throbbing for you

On Saturday afternoon, Fu Sitian was picking up the plastic bag on the urinal, and was about to carry it to the bathroom to throw it away, when the text message sounded.Her heart trembled, and she immediately sped up her actions, carried the garbage bag to the bathroom, and threw it into the trash can. Then, she closed the door and took out the phone with her clean left hand.

Press to turn on the screen, the message notification prompts there, it really is a text message from Shi Yi.

Shi Yi said: "After the interview, it should be okay. If you hurry up, the list will be announced tomorrow and the day after tomorrow."

A simple sentence made Fu Sitian feel as if he had surfaced and breathed a little air.She typed clumsily with her left hand: "That's good. It must be fine, don't worry. Treat yourself to something delicious at night."

Shi Yi quickly replied to her: "It's not good to be alone."

Fu Sitian could even imagine how Shi Yi lowered his eyebrows and said this in a calm tone.Her acting like a baby is all calm.

She couldn't help laughing, and just about to type after laughing, she lowered her head and glanced at the trash can at her feet that contained the excrement and urine bag she had just thrown into it, and her eyes slowly dimmed again.

Letter by letter, she finished spelling: "Wait for me to go back tomorrow."

Waiting to go back tomorrow, then what?

She washed her hands with soap, clasped her hands, and rubbed them vigorously, mechanically, and repeatedly until her hands turned red and the wound that was cut by a knife yesterday opened again without feeling anything.

Shi Yi will go to Haicheng, to the vast world that should belong to her.She will be fine.She should be fine too.

As for her, where is her world?Can she still accompany Shi Yi to Haicheng, to the future they agreed upon?She stared intently at the trash can.

"What are you doing dead in there? I want to get up, I want to drink water." The old man urged in the ward.

Fu Sitian came back to his senses, bit his lip, turned off the faucet, opened the door and went out.

The blood oozing from the knuckles was quickly washed down by the water, rushed into the sewer, and disappeared.No one cares.

In the evening, the sky was overcast, and Fu Jiantao came to deliver the meal. The TV news broadcast that this year's No. 20 Typhoon No. [-] was coming.

Fu Jiantao cared about her: "See if the high-speed train is out of service, and if you want to change the ticket."

The old man instructed Fu Sitian to help her put the small table in a comfortable place for her, and said nonchalantly: "If we stop, we will stay for two more days. It is just for you to go back for two days. Don't you say you are busy?"

Fu Sitian gave his hands a slight pause, and Fu Jiantao immediately retorted: "That's impossible, the child still has to go to class. Is there an exam in two weeks?"

Fu Sitian gave a soft "hmm".He was talking about the judicial examination.

The old man put on a straight face, and said disgustedly: "Hey, I said that it's useless for girls to read too much, and they can't find anyone to use them now. It's okay now, but how can it be like this when they get married in the future. Women still have to take care of their families. One point, I don’t care about family affairs, like what I say.”

Fu Sitian laid out the chopsticks and the food for the old man: "Grandma, let's eat." She hoped that eating would save her from saying a few words.

But the old man picked up a chopstick and continued to babble: "Although we will recruit in the future, he is still a big man after all. You still have to focus on him. The male dominates the outside and the woman dominates the inside. He comes in and comes in." For the door, you have to be measured."

Fu Sitian's temples twitched, and his jaw line was tense due to the force.Uncle said she couldn't be more excited.Comparing with her is pointless.She tried hard to convince herself, holding the lunch box, and buried herself in eating in silence.

In hot weather, the smell of urine from the urinal under the bed permeates the air.She listened to the old man's lectures as long as foot wraps, and ate numbly, not knowing whether what she was eating was rice or something else.

I was about to be out of breath, and my eyes turned black in bursts.

Shi Yi.Shi Yi.She recited the name silently in her heart, and what came to her mind were her clear eyes, sallow hands, and her always clean and refreshing smell.

She couldn't imagine Shi Yi standing here, she couldn't imagine Shi Yi living such a life.

unimaginable.

She was dazed - how to break up with Shi Yi.Just thinking about it made her feel empty.

It cannot affect Shi Yi's exam, so the time must be after the judicial exam.But the way, no matter how much she thought about it, she couldn't think of a so-called "appropriate" way.

How can they break up?Break up, where will there be a suitable way.

She was in the hospital, unable to cry or laugh. She persisted until Sunday, followed the flow of people into the bullet train station, into the waiting room, into the bullet train, and sat in a daze for an unknown amount of time. The flight attendant reminded her, "Ms. We've arrived at the terminal, do you need help?" She woke up with a start.

She hurriedly picked up her bag and got out of the car, and suddenly remembered that it was getting late, so she quickly took out her mobile phone to check the news.

Shi Yi didn't send her a message.

It's evening.Is the list out yet?

She was worried, and wanted to go to the school's official website to check it out, but she didn't know whether it was because the location of the station was too remote, or the mobile phone signal was too bad, so the web page couldn't be refreshed.

There was no other way, so she had no choice but to put away her phone, force herself to calm down, and walked towards the exit.

Twenty minutes later, she got off at the bus stop near the rental house and walked up the overpass along the non-motorized lane.The typhoon seemed to have affected Shanghai as well. It began to rain lightly, and some people under the flyover had already opened umbrellas.With a casual glance, a familiar figure swayed past her sight.

Fu Sitian looked intently—it was Zhang Lulu.

Zhang Lulu didn't open an umbrella, he seemed to be walking in a hurry, and his figure was full of anxiety.She walked quickly, turned a corner, and turned into the alley leading to her rental house that she and Shi Yi walked through countless times.

For no reason, Fu Sitian's heart beat suddenly, feeling like he was too panicked.She subconsciously watched the intersection where Zhang Lulu disappeared and began to trot, her mind kept flashing the battle they had just fought with the school not long ago, the phone call that Shi Yi was called away by the counselor, Zhang Lulu's impatient figure just now... …

Impossible, just a coincidence, don't think about it.She desperately suppressed the terrible premonition in her heart.

Panting, limbs weak.

She rushed into the rental building and trot upstairs.Step by step, the breath was so short that I felt like I was about to vomit.

Only the last corner and a dozen steps were left, and she heard Zhang Lulu's angry voice: "It's against the school's rules to do this! It's not fair! Shi Yi, this is completely retaliation!"

"Based on your grades, how could you fail to get in. Shi Yi, I'm sorry, I'm sorry, I didn't expect it to end up like this."

"Let's write a report letter! Shi Yi, let's report it up, and let's report it again!"

Fu Sitian's feet felt weak, he missed the steps and fell down.

The sound of heavy objects falling to the ground and the sound of the schoolbag strap hitting the handrail of the stairs sounded together.

Shi Yi changed his face almost at the same instant, pushed away Zhang Lulu who was blocking the door, and ran towards the stairs.

Fu Sitian was lying on the stairs, as if unable to get up.She looked up at Shi Yi, her face was pale, her eye circles were red, but she didn't cry out for pain, but asked her cautiously with a bit of pleading: "Shi Yi, what did she mean?"

Shi Yi's heart seemed to be broken by something.

She choked her throat, avoided her eyes, did not answer directly, but knelt down on one leg, hugged her, and asked warmly, "Where did you fall? Are you okay? Can you stand up?"

Tears flowed down Fu Sitian's eyes.She pulled Shi Yi's hand down with her skinny right hand, looked at Shi Yi stubbornly, and wanted an answer from her.

Shi Yi still didn't answer her, but put his arms around her and said, "I'll pick you up."

Fu Sitian hugged her collapsed, hugged her tightly, buried his face in her shoulder, and trembled all over.

She was crying, but not a single whimper escaped her.

People began to poke their heads in the corridor, and Zhang Lulu stood at the top of the stairs, at a loss.

She saw Shi Yi took off the indifferent mask he had faced her, softened his brows and eyes, and hugged Fu Sitian tightly.

She coaxed her: "It's no big deal, Tiantian."

"no big deal."

"On my own, I can pass the exam."

Fu Sitian's back trembled even more.

Zhang Lulu felt his throat was blocked.She vaguely saw two little beasts hugging each other for warmth in the ice and snow.

So hopeless.

And so stubborn.so warm.