sleeping formula

【14】

The afternoon sun was warm and warm, just like the cup of freshly brewed Latte in Yinshi's hand.Gintoki went to the bar of the living room to take the sugar packet, tore it open and poured it in, trying to make the coffee sweeter, otherwise the bitterness of reality would make him unable to think.

Yinshi keeps questioning his own thinking.Originally, he thought that Hijikata couldn't bear the matter of Ginpachi, and was afraid that the Shinsengumi would lose a strong support, so Gintoki chose to lie alone and suffer alone; but when he was determined to do his best to conceal it, he unintentionally strengthened Ginpachi Yinshi was afraid of the original image in Tufang's heart. If one day Tufang found out the truth and felt even more distressed, wouldn't he be the culprit?No matter which option is an unforeseen consequence, each of them may hit the soil side hard. Should he make all these long-term pains worse than short-term pains?Or does the boat go straight when it reaches the bridgehead?He clearly knew that if he got out of the mission of Yinghong Securities, he would have to face these hurdles sooner or later, and evading now would not help the future, but Yinshi still didn't want to let Hijikata get hurt.He convinced himself that it was for the Shinsengumi, but if it was really for the Shinsengumi, Yinshi knew that he should choose to tell the truth and let everyone reserve time for shock, astonishment, sadness or grief.

But he found cowardly that he, Sakata Ginshi, couldn't do it, and choosing to bear it alone became his only way to escape.Yinshi buried his head into the table of the bar, not noticing that someone beside him sat down and patted him on the shoulder.

"Is Silver Sauce okay?"

Gintoki heard someone calling himself, and raised his head—it was Kagura, he thought.

"I feel that Yin-chan has been under a lot of pressure recently. Obviously, the smile was so big before the Aardman mission." Kagura said with the corner of her mouth pulled, "The bastard shook S and said that you have something to hide from us, but I don't know why, I I don't think it's true."

Yinshi smiled wryly, unable to speak for a moment.Sure enough, Sou realized that the four-year friendship was not in vain, and he understood Yinshi's behavior pattern very well.

"Although after the Aardman mission, everyone wanted to know what happened at that time, which made the mission suddenly go wrong. The Mayonnaise said it was you, but no one meant to blame you." Kagura smiled. Yes, I feel a little childish, "Because everyone knows that Yin Jiang is a rookie, and he is also a big fool. People will make mistakes sometimes."

"Hey..." Gintoki protested softly.

"Besides, this idiot, Gin-chan, took the responsibility on himself. I'm so stupid." Kagura said with a smile, "But such a Gin-chan accident is not annoying."

"...I'm not blaming myself for that." Although it's almost the same, Yinshi thought.

"Anyway, Yin-chan is trying to clarify the situation, it's obvious." Kagura raised her index finger, "Tachikawa and Hashida are related to each other, and Yin-chan's insistence on Tachikawa can prove it. Isn't it?"

"...That doesn't prove anything."

"How can you say that?" Kagura seemed about to get angry, "This proves that Gin-chan is working hard!"

Yin Shi looked at it happily.

"It's just stupid silver-chan is stupid silver-chan, I forgot a very important thing!" Kagura said seriously, "The Shinsengumi is everyone's Shinsengumi, not orangutans, not mayonnaises, and not silver-chan A one-man Shinsengumi."

"Hey, isn't there a saying that goes, 'Blessings are shared, and hardships are shared'?" Kagura said, "Sisengumi has always grown up through everyone's stumbles."

"Which person has never been injured? This world will hit everyone. But after being injured, many people will stand up again." Kagura said, "When everyone in the Shinsengumi was injured, they helped each other apply medicine. Instead of grieving, talk and encourage, and then learn from it.”

"Thank you for your encouragement, Kagura." Gintoki said with a smile, "I'm much better now that you have said that."

By saying this, Gintoki actually just wanted to be alone to calm down, but he still forced himself into a smile that wasn't too bad, so that Kagura wouldn't be too worried.Kagura also seemed to have been fooled, and happily rubbed Gintoki's curly hair.

"Although I don't think my short words can give Silver-chan so much strength, but if Silver-chan's mood improves a little bit, I will be very happy."

Gintoki sent Kagura away with a smile.It is a lie to say that Kagura's words are not helpful at all, but Gintoki cannot restrain himself from thinking about the original text of Hemingway's words, which do not have any connotation of encouraging people to cheer up.When he got up, it was time to go back and face the mountain of puzzles, but he didn't have time to spend on self-contradictions.

"Silver, wait a minute."

Yinshi was stunned, when did this guy, Hijikata, appear?

"Sorry, I didn't intend to skip work." Gintoki scratched his head, "I just came here for coffee."

"I haven't even said anything yet, what are you talking about?" Hijikata said, "Besides, it's time to get off work. I want you to accompany me to a place."

"Isn't it almost [-]:[-]?" Did Hijikata get off work so early?

"It's not always that there are so many things that we need to continue to work overtime in the middle of the night," said Hijikata. "Although the Yinghong Securities case is urgent, it is not to that extent."

"Then why are you looking for me...?" Although Yinshi didn't have the guts to tell Hijikata, he didn't want to see him now.

"Go, or not?"

"You have won, Your Highness."

Yin Shi raised his hands in surrender.Sending off the little god, but ushering in the real great god──Yinshi sighed, maybe this is a kind of test.

When Hijikata asked for money, he accompanied him to a small second-hand bookstore with no signboard, which was accidentally hidden in an extremely inconspicuous alley in Roppongi.When I first came to Yin here, I couldn't help but associate this place with the "Gorgeous and Stained Bookstore" described in "Harry Potter", but with more Japanese nostalgic flavor.Old-fashioned posters, flyers, and even clipped newspaper articles are randomly posted in every visible corner of the bookstore.Occasionally, there will be a "landslide" when there are too many books, or it will be impossible to move at all, but the aroma of old books fills the whole store, and Gintoki likes this feeling very much.

"Silver time, this way." Tu waved to him.

"What are you looking for?" Gintoki tried his best to push aside the stack of books and came to Hijikata.

"A gift for my niece, and some paper materials that were abandoned here." Hijikata said.

"Niece?"

"My cousin's child," Hijikata replied, "she likes to read novels, and also likes old books. Every year on her birthday, I give her a literature book. I'm thinking...whether I should give her this "" The Tale of Genji?"

"How old is she?"

"Twelve years old," Hijikata said.

"... Can you understand "The Tale of Genji" at this age?"

"I don't know, you have to ask her." Hijikata shrugged, "Her father told me last time that this little girl clamored for a copy of Jane Austen's "Pride and Prejudice" and insisted on refusing to read the children's version. "

"...It's amazing."

"That's right, the child's potential is limitless." Hijikata said with a smile, "Otherwise, what do you think of this "Romance of the Three Kingdoms"?"

"Would girls like such a passionate work?"

"I don't know, but she also likes historical things." Hijikata said, "You might as well bring both. Anyway, there are many classic books."

Seeing Hijika's serious selection of books, Yinshi had mixed feelings in his heart, feeling sweet but also deeply guilty.

"Ah, someone threw the DVD of "The Padou Dragon Next Door" here. I want to take it away, but I can't take it away." Hijikata said.

"Is that also for your niece?" Gintoki asked.

"No, I want to collect it myself." Hijikata said, "The only animation I watched when I was young, I bought it for nostalgia."

Unexpectedly, Tufang also has such a side.Silver smiled wryly.

"How do you know about this place?" Gintoki asked.

"you guess."

"Uh... Ginpachi brought you here?"

"No. On the contrary, I brought him here, and he was as happy as digging a treasure." Hijikata said quietly, his eyes still lingering on the DVD, as if looking for the price tag.

"I don't want to guess anymore, I don't have enough information." Gintoki surrendered.

"I lived near here since I was a child," said Hijikata. "When I was younger, it was not so easy to go shopping, and I was still studying, so it was even more impossible to walk around. But this bookstore was opened by a friend of my father. My dad used to take me here to pick out books."

"By the way, why did you bring me here?"

"What, you don't like it?" Hijikata asked.

"Not really, I actually like it here." Yinshi scratched his head, "I still want to ask why you are looking for me."

"The reason is very simple, I need you to help me move the books later." Hijikata said, "I have confirmed with the store owner, here are the materials we will need."

"Huh?" Gintoki was startled.

"Don't doubt it, you don't think that Ginpachi Sakata is the only one doing scientific research on dreams in the world?" Hijikata said with a smile, "Scientists from Germany, the United States, and other places have invested in this research, and it's just the conclusion and the result. It might be dizzying to see it as a family, but it should help."

"I didn't expect to find information like this." Gintoki scratched his head.

"I didn't expect it until I heard that you went to Tachikawa with sister Miao, and the information you came back was even less than when I read it before. It suddenly occurred to me that I could come here to find relevant information. Although Sakata Ginpachi's research should be Not many, but some clues can be seen from other people’s research.”

Sure enough, it took a lot of time to find the book, and Yin Shi had a lot of strength to move the book, so the two of them worked together to carry the book to the counter to check out.The boss is an old man with a peaceful face, but he has a rigorous academic temperament faintly.

"Isn't this Shishiro? I haven't seen you here for a long time. What kind of wind is blowing?" The boss greeted with a smile.

"My niece's birthday present, I come here every year."

"That's right, that's right, last year was Osamu Dazai's "No Longer Human", right?"

"Boss still has such a good memory." Hijikata laughed.

"But you're here with Ginpachi-san this time?"

"Oh, he's not Ginpachi," Hijikata said, waving his hands, "He's my colleague, his name is Sakata Gintoki."

"You really have a relationship with the silver-haired boy surnamed 'Sakata'." The boss laughed, "Why are you a relative of Mr. Ginpachi?"

"Um... Boss, he doesn't know Gintoki──"

"Ah, I'm his twin brother." Yinshi said, "But we are not close and haven't contacted for many years, so I don't know his recent situation and news."

Gintoki knew that he was now receiving Hijikata's astonishing gaze.It was an accident or not an accident that he chose to tell the earthwork at this point in time. Yinshi hadn't figured out how to explain it later, but at that moment just now, he only felt that if he missed this opportunity, maybe there would be no better time to break through For the line of defense in your heart, it's better to go all out, it's better to give yourself a chance to face it.

Unexpectedly, Yinshi felt relieved in his heart, without much regret.

The author has something to say: (15) "If people bring so much courage to this world the world has to kill them to break them, so of course it kills them. The world breaks everyone and afterward many are strong at the broken places. But those that will not break kit kills. andtheverybraveimpartially. Ifyouarenoneoftheseyoucanbesureitwillkillyououtoobuttherewillbenospecialhurry.” To kill these people. The world breaks everyone, but after that many people rise from the broken. But those who are not broken, it will still be fair to the well-meaning, the merciful, the brave If you are not one of those courageous people mentioned above, you can be sure that you will be wiped out by the world, but the time is not urgent.) --1929, Ernst Hemingway, "Farefield Dreams" ".