When the double black penetrates the if line

"Ha!" Osamu Dazai felt ridiculous, and he did laugh, "You think I got poked in a sore spot?"

"Indeed, I did get poked in a sore spot." His smile was fleeting, and behind it was a darker expression full of disgust.

Why on earth did he form a partner with a single-celled creature like Zhongya Zhongya?Even if it is for the power of Chuya in the Central Plains, even if it is for the right to belong to the gods, Osamu Dazai should not bear these almost ridiculous reasons and words.

Could it be that Zhongyuan Zhong thought he had figured out himself?It's really ridiculous.

The two of them got acquainted, and then Zhong Yuanzhong also followed him into the port Mafia and became a member of the port mafia, and then the two of them formed a partner together and lived in the same dormitory.

Which relationship did not develop under the control and manipulation of Osamu Dazai?

We met because Osamu Dazai took over that task.Nakahara also joined the port Mafia because Osamu Dazai saw the gods and thought it would be interesting to control the gods in his own hands, so he did it after sowing discord and acting for a short time.

As for the two of them forming a partner, it was because of Mori Ogai's decision under the invisible control of Osamu Dazai.

The relationship between the two of them couldn't be explained by intimacy, and even Nakahara couldn't even use the word to understand Dazai Osamu.

Because without Osamu Dazai, the two of them would probably still be strangers now, not to mention becoming close partners, Nakahara Chuya would probably still be covering the wound stabbed by others in some place now and secretly recuperating.

This relationship was completely started by Osamu Dazai, and the control of the relationship is completely under the will of Osamu Dazai. All the fetters and presumed understanding between the two are based on Osamu Dazai. thing.

What proof does Zhongyuan Zhongya have that he has seen through Osamu Dazai himself, and even came to the ridiculous idea that Osamu Dazai did not actually want to commit suicide?

Ha, Chuya Nakahara can't even really understand the nature of Osamu Dazai now.

Osamu Dazai almost thought of it with disdain, and said, "It's just that the sore spot where I was poked is not the one you imagined."

"Nakahara Chuya, even if you are a god, you are really ridiculous. I can easily read the thoughts in your mind. You are thinking that I am your partner, so you can easily see through my thoughts. Thinking about things, you think you understand me, you think you can figure out my true thoughts, right?"

"It's just a pity, what you said is wrong." Osamu Dazai sneered, "Whether you think I don't want to commit suicide, or you think everything I do has a purpose, or it's ridiculous I think that under your partner's incomparably dark performance, there is a pure heart yearning for light and redemption... huh."

"I was originally black, without the white core torn apart, nor the soft interior as you imagined." When he said this, Osamu Dazai spit out the words almost sarcastically, "Generally speaking I hate explaining so much to others, especially someone who has no brains. Unfortunately, as my partner, you seem to have some deep-rooted misunderstandings about me."

"Then let me tell you now." Osamu Dazai looked deeply into Nakahara Chuya's eyes, his sharp eyes almost turned into two swords, "I just hate human beings, I hate life, I hate this Everything around me that does nothing but can be easily seen by me."

"It's boring, you know? So much filth, so much filth, but I don't know how to hide it better, so I can see it all."

"So I like death, I almost love him. Only death can give me a short breather from this suffocating pool of sewage. Now do you understand?"

"I don't understand." Nakahara Chuya's words were as short and powerful as ever, he said lightly.

"You!" Dazai Osamu was almost suffocated, he finally recovered, and now he almost roared, "Are you listening to me?! Or are you still hugging me?" Have some kind of naive idea of ​​me? Then you really are—"

"That's not the case." Before Dazai Osamu finished his angry words, Nakahara Nakahara interrupted him first, "Sorry, I never thought you were a good person. Dazai Osamu, I Knowing that you are a mass of black mud, the kind that can't be washed clean. Put it in the water, and the whole jar of water will turn into mud because of you."

"But." Chuya Nakahara continued to speak before Osamu Dazai could refute, "You think I don't understand you... Well, I also admit that I really don't understand, in many aspects, such as what exactly you are What are you thinking about, what are you planning in your various actions every day, even your usual fragmentary actions...I admit, I don't understand."

"Then you still come to tell me?" Osamu Dazai sneered, "Since you don't understand, just shut up obediently."

"I really don't understand those aspects, but there is one aspect that I am sure I understand." Chuya Nakahara miraculously did not get angry at what Dazai Osamu said this time. His tone was very fast, in order to prevent being beaten by Dazai Osamu Duan continued talking almost without stopping.

"I'm pretty sure I understand and understand, Osamu Dazai, you don't want to kill yourself."

"Whether you realize it yourself or not, Osamu Dazai, did you realize it? You always either jumped into the river or hanged yourself or jumped off the roof of the building, and you never found someone else to bring your inevitable death." Speaking of this, Zhong Yuanzhong also smiled slightly, "There are always many ways to die. If you really want to die, poison gas, medicine, or simply a missile."

"There is always a way to kill you, whether you want to or not. But why do you have to be stubborn and insist on committing suicide every day?"

"So that's the reason." Osamu Dazai had disdain in his eyes, "I'm afraid you will be disappointed. I have tried all the above, but unfortunately, Mori Ogai does not allow me to die like this."

"Those are only secondary factors." Nakahara also ignored Osamu Dazai's mocking tone, and didn't even mind the fact that he called the leader by his full name unceremoniously. "The most important factor is here."

Nakahara Zhong also gently tapped the position of his heart in his left chest cavity with his finger.

"I can feel it from my heart, Osamu Dazai." The dark blue in Nakahara Chuya's eyes was like a swirl, deepening a bit, "You have no will to die."

"Even if it's suicide, there are many kinds. If you lay on a train, or just put a knife through your heart, you can definitely die. But you don't want to do that."

"You choose to jump off a building, hang yourself, or jump into a river. Even if this kind of death can bring you death, you can easily be rescued by others."

"On weekdays, I will always watch you and not allow you to commit suicide successfully. This may be your excuse, but this happened tonight."

"It's three o'clock in the morning, and I've always been in a deep sleep. If you hang yourself at this time, I won't wake up and save you. You can die as you wish."

"But Osamu Dazai, why did you speak loudly before committing suicide?"

Osamu Dazai opened his mouth, as if he was about to say something, but was immediately interrupted by Chuya Nakahara: "You said you wanted to say your last words, but this is even more outrageous."

"There are many ways to make a last word. You can write it down on paper, or set up a text message to be sent to me at regular intervals. There is absolutely no need to yell out loudly."

"The reason you make such a loud noise is actually because in your heart, you don't want to die. Even if you don't realize it yourself, in your subconscious mind, you still hope for someone before committing suicide every time." It can stop you, save you, and bring you back to this world."

"Osamu Dazai, do you think I'm right?"

"..."

Osamu Dazai really wanted to tell Nakahara Chuya that this was all nonsense, and it was all his imagination. If he hadn't been unable to die, he would have followed his own consciousness and fell into the dream of death.

But these words circled around his mouth, but in the end he couldn't say it.

He suddenly realized that he couldn't refute Chuya Chuya's previous words.

damn it.

Osamu Dazai cursed in his heart.

So why did I say that last sentence tonight and wake up Zhongyuan Zhongye?

Getting into a lot of trouble, and getting cornered by a single-celled slug, was literally the most disgusting experience of his life.

After being speechless for several times, Osamu Dazai finally asked a question: "...how do you know that what you said is correct?"

However, upon hearing this sentence, Nakahara Chuya suddenly laughed, and ripples appeared in his blue eyes.

"Because..." His voice was very soft, with a smile, but it reached Dazai Osamu's ears very clearly, "The gods can perceive the truth of everyone in the world, and the gods said tonight——"

"—Osamu Dazai, you don't want to die."

"I won't let you die either."