throbbing for you

"Okay." A few seconds later, Shi Yi's difficult answer sounded in the air.

It's not the time to worry about these things, but Fang Ruohua still feels sad.Shi Yi didn't give in at all, her straightforwardness even made her feel that it was ridiculous for her to put herself and Fu Sitian on the same scale.Fang Ruohua stared at the photo album shaking, her heart was broken again and again, she was extremely sad, but she was able to harden her heart and say the ruthless words.

"Is it enough to give you a week to move?"

Shi Yi seemed to be frozen by something, staring at Fang Ruohua for a moment, a tear rolled out without a sound.She understood what Fang Ruohua meant.

"Enough." She lowered her head and sniffed lightly, trying to put away her embarrassing fragility, but the deep nasal voice still betrayed her. "Do you want to transfer the remaining money in the card to you?" She asked looking at their converging shadows on the ground.

Fang Ruohua endured the pain and calmly replied, "Send me your Alipay account password as well."

She is asking her to give everything back to her.

Shi Yi's long eyelashes trembled, but no more tears fell.She withdrew her hands, put them on her knees, and sat upright, with a more calm posture than Fang Ruohua: "Okay. The card is not bound, and I will transfer it to you when I get back."

Fang Ruohua gave her a chance: "Don't worry, you can think about it for two days."

Shi Yi rebuffed: "No need."

Fang Ruohua opened her lips, but finally did not make any sound.

The air became quiet again. Shi Yi looked at the ankle brace on Fang Ruohua's ankle, and said without emotion, "Try to wear high heels as little as possible in the future. After twisting your ankle once, it's easy to repeat it. If your knee still hurts, the whole body Do a checkup. Jiajia is getting older, don't get too used to her. Your waist is bad, and it will be uncomfortable at night if you hold her for a long time."

Fang Ruohua's heart trembled from every word she said. "Hmm." The monosyllabic response was cold and perfunctory.

Shi Yi's throat twitched, he stood up and said, "Then... if there's nothing else, I'll go back first."

Fang Ruohua's heart was more than half empty as she stood up, but she still answered, "Yes."

Shi Yi stood there for two seconds, turned around, raised his feet and walked out step by step.The shoulders are sunken, the waist is straight, and the whole figure is like a tall snow bamboo.

Fang Ruohua watched her, and this daughter who had unknowingly become an adult, every second of the footsteps seemed to be infinitely elongated.She hoped that Shi Yi would turn around in the next second, show weakness to her, show affection to her, even if it was just a little loose.

But in the end, Shi Yi stood still by the door, and when he turned around, what he said to her was: "Mom, we mother and daughter can settle the matter between us. For the past three years, don't talk to Si Tian in private. ,May I?"

Fang Ruohua was caught off guard by her blocking, and did not speak for a while.

Shi Yi looked at her with pleading eyes.

Fang Ruohua couldn't tell whether it was because of Shi Yi's rare display of weakness in the whole conversation - because of Fu Sitian's.

Fang Ruohua finally avoided her eyes and promised her, "Okay."

She always kept her promises, Shi Yi frowned.She seemed to want to laugh, but she couldn't move the corners of her lips completely. She only pursed a very shallow curve, and said softly and peacefully, "Then... Mom, take care of yourself."

"We, see you in three years."

Fang Ruohua sullenly did not answer.The door was gently closed with a "click", and Fang Ruohua sat quietly, like a sculpture, listening to her footsteps across the platform, down the stairs, into the hall, and disappeared out of her hearing...

It was as if something had come out of his own life.

Fang Ruohua stood up abruptly, hurriedly chased after two steps, and stopped hastily.Tears fell like rain.

The beloved son of the parents has a far-reaching plan for it.She didn't ask Shi Yi to understand her now.All she wanted was that Shi Yi's second half of his life would be smooth and worry-free, safe and happy.She can protect her for a while, but cannot protect her forever.With Fu Sitian's family background, how could she safely give her the jewel in her palm that she has cared for for 20 years.

Shi Yi still doesn't understand the things in this world, but she has seen too much.Real life is far from easy as she thought.Drinking water with affection will not really fill you up.

Now Fu Sitian lives in Shi Yi's house and spends Shi Yi's money to let Shi Yi take care of her. It doesn't matter. Shi Yi's financial conditions are better than hers now, so he should bear more.But in the future, what about her father who is about to come out of the labor camp after taking drugs and killing people?Do you also want to become the burden and stain that Shi Yi has to carry in this life?Has her father really changed?What if it is psoriasis that cannot be removed, a bottomless pit that cannot be filled?

She can't just watch Shi Yi take such a risk, it's not something her child should face in life.She wants to give Shi Yi time, and let reality teach Shi Yi a lesson, so that she can really grow up and understand what life really is, and being responsible for her own choices is not just a word on the lips.She also needs to give herself time, wait for a more suitable time, and hit the snake seven inches.

Shi Yi returned to the lobby as if nothing had happened. Jiajia sat on Xiangye's shoulder and played. When she saw Shi Yi coming down, she narrowed her eyes and opened her hands to her, asking her to hug her.

Shi Yi reached out to take her, looked down into her bright eyes, and, rarely, lowered his head and kissed her forehead.

The little man was kissed, a little shy and a little happy, grinning silly.Shi Yi told her: "From now on, you must listen to your mother and grow up well, you know?"

How could the child understand, all she wanted was to hug her, rub left and rub right.

Shi Yi put his arms around her and patted her on the back lightly, his eyelashes drooping.

Xiang Ye stood aside and was startled, and asked tentatively, "Have you finished talking with your mother? So soon?"

Shi Yi let out a "hmm", squatted down, put Jiajia down, stood up, took out the car keys from the bag, bent down and put them on the coffee table.

She nodded to Xiang Ye, and asked him very politely: "From now on, mother will ask uncle to take care of her more."

Xiang Ye was stunned: "This...what..."

Shi Yi didn't say much, shook his head, turned and walked out without waiting for his reaction.

Xiang Ye wanted to reach out to grab her, but because he was not that close to Shi Yi, he retracted halfway, "I'll see you off." Xiang Ye shouted loudly.

Shi Yi turned his back to him and waved his hands without looking back.

So he could only watch the stubborn and thin figure of the girl walking out of his house, her skirt fluttering, being swept into the vast night by the wind and rain.

It rained heavily again, with the wind raging, and the umbrella couldn't stop it at all.

Shi Yi walked for a while holding an umbrella, her skirt was mostly wet.She took out her mobile phone and habitually wanted to open the app to take a taxi. When she entered the destination, she suddenly remembered something.

She put away her mobile phone, stood at a place on the side of the road where the wall was slightly sheltered from the wind and rain, searched for the nearest bus stop, and waited quietly for the rain to stop.

After the rain subsided, she walked to the bus station, took a bus based on her common sense of life and her previous travel impressions, and was lucky enough to get the last available seat.

The carriage at night is empty and quiet.No one spoke, only the rain outside the window was crying tirelessly.

Shi Yi looked out the window and listened intently.

After two stops, an old man with a child came up.She stood up and gave up her seat, found a place by the window, grabbed the handle, and continued to listen to the rain silently.

It's been a long way in the past, but when we come back, it's as short as a moment.When he recovered, he was already at the door.

When Shi Yi stretched out his hand to enter the password, he realized that the back of his hand and arms were wet with rainwater.She withdrew her hand, opened her bag, took out a tissue and wiped her wet arms, hair, and cheeks, then flicked her bangs, and opened the door.

As soon as the door opened, there was a rapid kicking sound from inside.Shi Yi closed the door, turned around, and Fu Sitian was already at the edge of the entrance.

"Shi Yi..." Her rising cry stopped suddenly the moment she saw her figure clearly, "Why are you so wet?" She reached out to touch her in a panic.

Shi Yi's hands were cold.

Shi Yi looked at her deeply, held her with the other hand, sat down on the chair in the entrance, and said softly, "It's okay, it's raining a little outside. Just take a shower later."

"Is the parking place at uncle's house so far from the gate?" Fu Sitian naturally bent his knees to help her untie her shoelaces.

"I didn't drive back." Shi Yi held her shoulders, stopped her movements, and said, "Si Tian, ​​I have something to discuss with you."

Fu Sitian froze, raised his head to look at her, touched her quiet eyes, his heartbeat suddenly became chaotic.

After Shi Yi went to Fang Ruohua's place, the panic that had enveloped her all night struck again.

"Huh?" She asked in a tense voice.

Shi Yi's expression was very calm, and his voice calmly narrated: "My mother knows about us being together."

In an instant, the blood on Fu Sitian's face faded, and he opened his lips, as if he wanted to say something but couldn't find the words. "Then...then you..." She stood up suddenly, and hurriedly touched Shi Yi's cheek, shoulder, arm...

Shi Yi took her hand and shook his head lightly: "I'm fine. My mother is not someone who knows how to do things."

Fu Sitian looked down at her, his head was still buzzing, and his eye circles were already red. "Then Auntie, what do you say?" She asked stagnantly.Shi Yi's hand was still in hers, but she suddenly felt empty and flustered, as if this hand was about to disappear out of thin air from her palm.

Shi Yi closed her eyes and said, "My mother disagrees. She made an agreement with me, and agreed that we would give each other three years. After three years, if I am still with you, she will promise us to be together."

A little hope rose in Fu Sitian's heart, he didn't dare to breathe, he held her hand tightly, and listened to her words without blinking.

Shi Yi continued: "But the condition is that in the past three years," her voice became softer, but Fu Sitian's heart tightened, "I don't want to contact her."

"I'm going to get through these three years completely on my own."

What's the meaning?Is that what she meant?Fu Sitian's lips trembled, and huge guilt and fear engulfed her in an instant.She opened her lips to try to find her own voice, but Shi Yi spoke before her.

"Si Tian, ​​do you... mind me being with you with nothing?" She looked at her as if she wanted to laugh, but failed.Her lips were as white as paper, her black eyes were covered with a layer of mist, and at the end of her words, there was a faint trembling sound.

For a split second, Fu Sitian was in pain.It was the first time, the first time she saw Shi Yi look so unconfident and anxious.How could she be able to get her pity, drag her down to this point, and still get such deep love from her.She couldn't bear it anymore, put her arms around Shi Yi, and hugged her tightly, tears streaming down her face.

"Shi Yi, idiot, big idiot, I don't deserve you like this, I don't deserve it..." She answered her with a sob: "You don't have nothing."

"To me, you are everything."

As if touched by her crying, Shi Yi's snort in his arms became much heavier.She was crying so hard that the body against Fu Sitian's lower abdomen was trembling slightly.

She thought she could bear it.

But holding the girl, holding her last rose on the barren land, the grievances, hesitation, and pretending to be strong all the way, suddenly couldn't hold on.

At that time, Shi Yuanmian taught her that love can be fake; at the age of 21, Fang Ruohua told her that love can be taken back.

Standing in the center of the world, she suddenly discovered that there is no one in this world who loves her unconditionally and forever.

Has she been too arrogant after all these years?

In fact, she is nothing but a dispensable person.

The author has something to say: You are the last rose on my barren land.From Neruda.