throbbing for you

"Trust me." Shi Yi held her face in his hands and wiped her tears.

Her eyes were darker than the dark clouds in the sky, but there was a firm and moving light in her eyes.Fu Sitian bit his lower lip and trembled, unable to say "Shi Yi, let's break up".

She was the one who brought her here, into the storm, how could she be willing to hurt her, and leave her here alone halfway.She is so firm, believes in her so much, and believes in the future they agreed upon, how can she tell her that she doesn't want to implicate her anymore, and they won't have a future.

She couldn't speak.

She dug her fingertips on the ground, raised her head and took a deep breath, tears flowing down her neck and into her heart.She trilled, "I believe in you."

Lowering her head and looking into Shi Yi's eyes, she tried hard to force a smile and repeated: "Shi Yi, I believe in you."

"I'm sorry." She still choked up.

Shi Yi's thumb gently stroked her cheek, her eyes were deep, and her brows slowly stretched: "Fool." She murmured, her hand followed her cheek to the back of her ear, and gently rubbed her cheek. Rubbing the back of her head, he suddenly hugged her into his chest again.

Fu Sitian could feel the violent ups and downs of her chest, and could feel how much she needed her.

Her throat was choked again and Shi Yi let her go.Her face was calm and gentle as always, and she slid her hands on her shoulders and asked her, "Can you stand up?"

Fu Sitian also nodded restrainedly, and took advantage of Shi Yi's strength to help her get up.

Only then did Zhang Lulu find a place where he could get in, and hurried down the steps to the other side to help Fu Sitian, caring for her: "Are you okay?"

Fu Sitian's nose was still red, he was very embarrassed, and replied in a nasal voice: "It's okay."

Shi Yi checked Fu Sitian's hands and feet. His wrists and elbows were scratched. Fortunately, he was wearing cropped pants, and his knees were only bruised.

She took off Fu Sitian's backpack, hung it on her shoulder with one shoulder, then looped Fu Sitian's shoulders, supported her, and said to Zhang Lulu: "The school may have considerations from the school. I accept this result. It doesn't matter. You can do it too." do not take it personally."

She looked very calm, as if she really didn't care at all.

Zhang Lulu frowned, disapproving and wanted to say something, Shi Yi frowned slightly, shook his head almost imperceptibly, and motioned her to stop.

Zhang Lulu instantly realized something.She opened her mouth and closed it again, feeling stuffy in her heart.

Shi Yi gave her the steps: "It's going to rain heavily outside, you should go back quickly."

Zhang Lulu looked at them, clenched his fists, and the mist uncontrollably blurred his vision.She took a deep breath, took a few steps back, stood in front of them, bowed to them from the bottom of her heart, and said, "I'm sorry."Then, with his head down, he went downstairs as if fleeing, and ran down the stairs, out of sight of Shi Yi and Fu Sitian.

Fu Sitian looked sideways at the direction in which she disappeared, in a daze.

Shi Yi reminded her: "Come on, let's go in."

Fu Sitian turned around to look at Shi Yi.Shi Yi put his hands around her shoulders slightly, motioned her to go up, and asked softly: Is there alcohol and cotton swabs in the medicine box? "

Like no one.

The bitterness almost exploded Fu Sitian's chest.The more restrained she was, the more distressed and guilty Fu Sitian felt.She knew how much Shi Yi had worked hard and looked forward to this.That was the path she had planned to take since she was a freshman, the qualification she had worked hard for three years, and the reward that should have belonged to her.

But Shi Yi didn't cry, she shouldn't cry, and she didn't have the right to cry.

She suppressed all the choking sobs, and pretended to be fine, and returned to Shiyi: "Yes."

Only then did Shi Yi feel relieved, and told her: "Be careful next time."

Fu Sitian responded softly, "En."

After entering the room, Shi Yi took alcohol and a cotton swab and began to disinfect her, and the two of them returned to the topic of Baoyan again.

The list came out an hour ago.There are 20 exempt quotas, and Shi Yi card is No.20.For the 50.00% grade in the material review, Shi Yi ranked second in terms of grade points alone, and with all the bonus points added, Shi Yi ranked fifth overall.But for the 50.00% interview, she got the third lowest score.

The college's making things difficult is very clear.

"The last time the counselor came to you, he was actually talking about Zhang Lulu, right?" Fu Sitian asked in a hoarse voice.

Shi Yi lowered his head and wiped the wound on Fu Sitian's elbow with a cotton swab. He was silent for a few seconds before he let out a low "hmm".

Fu Sitian's breath sank again.

Shi Yi looked up at her.

Fu Sitian's eyelashes fluttered quickly, and he tried hard to squeeze back the tears.She pulled Shi Yi's hand and interlocked her fingers. Shi Yi let her go, with a very gentle and compassionate look.

Fu Sitian knew it, and Shi Yi knew it too.Some words, some guilt, she clearly knew Shi Yi's answer, besides, she only wanted to make herself feel better, which only increased Shi Yi's troubles.

She sniffed, skipped the topic, and asked Shi Yi: "Can we appeal?"

Shi Yi stroked the back of her hand and was silent for two seconds before saying: "

Okay, but, forget it. "

"Since the academy dares to do this, it means that they came prepared, and they are ready to use their words to deal with us."

Each college has its own discretion in the matter of guaranteeing research, and the school will not intervene unless you have conclusive evidence.

But there is no standard for interviews, and it is all controlled by the school. Where does the evidence come from?Just for the reputation of the school, the school with evidence will make it without evidence.

Besides, Shi Yi paused and said, "No. 20 is... Yilin."

Fu Sitian's heart shook.

She looked at Shi Yi's face that was always misunderstood as cold and unfeeling, her nose was so blocked that she couldn't breathe.

She wrapped her arms around Shi Yi's waist, buried her face in Shi Yi's hair, and murmured: "Shi Yi, you are the fool, the big fool." At the end of the sentence, her voice was so hoarse that there was almost nothing left.

Shi Yi rubbed her cheek lightly. "It's okay, Si Tian, ​​it's okay." She seemed to be speaking to Fu Sitian, but also to herself.

"I just want you to work hard with me for a while."

Fu Sitian endured his distress, and said word by word, softly but firmly: "It's not hard. Let's work hard together."

"Shi Yi, it's yours. It will definitely be yours. We will definitely take it back and throw it in their faces."

Shi Yi suddenly laughed softly in her ear.

"It seems to be the first time I've heard you speak harshly." Her tone seemed to contain a bit of innocence, which was rarely soft.

Fu Sitian's heart softened.She wanted to laugh a little, but in the blink of an eye, her eyelashes became wet again.

Now is the time to laugh, is it time to coax her to laugh?Big fool, big fool.

But this idiot loves her so much, and she loves her so much.Fu Sitian wanted to rub her into his body.

"How is grandma?" Shi Yi asked, leaning on her shoulder.

"I had a stroke, and I may not be able to stand up in the future. I also found a tumor, and I have to wait for an exact examination later." She only talked about her grandma's illness, but she still didn't talk about her complicated family relationship; She was burdened with a large amount of treatment fees and babysitting fees; she didn't say that her father would be released from prison a year later.

Her inability to be honest made it worse for them.

Let them try again, let her struggle and be selfish again.She prayed in her heart.She is not reconciled.There are so many people in love in this world, why can't they also be a happy couple; why can't she love the person she wants to love, why can't she give Shi Yi happiness.

Why?

Obviously she is not worse than others, not stupid than others, not lazy than others; obviously, she has worked so hard to do her best.

She hugged Shi Yi's waist tightly, raised her head to keep her tears from falling, the inner wall of her lower lip was full of tooth marks.

At least let her accompany Shi Yi through this difficult journey.At least, let her take Shi Yi back to the intersection of light.

Like a tacit understanding, after the second day, they no longer mentioned the failure of the postgraduate entrance examination, as if they just started preparing for the postgraduate entrance examination later, Shi Yi checked the textbooks for the postgraduate entrance examination, bought them one by one, and transferred them to the school. Entered the postgraduate entrance examination review.

After all, time is tight, everything is difficult at the beginning, and the judicial examination is just around the corner, Shi Yi wished he could break 24 hours a day into 48 hours.She never cried bitter or tired, even when Fu Sitian asked her to resign from the senior sister's new media draft, she still wanted to insist.

But Fu Sitian knew that Shi Yi was actually under a lot of pressure, she just wasn't used to screaming for pain - her menstrual period was always accurate, but this time, it had been more than half a month since the exam was successfully completed, her Menstrual period did not come.

Fu Sitian was worried, and asked Shi Yi to go to the hospital for an examination several times, but Shi Yi said it was okay, wait a little longer, he might come back in two days.Moreover, it is normal to be inaccurate once or twice once in a while.

Fu Sitian couldn't resist her, and he was afraid that she would be annoyed by talking too much, so he could only secretly worry in his heart.

In Ningcheng, the old man’s surgical indicators were not ideal, and the doctor did not recommend surgery. Fu Jiantao gave up and could only hide the real condition of the old man, and hired a nanny to take care of her personally, so that she could spend the last period of her life as happily as possible time.After the old man realized that he really couldn't get up, his whole body collapsed, looking for death, crying and making noises. It took a lot of tossing before he accepted the reality, and his temper became more and more weird.From time to time, she would call, crying and scolding Fu Sitian to go back to see her, but if Fu Sitian didn't go back, she would call Fu Jiantao and go to Fu Jiantao's place to make trouble.

Fu Sitian had no choice but tried to convince himself that the child wanted to support her but would not wait for her relatives, so she should cherish it once and see her as little as possible, and took as much time as possible to go back and visit her.

But going back frequently brought her not only financial pressure, but also psychological pressure.Every time I went back, the old man would say those words like the wheels of a cart. Once, he suddenly wanted to ask the neighbor to bring a man over to show her a look, which frightened her and left on the spot.

She started to suffer from insomnia again, began to have frequent nightmares, and couldn't sleep well.

She always dreamed of her mother, of the Tongzilou that year, of the suppressed crying of her mother holding her in the last night, of her mother asking her coldly: "Come on, how are you doing?", and then , woke up in a cold sweat.

Occasionally, I would dream of the eyes of others scolding her when I was a child, and dream that my grandma blamed her for not being born. If she hadn't said anything, her father hadn't married her mother, and she wouldn't have ended up like that in the end. Then the scene changed, and grandma The terrifying face turned into Fang Ruohua's hateful face, Fang Ruohua cursed her: "It's all your fault, it's you, it's you who killed Shi Yi, it's you!"

The scene turned again, Shi Yi's eyes were dull, she was taken away in prison uniform and handcuffs, and she cried and wanted to bring Shi Yi back, but found that she was tied up all over her body with a red cloth belt by her grandmother , tied to a pillar...

She woke up more than once and found that Shi Yi was holding her, with sleepy eyes, but he coaxed her tirelessly: "It's okay, it's all a dream, it'll be fine when you wake up."

The psychological pressure is even greater.

She quarreled with Shi Yi.Shi Yi was so tired, she couldn't even let her sleep well.

She couldn't sleep peacefully anymore.She quietly opened the sleep recording app again, keeping a tight string all the time, trying not to fall into a deep sleep, trying to keep herself awake when dreaming, and immediately wake up vigilantly as soon as she fell into a dream.

Shi Yi noticed something, but was powerless.She thought that Fu Sitian's pressure came from their current situation, but the current situation was precisely what she was unable to solve.

She didn't even have any money, so she asked Fu Sitian to see psychological counseling.She seemed to be able to do nothing but study harder and try to pass the postgraduate exam.

So, she could only study harder and more intensely.

I have never felt that learning is such a serious and hard work.

Physically and mentally exhausted - I don't know when they started to feel this feeling.However, no one mentioned it.