toxic roommate

"Oh."

oh oh?oh!

This is Zhen Shuang's reply after a few seconds of silence, and then, nothing more.

Also like a straight person, Yu Xiaoqiu can make Gu Liangzhou rely on her thousands of times, but she scares her roommates so much that she doesn't dare to talk too much. Does the gap between people need to be so big?

Tao Mengzhu feels that she is a cold-hearted king with serious communication barriers. Whether it is a noisy crowd or a small gathering of three or five people, she is only suitable for huddling in a corner and silently typing with a computer or mobile phone.

Anyway, whatever you say is embarrassing, it's better to shut up and leave the world with a free peace.

Forget it, she thought, I might not be good enough for any girl.

In the next second, I couldn't help feeling disgusted with myself—Made made the staff, can't you change it if you don't deserve it!

"Take a taxi and go back. It's so hot, I feel like it's melting." Zhen Shuang said, and walked to the side of the road to hail a car.

Tao Mengzhu took a deep breath, followed behind Zhen Shuang, and returned home.

After a few days of peaceful life, Tao Mengzhu is still habitually going to bed late and waking up late, and his lunch and dinner are still takeaways that the two of them eat together.

However, in the past few days, the atmosphere between the two is obviously much cooler than before.

Seeing that the Hungry Ghost Festival is just around the corner, and the front page of Weibo is filled with Zhen Shuang's birthday wishes and thanks, Tao Mengzhu's mood cannot be expressed in words.

These days, she has been thinking about what kind of birthday gift she should give with the current relationship between herself and Zhen Shuang, so as not to look too embarrassed.

After thinking about it, I realized that what I sent now, in Zhen Shuang's eyes, probably had some intentions, right?

She thought about it for a long time, and finally spent four days editing, deleting, modifying and writing an [-]-word short story, pretending to be a birthday greeting.

Zhen Shuang's response was as exciting as ever, and in the eyes of others, she still looked like the enthusiastic book fan who really loved her so much that she was a bit brain-dead.

But helplessly, Tao Mengzhu knew better than anyone else that from the moment she posted on Weibo, the roommate next door fell into a silence, as if the silence never existed, or was disappearing.

After lunch, Xiao Ritian wagged his tail and bit a broken doll.

This toy was bitten by it when the two owners were eating, and the corner of the table was covered with wet cotton. It was still holding a broken thing in its mouth, shaking its head up and down, left and right, limping and playing very well. happy.

Zhen Shuang strode forward to startle Xiao Ritian, then reached out and snatched the toy that had leaked out of cotton from his mouth, threw it into the trash can, and under its sad eyes, went back to the room to pick up another New to it.

Xiao Ritian can break a toy in a few days, so Zhen Shuang bought a lot of them in bulk on Taobao, and all of them were ugly. At that time, she was still holding the small box of toys and said to Tao Mengzhu: "Look Look! It's ugly and cheap, and I won't feel bad if Xiao Ritian bites me casually!"

Looking at it now, the roommates are no longer as smiling anytime and anywhere as they were back then.

Tao Mengzhu sat lazily in front of the computer in a daze, without the update task, although the whole person was relaxed, but his heart could not calm down.

Usually I am tired of typing and typing, and there is always a way to catch fish. It seems that doing something casually is more comfortable than facing the document. Now that I have no words and a lot of time, I don’t know what to do.

It was rare for her to put down the computer, lay down on the bed with her mobile phone in her arms, and fell asleep in a daze. When she woke up again, it was more than two hours later, after 07:30.

It was dark outside the window, and the neighbors were very quiet.

She washed her face, sat on the bed in a daze for a long time, finally squatted down in the cabinet under the bed and found four novels, which she promised to give to Zhen Shuang, and specially waited until today.

With these four books in her arms, she got up and walked to the next room, while Zhen Shuang was wearing earphones, browsing the webpage intently, completely unaware of the arrival of Tao Mengzhu outside the room.

Tao Mengzhu wanted to go forward and deliver the book to Zhen Shuang, and asked her how long she planned to cook instant noodles tonight, but unexpectedly, after a few steps closer, her footsteps suddenly stagnated unconsciously following her gaze.

She saw that there were many photos of rooms on the webpage that Zhen Shuang browsed, and under each chapter, there were corresponding monthly rent prices.

Sure enough, do you still have to go...

Tao Mengzhu stood two meters away from Zhen Shuang, with a complicated expression that was hard to describe.

In the next second, Zhen Shuang seemed to sense someone behind him, and quickly closed all the webpages, turned around and looked at Tao Mengzhu with a surprised face. The look on his face was trying to hide it, and Tao Mengzhu didn't know whether to cry or laugh.

Tao Mengzhu suddenly remembered the girl who left in a hurry when she learned that she was gay when she was in college, and rented a room off campus.

She still remembered that when the girl brought her boyfriend to the dormitory to help move things, her eyes were full of disgust and disgust.

They also like each other, so should they be divided into high and low?

The same love, can it really become so unreasonable and incomprehensible because of gender issues?

Since he already thought about leaving, why should he care about her mood?

Since you are already afraid of being together, why should you care about her eyes?

She would rather Zhen Shuang leave with a face of disgust like that college roommate back then, rather than secretly planning to disappear in her world forever one day while taking care of her emotions.

"Are you so afraid of me?" Tao Mengzhu put the book in his hand on the computer desk.

"No, it's not..." Zhen Shuang rubbed her fingers nervously, and said, "I, I just took a look."

"After reading it? If you find the right one, move away, right? You don't need to tell me." Tao Mengzhu suddenly couldn't control her emotions, even though she had already made enough preparations before that. Mentally prepare to face the alienation from Zhen Shuang.

However, it was only at this moment that she realized that those preparations were like a bunch of Buddhist feet that had not been reviewed before the college entrance examination, and it was useless.

She has long been used to losing, and she is also extremely calm.

But she, who has been calm for so many years, doesn't know how to calm down at this moment.

She couldn't do it, she couldn't face this situation calmly and nonchalantly, she felt that God had a grudge against her, always holding everything in front of her, and when she was most reluctant to let go its taken away.

"Zhen Shuang, stop pretending, let's all stop pretending." She couldn't help but turn red as she said.

"..."

"I like you and want to spend my whole life with you. I don't have many things, a house that I hope to keep you forever, and a future that I am willing to be at your disposal." She said, paused, and said: "In Before I met you, I never thought about how I should live in the future, I just wanted to get through every day, but these days I have thought a lot, in those imaginary, unrealistic futures, you are everywhere, Without exception... I hope that those things don't just exist in my own imagination, but can really come true one day in the future."

"Maybe you don't know that the first day you came to this house broke my self-righteous freedom and challenged all my bottom lines. I thought life would become worse and worse because of you, but the fact is that I have lived for 23 years, and I have been sensible for more than ten years. This year is the first year that I finally stop hating myself." Tao Mengzhu said, taking a deep breath. Doctor, but in fact, none of them have seen you..."

Her eyes were red: "I have always been a very bad person. I am lazy, slow to do things, have a communication barrier, and have a bad temper... I have thought for a long time whether I am really worthy of you. The answer is that all the people in the world Nothing is so absolute.”

The economy is the distance between people, but it is not an insurmountable gap.

"What a man can give you, except for children, I can give you. I have a house and don't need you to struggle. I have my own income, which will not affect your current quality of life. I will not leave early and return late." Tired from work all day' This reason makes you serve me, I will not disappear all day long, as long as you need it, I will definitely be there on call. I am willing to travel with you, I am willing to take you out and home, I am willing to listen It’s okay for you to yell at the computer loudly, and I would rather try to learn a lot of things with you that I have never done before, for example, we can try to cook some simple meals, and refuse to only eat takeaway for a lifetime..."

"It's not easy for two people to support each other until they grow old together, but I'm ready to work hard to fulfill the promise of growing old together. As long as you agree, I can go all out."

Zhen Shuang still maintained the original surprised expression, after hearing so many words, he was still in a state of bewilderment.

"I know, you all know... If you don't want to, you can refuse. You don't need to care about my feelings." Tao Mengzhu said with a wry smile, and said, "Anyway, I'm ready... From the beginning, I will Didn't have much expectations."

Instead of killing this relationship with a knife, it is better to have a clean end.

Finally said all the words in her heart, she looked at Zhen Shuang, feeling an indescribable joy in her heart, but also an unexplainable sadness.

When that layer of paper is punctured, is it possible to put it back as if nothing happened?

Zhen Shuang stopped talking several times, and finally pursed his mouth, widened his eyes, and replied in an extremely cute and serious tone: "But, but... I can't be gay. Now I'm the only one left!"

Tao Mengzhu never expected that he would get such an answer. While he was very surprised, he was also overjoyed that he was not directly rejected.

She tried her best to recollect what Zhen Shuang said just now, and suddenly she couldn't laugh or cry, and said, "Even if you are heterosexual, the child will not be born with your surname. Do you still want to carry on the family?"

Zhen Shuang couldn't help being stunned, and said with a dazed expression, "It seems...it makes sense."