throbbing for you

In November, the day of postgraduate entrance examination is getting closer.Unless necessary, Shi Yi didn't go to the classroom anymore.She applied for a seat in the self-study room for postgraduate entrance examinations in the library. Except for noon and evening during the day, she would go back to the rental house for dinner, and she spent the rest of the time preparing for the exam in the self-study room.

Fu Sitian is her strongest backing.In addition to reviewing for the postgraduate entrance examination, she helped Shi Yi do everything she could do, such as washing and cooking, cleaning the room, as big as Shi Yi's coursework and thesis revision.In fact, Shi Yi didn't want it in her heart. She felt sorry for Fu Sitian and felt that she had worked too hard.

However, Fu Sitian really didn't want her to get involved in these things.

During the summer vacation, Shi Yi occasionally cooks to prepare dinner for Fu Sitian, and she can feel the joy from Fu Sitian's heart when he sees Fu Sitian when he comes back from work; now, she realizes that when she cooks, Fu Sitian still praises her and laughs, However, she doesn't seem to be from the heart.

She always stares blankly at the results of her work after she cooks, after she tidies up the dishes, after she does the laundry and mops the floor, when she thinks she can't see it, her expression is full of pain and confusion.

Once by accident, twice and three times, Shi Yi gradually understood.

So she let Fu Sitian let her do everything she wanted to do for herself.

If she would really feel better if she had to take on a little more, then let her do it.Her intention was to make Fu Sitian feel more relaxed, less stressed and happier.

But unexpectedly, she made a wrong prediction, a big mistake.

Fu Sitian really worked too hard, and people's ability to bear is limited.What's more, she can't sleep for a long time a day, Ningcheng, Shencheng, classes, housework, and part-time jobs outside the school.

At eleven o'clock in the night when the first draft of the thesis was finalized, Shi Yi washed up and went to bed, and Fu Sitian was already lying down on the bed, which was rare.Under the dim light of the night light, Fu Sitian turned his back to her, curled up under the quilt, only showing half of his palm-sized face, and closed his eyes, as if he was already fast asleep.

Shi Yi thought she was tired and unable to hold on physically, and felt a little relieved in her heart, thinking that she could finally sleep well.

She went to bed with light hands and feet on purpose, lifted a small corner of the quilt, and moved into the bed with small movements.

The bed was warm and coaxing, it was obvious that Fu Sitian had warmed the bed for her not long ago, Shi Yi's heart suddenly softened, and the warm feeling spread from the soles of his feet to his limbs.She couldn't help but turned sideways, stood up and wanted to kiss Fu Sitian's cheek quietly.

Pushing away the hair on her cheeks, lowering her body, just before her lips were pressed against Fu Sitian's cheek, Shi Yi froze suddenly.

She straightened up and stared at Fu Sitian's sweaty forehead hair in astonishment.

It’s almost mid-November, and the weather in Shencheng is getting colder. The windows of the rental house are in disrepair for a long time, and there are still gusts of cool wind blowing in when they are closed. At night, the quilt is thin and even cold, but it is not so hot. .

Shi Yi's expression changed, and he reached out to touch Fu Sitian's forehead.As soon as her hand touched Fu Sitian's skin, Fu Sitian trembled slightly under her hand.

The sound of breathing seems to be trembling.

It was only then that Shi Yi realized belatedly that Si Tian's breathing was so deep and rapid tonight.

She changed her face completely, leaned her body and stretched out her hand to turn on the light with a "click".

"Si Tian?!" She pulled down the quilt covering the lower half of Fu Sitian's face, and then she saw clearly that under the quilt, Fu Sitian was biting his lower lip tightly with his white teeth, with an expression of pain that he had never seen before.

Seeing that he couldn't hide it anymore, Fu Sitian turned over with difficulty, opened his eyes and looked at Shi Yi.

Her eyelashes were soaked in cold sweat, her vision was blurred, and her eyeballs were a little red from the severe pain.

She let go of her lower lip, wanting to smile at Shi Yi, but before she opened her lips, she felt another sharp colic, causing her to let out a short and suppressed moan.

She couldn't help shaking even more violently.

Shi Yi's mind exploded.

She had never seen Fu Sitian like this, and even, she had never seen anyone in such pain.Her mind went blank for a moment, she sat up on her knees, and wanted to reach out to hug Fu Sitian, but retracted the moment she was about to hug him.

She was afraid that moving randomly would make Fu Sitian feel more uncomfortable.She forced herself to calm down, and carefully touched Fu Sitian's forehead, cheek, and body.

Fu Sitian's whole body was wet and cold, as if he had been soaked in water, and was covered with sweat.

Shi Yi's arm beside her face began to weaken.

She turned around and was about to get out of bed: "I'll take you to the hospital."

Fu Sitian finally breathed a sigh of relief from the severe pain, and stretched out his hand to hold the corner of her pajamas: "Shi Yi..."

Her voice was so soft that she was full of anger.

Shi Yi turned to look at her.

She was clutching her clothes with one hand and covering her stomach with the other. Her whole body was hunched over, her face was pale, her eyes were full of pain, but her tone was very ordinary: "I'm fine, it's just a stomachache, don't go... Go to the hospital, it will be fine in a while... "

She seemed to want to laugh, but it hurt too much, laughing was uglier than crying.She seemed to have noticed it herself, so her eyes turned into bewilderment and pleading.

"It's okay...don't make a fuss about it."

Shi Yi looked at her, his throat seemed to be blocked by something.

She raised her head, took a deep breath, lowered her head, took Fu Sitian's hand holding her clothes and put it down, and said in a hoarse voice, "No. Don't be brave. Bank card, medical insurance card, where is your medical insurance card?" ?” She flipped through the bedside drawer.

Fu Sitian said stubbornly: "It's really unnecessary. From now on... it doesn't hurt so much." As if wanting to prove it, she lifted the quilt and propped herself up to sit up, but the hand covering her stomach was clearly visible. It's getting harder.

Cold sweat trickled down the tip of her nose.

Shi Yi's whole heart fell into the mountain of knives following her sweat.I can't tell if it's more pain or panic.

She pulled the coat aside and put it on Fu Sitian's body, as if hearing Fu Sitian's refusal, she got off the bed neatly, without even changing her pajamas, put on her long coat, shoes, and searched for her keys and wallet.

Fu Sitian insisted: "Shi Yi, there is really no need..."

"Lie down for a while...it will be fine..." The voice gradually faded.

Shi Yi could hear that she was in pain again.I can't find the key, the more anxious I am, the more I can't find it, why can't I find it, why can't she do things like the key.There was a fishy sweetness in his throat, his hands were trembling unconsciously, and he finally found the key in his pocket.

"Can I go? I'm going downstairs. Let's take a taxi there. Hurry up." She walked to Fu Sitian's side of the bed as quickly as she was saved, and stretched out her hand to help her.

Fu Sitian shook his head: "No need, Shi Yi, I don't want to go."

"Come down, I'll help you." Shi Yi didn't seem to hear it.

"Shi Yi, I really don't want to go." She hung her head, was sore and tired, and her stomach was throbbing with pain.

"Then I'll carry you on my back."

"Shi Yi!" She finally couldn't hold back her tone, and begged Shi Yi with a little cry.Stop making her talk, make her stress out.

Shi Yi really didn't speak any more.She fell silent, motionless, and the air was as quiet as if everything had died.

Fu Sitian became uneasy again.

She raised her head to look at Shi Yi with difficulty.Shi Yi was also looking at her.

Shi Yi cried.

Under the cold white light, her eyes were quiet, and two lines of tears flowed down her clear cheeks, silently, quietly and turbulently.

For an instant, Fu Sitian felt that his soul was aching.

How could she make her cry?How could she make Shi Yi cry.

Shi Yi didn't cry on the day she broke up with her mother and came back; Shi Yi didn't cry on the day she was deprived of her postgraduate qualification by the school.But now, she made her cry.

Crying so subduedly, so silent.

Tears welled up in Fu Sitian's eyes instantly.She struggled to kneel and sit up to hug Shi Yi, but Shi Yi put his hand on her shoulder.

She turned her head away, wiped her tears with the other hand, and asked in a low voice, "Go to the hospital. You can use my medical insurance card."

She knew what Fu Sitian cared about.She also remembered where Fu Sitian's medical insurance card was - she didn't have a medical insurance card anymore.

She quietly saved the insurance premium and bought her a set of autumn clothes.

Fu Sitian choked his throat and could no longer refuse.

She couldn't bear Shi Yi's tears.In the whole world, she is the person who least wants Shi Yi to cry.But...it was also her who always made her cry.

Meeting Shi Yi was one of the few happiness in her life.And when Shi Yi met her, it was the greatest misfortune in his life...

She gave up struggling and let Shi Yi help her out of bed.The moment he stood up straight, the severe pain came again, and something rushed up to his chest.She covered her mouth and couldn't walk steadily under Shi Yi's support. It took her half a minute to move to the bathroom that she could walk to in a few seconds on weekdays. She was so painful that she couldn't straighten her back. I can't even squat.

Shi Yi squatted to lean on her, patted her back, raised his head, his jaw and neck were tense, and he didn't say a word.

Couldn't even spit out the yellow bile, Fu Sitian was exhausted, panting against the wall, his face was wet, and he couldn't tell whether it was tears or sweat.

Shi Yi wiped her face and mouth with his sleeve.Then, she squatted in front of her with her back facing her, and said, "Come up, I'll carry you on my back."

Fu Sitian declined in a tone of voice: "No need..."

Shi Yi repeated: "Come up." As she spoke, she touched Fu Sitian's arm with her backhand, and turned her head to stare at her.

Fu Sitian still wanted to refuse, but she saw Shi Yi's eyes clearly.

There was no light in Shi Yi's eyes, only the silent mist and the inseparable gloom.

Fu Sitian's heart was torn apart again.What to do, what to do, so that she can return that light to Shi Yi.

Shi Yi softened his tone, and said again: "Si Tian, ​​come up." There was faint pleading and exhaustion in his eyes.

Fu Sitian completely surrendered.

With tears in her eyes, she followed Shi Yi's outstretched arm, and slowly lay down on Shi Yi's back.

With her back on his back, Shi Yi stood up slowly but steadily while leaning against the wall.

"Will it be uncomfortable?" Shi Yi asked her.

Fu Sitian pinched his fingertips and lied to her on her back: "No."

Shi Yi stopped talking and walked out of the room with her on his back.

Her back was that of a slender girl, thin and weak, without a sense of strength. Listening to her breathing, Fu Sitian knew how hard she was.

But step by step, she carried her on her back and walked very steadily.She carried her on her back, walked out of the door, walked to the stairs, and walked down the stairs.No matter how Fu Sitian struggled or begged, she tightly wrapped her thighs and refused to let her go.

With a height of four floors, Shi Yi tried his best to walk fast and steadily.

When she stepped down the last step and stepped on the flat ground, she felt a warm liquid dripping down her neck and down her spine. "Shi Yi, let me down." Fu Sitian struggled to slide down again.

Shi Yi leaned on the armrest to pant for breath, the back of his hand was showing bruises due to too much support. "If you move again, I'm going to fall." She swallowed a mouthful of fishy sweetness, and said as normal as possible.

Fu Sitian froze instantly.

Shi Yi tilted his head and rubbed her head, coaxing softly but hoarsely: "I'll be fine after a while, and there will be a car after a short walk."

Fu Sitian couldn't resist her, so he could only lie down again choked with sobs.

Can't let go, can't make Si Tian more painful, can't give in to his body, can't admit defeat, this is Shi Yi's determination to go down the stairs all the way through gritting his teeth.

She thought she could.

She thought she was different from other people her age; she thought she was strong-willed and invincible.

However, after Fu Sitian refused to use her medical insurance card, fearing that it would have a bad influence on her future physical examination; in the emergency room, I heard Fu Sitian hesitated before answering the doctor "I have been in pain... several times", the doctor marveled at her power, This kind of pain was actually tolerable; after the doctor judged that it should be gallbladder stones, it would be better to have gallbladder surgery, which would cost about [-] yuan. After Fu Sitian flatly refused, she still collapsed.

She excused herself to go to the nursing station to get the infusion medicine, and quickly stepped out of the infusion room. Suddenly, she couldn't hold on anymore. She faced the wall, pressed against the wall, bit her lip, and cried until she couldn't breathe.

She couldn't forgive herself for not knowing anything.It's been so long, the person she cherishes has been in pain for so long, yet she doesn't know anything.What kind of selfish world does she live in?

At such a time, she actually wanted Fu Sitian to be worried about the money and forced a smile on his face.

How can she be so useless.

She never admits it, but gradually has to admit it.

Shi Yi, nothing outstanding, even inferior to ordinary hardworking and capable people.

Without her parents, she is nothing.

Small, useless, vulnerable.