throbbing for you

Two days later, Saturday, November 11th, is Shi Yi's birthday in the lunar calendar.In previous years, Fang Ruohua specially spared time on this day to cook in person, and Shi Yuanmian would also come back specially. It was rare for the family of three to have a neat meal at home and spend a warm time together.

Last year was the first year of divorce, and Shi Yi's birthday happened to coincide with the same day in the lunar and solar calendars, so Fang Ruohua decided to let her concentrate on celebrating with her classmates and friends at any time.This year, Xiangye meant to let Shi Yi come to the house, and he would cook for Shi Yi himself to help Shi Yi celebrate.Fang Ruohua still couldn't find the reason why Shi Yi lost control of his emotions last time, so she was worried, and didn't want Shi Yi to contact Xiangye again.

She didn't know whether Shi Yi had been trying to be brave all this time, and whether her remarriage had brought more harm to Shi Yi.

She asked Shi Yi to go to the resort in Linshi that day, just the two of them, mother and daughter, to relax and relax.

Shi Yi originally thought that there would be no need for such trouble, but he changed his mind after answering a phone call from Xiang Ye, and agreed.

They arrived in the morning, and spent most of the day wandering around the scenic spots in the tropical resort surrounded by blue sea. Tired in the evening, the two went to the reserved restaurant for dinner and birthday celebrations. As night fell, the two walked back to Rest at the villa.

The villa is located on the hillside, looking up, the forest is verdant, the light and shadow are charming, and you feel relaxed and happy.There was a hot spring in front of the court, Fang Ruohua suggested that Shi Yi soak in the water for a while.

Shi Yi followed good example, but Fang Ruohua didn't go into the water, but gathered her skirt, and sat gracefully on the platform of the hot spring pool that Shi Yi leaned against to accompany her.

"It's not convenient these two days." She explained naturally.

Shi Yi didn't force it either.One of them was in the water and the other was outside the pool, chatting with each other.

Just after chatting for a few words, Fang Ruohua's cell phone rang.Fang Ruohua glanced at it, said, "It's your uncle", stood up and walked away to pick it up.

After a while, Fang Ruohua came back.

Shi Yi was surprised: "So fast."

Fang Ruohua explained: "It's nothing, just ask if we have eaten and what to eat."

Shi Yi let out a faint laughing voice: "Uncle should come together."

Fang Ruohua looked carefully at Shi Yi's expression. Shi Yi's expression was normal, and he even had a slight smile, which didn't look like he was pretending.

"You can't take it with you." Fang Ruohua smiled and said, "It's inconvenient for us to come with a big man."

Seeing her smile, Shi Yi felt a little sore in his heart, but more so soft.Fang Ruohua's smile when he mentioned Xiang Ye was very different from other times.

This kind of happiness was never given to her by Shi Yuanmian, and it was also something he could not bring her.

She suddenly turned sideways and put her hands on Fang Ruohua's flat belly.

Fang Ruohua was caught off guard, her whole body froze.

Shi Yi stared at her with a calm expression and said gently: "Mom, if your body allows, stay here."

Fang Ruohua's lips trembled, rarely flustered: "Yiyi, you..."

"I already know." Shi Yi lowered his eyes, "Uncle called me two days ago."

"Who told him to say that!" Fang Ruohua frowned, furious.

Shi Yi got up to get out of the water, put on a bath towel, and said calmly, "I should know."

Recalling the landslide and tsunami feeling when she received the phone call and knew that Fang Ruohua had a new life in her belly, and that she was no longer Fang Ruohua's only one, Shi Yi still felt a little uncomfortable.It was the sense of panic that my mother was about to be completely taken away.

But what was even more uncomfortable was that Xiang Ye told her that after going through various inspections and thinking twice, they were planning to have this child, but after Fang Ruohua visited her that time, she decided not to.

He apologized to her, and frankly said that he had selfish intentions, he was reluctant, and felt that Shi Yi had the right to know about it, so he wanted to chat with her and hear her thoughts.

At that moment, Shi Yi's heart was full of mixed emotions, his brain was as chaotic as a hurricane passing through, and he was completely unable to think.She didn't answer, just hung up on Xiangye's phone.

Xiangye called two more times, but she didn't answer. After taking a deep breath, she sent a message back to Xiangye: "Please let me calm down."

That night, she blew the wind on the balcony for a long time, stepped into the audio-visual room, and turned on the star instrument that she hadn't touched for a long time.

Under the vast stars, she thought a lot, for a long time.Just like when I went to the counseling room these two times, I kept silent, had a conversation with myself in my mind, and sorted out my thoughts objectively and rationally as much as possible.

After five o'clock in the morning, she replied to Xiang Ye: "I will talk to her on Saturday."

"Because I don't know anything, I don't want to be the executioner who kills your happiness. I don't want to experience it a second time." Shi Yi sat beside Fang Ruohua, his tone low.

Fang Ruohua couldn't hear her saying this to herself, "That's not the case, this is my own decision, and it has nothing to do with you."

"But I can't help but think so." Shi Yi looked into her eyes, "If it really has nothing to do with me, Mom, tell me, if you don't consider my thoughts, do you want to keep him?"

Fang Ruohua's throat choked, and she turned her eyes to deny it, but Shi Yi saw through her hesitation, and said in a low voice, "Mom, do you want to listen to my thoughts?"

Fang Ruohua hesitated.

Shi Yi said directly: "I was really unhappy a while ago, which made you worry." She looked at the white air rising from the hot spring, and said calmly, "But it has nothing to do with you or uncle, it's my own problem."

"Since I told you that I agree with your remarriage and bless you and your uncle, I have no grievances about your marriage or your life."

"Of course I will be disappointed if more people take away your attention. But seeing you have a good life, I have more happiness than loss."

She is not a person who is good at expressing love, this is the first time she confessed herself to Fang Ruohua like this, she thought she would be embarrassed.But after she spoke, she found that everything was much easier than she imagined.She turned her head and looked at Fang Ruohua, "I don't need you to sacrifice anything for me, I just want you to live happily."

Fang Ruohua was moved, her voice was astringent, "Shi Yi, I don't need you to force yourself for me."

"I didn't force myself." Shi Yi took her hand and put her hand on her lower abdomen, "If you want him, I will look forward to his arrival just like you, looking forward to this There is one more person in the world who is connected with my blood and loves you as much as I do."

Fang Ruohua's eyes were red, she raised her head and took a deep breath to relieve her emotions, and asked Shi Yi: "Then, have you solved the problem that has made you unhappy for a long time?" She was still worried.

"No." After a pause, Shi Yi added: "But I seem to have got the answer I want."

Just like she didn't need Fang Ruohua to sacrifice for her, Fang Ruohua also said that she didn't need her to force her.

Maybe a lot of things are not easy to accept at first.It's like accepting the broken family, accepting Fang Ruohua's remarriage and re-pregnancy.But they have all experienced it, and it is even more impossible for one party to make a choice for the other party to make both parties feel better.

She looked at Fang Ruohua's gentle face, and asked seriously: "Everyone, choosing to be responsible for themselves, is it also a kind of responsibility for those who love you?"

Fang Ruohua nodded subconsciously.

Shi Yi smiled lightly, "I think so too."

The clear light cleared away the haze in his eyes, and the night wind blew past his face. Shi Yi felt the sensation of fluttering hair and breathing through pores for the first time in a long time.It seemed that the body that had been numb for a long time finally woke up.

She stretched her eyebrows, and said firmly: "Then I hope you will make a decision that is responsible for yourself, so that you can really live a good and happy life. This is what I hope most, the way you are responsible for me."

She unraveled Fang Ruohua and also unraveled herself.She convinced herself it was no excuse.After all, Fang Ruohua's love for her must be the same as hers.

Fang Ruohua's eyes glowed with relief, "Shi Yi, you have really grown up."

Shi Yi turned sideways, hugged her weakly, lowered his head, leaned his chin on her shoulder, and promised softly: "So, don't worry about me, I will also be responsible for myself."

"No matter what happens in the future, you are my mother and I am your daughter. I love you very much and it will never change."

Rare intimacy, rare confession, rare little daughter's attitude.Fang Ruohua's heart softened again and again.

The two chatted in this posture for a long time, until the night became colder and Shi Yi became a little colder, the two ended their conversation and returned to the villa.

Shi Yi went into the bathroom to take a shower.Most of the shackles were removed, and the hot water washed over the whole body, warming it, and the heaviness of the whole body seemed to flow away with the water.

Her thoughts gradually drifted away, entwined on Fu Sitian who was thousands of miles away.

Take responsibility for yourself, accept who you are, and then what?

Can she be with Si Tian?

Si Tian...can you forgive her?She thought of Fu Sitian's avoidance and resistance to her, and her heart was heavy again.

She came out of the bathroom after taking a shower, sat on the edge of the bed and dried her hair, absent-minded.The phone screen in his hand stayed on the QQ homepage for a long time, and Fu Sitian's conversation bar was pulled to the top again.

His hair was almost burnt, Shi Yi finally opened it.

Then, looking at the last record that Fu Sitian didn't reply, she lost her courage again.

Every word pierced her eyes like a needle, reminding how cruelly she had hurt Fu Sitian.

How could she have the face to look back.

Chen Xizhu's words rang sharply in his ears, "Shi Yi, you think too much of yourself, don't you?"

The screen of the phone went dark, and so did Shi Yi's eyes.She turned off the hair dryer, turned off the ceiling lamp, closed her eyes, tossing and turning in the dark.

She had a realization: she had never been an evasive person, but she had always been a coward when it came to Fu Sitian.

At one o'clock in the morning, she still couldn't fall asleep.Opening his eyes, he habitually opened Fu Sitian's trumpet homepage.

Minute by minute, she refreshed Fu Sitian's homepage.She set a time for herself, three o'clock - the latest time she had seen Fu Sitian appear.She hoped that it would not appear, and hoped that Fu Sitian would have a good night's sleep tonight.

However, at 02:30am, she didn't wait for that"

She just liked this Weibo entry, but she was keenly aware that the number of Weibo entries had increased by one.

Fu Sitian posted a Weibo that only he could see.

Shi Yi frowned, and sat up with his arms propped up.She stared at the row of numbers on the top, her thin lips pressed together, her heart was filled with distress.

how many days.Not a coincidence at all.Fu Sitian never had a good night's sleep.

It can't go on like this.

She rubbed her forehead, closed her eyes, took a deep breath, let go of all her reserve and concerns, and opened Fu Sitian's dialogue box again.

Are you sorry?where to start.care?Not even knowing where to start.

To be reconciled, there must be a beginning.

"Si Tian, ​​are you asleep?" She struggled to ask.

The moment the screen lit up and Shi Yi's name popped up, Fu Sitian was stunned.

She stared blankly at the screen, suspecting that she was dreaming.

The author has something to say: The cuties are crazily calling: chasing wife crematorium!Is the chasing wife crematorium coming?

Shi Yi smiled coldly.

Pick up the little rabbit and start rua.

The little rabbit resisted stubbornly.

soon……

Little Rabbit: Wait, I can...

Before "Yi" could be uttered, the little rabbit started whining, humming and chirping, so red that he was speechless.

Guess, how long can the little rabbit be uncooked?