After wearing a sick and weak white moonlight, I collapse every day

The ward was very quiet, so quiet that even the sound of breathing could be heard clearly.

After Yu Xi said those words casually, he began to eat slowly with his head down again, and drank some fish soup with a spoon.

Under the incandescent light, his brows and eyes looked a little cold, as if it had nothing to do with him, none of the ailments fell on him, and what he casually mentioned was not his own death, so those words didn't hurt anyone's heart.

"...Do you think you are doing a desensitization experiment?" Fu Younian looked up at him.

Yu Xi smiled instead, and that little smile diluted his sickness. After a moment of silence, he said: "It's okay to think so."

Fu Younian's Adam's apple twitched, but he didn't say anything in the end.

But when he wanted to stay and rest at night, Yu Xi still let him go with a clear attitude, without giving him a place to sleep.

"Today...it's too late," Fu Younian said, "I'll stay here for now and wait until tomorrow."

"Tomorrow?" Yu Xi knew he was like this again, "You will still say that tomorrow, let me wait until the next tomorrow."

"Yu Xi." Fu Younian always felt that he had nowhere to vent his anger.

But he didn't want to quarrel with Yu Xi, and after they got together, they never seriously lost their temper with each other, let alone quarreled.

When Yu Xi heard Fu Younian calling his name, his eyes suddenly became sour, but he quickly endured it and turned his head away from looking at him.

Fu Younian walked over, sat down by the hospital bed, reached out to hug him from behind, took his hand to his lips and kissed his fingertips, and said, "I'm sorry, I had a bad tone just now, don't be angry.

After hugging Yu Xi, the anger in his heart was extinguished in an instant, he was a little bit soft, and he wanted to pull Yu Xi's quilt to cover him together.

Yu Xi wanted to laugh again, so he grabbed the corner of the quilt and refused to cover him, and finally hugged the quilt in his arms, buried his face in it and said nothing.

"I can't sleep without you," Fu Younian still put his arms around his waist, insisting on pillowing his lap, "Is it wrong for me to want to stay with my wife?"

"You can change to another..." Yu Xi raised his head, blushing a little, and didn't say those two words, "Change your temper, if you don't bully you, you won't die."

Fu Younian looked at him silently, without speaking.

If it was someone else, he might feel that the other party just wanted to comfort or promise, but he knew that what Yu Xi said was sincere.

If he left now, Yu Xi would not keep him, nor would he look for him again, maybe they would just break up like this, until one day he knew from someone that Yu Xi had recovered from his illness, or left in another way.

"Or, or you can come to me after I get better," Yu Xi moved her fingertips and curled up a little, "I won't be angry with you, and I will still like you when the time comes."

Fu Younian felt that the more he said, the more shameful he was, so he raised his hand to cover his mouth, "Shut up and go to sleep."

Yu Xi lowered his eyes, and his eyes fell on the scar on the back of Fu Younian's hand. He took off the gauze, but it hasn't healed completely, and some bruises can still be seen around the wound.

Fu Younian still stayed in the ward to sleep for the night, but Yu Xi drove him to the bedroom in the back of the suite.

The next morning, Yu Xi woke up very early for no reason. He opened his eyes and took a look at his phone, only to find that it was only before seven o'clock.

He put on his coat and got up to go out, only to see that the hospital bed in DouDou was empty.

The little bears she usually placed in the corner were gone, the bedside table was empty, and the curtains were blown by the cool morning breeze, as if the little girl had never been here.

Only a blue star hairpin fell on the ground, probably dropped by her parents accidentally.

Yu Xi leaned over to pick up the little star, put it in the pocket of his hospital gown, and stood at the door of the ward for a long time, until the nurse came to deliver the medicine to him, and then returned to his ward.

Fu Younian wanted to pretend that nothing happened last night, and he still accompanied Yu Xi for treatment as usual.

As a result, Yu Xi was determined to let him go, so he mentioned it again during the infusion.

"But I don't feel tired." Fu Younian said to him.

Yu Xi just looked at him, "You promised me last night that you will leave today."

"...Wait a little longer," Fu Younian stood at the end of the bed, with his hands on the edge of the guardrail, "I'll go back to rest after you get better."

During the few months that Fu Younian accompanied Yu Xi to the hospital, he lost at least seven or eight catties. Not only did he follow Yu Xi in the hospital for treatment and take care of him, but he also went abroad every half a month to meet Yang Que in person. Ming's mother told him that the hematologists in the several private hospitals were too late to catch up with jet lag, and slept for a few hours on the plane at most.

After returning to China, after getting off the plane, he went to the hospital to look for Yu Xi.

The emotions in Yu Xi's eyes were complicated.

He just looked at Fu Younian quietly like that, and when Fu Younian thought his attitude was finally about to loosen, he reached out and pulled out the infusion needle.

The blood trickled down the back of the pale hand in an instant, fell to the fingertips, and dripped to the ground again, forming a small puddle not long after.

Fu Younian was stunned for a few seconds.

Seeing that Yu Xi was going to lie down and sleep directly like that, he finally came back to his senses, strode over, pressed the call bell at the bedside, then pulled his wrist, and covered the bleeding place with clean gauze.Yu Xi's bleeding is hard to stop now, his platelets are much lower than ordinary people, once he bleeds, it will be a disaster.

"...You just want to torture me." The blood soaked the gauze, and Fu Younian felt the wetness of his fingertips pressing the gauze, and said in a low voice with a hoarse and dry voice.

Yu Xi didn't quite agree, he looked at his hand indifferently, and said, "I don't want to torture you anymore."

The nurse rushed over and treated Yu Xi's wound.

It was not until more than ten minutes later that the bleeding finally stopped as before, but the blood oozing from under the gauze could still be vaguely seen.

"Be careful, don't touch the needle again," the nurse moved the infusion stand to the other side, put the infusion needle on Yu Xi again, bowed her head and said, "This is not a joke."

Yu Xi also smiled at her, the light in his eyes flickered and dimmed a bit.

After the nurse left and closed the door of the ward, Fu Younian asked him, "Does it hurt?"

"It doesn't hurt." Yu Xi said softly.

"None of you have thought about it, maybe I am willing to be tortured." Fu Younian leaned against the cold wall behind him and said after a while.

"Huh?" Yu Xi didn't understand where his "you" came from.

Fu Younian never told Yu Xi how his younger brother died, only that he had leukemia.

He didn't want to tell Yu Xi either, it wasn't such a pleasant memory after all.

When his parents died, he was still very young. He had to study, and he still needed others to take care of him. Even if he went to the hospital every day, he didn't stay there all the time, watching how a person became so seriously ill that he finally became bedridden. .

Even in the year when Fu Ruzhuo died, he was only a high school student, and he was busy earning medical expenses at that time, and his uncle and the others were mainly taking care of him in the hospital.

For their death, it was always like a layer of fog, and they didn't even shed tears.

But from the day he learned of Yu Xi's illness, he felt as if countless illusory bubbles had burst in his ears, and what was left was the dazzling reality.

Yu Xi honestly finished the transfusion this time.

Fu Younian brought him a bowl of traditional Chinese medicine, which was bitter and fishy, ​​with a faint sour smell. Yu Xi started to feel sick when he smelled it, but he didn't say anything, and drank it without changing his expression.

They didn't talk much all day.

Yu Xi just huddled under the quilt to sleep, sometimes opened his eyes, barely walked in the corridor, returned to the ward in a few minutes, or watched the game with a tablet for a while, he watched it repeatedly, but just wore it Headphones to watch hip-hop.

But he probably can't jump anymore, he can't even do simple leg raising movements properly, and even taking painkillers can't dispel the fine bone pain.

Sometimes Fu Younian wanted to talk, but Yu Xi couldn't hear him.

He didn't ignore Fu Younian on purpose, but the symptoms of tinnitus became more and more obvious, his mind was in a mess, and he often couldn't hear.Although it doesn't happen all the time, when it happens, Fu Younian has to hold him, sit in front of him and talk to him, so that he can tell the difference.

When the sky was getting dark and street lights were on in the street outside, Yu Xi raised his head and looked out the window, then said to Fu Younian, "Go back, I can eat by myself."

Fu Younian gave the hand holding the lunch box a meal, without saying a word, he put the lunch box on the table, and then sat down beside the hospital bed.

Yu Xi didn't intend to move his chopsticks.

He turned around and leaned on the bed again, looking at the night sky through the window glass in a daze.

During this period of time, it was a bit cold and cold, but the stars were extraordinarily many, and they covered the whole night very clearly.

The food was completely cold, and the pork bone soup was covered with a layer of milky white fat floating on the surface, which looked fishy and greasy.

Fu Younian reheated it again, but Yu Xi still didn't plan to eat it.

In this world, Fu Younian has never met anyone more stubborn than Yu Xi.

Yu Xi had a headache. After the chemotherapy this time, the reaction seemed to be more serious than the first time. Although he had taken stomach medicine and did not vomit easily, other aspects of his body began to become weak and exhausted.Even though these reactions only lasted for a little over a week and didn't recur until the next chemotherapy session, it was still very uncomfortable.

He lay drowsy, somewhat drowsy.

Then when he was about to fall asleep, he heard behind him the sound of cloth rubbing against Fu Younian when he got up.

The footsteps got farther and farther away, and after a long pause at the door of the ward, Yu Xi heard a soft click when the doorknob was pressed, and then the footsteps walked out, and the door of the ward was closed tightly.

He turned his head, covered his buzzing ears, and found that Fu Younian had left.

Yu Xi sat up, stepping on the slippers with cold feet, and after more than ten minutes, in the night, he saw Fu Younian's car parked downstairs in the hospital with its lights on, driving out of the hospital gate, towards the foggy drive late at night.

He suddenly felt tired, and he didn't even have the strength to open his eyes, so he sat on the upright pillow in the ward.

After waiting for more than half an hour, someone went to reheat the food again, picked up chopsticks and sat by the bed to eat.

His stomach was actually very empty, but he still couldn't eat it, and it tasted like chewing wax.

But he also promised that Fu Younian would take care of himself and continue to take good care of him, so even though he couldn't eat, he kept stuffing it into his stomach until he had almost enough for a normal meal before putting down his chopsticks.

Fu Younian drove home.

He didn't go to sleep, just sat on the carpet against the sofa, didn't even turn on the light, and sat like that all night.

The puppy that usually fights with him every day leans over and sniffs the back of his hand. It may be that Fu Younian held Yu Xi's hand, and it is still stained with his blood today, and Yu Xi's breath remains on his fingertips.

Fu Younian silently patted its head.

In the next few days, Fu Younian rarely went to the hospital again.

When he passed by, Yu Xi would pay attention to him and talk to him as usual, occasionally he would help Yu Xi take a bath, and Yu Xi would still play with him, but every time it was getting dark, Yu Xi would start urging him to leave.

As if he was really desensitizing him, the time interval between meetings was gradually lengthened.

Fu Younian didn't feel that he had left the allergen, he felt that his heart had been gouged out.

It might be that Fu Younian didn't stay in the hospital every day during this period. When Mr. Yu heard the news, he was a little worried, so he went to the hospital to see Yu Xi regardless of his family's obstruction.

When he passed by, Yu Xi was still watching the hip-hop practice recording on the tablet over and over again.

"Grandpa?" Yu Xi raised his head, and the person who came in clasped the tablet to his knees.

Mr. Yu stopped him from getting out of bed.

"It's okay, it's okay, you can do what you have to do, grandpa just came to see you." Seeing his pale face, old man Yu felt a sudden soreness in his heart.

When Yu Xi was just born, he was busy fighting openly and secretly in the company, preventing his growing sons and daughters from seizing power from him in advance, saying that he would go to the hospital or Yu Xuecheng to see Yu Xi, and it dragged on day after day. I only went to meet so many times.

It seems to have grown up in a blink of an eye.

Might as well leave him forever.

Yu Xi didn't notice the slight change in the old man's expression, he switched to a game video and clicked on it.

He never went to watch hip-hop dance in front of others, especially Fu Younian, he actually just watched it, and when it came to his regrets, he didn't have much, just afraid that others would feel sad seeing him like this.

"What kind of shooting game is this?" Old Man Yu put on his reading glasses, narrowed his eyes slightly, and leaned over to watch with him.

"Well," Yu Xi briefly explained the rules of the game to him, and I don't know if he understood, "I was playing before."

"Oh, grandpa has seen it, and your little nephew plays it all day long." Mr. Yu smiled at him, and wanted to go to the next one with his mobile phone. After searching for a long time, he couldn't find out which software it was. In the end, it was Yu Xi who helped him. he downloaded.

Yu Xi didn't expect that one day he would take the old man to play this kind of game, and it was a bit of a novelty. Naturally, it doesn't matter the outcome at this time, he just took the old man to browse the map.

When passing by a wooden house in the woods, someone ambushed there and shot old man Yu directly. Yu Xi wanted to rescue him, but he didn't have time. Seeing that the blood bar had run out, he looked at the old man in embarrassment and bewilderment.

But Mr. Yu was still in a good state of mind. He smiled and said, "Grandpa is old, his eyes are blurry, and he can't see these twists and turns."

Yu Xi also laughed, he was always a bit shy in front of his elders.

"You and that... seem to be surnamed Fu?" Old Master Yu hesitated for a while, but still asked Yu Xi, "Have you had a fight?"

"...No," Yu Xi lowered his eyelashes, "I'll let him go back and rest."

"It's okay, if he bullies you, grandpa will help you find a better one." Mr. Yu still doesn't like Fu Younian very much, but he doesn't like anyone else, in his eyes, everyone is worthy Not Yu Xi.

Yu Xi's stomach was not feeling well, he put his hands under the quilt to press, and said with some stubbornness: "He's fine."

Seeing him anxiously speaking for Fu Younian, Mr. Yu sighed, and patted his head amusedly.

Yu Xi and Mr. Yu went to the downstairs restaurant for dinner.

The old man's health is actually not very good. The root cause of his illness was caused by overwork in the early years. After staying with Yu Xi for half a morning, he began to feel tired. He had to let the driver drive him and go back to rest.

"Grandpa will come to see you again in a few days." Before leaving, old man Yu held Yu Xi's hand and said.

Yu Xi nodded and sent the old man to the car.

He watched the car drive away before pulling his scarf and preparing to go back to the ward.

It is already spring, and the sun is shining warmly on the body. Although the weather is not too warm, there is a faint glimpse of a bit of vitality.Yu Xi raised his head, feeling that the sunlight was dazzling. He looked at the people coming and going like a tide beside him, but he couldn't feel any emotions.

His fingers were stiff and numb, and his blood became stagnant, making his chest tight.

His stomach was always hurting. When Yu Xi walked to the elevator, his back was drenched in cold sweat. Before he could get back to the door of the ward, he felt dizzy. A few mouthfuls of blood.

He raised his hand to cover it in time, but the blood still dripped down his fingertips, soaking his entire palm stickily.

After the nurse saw it, he rushed him to the doctor.

Yu Xi didn't know how he passed out, and when he woke up again, he lay down on the hospital bed, and there was still a bloody smell between his lips and teeth.

Through the window glass, he saw Fu Younian talking to the doctor in the corridor.

Fu Younian received a call on the way to the hospital, and then hurried over at the speed limit.

Fortunately, the symptoms of Yu Xi's stomach bleeding were not serious.

After he finished talking to the doctor, he turned around and saw Yu Xi woke up, so he walked into the ward, leaned over and touched his face, and said, "Are you feeling better?"

"...I didn't do it on purpose." Yu Xi looked at him and said.

"I know." Fu Younian took his hand.

"I didn't want you to see it," Yu Xi continued, "I eat well every day, and I also go for treatment. I don't know why...I don't know why..."

"It's okay," Fu Younian felt that something was wrong with him, but he didn't dare to pull him up, so he sat on the edge of the hospital bed, leaned over and hugged him, and said, "I know you are very obedient and take good medicine, but the doctor said no It's very serious, maybe the drugs during this time are more irritating, and the new drugs will arrive next week, so if you change them, you'll be fine."

Yu Xicai quietly did not speak again.

After Fu Younian took over "Blind Friend", he found that his character had a serious stomach problem, so he went to check the symptoms and possible reactions of stomach problems.

He also saw symptoms of stomach bleeding, including vomiting blood.

In that case, not only would there be cramps in the stomach, but if there was a lot of blood loss, there might be palpitations and tremors, which is very painful for people, but Yu Xi only paled a little during the whole process, and the rest of the reaction could not be seen at all. come out.

Fu Younian stayed with him in the hospital until the evening, when it was dark, before Yu Xi could urge him, he got up and put on his coat.

"Baby, sleep well," Fu Younian kissed his eyes, "I'll come and see you tomorrow, okay?"

Yu Xi nodded.

Fu Younian left the ward, stood by the window and waved at him.

But Fu Younian didn't go home.

In fact, although he didn't stay with Yu Xi all day during this period, he still didn't take on plays or do magazine shoots.He spent all his time in contacting the bone marrow for Yu Xi, not wanting to let go of any slim hope.

In the end, he found out about Yu Xi's successful match with Yu Yan, and even thought of arresting Yu Yan for surgery.

He didn't want to care about anything, and he didn't care whether he was doing right or not, he just wanted to make Yu Xi recover from his illness.

But he knew that if Yu Xi found out one day that he was cheated and could do anything, he still wouldn't dare to bet.

Fu Younian suffered from insomnia all night, so he drove to Luo Chen's bar and stayed there for a while.

After drinking a little wine, I finally fell asleep.

Luo Chen didn't know how to persuade him, as if what he said was meaningless, he didn't say a word, drinking with Fu Younian.

Fu Younian woke up suddenly in the middle of the night.

He sat up from the sofa, startled Luo Chen, and asked him, "What's wrong? You slept well."

Fu Younian pressed his temple, and said in a daze, "I seem to hear him crying."

Luo Chen was quite speechless, and said: "Don't be surprised, Yu Xi is much stronger than you. Every time I go to see him, I feel relaxed, at least not like you. I went to see him some time ago. He, he was playing outside with the kid in the next ward, laughing happily."

But Fu Younian only felt the heat in his eyes, this was the most uncomfortable thing for Yu Xi since his illness.

"He is so afraid of pain, such a crybaby, he never shed a single tear." It's all for him.

The author has something to say: the more difficult period has passed~

The next chapter is a sweet one~

But counting the days is faster than [-] days. I am a little tired recently and I can’t stand it anymore. I may take a day off tomorrow, or I may continue to update. If I don’t update, I will ask for leave at night_(:_」∠)_

感谢在2020-11-2923:56:41~2020-11-3022:06:58期间为我投出霸王票或灌溉营养液的小天使哦~

Thanks to the little angels who irrigate the nutrient solution: 20 bottles of Great White Shark in the East China Sea, Domineering Xi; 10 bottles of Cicada Branch; 368448455 bottles;

Thank you very much for your support, I will continue to work hard!