throbbing for you

Fu Sitian's whole heart trembled, resonating with the rise and fall of Shi Yi's chest.

She called her "Come here", and she asked her "Shall we start again?" Fu Sitian's back was stiff and motionless, as if he was in a dream, and two lines of tears rolled down silently.

My heart hurts so bad I can't breathe.

She knew how proud Shi Yi was, and how difficult and serious it must be to say such a thing.

The conjecture that had been hovering in her mind since Shi Yihong left was finally confirmed.But apart from the uncontrollable joy, there was more pain and distress in her heart.

Did she still miss Shi Yi?

Moreover, it has been missed for many years.

She always thought that Shi Yi was in contact with her with the intention of revenge and mocking her, but it turned out that Shi Yi really didn't let go of her these years, did he really still love her?

Then what is her leaving without authorization to Shi Yi?

She clenched her fists, and suddenly the pain was so great that she couldn't control herself. She hunched over Shi Yi's arms, lowered her head, and cried so hard that her whole body trembled.

The tears in Shi Yi's eyes also slipped down instantly, wet Fu Sitian's neck.

She hugged Fu Sitian even tighter, with her chin resting on the top of her hair, trembling, rubbing gently, like hugging a fragile dream, or like hugging a small animal that was equally as cold, mutual keep warm.

No matter what the answer is, she thought, she tried her best, and she will have no regrets in this life.

All of Fu Sitian's persistence and rationality fell apart and collapsed in her tears, her tenderness, and her fragility.

That was the embrace she dreamed of, the one she wanted to follow until she died.

But, is she really qualified to own and be loved again?

She trembled in her chest, stopped her sobs, grasped the back of Shi Yi's hand wrapped around her waist, and turned sideways to look at Shi Yi.

In the darkness, Shi Yi was sitting on his knees, with disheveled black hair, dark eyes filled with water, and a red nose, which seemed to be full of tenderness.

Fu Sitian's heart was swollen and painful, and he couldn't say the sentence "Shi Yi, you can have a better choice".If she said it again, she might be humiliating Shi Yi.

Powerless to resist, also reluctant to resist.Her eyelashes trembled, and a teardrop rolled down quietly again.

Shi Yi raised his hand and wiped it with his thumb, without saying a word.

Fu Sitian bit his lip, his breathing was trembling with her touch.

"Shi Yi..." Her fingernails got into her palms, and she finally spoke with difficulty.

"En." Shi Yi's hand froze for a moment, then retracted it, curled up and pressed it against his thigh, quietly waiting for her next words.

There was undisguised uneasiness in her eyes.

Fu Sitian's heart contracted violently again.She had never seen her calm, confident and steady girl show such an expression.I really want to hug her desperately, but she can't.

She forced herself to calm down, looked into Shi Yi's eyes, and said, "Shi Yi, I'm Jiang Cunxi."

Shi Yi was stunned for a moment, not knowing why, but he still answered seriously: "I know. After I found out that you are allergic to shiitake mushrooms, I was sure."

Fu Sitian trembled from the bottom of his heart.She did know all along.She straightened her body with all her strength, and continued: "I lied to you, gave up on you, and hurt you."

Shi Yi said, "I know. It's okay, it's over."

Fu Sitian restrained his shame and pain, and his voice became more dry: "My father... my father is a murderer, and I am the daughter of a murderer. Bad genes flow in my body."

"Jiang Cunxi, from the very beginning, I shouldn't have believed you. The bad genes will be inherited." The words that were deliberately forgotten that year suddenly seemed like a sharp sword, enveloping the past. The wind and snow pierced the eardrum and went straight into the heart.

Shi Yi suddenly lost his voice in pain.She suddenly understood what Fu Sitian was thinking about and what he was hesitating about.She hadn't really thought about it that way.At that time, she was too angry, too unwilling, too painful, and too disgusted to see Fu Sitian's calm and indifferent appearance, so she just wanted to catch all the sharp words, wanted to hurt her, wanted her to suffer, wanted to find a little Fu Sitian also has pain, emotion, and evidence of reluctance.

But what has been said is what has been said, and what has been done is what has been done.She didn't know how to explain, how to make up.

"I'm sorry, I'm sorry... I never really thought about it that way. I'm sorry, I was just too angry at that time, I..." Her eyes were clouded again, and regret crawled all over her cheeks.

Fu Sitian felt distressed and stopped her: "Shi Yi, don't say I'm sorry, you have nothing to be sorry for me. I don't blame you by saying this, to make you feel uncomfortable."

Shi Yi looked at her helplessly.

Fu Sitian said softly and sadly: "Shi Yi, in fact, I have always regretted that I concealed you back then, entered your life rashly, and was with you. I didn't give you enough right to choose."

Shi Yi was moved, and the steam that had been stored in his eyes overflowed.She stretched out her hand again, and hugged Fu Sitian into her arms tightly, her voice was hoarse like a breath: "I know, I know everything. From the beginning, I knew that you are Jiang Cunxi, you are Come on. I know how timid, cruel and heartless you are, but I know how kind, warm and brave you are. No matter who you are, no matter what you look like, I like you."

"If I could, I would have wanted to dislike you a long time ago. But I can't." Her soft tone contained pain, "I know everything, come on, the only thing I don't know is that you Still love me or not."

Really soft and warm.Fu Sitian's rationality was sinking, and all the cells in his body were clamoring for her to agree, not to leave, and let her sink down.But she still gritted her teeth and insisted on breaking free from Shi Yi's embrace.

Shi Yi's empty arms drooped down, staring at her forbearingly, as if waiting for the final verdict.

With a pale face, Fu Sitian spoke the last words.

"Shi Yi..."

"I have depression, and I have been taking medicine for two years. I have thought many times that it would be good if I could die. I don't know if I am really fully recovered and will not relapse." Her voice was soft, Eyelashes drooped, as if relieved.

Suffering day by day, hoping to die in an accident.This is most of her six years of life.She thought for a while that she would never get better again.

Shi Yi feels like being struck by lightning.

what did she say?

Obviously my mind still refuses to believe it, and before I can react, tears are already pouring down.Her back, which had been straight all the time, collapsed, her arms wrapped around herself, and her shoulders trembled.

Fu Sitian heard a very thin and short whimper.

Shi Yi burst into tears.Her cold and beautiful face was covered with water marks, and her thin lips were stained with blood.

Fu Sitian's soul ached.

She had never seen Shi Yi cry so hard and in such a mess.Her distress, her pity, shone in her tears, like stars strewn across the sky, wishing to light up all the long dark nights of her past.

Fu Sitian finally couldn't restrain himself and sat up on his knees, stretched out his hand, and hugged Shi Yi tightly into his arms, as if he wanted to rub it into his bones.

Shi Yi hugged her back, sobbing in her ear, and said in a crying voice: "It's okay, baby, I'm not afraid, and you don't need to be afraid either... No matter what happens, I will be by your side from now on. With me here, I will be by your side in the future." , will definitely make you happy, okay?"

Shi Yi seldom talks about love.Fu Sitian knew that what she said was a promise from the bottom of her heart.Never break your word.

Fu Sitian surrendered.She couldn't bear it.I'm so sorry.Just forgive her and let her be selfish and forceful again.

There was a smile on her lips, but tears welled up in her eyes.

"Shi Yi, I gave you a chance. You can't blame me." She leaned into Shi Yi's ear, whispered softly, kissed the bitter tears on Shi Yi's cheek, kissed her eyelashes, the bridge of her nose, and the tip of her nose. Yi kept crying and didn't reject her.

Fu Sitian kissed her lips lightly, stared at her, and said softly, "At that time, what I wrote on the postcard was—Tomylove, mysunshine, mystarlight: Iloveyou, forever."

Signed is - Jiang Cunxi.

Shi Yi's misty eyes lit up, his heart was beating violently, and the blood in his body seemed to come alive in an instant.

She couldn't bear it any longer and leaned forward, put her arms around the back of Fu Sitian's head, and kissed him deeply.

Hungry, affectionate, grinding inch by inch, sucking, licking, breathing intertwined, lips and tongues meet, mixed with tears, slightly bitter, but more sweet.

The temperature around him was rising, and just as the gun was about to go off, there were footsteps on the stairs.

Fu Sitian let out a moan from his throat, and wanted to back away hastily, but Shi Yi refused to let go, chasing after her, sweeping around recklessly for a few more seconds, until the footsteps were getting closer, then he rubbed the tip of Fu Sitian's nose with endless interest , let her go.

As soon as Fu Sitian got a free breath, he immediately backed away, looked at the door, and sat upright.

Shi Yi's heart softened.

It was the same way when she kissed her for the first time, many years ago.

She reached out to wipe the water marks on her lips, and teased her with a suppressed voice: "Weren't you very bold when you responded to me just now?"

There was still a provocative spring in Fu Sitian's eyes, he turned his head and called her: "Shi Yi..." It seemed ashamed, but also pampered.

Shi Yi was very useful.

She sat down, moved to the side of the bed, stepped on the ground with her feet, and said, "Don't bother you, go change your clothes again, I've soiled them all. I'll take a bath too."

As soon as the words fell, Chen Xizhu's voice came before he arrived: "Si Tian, ​​have you finished taking a bath?"

Fu Sitian and Shi Yi turned around and looked out together.

Chen Xizhu and Yin Fanlu approached, and then they saw clearly that there were two people sitting in the dark room.

……

what's the situation?Why is Shi Yi here?Is it the wrong time?Did they cry?Why are the eyes so bright and so wet?what to do?Is it too late to retreat now?Chen Xizhu and Yin Fanlu froze in place, neither advancing nor retreating, and the bullet screen flickered in their minds.

Shi Yi and Fu Sitian looked at each other, Fu Sitian raised his lips and smiled lightly, Shi Yi had the answer in his heart.

She turned on the light in the room, turned her head to look at Chen Xizhu and Yin Fanlu, and said openly, "I'm sorry to scare you today."

Chen Xizhu and Yin Fanlu were stunned: "No, it's all accidents, what are you talking about?"

"That's not out of the question, I'll just say it."

"Ok?"

Shi Yi stretched out his hand to hold Fu Sitian's hand, and Fu Sitian let her pass through his five fingers, interlocking them.

"We're reconciled." Shi Yi said.

The air was silent for a moment, and a pin drop could be heard.

Blinking and blinking, Chen Xizhu suddenly clapped his hands and swears: "Damn!" dancing and dancing, overjoyed.

Fu Sitian and Shi Yi smiled warmly, and Yin Fanlu reminded Chen Xizhu: "Mr. Chen, be careful, be careful, the floor is about to collapse."

Chen Xizhu stopped with difficulty.

Yin Fanlu turned her head, looked at Fu Stian and Shi Yi, frowned, and suddenly hugged Chen Xizhu in a shapeless manner, hanging on her body, jumping up and down: "Ahhhhhhhhhhhhhhh! Finally!!!"

Chen Xizhu, Shi Yi, Fu Sitian: "..."

The birds outside the window were startled by the joy in the house, and they vibrated their wings and flew to other places. Fu Sitian heard the sound of wind, water, branches and leaves, and the breathing of all things in the world for a long time.

Time began to flow again.

The four seasons rotate.

Her midsummer is back.

The author has something to say: The little rabbit twisted the corner of his clothes, blushing, and whispered more and more: It doesn't matter if the clothes are dirty.

You made me... dirty, it's okay...