thirsty

Crying and crying are two very different things.

Bai Shen could feel very clearly that when he had seen Lu Xun shed tears before, it was just tears. There was no emotion to vent, and it could even be rationally classified as an afterthought physiological reaction.

But this time it was different, she was really crying.

Lu Xun's hoarse growl was like venting that he had accumulated for many years, his entire shoulders and back trembled violently uncontrollably.

Bai Shen couldn't think of anything to say, and at this moment, Lu Xun probably didn't want to hear any comfort either.Bai Shen could only pat him on the back without rhythm,

Lu Xun hugged him tightly, clutching his coat tightly with both hands as if grabbing a life-saving straw, buried his head on his shoulder, and cried for a long time before asking with sobs: "Why me? Why..."

Bai Shen was speechless, yes, who can give him the answer, why him?

Having encountered so much, it may have been a long time since Lu Xun vented all his negative emotions with a cry that was almost like a howl.

Bai Shen patted him lightly, so he could only comfort him in a low voice: "It's okay, it's over."

In fact, he also knows that some things, in his heart, are hurdles that can never be overcome.

Lu Xun paused, tilted his head against his neck, and murmured in a nasal voice, "Snot."

"Fuck," Bai Shen couldn't help laughing, "It's okay."

"En." Lu Xun responded sullenly, "Where are you going?"

Bai Shen touched his head and laughed: "I'm crying and twitching."

"I ask you, where are you going?" Lu Xun asked persistently.

"Going to Australia, the time is almost up, and your clothes are here. It shouldn't take long to go back and forth, and I didn't bring too much." Bai Shen said.

"Well," Lu Xun rubbed his face on his shoulder, then raised his head and turned to look at the front yard, "You made it? It's pretty, pretty."

"Well," Bai Shen replied, "I see that many things in the house belonged to me before..."

Before Bai Shen could finish speaking, Lu Xun let go of his hand and walked away, pretending to cough a few times: "That... all those little things of yours have been smashed to pieces by me."

"Oh——" Bai Shen deliberately elongated his voice and replied, "Go buy it again sometime, just go to the small market."

"Well, but you can't buy those things by just visiting the small market, right?" Lu Xun asked.

It’s true that you can’t buy many things. Many things are small things that Bai Shen bought from various places when he was traveling or working outside. They are basically around five yuan, and the most expensive one is only 40 yuan. This is Bai Shen’s romance.

"It's not bad, what's important is that each item bears a specific memory," Bai Shen pushed the box into the yard and looked at him, "Tonight's air ticket, there is still time, how about a meal?"

"Okay, you do it." Lu Xun sat down in the yard, "I'll watch."

Bai Shen turned his head and glanced at him: "Come and help."

"Just cook some noodles." Lu Xun also turned to look at him, and clicked his tongue, "Do you still need help? Do you want to help you count how many noodles you cook?"

After listening to him stuttering, Bai Shen smiled, turned and walked into the kitchen.

During the time he came to live in the courtyard, he was alone, and he usually went to the hospital to take care of Lu Xun during the day. There were no ingredients in the refrigerator, only noodles and half a bag of quick-frozen wontons left over from his breakfast.

Lu Xun walked behind him and leaned against the door frame to look at his back.

Bai Shen is a little thinner than before, and he is indeed a little tanned, his hair has been cut short, adding a bit of wildness to his gentle and elegant image in the past, which suits his current identity of the truth.

"By the way, your house..." Bai Shen looked back at him guiltily, "Just a bowl and a pair of chopsticks."

"Ah, yes," Lu Xun pretended to be calm and replied, being disturbed by his thoughts that had deviated from the track of some Mosaic kingdom, "Yes."

"When you come back, why don't you buy another pair?" Bai Shen turned to look at him, "If Auntie lives here, she will definitely need to use it. You can also add a few more plates. She might be able to cook or something."

"Understood." Lu Xun responded, swallowed silently, and pretended to turn around to look at the flowers and plants in the yard.

"And..." Bai Shen's voice sounded in the kitchen again, Lu Xun quickly moved back, and replied, "Huh?"

"You only have one bed, and there are two quilts plus a change of laundry. These are not enough, you should buy more." Bai Shen said while removing the pot, his whole body was immersed in the dense mist.

"... Oh." Lu Xun didn't know what to say, so he could only respond.

"Also, after Auntie comes back, don't go out to work so hard, and spend more time with her at home." Bai Shen continued.

"Got it," Lu Xun murmured softly, "There's so much nonsense."

"Also..." Bai Shen looked back and smiled at him, "It's nothing this time, go out and wait."

Lu Xun walked to the stone bench in the courtyard and sat down. Bai Shen came over with a large bowl of noodles, and handed a pair of chopsticks to him.

"You don't want to eat?" Lu Xun asked after taking the chopsticks.

"You only have one bowl at home." Bai Shen sat down beside him, and said very sincerely, "You don't even have a plate from before."

"I found it troublesome when I moved, so I threw it away." Lu Xun said casually.

But Bai Shen listened to these words, he even lost the dishes, but the decorations and gadgets in his house were not left behind, even though they had already been smashed to pieces by someone, he couldn't come back to see the remains of the corpses.

"Remember to buy it." Bai Shen reminded him.

"Okay," Lu Xun looked up at him, but he was not polite. He picked up the chopsticks and put it in his mouth immediately. Bai Shen didn't put any oil in it. It was clear and light, but it tasted delicious. "So pure and ascetic." give me something to eat."

"You just recovered, eat something light." Bai Shen looked at him with his head propped on his hands, "Eat slowly, it will take a long time, and you can take a nap if you are tired."

Lu Xun couldn't stand being watched by him all the time, so he lowered his head and ate the noodles and asked, "Would you... have two bites too?"

"No need," Bai Shen quickly rebuffed, "I've eaten, I'm not hungry."

Lu Xun didn't say anything more, and he ate slowly obediently, and he almost counted the noodles while eating.

The sun shone warmly in the courtyard, making people feel warm.Bai Shen probably felt comfortable in the sun, and fell asleep with his arms on his pillow before he knew it.

Lu Xun took a sip of the soup, put down the bowl, and looked at his face carefully.

He is a little more handsome, and looks much more mature, his eyes are squinted like a well-behaved kitten taking a nap in the sun.

Lu Xun watched silently for a while, then got up with the bowl and went to the kitchen to wash the dishes.After washing, he sat back at the stone table, and Bai Shen was still lying there motionless, calm and gentle.

Lu Xun even suspected that he was not sleeping. In this state, he was either in a coma or in hibernation. I hadn't seen him in a year. This magical skill of sleeping like a dead pig has not regressed at all.

Lu Xun was not tired, these days he was in the ward all day, almost sleeping in a vegetative state.It is rare for him to have such leisure time and such an aching mood to watch a person fall asleep lying on his stomach, but when he actually watched it, it was quite interesting.

Just like following his steady breathing, the rest of their lives will be spent in such a normal way.

I don't know how long it took, but Bai Shen's breathing quickened a bit, he moved his head, and hummed twice in dissatisfaction, apparently he woke up.

Lu Xun immediately turned his head to look at the scenery.

Bai Shen raised his head in a daze, and tapped his fingertips on the table: "Where's the bowl?"

"Washed." Lu Xun replied.

"Oh." Bai Shen replied, turned his head away, and lay down with his arms under his pillow, as if he fell asleep again.

Lu Xun looked back at him, got up and sat on his right side, and continued to look at him with his head propped up.

"I suddenly remembered," Bai Shen raised his head abruptly, and the two of them met each other's eyes, "Do you understand "A Dream of Red Mansions" now?"

"Look... don't understand," Lu Xun said, "I just know how to read."

Bai Shen sat up straight, thought for a while, dipped the tip of his index finger in the unfinished glass of lemonade.Lu Xun grabbed his hand, put his fingertips into his mouth and licked it.

Bai Shen took a look at him, withdrew his hand and dipped it into the lemonade glass again, and wrote a word on the table, stroke by stroke, very neatly.

deep.

"What does this read?" Bai Shen asked.

"Detective, special spy." Lu Xun said very sincerely.

"Get lost," Bai Shen answered briefly, as if holding a machine gun, "I'll give you another chance to talk properly."

"Deep," Lu Xun could only say, "Deep love."

"Well," Bai Shen nodded, dipped in the lemonade again, and wrote the word "Dai", "What about this one?"

"Take it," Lu Xun read out, and glanced at him, "Really!"

"Well," Bai Shen thought for a while, "I'll take another test for you."

"I don't accept it," Lu Xun grabbed his hand, "Mr. Bai, you might not know me much better than I do."

Bai Shen didn't speak. Lu Xun held his wrist and wrote a word lightly on his palm. His fingertips ran across his skin, making it itchy.

"Guess, what is it?" Lu Xun looked at him and raised his eyebrows.

"Guess?" Bai Shen curled his lips, "I'm a native Chinese."

"Say it?" Lu Xun asked impatiently.

"I know," Bai Shen smiled, "Your word is too simple."

cloud.

"Will you still use this code name in the future?" Lu Xun asked cautiously, as if he was afraid of hearing an answer he didn't want to know.

"I don't know," Bai Shen thought for a while, "I have already exited the deep sea."

Lu Xun let go of his hand: "Then... what do you do?"

"A psychiatrist," Bai Shen said, "traveling the rivers and lakes, this is the only way to make a living."

"You can write poems, draw pictures and play the piano," Lu Xun said softly, lying on the table, "You are a work of art."

Bai Shen glanced at him, but didn't speak.

"Don't look at me." Lu Xun said.

"Huh?" Bai Shen was confused, "Why?"

"Don't look at me as a sheep." Lu Xun turned his head and lay down on the table, muttering in a low voice, "Sheep's intelligence is unimaginable."

"Oh," Bai Shen responded, and then said, "Stupid."

Lu Xun laughed. After laughing for a while, he suddenly said softly, "I like this very much."

"...which kind?" Bai Shen didn't know why.

"Talk nonsense to you while basking in the sun," Lu Xun said, "It's nice to waste time with your lover, isn't it?"

Bai drooped his eyelids deeply, as if he was thinking, before he said after a while, "Are we reconciled?"

Lu Xun looked up at him and asked seriously, "Did we break up?"

"Divided," Bai Shen said, "You said it yourself."

"Which eye of yours saw these words come out of my mouth?" Lu Xun asked.

Bai Shen was silent and did not answer.

After a long time, he said: "Then we are still together?"

"Well, during the cold war." Lu Xun's face was very serious, as if he was holding a school girls' short skirt length discussion conference, "I've been waiting for you to coax me this year."

The author has something to say:

It's school, maybe the update will be slower.I said this while sweating profusely and calmly.