throbbing for you

Fu Sitian didn't sleep much recently, but he often dreamed.She occasionally has the illusion of being unable to distinguish reality from dreams.In reality and dreams, the sky is overcast, and everything is lifeless and lifeless.

She subconsciously pinched herself, it was pain, not a dream.

Unable to control the emotion, waves in the quiet lake of heart arose suddenly, circles of ripples spread out, Fu Sitian panicked and wanted to calm down.She stared at the indifferent statement that Shi Yi sent to her above, and she had read it over and over again, hurt herself again, recognized the reality again, and even felt ashamed and desperate because she had no self-awareness to give birth to expectations again .

She didn't know whether she should go back to Shi Yi or not.

While hesitating, Shi Yi's next sentence came: "If you haven't slept, let's talk. I have something to tell you." Almost in the next second, she said directly: "I'm sorry."

Fu Sitian stared blankly at the screen, his head was blunt, as if he suddenly couldn't understand the three short words on the screen.

Why did Shi Yi apologize?What is she sorry for herself?It's not wrong not to like it, and it's even more wrong to reject it.

Fu Sitian bit his lip, his heart fluttering in the wind.She trembled with her fingertips, wanting to tap the screen and ask Shi Yi, "Why are you apologizing?"

But she dared not ask.

Shi Yi already had normal feelings, no matter what, he would not have the answer he wanted.Maybe it was because she was too kind and looked at herself too pitifully, or maybe she let go and wanted to cut off the last ties with herself...

No matter which one is possible, it will not make myself feel better than now.

The water mist suddenly blurred his vision, and the pain flooded uncontrollably.She knew that she should reply "it's okay" sensibly to put Shi Yi at ease, but she couldn't bear to say it.

Could it be that after saying "It's okay", she really has nothing to do with Shi Yi anymore.From then on, Shi Yi let go completely, she was just like all the others she rejected, ordinary, unremarkable, leaving no trace, submerged in the long river of her years.

Fu Sitian grabbed his heart, tears soaked the pillow unconsciously.With tears in her eyes, she stared at the screen without blinking, and she convinced herself.

As long as Shi Yi said one more sentence, one more explanation.She told her "it doesn't matter", and since then, nothing happened, and she quit her life cleanly.

But she didn't know that in the dark night, Shi Yi was also waiting for her, waiting for her to reply to her, even without replying to her, as long as the status of "typing" was displayed, tell her that she was still willing to talk to her, her existence was her Apologies are not superfluous, she can continue to muster up the courage to tell her all her heart with a shy face.

But time passed by, the screen went dark, and the screen never lit up again.It was dawn, and it was time for Fu Sitian to get up, but the screen was still dark.

The little self-deceiving hope in Shi Yi's heart was also extinguished.The sound of Fang Ruohua's walking could be heard outside the door, Shi Yi rested her head on her bent knees wearily, closed her eyes for a moment, got up and got out of bed, and went to the bathroom to wash up.

The whole face was soaked in the icy cold water, until it was numb from the cold.Shi Yi felt better.

After washing up, she went out to have breakfast with Fang Ruohua as if nothing had happened.

That night, after one o'clock in the morning, Shi Yi didn't find Fu Sitian's activity on Weibo, so he accidentally swiped through WeChat, but found in Moments that Fu Sitian had shared the synchronous check-in of the word reciting software more than ten minutes ago.

Shi Yi's eyes darkened, his fingertips hovered over the like button for a long time, and finally he closed his eyes and locked the screen.

There was no flag-raising ceremony on the Monday of the fortnight, but Shi Yi made an exception and arrived in the classroom early, occupying the seat in the last row in the middle.

Fu Sitian came with Jian Luhe and Yin Fanlu.Jian Luhe went straight to Shi Yi as usual, but Fu Sitian abnormally didn't choose the vacant seats in the second and third rows, and went to the front row.Shi Yi didn't find a chance to meet her eyes at all, only saw her palm-sized face flash past in front of him, followed by her silent back.

Shi Yi's fingertips turning white while holding the pen.

Jian Luhe wiped the table and asked, "Why do you like sitting in the back row so much recently?"

Shi Yi took a breath slowly, and said in a low voice, "It's suitable for distraction."

"Ah?" Jian Luhe laughed, "This class is a substitute class. Are your grade points enough? This is not like you at all."

Shi Yi looked over a head and stared at Fu Sitian's back, absent-mindedly.She turned her head to think about what to say to Jian Luhe, after thinking about it, she opened the notebook and wrote down quietly on the paper.

"Have you noticed how Si Tian's mood is recently?" She pushed the notebook to Jian Luhe.

Jian Luhe shook his head, and wrote: "I didn't pay special attention, but I can feel that she is not very happy."

"Did you hear her cry?"

"No."

There was a cloud of cloud between Shi Yi's cold eyebrows, Jian Luhe was worried: "What's wrong?"

"She must have suffered from insomnia for a long time. If you have a chance," she paused her pen and continued to write: "Talk about this to Chen Xizhu." The three words "Chen Xizhu" seemed to use great force, with deep handwriting and pen and ink thick black.

Jian Lu and Qi said: "How do you know?"

Shi Yi's thin lips were pursed into a straight line, his long eyelashes drooped, and he didn't speak.

Jian Luhe pulled back the notebook and asked again: "You care about her so much, why don't you go by yourself."

Shi Yi glanced sideways at Jian Luhe, his eyes were indifferent, almost writing the disgust of "you talk a lot" on his face.

Ordinary people might be scared away by her cold face, but Jian Luhe understands her character and knows that she is not really angry, so she is not afraid at all, humming and laughing from her nasal cavity, and continues to ask: " Do you want to reconcile without shame?"

Shi Yi was silent, his eyes once again fell on Fu Sitian's beautiful back, neither admitting nor denying it.

Not quite.

Jian Lu and the corners of his lips were about to overflow with a smile, he held back abruptly, and said empathetically, "Let me help you."

Shi Yi's heart skipped a beat, and he looked at Jian Luhe suspiciously.

Jian Lu raised his eyebrows nervously.

Shi Yi's red lips moved.Reason told her that she should refuse. If Fu Sitian no longer needed it, she should let it be.But after a long while, she frowned slightly, but pulled out a very shallow smile, as if she was compromising, but also as if she was helpless, she was about to say, "Don't mess around."

Jian Luhe was startled, feeling a strange feeling in his heart.

Shi Yi has always been emotionally restrained, and it was the first time she saw Shi Yi with such an expression.It's as if the goddess has been infected with the breath of the world and has fallen into the mortal world.

Unconsciously, she sighed in her heart: "Si Tian is too powerful."

She promised Shi Yi: "Don't worry, what can I do wrong? Am I that kind of person?"

Shi Yi smiled lightly, finally looking a little happy.

Jian Luhe said he wanted to help her, so he took action really quickly.

In statistics class on Tuesday morning, the teacher assigned the first group assignment of this semester.With seven to eight people as a team unit, analyze and count the data of several companies, make a report and submit it in the form of ppt.Jian Luhe quickly recruited a homework group and recruited four people from the dormitory of Fu Sitian, Yin Fanlu, Shi Yi and Lei Yilin.

Everyone is familiar with Jian Luhe's direct division of labor, assigning Fu Sitian and Shi Yi together to be responsible for the data sorting of one of the modules.

At the moment, no one had any objections. Fu Sitian didn't answer, but he didn't refuse either.Shi Yi quietly breathed a sigh of relief.

In the evening, after taking a shower, she was drying her hair while staring at Fu Sitian's profile picture on the chat list. She wanted to discuss homework with Fu Sitian, but she felt a little too close to home.

Lei Yilin's head suddenly flickered.

For no reason, Shi Yi's heart sank, with an ominous premonition.

Click to open it, and sure enough, Lei Yilin said: "10ee, just now Si Tian told me that he wanted to do the analysis of my module. Can I change it? I don't care, so I agreed to her. I took a little look at our module. This set of data is quite simple, we analyze and write the report by ourselves, and make the ppt by ourselves, do you think it will work?"

Shi Yi's throat was sore, and he slowly typed the word "good" and turned back.

She turned off the power, the hand holding the hair dryer fell down feebly, and sat quietly by the bed.The room was full of silence, as if it made the sound of her broken heart all the more obvious and ridiculous.

After a long time, she turned her head, looked at the rabbit beside the pillow on the bed, and sighed dejectedly.

forget it.She rubbed her forehead, and convinced herself once again that Fu Sitian didn't need her anymore, so she shouldn't be forced, let nature take its course.

But every night, she would still involuntarily turn on Fu Sitian's trumpet, pay attention to Fu Sitian's dynamics, and accompany her insomnia.

Friday, November 11nd is Shi Yi's new birthday.

Because he didn't dare to invite Fu Sitian, he didn't want to be rejected by Fu Sitian again, and he was worried that if he didn't invite Fu Sitian, Fu Sitian would misunderstand him if he found out.Shi Yi dispelled the idea of ​​all her friends wanting to help her celebrate her birthday, and lived quietly by herself.

It was eleven fifty-five in the middle of the night, and the night was as cold as water.In the audio-visual room, Shi Yi bent one leg and sat on the carpet in front of the sofa.The stars were like the sea, but they didn't bring any light to her eyes.She looked up at the starry sky, Duanxiu's face was deeper than the night.

There was vague restlessness and anticipation in her heart.

Her self-esteem did not allow her to think about it.But she couldn't help it.

One star for one second, and finally, she counted three hundred stars, and the midnight arrived, and the long anxiety was over.The phone screen lit up, the vibration sounded endlessly, and news of blessings came one after another.

Shi Yi quickly browsed through the names in text messages, WeChat, QQ, and group blessings, and suddenly, it was boring.

Sure enough, there will be no more.

She closed the starry sky instrument, sat in the dark for a long time in a daze, smiled wryly, and was about to get up and go back to the room.

Suddenly, she remembered something and gave birth to a last bit of hope.She unconsciously clenched the carpet tightly with one hand, and with the other hand, hesitantly clicked on Fu Sitian's trumpet.

Breathing slowly, slide right from the homepage to all Weibo pages.

All Weibo, 206 entries.

In an instant, Shi Yi's gloomy eyes were lit up, and his heart was pounding.

The author has something to say: The little rabbit survived a chapter!

Chen Xizhu laughed wildly with his hips akimbo: Shi Yi, you have today too!

In the next second, she glanced at the little rabbit in Shi Yi's arms from a distance—it was about to turn red. Chen Xizhu froze with a smile: "Tugji, please cheer up your mother!" ! !

The little rabbit gripped Shi Yi's collared clothes, whining, speechless.

Shi Yi made a foul, woo woo woo~