thirsty

After finishing speaking, Bai Shen leaned back in the chair, turned to look at the two people sitting next to him: "Can I smoke here?"

Xiao Xiao shook his head: "No."

"Oh," Bai Shen responded, and stretched out a hand to Li Ke, "give me one."

What kind of logic is this? ? ?

Li Ke took out the cigarette case and lighter from his pocket and put them in his hand. Bai Shen had a cigarette in his mouth, lowered his head and lit it, and the smoke lingered around his fingertips.

The ward fell silent, and several people seemed to be silently waiting for the arrival of the next morning.

After smoking a cigarette, Bai Shen threw the cigarette butt into the trash can, got up and walked outside the door.

It was almost six o'clock in the morning, and the sky in late autumn and early winter was still bottomlessly dark.

When Bai Shen walked out of the ward silently, there was a young man leaning against the wall outside the door. He looked very decent, like a young white-collar worker, completely different from the arrogant look when he first met.

Bai Shen closed the door gently, looked at him carefully for a while before remembering, and said hesitantly, "...Jian Dong?"

The man nodded: "You are Bai Shen, aren't you?"

"En." Bai Shen responded briefly, apparently not very much in the mood and intention of chatting.

But Jian Dong didn't know whether he was too stupid to see it or he was brave enough to face the difficulties: "Let's talk?"

Bai Shen took a look at him, leaned against the wall beside him, and said in response, "En."

"Are you his boyfriend?" Jian Dong then asked.

"Well," Bai Shen thought for a while, then changed his tune, "It used to be."

Jian Dong smiled: "I don't believe it."

Bai Shen didn't speak, Jian Dong turned to look at him: "He likes you very much."

"Yeah," Bai Shen felt that the word "hmm" was endless, so he had to say shamelessly, "I like myself quite a bit too."

"He likes you very much, but also doubts you very much," Jian Dong said, "I know."

"I know too." Bai Shen had no choice but to follow him.

"I'm not young anymore," Jian Dong shrugged, then smiled at him, "I've reached the age to talk about marriage, I should let go of my concern for him for so long, I wish you happiness."

"Huh?" Bai Shen was a little confused, "What do you mean?"

"It means..." Jian Dong thought about it carefully, and found a good wording, "You have to treat him well, I don't want a person I regard as a treasure to become a discarded waste product in your hands."

Bai Shen opened his mouth, wanting to say something, but didn't say it.

No matter how many words, in front of such an explanation, they seem to be pale and meaningless.

"I know your status is very special, much more extraordinary than mine," Jian Dong said, "I'm just an ordinary person, and it's difficult to be good friends with him. I also know that his feelings for me back then were not Love. But he loves you, and I can see that, and that's the only reason I can accept you being together."

Bai Shen looked at him in silence.

Jian Dong is very ordinary, just as he himself described.He even came to the hospital today wearing a shirt, trousers and tie, and carrying a briefcase, as if he was going to sit in an office for a whole day later, very different from those of them who lived bloody days. different.

But Bai Shen envied him very much, maybe after being forced to live through so many turbulent days, he just wanted to flow in peace and quiet.

For Bai Shen, romance doesn't necessarily mean going through the hail of bullets and hugging him tightly, but just a smug look when he turns his spoon while cooking.

He nodded: "Yes."

"Stop mmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmm?" Jian Dong laughed, "Did you talk like that to Lu Xun?"

"No," Bai Shen also smiled, "Don't worry, I will."

"If I knew that you bullied him someday," Jian Dong said, "I would fight you desperately. Let's forget this time, because you two reunited after a long absence."

"...Well," Bai Shen looked at him, "Thank you."

Jian Dong turned his head and took a look into the ward through the glass, then turned and walked out until he walked out of the corridor, his back disappeared.

Bai Shen followed him with his eyes until his back disappeared into the distance of his gaze.In fact, when you were young, there was such a person who made you love with all your heart, which is also a pretty good thing.

He recalled that for so many years, before he met Lu Xun, he never thought that one day, when the opportunity to leave was in front of him, he would give up; but after meeting him, everything was rewritten.

What Bai Shen said was still effective. Two days later, Lu Xun underwent surgery, and the procedure was successful. His eyes were wrapped in gauze, and he was sitting by the bedside waiting for recovery.

It's just that he didn't say a word during the whole process.

As a result, Bai Shen didn't know what to say to him, so he walked into the ward lightly, sat in front of him, and looked at him quietly.

Lu Xun's facial features were very beautiful, with both the exquisite silhouette of Europeans and Americans, and the elegance and naturalness of Orientals. His dark brown hair was slightly curled on his forehead, somewhat blocking the gauze in front of his eyes.After blindfolding, the bridge of his nose and lips looked much softer, completely different from the heroic spirit in his eyes.

Bai Shen couldn't help smiling, imagined his pitiful appearance, and by the way shamelessly imagined the shameful scene of blindfolded doing something that required a mosaic.

In fact, Lu Xun has been waiting, waiting for Bai Shen to explain to him alone, what he said in front of so many brainless and heartless people, saying that he is not gay, married, and only has an interest relationship with him... These words, he thought Listen to an explanation.

This year has passed, and compared to the initial confusion and even anger and hatred, he has settled down calmly, and what he wants more is for the two of them to settle down, even if they can't return to the original relationship.

But after the operation until the gauze was removed, Bai Shen didn't say anything, and the two of them didn't say a word to each other.

Bai Shen came in and out of the ward without saying a word to him or touching him again.

On the day when the gauze was removed, when Lu Xun opened his eyes, it was bright at first, followed by the faces of various people standing in front of the bed.

Among these people, there is no white depth.

"Can you see it?" Xiao Xiao stretched out two fingers and waved in front of his eyes, "How much is this! How much is this!"

Lu Xun ignored him, his eyes still searched the people beside the bed to make sure that Bai Shen was not there.

"Oops, bullshit surgery, I still can't see it," Xiao Xiao who didn't get a response rushed over like a thunderbolt and shook him to one side, muttering, "I'm sorry, I'm not only invisible, but also stupid."

Lu Xun pushed his hand away and smiled at everyone: "I have recovered, thank you for taking care of me during this time."

People gather and people disperse.But Bai Shen disappeared without a trace, as if the world had evaporated.Lu Xun even doubted it.Is his appearance just a dream?

After taking a taxi back to the community, Xiao Xiao got off halfway, and Lu Xun sat until the gate of his own community.

Back in front of the long-lost courtyard, he took out the key and opened the gate.

In fact, in the past year, since he came back from the United States, he seldom went back to the yard, and always worked hard outside, and occasionally had vacations, but he often recuperated in the hospital.

But seeing this courtyard at this moment, is more surprising than nostalgic.

"Fuck?" He walked in, couldn't hold back the swearing, after all, his courtyard really didn't look like this!

Lu Xun retreated outside the door, looked at the plaque carefully, and then looked around pretending to be a ghost. After confirming that it was his own yard, he walked in again as if he had seen a ghost.

"WTF??" He couldn't help swearing again.

There are already a lot of flowers and plants in the yard that he doesn't know or appreciate, and even a swing and a rocking chair have been added.It seemed that the yard and the house had been carefully cleaned. Although he hadn't been back for a long time, everything he looked at was very clean and tidy.

He walked to the stone bench in the courtyard and sat down. On the stone table next to him was a glass full of iced lemon juice, which seemed to have just been brought out not long ago.There is still a layer of water mist on the outside of the cup.

Lu Xun picked it up and took a sip. It tasted just right, not as scary as the lemon he remembered.

He thought of the [-]% real lemonade that Bai Shen made for him before, and he couldn't help but smile with the corners of his mouth curled up.

There was a sound in the room, the door of the main hall was opened, Bai Shen pushed the box and came out, seeing him, he couldn't help being taken aback.

"Didn't you...remove the gauze this afternoon?" Bai Shen asked blankly.

"Ah, yes," Lu Xun first saw his clean and beautiful collarbone exposed from his untightened coat, and now he was obviously not focused on chatting, "Get better in the morning... just take it apart." gone."

Lu Xun swore that he didn't even know what he was talking about.

"Then you...can you see it?" Bai Shen asked.

"Well, eyesight is a little better than before." Lu Xun's eyes still flickered to his collarbone in the jacket he had opened inadvertently.

The two looked at each other without speaking, and the atmosphere instantly became a little awkward.

"That... the lemonade is quite delicious." Lu Xun looked away, looking for something to say.

"Ah, really," Bai Shen replied, "I was going to take it to the hospital for you."

"You've been living here these days?" Lu Xun asked.

"Yes," Bai Shen replied, "The house was sold and there was no place to stay, so Xiao Xiao let me come here. I'm sorry, but I didn't ask you..."

Before Bai Shen finished speaking, Lu Xun put down the cup in his hand and rushed up in three steps and two steps, kicked the box away and hugged him around his waist, and buried his head in the hollow of his shoulder.Bai Shen was caught off guard by the strong impact, and took several steps back to hold onto the door frame before he stood still.

"Don't talk, don't move." Lu Xun said.

"...Mmm." Bai Shen replied confusedly.

"Don't you have anything to explain to me?" Lu Xun asked softly, like a whisper, "Won't you explain what you did to me?"

"Didn't you tell me... not to talk?" Bai Shen asked weakly.

"Fuck," Lu Xun smiled, "Not now."

"The explanation is very complicated, and it's a long story," Bai Shen said, "I want to make a long story short...have you learned this idiom?"

"Learned early," Lu Xun said, "I have already memorized the fonts and pronunciations of the Xinhua Dictionary for elementary school students."

"Well," Bai Shen said, "Then let me make a long story short, I hope you can understand. I have read Zhang Xiaoxian's words before: I love you, so I am willing to give up everything for you—including you."

"I don't quite understand," Lu Xun said, "Is that what you mean?"

After speaking, he wrapped his arms around the back of Bai Shen's head and kissed it.Bai Shen also hugged him and kissed him more deeply.

"Do you know, the day I went to take a shower at home," Lu Xun left his lips and looked at him from a short distance, "I was really about to collapse, I couldn't hold on anymore."

"...I know," Bai Shen stroked his fur, "I'm sorry."

"You know what, you've been messing with me," Lu Xun said, "I have no intention of forgiving you."

"It's my fault," Bai Shen smiled, "forgive me, please?"

"Be more sincere." Lu Xun said.

"Brother Xun, people are in the rivers and lakes, and they can't help themselves," Bai Shen sighed softly, "Now that I have redeemed myself, I just want to be in a corner with you."

Lu Xun didn't speak, and hugged his waist silently.

"Understand?" Bai Shen asked.

"Understood," Lu Xun buried his face in his neck, and said sullenly, "My Chinese is pretty good now."

"Are you crying?" Bai Shen asked cautiously in disbelief.

"No." Lu Xun's voice was still muffled.

Bai Shen felt a lot of wetness on his shoulders, he sighed, and patted his back lightly: "Cry, you little brats love to cry."

Lu Xun shed tears silently for a while, and when he heard these words burst out suddenly, he restrained himself from letting out a deep growl, as if to vent and release.

Bai Shen thought that he was just feeling emotional about the two getting back together again, but it was obviously not the case now, or at least it was more than that.

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finally!Reconciliation ⊙?⊙!