When the double black penetrates the if line

After that night, Osamu Dazai still thought about committing suicide every day. Whether it was jumping off a tall building, jumping directly into the river, or cutting his wrists, he would still be saved by Chuya Nakahara every time, and then continued Tried suicide.

Whenever Chuya Nakahara was full of impatience, cursing and pulling him back from the brink of death, Osamu Dazai would look gloomy and watch Chuya Nakahara's movements silently.

"What are you looking at me for?" Zhong Yuanzhong also noticed his gaze, rolled his eyes, and said coldly, "If you are trying to express your gratitude to me, I think I can barely accept it." .”

Osamu Dazai would snort coldly every time: "Even if I were to die, I wouldn't be grateful to a dark dwarf like Nakaya."

"...Who are you calling a dwarf?!" Nakahara Chuya immediately frowned, threw Osamu Dazai aside roughly, and grinned, "I'm still in the growth period!"

"You are in the growth period. You have said this sentence for two or three years. It turns out that you may have to be in the growth period for the rest of your life."

"Who do you say has to be in the growth period for the rest of his life?!"

"Slightly slightly slightly, whoever agrees will be the one~"

"..."

"Damn it, Osamu Dazai, I think you want to be sent to the peaceful place of death you long for by my own hands!"

Even though he said so, Nakahara would only pull Osamu Dazai back from the brink of death every time, and never put what he said verbally into action.

Osamu Dazai also tried to provoke Chuya Nakahara-it turned out that it was too easy to achieve such a goal, even easier than putting a hanging rope around his neck.

But no matter how much he angered Nakahara Chuya, he kept jumping repeatedly on the restricted area in Nakahara Chuya's heart, poking Nakahara Chuya's painful feet again and again, causing Nakahara Chuya to curse countless times. He disassembled—

The Central Plains will not put it into action.

It’s just...

Disgusting to the extreme.

……

When they get together, they will explode into fireworks in the sky. They wish to stay away from each other every minute and every second. They both swear to the sky that the other person is the person they don't want to see in this life—this is the organization. accepted evaluations of them.

Exactly the same as before.

But Osamu Dazai knew that something was different.

Although the purpose of forming a partner at the beginning is not too complicated, it is just for the legitimate reason under the control of Mori Ogai to get closer to Nakahara Chuya, so that Nakahara Chuya can completely become his own god, let him Be loyal only to yourself.

But the facts have proved that even if the two people get together, even if the purpose is not very simple at the beginning, after staying together for a long time, it is inevitable that they will be contaminated with each other's habits.

Know what the other person’s raised hand and raised eyebrow represent. The brain can understand what the other person wants to say next without reacting based on tacit understanding. Just a look at each other can convey what the two parties want to express, and understand what the other person wants to say. The meaning to be expressed, and then the perfect fit.

This may be the reason why human beings are social animals, because two people get together to keep warm, even if they hate each other very much, but after getting along for a long time, they will inevitably understand each other very well.

Habits, once you stick to them, you can't change them.

But now, Osamu Dazai felt that the balance in his heart had a dangerous tendency.

...He felt that he seemed to have gradually gotten used to the company of Zhongyuan Zhongye by his side.

I am used to every time I commit suicide, I will see Nakahara Chuya's angry or calm face when I open my eyes.

I am used to dreaming back at midnight, and I always see the peaceful sleeping face of Nakahara Nakaya.

I am used to the unparalleled tacit understanding between two people in the execution of tasks.

And... I got used to the suicide behavior that symbolized pain and inextricability to me every time, and gradually turned into salvation.

Of course, as far as Osamu Dazai himself is concerned, he would definitely not use such nasty and unreal words as "salvation".

Osamu Dazai felt that the relationship between himself and Chuya Nakahara was probably just a side effect after getting along for a long time.Those warm currents in the heart, those inadvertent touches should all belong to things like inertia.

These are not exclusive between him and Zhongyuan Zhongye.

After all, there have been so many pairs of partners since ancient times, and the word partner in the mafia organization is almost sacred-a partner transcends life and death, surpasses trust, and is more stable than the relationship between husband and wife. Exit, it will be released only when one party dies.

Except for him and Nakahara Chuya, all other people who formed a partner probably have these feelings and experiences.

After all, in a life-and-death crisis, silent prayers and unknown gods will not save you, nor will parents, relatives, wives and lovers that flash through your mind keep you safe.

Only a partner -- only... Chuya Nakahara, can pull you up when you are about to fall into the abyss of death, and then the two of you will fight side by side.

There are so many ancient gods, whether it is the benevolent Buddha or the shining Jesus, there are thousands of believers, and the dust from the incense they receive every day can cover the surface of the earth. No matter how pious your faith is, it will never answer your call.

Only the god Zhongye of the Central Plains descended from a high place and made his promise.

He promised that he would not let Osamu Dazai die.

Until now, he has indeed done it.

It's a pity that a limited time word was added in front of this - until now.

A hint of depression flashed across Dazai Osamu's expression, mixed with emotions that he himself didn't know, and it was so complicated that it was impossible to understand.

In Dazai Osamu's life, among his many suicide experiences, there are only two people in this world who can force him to forcibly isolate him from death.

One is Mori Ogai, and the other is Chuya Nakahara.

Mori Ogai used tough methods, relying on his strong desire for control and ubiquitous surveillance, forcing Osamu Dazai to be unable to commit suicide even if he wanted to.

For him, Osamu Dazai has drawn up a blueprint for him, and put his life trajectory under his own control.

But for the Central Plains...

"Damn it, when did I care so much about that little dwarf?" Osamu Dazai rubbed the space between his brows, breaking through the intense irritability on his face, and said softly as he walked down the long corridor, "He originally It is my weapon, the guarantee of my safety, and the bargaining chip that allows me not to lose to Mori Ogai in the fight against Mori Ogai."

"Acting when necessary is indispensable, but to get yourself into it...it's just stupid."

Having said that, Osamu Dazai sneered slightly.

The vast majority of human beings in the world, ten out of ten are idiots.They are mediocre and do not make any progress every day. They just repeat their bad habits, problems, and routines of daily life day after day.

It is because of these stupid humans that the world is so boring.Filled with dull, worthless souls, it's like a layer of dust, full of ugliness everywhere.

That's why Osamu Dazai desperately wanted to escape from this world.

But as for Dazai himself?He never considered himself a fool.

Therefore, any stupid mistakes should not be made by him.

"Mr. Mori." Before he knew it, Osamu Dazai had already reached the end of the corridor.

He lowered his head and knocked three times regularly on the heavy and high-grade mahogany door. After hearing the answer from inside, he opened the door and walked in.

Mori Ogai sat behind a tall desk, with a pile of documents almost half the height of a person piled up in front of him.He stuck his head out from behind the pile of documents, and it took less than a second to put away all the exhaustion on his face, and he returned to the appearance of the strategizing leader.

"Osamu Dazai, what do you want from me?" Mori Ogai cleared his throat, pushed away the pile of documents in front of him, put his elbows on the table, and said with a smile, "If I don't If you think wrong, it seems that there is no task for you during this period of time."

"Indeed." Osamu Dazai nodded, "So I didn't come to Mr. Mori to report on a mission or submit a report."

"Oh?" Mori Ogai showed a little interest in his eyes and smiled, "Then what do you want to do with me? This is really rare, you actually came to me, and it has nothing to do with work. "

Although he had an interesting expression on his face, Osamu Dazai knew that Mori Ogai had begun to lose interest without even guessing.

Mori Ogai is such a person, he only thinks about Yokohama and his own port mafia every day, and spends all his energy and effort on these two things.

Should he be serious?Indeed, he is very serious, and the belief that exists in his heart is also very strong.

But at the same time, this also makes Mori Ogai ruthless to the extreme in a certain form.

As long as it is anything that is beneficial to the interests of the organization, as long as it is for the organization—or for him, it can better control the power of the organization and bring the organization to a better tomorrow—Mori Ogai will definitely will do it.

Even if human nature will be distorted in this process, and a person will be forcibly distorted into a state that is not human, Mori Ogai has no hesitation.

He doesn't even look at the others in those plans, because for him there is only absolute reason, only his own purpose.

Isn't Osamu Dazai one such victim?

But now, Osamu Dazai knew that after he said that he didn't come here to organize things, Mori Ogai's attention had begun to shift away from him.

If he doesn't say something that can really attract Mori Ogai's attention, Mori Ogai will definitely drive Dazai Osamu out of the office without saying a word.

However, what Osamu Dazai wants to say this time will definitely arouse Mori Ogai's interest.

Every night he was planning, every spare time, every spare minute, Dazai Osamu was thinking about his plan.

And he knows that after he has polished it thousands of times, his plan is almost perfect.

No, it's perfect.

"Mr. Mori." Dazai Osamu showed a smile. I don't know whether it was because of what he was thinking or because of the next sentence, "I heard that it will be Alice's birthday in a week."

"I have prepared a birthday party for her, do you want to come with me?"