At this time, if you look around to confirm whether the disappearance is true, it will be even more terrifying.

If it is like Fengqian, at this moment, Fengqian's face is also looming in his mind, like the moonlight in the early morning, quietly drifting away.At this moment, if you want to describe the face of the fourth princess in detail, you have no clue.

The flame of the oil lamp jumped and became brighter.The flame seemed to split head-on, and was about to jump into his face.Fujita Nayan only felt that it was getting hotter and hotter.Even if no refueling came, the lamp would undoubtedly burn until morning, or even keep burning.

"Fourth princess?" My own voice was like a ghost, lingering in all directions of the room.Slender slipped from his hand to the ground.The feeling of bone chills finally faded due to exhaustion, and the night was still silent.

When Fujida Nayan returned home, he was sweating profusely, with his single clothes sticking to his body, and the strong smell of sweat almost overwhelmed the fragrance of the clothes.Several servants covered their noses.

In the early morning, my legs became more swollen, and the high fever that had finally subsided rose again, and there was still no sign of subsiding at night.He Dian Yaotou hurried over.

"When will I die?" The head and legs were constantly stabbing, and Teng Da Nayan would rather be delirious.

But He Dian Yaotou said, "It doesn't matter, it's just that I'm too tired."

"It's okay? My head hurts so badly, it hurts like hell."

"It's a little bug."

"Where is the small problem, have you ever been in pain?"

"..."

"I would rather have a knife to end the pain of myself, you must never think of it. It hurts, it really hurts. Why should I suffer this kind of torture..."

"If you have a fever on weekdays, it may not be like this for you."

The right lieutenant on the side thought that Teng Da Nayan and He Dian Yaotou were arguing, and he was a little at a loss, and said to the master, "It will be fine..."

That sound was like a mosquito bite, and a feeling of disgust arose in my heart.Say it louder:

"What about the legs? The legs have been bleeding pus, and I can't sleep at night. You know I haven't slept for a few days?"

"Why can't you even stand this? Soldiers with missing arms and legs on the battlefield don't want to live. You are in good health, and your wounds will heal slowly."

You Wei let out an exclamation of "Ah", Fujida Nayan sat up all of a sudden.

"I understand that doctors always say words of encouragement in front of dying patients. During the day, my servant has quietly gone out to arrange my funeral. I know it. At this time, you still refuse I'm telling the truth, isn't it? This is the feeling of betrayal, my karma has come."

He Dian Yaotou looked at him silently, then patted his knee with a fist, and then stared at the fist.This action further confirmed the thoughts in Fujida Nayan's heart.Ke Dian Yaotou said something unexpected:

"You want to die so much, there are thousands of ways to die happily."

There was the movement of the bullock cart outside, and my brother went out again at this time.

He Dian Yaotou's voice echoed in his mind, and did not go away for a long time.After the wheels were gone, everything was back to normal.A solemn tranquility enveloped the whole room.Fujita Nayan woke up from his dream, "What about my brother's illness?"

He Dian Yaotou's eyes shot straight at his face.The pain in my head also disappeared, and I was instantly sober, "What will happen to my brother?"

"I do not know either."

"Why? Why?" He Dian Yaotou kept silent, and he became inexplicably angry, and his fists gained strength, "Isn't the medicine I used a while ago healed quickly? It can take everything, and the complexion is also gone." Very good, there is no problem walking in the yard. Now you say you don’t know?”

He Dian Yaotou still looked at himself, "It's the same medicine I'm taking now."

I forgot to breathe, "It's useless?"

"Did he really eat it? Once in the morning and in the evening."

In fact, the family has no smell of medicine a long time ago, as long as you bring the medicine juice to my brother, he will immediately overturn it.It is also not feasible to force him to drink.

"I have no idea……"

"We need to diagnose him again." He Dian Yaotou said.

This time it was my turn to be speechless, how could my brother agree, "Isn't it okay to take the medicine before?"

He Dian Yaotou pursed his mouth tightly and did not utter a word. This sarcastic silence was more insulting than loud accusations.His head started to hurt again, and even the eye sockets and ears were hot as if bathed in steam, "What can I do? If brother can listen to me, why do I even come to beg you now?"

I am used to being pampered, and I can't change this problem in front of outsiders.What a shame, whose fault is this all?Fujida Nayan's cheeks were hot and painful, if he shed tears again, would it be possible to hold his head up in the future?

He Dian Yaotou said, "His body seems to have a rotten smell."

Fuji Da Nayan really had enough, and kept beating the quilt, "What can I do? What can I do?" The death-like face of the fourth princess suddenly came to mind.Everyone who died in his hands before is clearly strung together and played back and forth.I almost cried myself again.

You Wei rushed over, asking this and that, but was slapped away by Teng Da Nayan like chasing cats and dogs away.

"I'll prescribe another ten prescriptions, is that okay?" Dian Yao asked.

"... Can ten posts be the same as before?"

"The medicine must be given to him."

"Is there any way to make him eat it?"

"It's okay to say it's for the fourth princess. After drinking this medicine, the fragrance will flow naturally from the body, and the face will also look good. The fourth princess will definitely love you more. Tell him like this."

But I couldn't laugh at this absurd statement.Sharper than any positive curse, this sentence is deeply hurting my heart.If only it could be done like this.With no other choice, I became quiet because of this sentence.

He Dianyao's avatar still has something to say.

"The movement outside just now..."

"It's my brother who went out."

"Where to go?"

"Where else could it be." He lay back down again and closed his eyes.

"I've been living in a house in the country recently, so I really don't know very well."

"The cattle breeders in your family know about it."

The two were silent for a while.He Dian Yaotou said, "Actually, I have been transferred and will leave Kyoto soon."

"why?"

"Go ask your brother, even I don't know why."

"Is ten posts enough?"

I was actually thinking about this question, and He Dian Yaotou actually gave a serious answer, "I will keep the prescription, as long as I can make as many notes as I want."

"Then, go all the way."

"Thank you. One more thing. The fourth princess doesn't look like a human."

"What, you want to say it's a fairy?"

"No, my family also has some traditions of teaching Shugendao. I know more or less about this aspect, and I think it's more like a ghost."

He offered the deepest secrets in his heart to himself without reservation, so he specially picked this kind of time when he was defenseless.Fujita Nayan tilted his head and asked, "What do you think of my brother?"

He Dian Yaotou didn't even bother to answer his boring question. "If the four princesses are responsible for this disease, then it will be cured..."

I insisted on asking him, "What do you think of my brother?"

He Dian Yao's head finally stopped. Even though Teng Da Nayan was lying on the tent, he still tilted his head as hard as he could, making an extremely twisted posture.

"A good man."

Fujita Nayan smiled, "Before."

"And now."

"you are too polite."

"Actually, you're not bad either."

"You are the good person, and only you are the good person." I suddenly yelled strangely, "You have worked hard."

When did He Dian Yaotou come to his room?It's as if there are more people out of thin air, it's too scary.Now that I finished saying this sentence, this person suddenly disappeared without a sound.

I quickly sat up and touched the wooden board outside the account just now.It seemed to be warm, but my own hands were also very hot. In fact, I completely lost the ability to judge objectively.

Fujida Nayan lay back again, panting and sweating profusely.The fever subsided by the next afternoon.

Five days left.

My brother kept saying that.The fourth princess in the palace actually wrote a letter on this day.

"Even if that person is a stone, he is finally moved by the lord's true feelings." Da Jin was overjoyed, and his retainers were also infected by that emotion.Today's Onomiya is very lively, and the sun seems to be even brighter.

What exactly is written, although it is really ugly to open the owner's letter privately.But everyone couldn't help but gathered together.Da Jin spread out the letter paper, and the elegant and solemn fragrance flew in the air like bees and butterflies, and got into everyone's mouth and nose.

This is the letter from the fourth princess.

The servants couldn't help being intoxicated by it.

Dingguang Dajin coughed solemnly as if he had received the imperial decree, and recited softly and slowly:

"Stone bowls from Tianzhu are actually easy to find. Jade branches from Penglai Mountain can also be made. The fire rat fur of the Tang Dynasty, the precious jade of the dragon's head, and the shellfish of Yan's safety. They are all like flowers in a mirror and the moon in water, which is unrealistic.

His Excellency Guan Bai, can you please give me the most precious thing that really exists in this world, that cannot be described in words. "

Fujita Nayan also smiled after seeing it.Not like that.Although my elder brother is a little delirious due to illness recently.But in the end he is a man of measure.He said to him, "Go to Nei Zang Lao and steal the magic mirror and the sword." Will he do it?

In addition to the lingering stench in my brother's room, there was also a strange smell like burnt leather.I boiled medicinal soup in the kitchen today. The smell is too strong, and I can't get rid of it no matter what.You can also smell it in the main hall and the east and west halls.

"Trust me, I've shown it to you, congratulations." Hearing what Fujita Nayan said, my brother suddenly became nervous.

"What about the letter?"

"Here it is."

The elder brother snatched it away with a "snap", but the letter paper split a hole between the two of them.The elder brother read the letter very anxiously, as if his life was about to pass away.

After reading the letter, my brother's eyes showed a perplexed attitude.

"Actually, it doesn't matter at all." Instead, he spoke first to comfort his elder brother, "I am already willing to marry you. She deliberately said something difficult. She is a princess, but she is only a woman after all. As for women, there will be You can understand the feeling of wanting to act like a baby, right? It doesn’t matter if you don’t understand. In short, in short, I am not forcing you to do it. Bring her some rare treasures. If you say you don’t like it, that’s it I like it so much. At this time, don’t be stupid and bring the gift back intact. My brother doesn’t understand women’s thoughts at all. If you want me to arrange it earlier, how can it be so complicated? It’s all very simple thing."

My brother didn't know how much he listened to, he looked very confused, his eyebrows were twisted together, "It means to bring a gift..."

"You're such an idiot. You've been chasing after him for a long time. What about pleasing gifts? None. What the hell are you doing? Just begging for gifts. People are in such a hurry!"

"So I don't understand anything..." My brother looked sad, as if a cherry blossom in the yard had died.

"It's all right now." Fujida Nayan smiled, and kept wiping off the yellow water that surfaced from his skin.