throbbing for you

Shi Yi could hear Fu Sitian walking away, and he could hear something in his heart being forcibly gouged out.But she could only endure it abruptly.

It's all temporary, and it will get better over time.She stiffened her back and squeezed out a difficult voice from her throat, "You didn't apologize to me, so you don't need to say sorry."

In the darkness, Fu Sitian was as quiet as if he had died.

Shi Yi's chest was so stuffy that he couldn't breathe, and the locked lock left deep red marks on his palm.There is nothing more to say, so be it.She rationally opened the door and ordered herself to walk out of the door and walk towards the track she should go.

The aisles are filled with bright lights and lively chatter and laughter.

Familiar and unfamiliar.

Shi Yi turned around and was about to walk towards the elevator, when someone called her, "Shi Yi, let's have a chat."

She turned her head to the side and realized that Chen Xizhu was standing by the door of the stairwell watching her.I don't know when I arrived, and I don't know if I heard the voices in their dormitory.

She turned around and followed Chen Xizhu into the stairwell, looking at the constantly changing red numbers on the fire elevator.

"What are you talking about?" Her expression was calm, always calm and elegant.

"Talk about Si Tian."

Si Tian.Shi Yi thought, Si Tian was being thrown into the darkness by herself at this moment. "Si Tian has a fever, take her to the hospital."

Her tone was light, as if nothing had happened.Chen Xizhu's suppressed anger was instantly ignited. "Shi Yi, put away your hypocritical manners, please?! I don't need you to order me. If you really cared about her, you wouldn't be standing here now."

She came to visit Fu Sitian.When she was about to open the door, she heard Fu Sitian begging Shi Yi not to leave. She felt that she should not eavesdrop on other people's privacy, so she walked away.On the aisle, she anxiously begged Shi Yi to do well and be kind to Fu Sitian.

At least because Si Tian is still sick.

But Shi Yi still came out after just two or three minutes.

Shi Yi didn't speak, just looked at her quietly.

Chen Xizhu clenched his fists and took a deep breath, trying to calm down, "Shi Yi, since you can't accept it, since you are already so ruthless, can you do it a little more?"

"Don't spread your extraordinary charm, don't care about her, don't give her any illusions that she shouldn't have, and let her give up completely, okay?"

"After a long time, she can always figure it out and let it go."

"This way you have a chance, right?" Shi Yi suddenly asked.

Chen Xizhu was stunned for a moment, what's the problem?

baffling! "So what if it is?! So what if it's not?!" The fire in her heart burned even hotter, and she couldn't choose what to say, "You don't like her, why don't you allow others to like her?! You don't like her, why don't you Does she have to be in love with you all the time?! Shi Yi, you think too much of yourself, don't you?"

Shi Yi lowered his brows, his expression became more and more cold. "I'm nothing special."

"But I don't need you to order me." Her tone was calm, and she pressed the down button of the elevator, "This is between me and her."

"What does it have to do with you?"

"Shi Yi!" Chen Xizhu gritted his teeth, "You're going too far!"

Shi Yi turned his back to her, indifferent.The elevator door opened, and she stepped in without the slightest hesitation. "How could you be such a person, you..." A second before the elevator door closed, she heard Chen Xizhu complain in disappointment.

The elevator went down, empty and quiet, and Shi Yi felt that his whole body was also falling continuously.

What kind of person am I?

She kept her back turned, studying herself in the mirrored panels of the elevator.

The person in the mirror is tired, gloomy, and confused, like a trapped monster.Even she felt strange to herself.

She turned around, unwilling to look any further, and reached out to press the button for the first floor.

When the fingertip touched the floor key, there was a piercing pain.Only then did she realize that, at some point, the flesh and nails on the tip of her index finger were separated, oozing dazzling red.

Like the color Fu Sitian engraved in her heart.

Fu Sitian still asked for leave on Tuesday.

On Wednesday, Fu Sitian came to class.She didn't seem to be recovering from a cold, and she covered her mouth and coughed softly from time to time.The voice was not loud, but Shi Yi was still upset when he heard it across most of the classroom.

On Thursday, she went to the counselor's office to hold a weekly meeting of the squad leader and the party branch secretary. After the meeting was dissolved, the counselor left her alone.

"Are you familiar with Fu Sitian in your class?" the counselor asked after taking a sip of tea.

Shi Yi's breathing couldn't help but stagnate, "It's okay."

"It's like this. She came to me two days ago to apply to change the dormitory. I asked her why. She said that there were mouse holes in the bed and she couldn't live in it. It sounded strange to me. She couldn't live in it for more than a month. , only now? Before you sleep out, share a dormitory with her, is there a problem with her bed?"

Like a sudden sap hit on the head.Shi Yi was in a daze, his voice dry, "I didn't notice it."

"Well, then go and help me find out. If there is no mouse hole, can you see if there is any contradiction in their dormitory?

Girls are more delicate in their minds, and sometimes friction is inevitable.Changing dormitories is definitely not the best way to solve the problem. "

Shi Yi nodded.

She walked out of the counselor's office as if nothing had happened, closed the door, grabbed the doorknob, forgot to let go, and stopped for a long time.

There is no contradiction.No need to ask her to know why Fu Sitian applied to change dormitories.

Isn't this the result she wants - Fu Sitian completely abandons her, and the chaotic world returns to normal order.But why, she didn't feel relieved at all in her mind.

Maybe it's just not getting used to it yet.She found a reason for herself, tried her best to ignore these perceptions, raised her feet, and walked while thinking about how to deal with this errand.

The easiest way is to ask Jian Luhe, and then Jian Luhe will ask Fu Sitian, and she will explain to the counselor what Fu Sitian answers.Fu Sitian refused to say anything, so she told the counselor that she couldn't ask anything, and asked the counselor to think of a way.What happened in the end has nothing to do with her.

Changing dormitories is really not the best way.It has been more than a month since school started, and now that I have moved into a new dormitory, it is almost certain that it will be difficult to integrate.As for the three dormitories with a small number of people, except for their 1510, the other two were randomly formed by people who were left over when they changed dormitories at that time. In one dormitory lived Fu Sitian's former roommate Zhang Lulu.

Shi Yi was worried.She thought that this worry was not due to over-concern, but out of her own principles of normal behavior.She didn't want to affect Fu Sitian's future three-year dormitory life because of herself.

After finishing her homework on the line at night, she took out her mobile phone and clicked on Fu Sitian's profile picture.

The chat history still stays on the photos she sent to Fu Sitian during the summer vacation when they went to see the super moon together.In the photo, Fu Sitian is facing the camera, smiling softly and sweetly at her.

At that time, she still had a little flesh on her cheeks.

Shi Yi's throat suddenly choked up to the point where he couldn't help himself.She covered her phone in a panic, got up and went to the bathroom to take a shower.

Cold water is poured down, and emotions are repeatedly suppressed, cooled, and washed away.His hands and feet were all wrinkled, so Shi Yi let him go and walked out of the water trembling.

She dried herself, dried her hair, and sat in the bedroom with the lights off and picked up the phone again.

"The counselor asked me to ask you about your change of dormitory." She told Fu Sitian in a businesslike tone without hiding it, "If it's because of me, then there's no need."

"Whether you live in 1510 or not, I will never stay there again."

After the news was sent, she stared at the screen for a long time, unable to tell what it was like.It turned out that after sending it out, it was not a relief, but a new torment.

She didn't want to admit it, but she had to admit it.She was waiting for Fu Sitian's reply.

But the screen turned off automatically.

The network is not interrupted, and the mobile phone is not broken.Fu Sitian didn't reply her all night.

Shi Yi knew that Fu Sitian would not reply to her.

The hole in my heart that had been gouged out seemed to be getting bigger, more empty, and more painful.It was just a little time before she forced herself to stop thinking and feeling, turned off the phone, opened the drawer beside the bed in the dark, and swallowed a sleeping pill raw.

After years of waiting, she finally fell into complete unconsciousness and had a long-lost sleep.

The second day, the third day... No. 13 day...Fu Sitian's profile picture never flickered in her list again.

Yin Fanlu and Jian Luhe may have seen something and stopped trying to ease their relationship.They can always stagger perfectly between class and get out of class.It's like two intersecting straight lines, once intersecting for a short time, the farther and farther they go, the distance left is getting bigger and bigger, and they will never meet again.

Fu Sitian seemed to be doing well. The presentation often won applause from the whole house, and her name can be seen on the list of winners from time to time on the notice wall at the entrance of the college.Chen Xizhu came to see her more often, and often went directly to the classroom door to wait for her to have dinner together after class.Occasionally passing by the sign language rehearsal site, you can also see her surrounded by people, smiling cheerfully.

Shi Yi felt that his life was not bad.Go to class normally, leave get out of class, study, do research, occasionally go to stepfather's house to visit mother, go out to have fun with friends.Everything is back on track as expected.

But when she returned to the suite alone, when she calmed down, she always heard that there seemed to be a place in her heart that was leaking, empty, barren, staring at her in the dark, bit by bit, swallowing silently she.

The star instrument can't save her either.

She has never looked up at that starry sky again, and it has been a long time since she had a good night's sleep without relying on sleeping pills.