The Legend of Nanshan Jun

In a blink of an eye, I was seven months pregnant, and I was going to give birth in two more months.

Since these days, my body has become more and more cumbersome, and I am usually very lethargic. The chances of meeting Li Zhenrui have also decreased a lot.Most of the time he comes and I fall asleep, and when I wake up he is gone.

But he always left me some small toys or various supplements and snacks, and sent someone to urge me to eat them.

For the sake of the baby's health, I also try my best to let myself eat more, and I also try to go out as much as possible every day to give birth better.

Because my stomach is too big, it is difficult to get up, lie down or turn over, and I am careful not to neglect it at all times.

It was not until today that I became a father that I truly understood that childbirth is not easy, and I am even more grateful to my mother and my biological father whom I have never met.

Half a year ago, Li Zhenrui and I went out of the palace to see my mother. At that time, her health was very bad, but now I don't know what she looks like, which is really worrying.

I haven't heard about my mother's recent situation for a long time since I was pregnant. I sent someone to ask my father many times, and they all said it's okay, let me take care of the baby and don't worry about it. I don't know if it is a reassurance.

But concubines in the harem are not allowed to leave the palace at will, and it is inconvenient for me to leave the palace to visit my mother at this moment, so it may not be too late to ask for an order to visit my mother after the child is born.

Although I am in the Nanshan Pavilion, I can always easily know what is going on in the palace.

Hearing that Beichen Jun An Chenxu's health is getting worse and worse, and these few days are actually on his deathbed, he can't help lamenting the impermanence of the world.

Looking up at the stars tonight, it may be the last night of Mr. Beichen.

And when it was late at night, I suddenly received Wen Ya's secret handwriting, and I couldn't help being shocked. It seems that Shangguan Wenya has entourage by his side these days, but I don't know why he gave me the handwriting.

Opening his handwriting, he asked me to dress up at night and go out to Beichen Pavilion unobtrusively. He also told me that if I miss today, I will never have an answer.

"My lord, you have a big belly now, why go out so late, what if something happens?" Dieyi worried, "Furthermore, Lord Xiling's invitation to you is definitely not kind, how can you know that there are tigers in the mountains?" Still leaning toward Tiger Mountain!"

I patted her on the shoulder, and said with relief, "It's okay, Mr. Beichen may die tonight. I will go to see him, and I will do my last favor. If you don't come back within two hours, I will send someone to inform the emperor." Not too late."

Dieyi opened her eyes wide in surprise, "Mr. Beichen is really dead?"

I nodded.

Dieyi couldn't help sighing behind me, "Your Majesty's speculation two months ago seems to be coming true, hey!"

How small life is in the vast sky, man can never resist the power of nature.And I have studied the stars for many years, but I still can't understand my own destiny... How do I know when I will return?

Thinking of this, I can't help but feel a trace of sadness in my heart.

Walking on a secluded path, I saw a small sedan chair waiting for me from a distance, and the little eunuch standing beside me saw me and immediately came up to meet me, "Your Majesty, please get on the sedan chair. Tired, we will drive the sedan chair carefully, and please sit still."

I nodded and got on the sedan chair as promised.

Dieyi glanced at me anxiously, not understanding why I was so relieved.

And I'm sure Shangguan Wenya doesn't want my life, so I don't need to worry about my safety.

The sedan chair was carried smoothly, and it arrived at Beichen Pavilion in a short while.But instead of going in through the main entrance, I entered through a hidden side door on one side, and then a maid led me and Dieyi to the inner room.

As soon as he raised his eyes, he saw Shangguan Wenya standing there with tears in his eyes, talking with Mr. Beichen.

I didn't want to disturb them, so I stood far away and waited.

Mr. Beichen was indeed seriously ill, his eyes were blurred and loose, although it didn't hinder his speech, but he was indeed on the verge of death.

After a while, An Chenxu invited me to his side, and looked me up and down with difficulty, his sigh was palpable.

"It's a pity." He sighed lowly.

"Why is it a pity?" I asked.

He didn't answer my question, but just stared at my swollen abdomen for a while, and said slowly, "You will give birth soon, and you have to prepare early for the hardships."

He is someone who has experienced it, and I believe he speaks from the bottom of his heart.But no matter how difficult it is to give birth to a child, I will do my best.

I nodded, "Thank you, Mr. Beichen, for your suggestion."

Seeing his haggard appearance at the moment, it is really hard to imagine Mr. Beichen who was so handsome back then. I hesitated for a long time and couldn't help but ask, "Although the palace is boring, there is never a shortage of fine clothes, jade and food. Why did you come to this field?" ?”

An Chenxu smiled, but there was not much nostalgia and unwillingness in his eyes, but a sense of relief, "If you are separated from the one you love forever, then this monotonous and boring life will only last for a while."

"It doesn't make much difference for me to have one more day or one less day."

I couldn't help but sigh when I saw his free and easy heart, he is another infatuated person, it's a pity that the late emperor left earlier.

An Chenxu turned his head to look at Shangguan Wenya, and said to me, "It's not my intention that Ya'er let you come here today, but I don't know whether it's luck or misfortune for you. But no matter luck or misfortune, I'm afraid it will be misfortune in the end .”

What he said was like a tongue twister, which made me unable to understand. I couldn't help asking, "What do you mean by this, can you tell me a little bit?"

"Hey..." He sighed lowly, "Since you are here, I will let you know the reason. It's just..."

He paused, and said with guilt in his eyes, "I hope you...forgive me."

His words made me faintly uneasy, but I didn't make a sound anymore, and walked into a secret room together with Shangguan Wenya.

I stayed in the secret room with Shangguan Wenya for a long time, and when I was deciding whether to go back, I unexpectedly heard Li Zhenrui's voice.

Li Zhenrui's appearance was unexpected but reasonable. I suddenly realized that I knew something, but I didn't know what they would talk about.

I looked at Shangguan Wenya, and his eyes were also curious like mine.

It seemed that he didn't know what was going to happen next.

So what does An Chenxu know that none of us know?

"The emperor is here." An Chenxu stood up with difficulty, and greeted him slightly, "I'm afraid I won't be able to survive tonight, so I invite the emperor to see you for the last time."

"If you have anything to say, just say it." Li Zhenrui always had a cold expression on An Chenxu.

An Chenxu looked at Li Zhenrui with dull eyes, and said slowly, "My minister has already converted to Buddhism, and I don't have much nostalgia at the end of my life. The only thing I still miss is Ling'er... I don't know if the emperor has arranged for Linger. Where did you go?"

Li Zhenrui stood with his hands behind his back, looking down at An Chenxu who was lying on the couch without any trace of blood, and slowed down his tone, "Don't worry, as long as Ling'er keeps his own place in the future, I will protect his glory forever."

With Li Zhenrui's promise, An Chenxu finally felt relieved, "It's very good, very good."

There was a slight smile on the corner of his lips, as if he was recalling the past, "After the Xuanyang change, I have always hated you very much, and I know that you also hated me because of Bai Yunxi's death, but I didn't expect that you My life is still preserved... Now that I am about to follow the late emperor, I can finally look away."

"You didn't call me here to reminisce about the past, did you?" Li Zhenrui asked directly, as if he had seen through An Chenxu's purpose for coming here.

An Chenxu coughed a few times with some difficulty, took a breath, and then said slowly, "I do have something else I want to ask the emperor."

Li Zhenrui only replied with one word, "Say."

Only then did An Chenxu ask, "The emperor hasn't been to Xiling Pavilion for a long time, right? I wonder if the promise to Bai Yunxi back then can still be fulfilled?"

This question from An Chenxu is also what I want to know, and it is also what worries me.

The room suddenly fell into silence, and no one responded for a long time, as if this was an extremely difficult question to answer.

An Chenxu chuckled slightly, "The world is changing, it would be a good thing if the emperor changes his mind..."

Unexpectedly, Li Zhenrui replied calmly, "I will not change my mind."

Then he emphasized, "I will remember Baihu's oath for the rest of my life. I will keep my promise to Yunxi."

My heart felt desolate because of his solemn response.

It would be fine if I didn't know about this promise, but I do know...

If you only have Bai Yunxi in your heart, what about me?I couldn't help asking in my heart.

"What about Nanshan Lord Xie Lingxi?" Unexpectedly, An Chenxu asked me what was on my mind, and I was eager to know his answer.

"He is my male concubine." I heard Li Zhenrui's clear and calm answer, which made my heart feel even more chilled.

Is it just a concubine?I shook my head with a wry smile, feeling unspeakably disappointed.

"The humble minister is still lying on the sick bed and knows the emperor's love for Mr. Nanshan. Does the emperor really think that he is just an ordinary concubine?" An Chenxu asked.

Li Zhenrui seemed to be thinking, and said slowly, "Of course I like Xi'er, but compared to Yun Xi..."

"Xie Lingxi is charming, emotionally intelligent, and can conceive and give birth to a child. How can he compare to Bai Yunxi?" An Chenxu asked.

Li Zhenrui shook his head, "Xie Lingxi and Bai Yunxi cannot be compared."

Of course I like it...it can't be compared...my heart is pierced by these words again.

In Li Zhenrui's eyes, I was nothing more than that. I thought that I was connected with him and cherished each other, but now it seems that it is just my wishful thinking.

Just like what An Chenxu said... Bai Yunxi, how can I not compare to you?

"The emperor really only has Bai Yunxi in his eyes?" An Chenxu continued to ask.

Li Zhenrui didn't answer anymore, but asked instead, "Does I have her in my heart, and what does it have to do with you?"

An Chenxu paused, with a look of regret on his face, "...they don't have much to do with this official, who is about to die. But seeing Da Xia going to be mixed with the blood of the white fox in the future, it's really... ..."

Li Zhenrui didn't take it seriously, "Whether you have the blood of the white fox or not, they are all my heirs. As long as it can make Da Xia prosperous, why not?"

An Chenxu was puzzled, "Since that's the case, has your majesty considered having an heir with Mr. Nanshan?"

Li Zhenrui didn't speak any more, and just cast his gaze elsewhere.

"The emperor's silence shows that he still has doubts in his heart." An Chenxu analyzed slowly, "With Xie Lingxi's aloof personality, he will inevitably plan for his children in the future. Does the emperor really have no worries at all?"

Only then did Li Zhenrui turn around, his eyes lost the warmth, and his cold eyes shot into An Chenxu's, "I only want Yong'er, and I won't change it. If Rong'er is attached to me, I'll be safe, and if I don't, I'll kill him. No exceptions."

I couldn't help taking a step back, not only felt pain in my heart, but also shocked.

I didn't expect that before Rong'er was born, Li Zhenrui had already decided his life and death.

Bai Yunxi's child will inherit the throne, but mine will become a prisoner... Li Zhenrui, how can you bear it?

I could hardly bear to go out and question him, and I could only hold back when I thought that I was in the secret room at the moment.

An Chenxu was not shocked by Li Zhenrui's words, but was a little envious and worried, "Rong'er...is so lucky to have a name so soon...It's a pity for Ya'er, the emperor really wants to send him out. Are you going to the palace?"

"What's wrong with going out of the palace, Ya'er can change her name and surname, and find a good relationship again." Li Zhenrui said lightly.

Only then did I know An Chenxu's real purpose for inviting Li Zhenrui this time - it turned out to be for Shangguan Wenya.

Sure enough, An Chenxu said sincerely, "My humble servant dares to ask the emperor to withdraw his order. It is a well-known fact that Shangguan Wenya entered the palace, and the Shangguan family also placed high hopes on Ya'er. Ya'er is not allowed to leave the palace."

After a pause, he continued, "Besides, does the emperor really have the heart to let Ya'er leave? The emperor really doesn't like Ya'er at all?"

Speaking of this, my heart, which is clearly scarred, is still eagerly looking forward to getting a negative answer from Li Zhenrui.

Tell An Chenxu that he has no feelings for Shangguan Wenya.

However, Li Zhenrui remained silent.

With Li Zhenrui's personality, if he had no intentions about Shangguan Wenya, he would definitely say it directly and would never remain silent.

He remained silent, which showed that he was really tempted by Shangguan Wenya.

Pain, spreading, boundless.

An Chenxu's weak voice was still fighting for a glimmer of hope for Shangguan Wenya, "Since the emperor loves Bai Yunxi so much and regards Xie Lingxi as an ordinary concubine, why not have one more Shangguan Wenya? There are 3000 beauties in the East and West Zodiac Palaces. It is what the emperor of Great Xia should have...What do you think, Your Majesty?"

Li Zhenrui finally frowned, and said in a bad tone, "When will it be your turn to criticize my harem?"

An Chenxu couldn't help coughing a few more times, and lay down on the bed again, already at the end of his strength.

He seemed to have exhausted all his strength before slowly replying, "What the emperor said is that I have never had the right to say anything. I just want to remind you... Since the emperor has promised for a lifetime, it is best not to break it."

Li Zhenrui glanced at him and fell into deep thought.

After An Chenxu finished speaking, he slowly closed his eyes, and muttered to himself, "It's great to be like the late emperor..."

Finally, after he sighed "Xiandi, I'm here" for the last time, he didn't breathe any more.

After An Chenxu died, crying finally came from Beichen Pavilion.

Soon the cry spread throughout the harem.

Li Zhenrui glanced at An Chenxu's body indifferently, and said only three words, "Report the funeral."

Soon, all the concubines from the harem came to Beichen Pavilion, looking at An Chenxu's body with grief.

Such is the life of a concubine.

No matter how favored he was, he ended up with such a bleak end.

But An Chenxu was lucky in his life. In his early years, he was favored by the first emperor and gave birth to a son. After the new emperor ascended the throne, he also enjoyed peace in the harem until he passed away due to illness.

Although his life was short, he got what he deserved.

And I... can't help but feel sad.

This sadness, coupled with the loneliness of death, is even more desperate.

Everyone seemed to be immersed in Lord Beichen's departure and did not return to their senses. Someone suddenly asked, "Hey, why don't you see Lord Xiling and Lord Nanshan?"

"That's right, it's understandable that Lord Nanshan didn't come, but isn't Lord Xiling the cousin of Lord Beichen? Why didn't he come?"

Shangguan Wenya and I looked at each other, we were immersed in our own minds and didn't pay attention to each other, only then did we discover the trouble.

But how to face Li Zhenrui when going out now?

My heart is in a mess, but Li Zhenrui's few words are like punishment to me, it's really hard to accept.

Shangguan Wenya took a few quick steps in the secret room, as if worrying about how to deal with the current situation.

"That's all you want me to know, right?" My tone gradually calmed down, without the color of grief just now.

He nodded, his chest rose and fell as if he wanted to say something, and finally he sighed.

I know what he wants to say.

But it's so sad, my self-righteousness and Shangguan's gentle efforts to keep her are not as good as a promise to Bai Yunxi.

Li Zhenrui, do you really have no love for me?

I don't believe it, I really don't want to believe it.

Even today, I am still chatting and laughing with him, and he is still whispering all kinds of love words in my ears. Is it true that they are all lying to me?

Could it be that he has reasons?

Could it be just a misunderstanding?

With this inexplicable obsession, I said gently to Shangguan, "I have something to ask him face to face."

I slowly walked out of the secret room under Shangguan's gentle and surprised eyes.

I want to know if this is his true words, only when I hear him tell me, can I really give up...

Really give up on Li Zhenrui.

Just like a drowning person, although he cannot breathe in pain every second, he still desperately seeks the hope of life. No matter how uncomfortable it is, he will try his best to splash in the water until the last bit of strength is exhausted.

me too.

At the last moment, I still long for the hope of life.

Tell me that what was just now is not true, and I still have hope of living.