After wearing a sick and weak white moonlight, I collapse every day

During the period of hospitalization, Yu Xi's hair grew a little.

It's a bit like the length of the previous filming of "Youth Delinquent", which can barely be stretched.

His forehead hair hung down softly to cover his eyes and eyebrows, half of his face was hidden under the cashmere scarf, only the white and straight tip of his nose was exposed.His complexion was indeed a little haggard, but it was not conspicuous, and it was easy for people to ignore it and indulge in those eyes scattered with broken stars.

The more seriously ill, the more astonishingly bright.

As if to burn up the few remaining lives, the last flourishing before being burned, intensified, even blinding.

Fu Younian stretched out his hand towards Yu Xi, smiled and said, "Then your boyfriend is back, do you want to go with him?"

Yu Xi noticed that the nurse in the duty room was looking at them.

Even though Fu Younian's voice was so low that only the two of them could hear it, Yu Xi couldn't help but blush a little.

He leaned against the back of the chair in the corridor of the hospital, raised his hands to cover his face, and only looked at Fu Younian through his fingers.

After a while, he put his hand in Fu Younian's palm.

Fu Younian took him by the hand and went back to the ward.

Yu Xi was always prone to sleepiness after infusion, and it was getting late, he went to wash up reluctantly, went back to the hospital bed and lay down, and fell asleep within a few minutes, so he didn't notice that Fu Younian had been hiding in the hospital. The hand in the coat pocket or behind the back.

But before going to bed, he subconsciously left enough room for Fu Younian to sleep.

I only squeezed into the corner of the inner side of the bed, holding the corner of the quilt in my arms.

Fu Younian changed his clothes and took off the glove. The wound on the back of his hand was slightly congested and swollen. He held it for a while, then sat on the side of the bed and touched Yu Xi's face.

He hugged Yu Xi to the middle of the bed so that he could sleep more comfortably.

Yu Xi took pain reliever before going to bed, and slept soundly, but still woke up once in the middle of the night.

When he woke up, he rolled over a little, and felt Fu Younian's hand on his waist, subconsciously patted his back, and hugged him a little tighter, and didn't move any more.Raising her head just enough to touch Fu Younian's slightly pursed lips, Yu Xi kissed him secretly, but without being noticed, she kissed him again, and then retracted into his arms to sleep.

After Yu Xi had a high fever last time, the results of blood routine examination were not optimistic.

And he vomited excessively and caused mild stomach bleeding.

When I drank Chinese medicine, I was so rushed by the smell that I vomited it out in the bathroom. In the end, I couldn't see the color of the medicine, but it was mixed with tiny blood clots.

There is no way to leave the hospital for the time being.

Fu Younian wanted to take Yu Xi home, mainly because he felt that Yu Xi was not very happy in the hospital all the time.

But now, Fu Younian didn't dare to take him away.

If there are any sudden symptoms that are difficult to deal with after returning home, if the illness is delayed, it will only be more difficult later.

In the morning, Fu Younian watched Yu Xi finish a bowl of porridge and took some medicine, then drove to the nursing home to show Yu Xi's former attending doctor his latest examination report.

"Actually, the current treatment plan is already very mild, avoiding many irritating drugs." The doctor looked at the thin pages, frowned, and said to Fu Younian, "He can't drink Chinese medicine anymore. , I can only hold on like this, the effect of the special medicine is effective, and the chemotherapy cannot be interrupted."

Yu Xi's illness was discovered early, but it also deteriorated relatively quickly. It's only been a few months.

"Thanks to the treatment for more than half a year, otherwise..." The doctor didn't say the last sentence.

In fact, Fu Younian and Yu Xi have only been together for more than half a year.

Looking back now, I suddenly feel that those days seem to have been snatched away.

"If you continue in this state... How long do you think you can wait?" Fu Younian asked after a long silence.

"...Here," the doctor didn't dare to say such a certainty, but seeing that Fu Younian insisted on asking, he finally said, "Try to succeed in matching within half a year, otherwise the operation may be difficult. If done, the probability of postoperative recovery is very low.”

Fu Younian rested his wrist on the edge of the table, and his fingertips that had been tapping on the table paused for a moment.

"Psychological preparation is necessary." The doctor gave him a sympathetic look and added another sentence.

More than half a year ago, when he handed Yu Xi's rehabilitation manual to Fu Younian, he actually thought that such a day might come.However, he did not expect that Yu Xi would suffer from such a malignant blood disease, but to be honest, any symptoms in Yu Xi's body are possible.

In this situation, it is luck, and there is still a little hope.

Fu Younian thanked him, got up and left the nursing home.

He stopped by the company to sign a few documents, and then went home to make lunch, planning to take it to Yu Xi later.

Snowball kept circling around his feet, and sometimes grabbed his trousers in dissatisfaction, making him unable to move.

Fu Younian looked down at it calmly, and still couldn't develop much liking for the puppy, so he condescendingly rubbed its fluffy head, went to open the cupboard, and took the bag of dogs Grain, go and pour a little into the basin for it.

Seeing that Xueqiu finally stopped pestering him and went over to eat, Fu Younian thought for a while, took out his phone and took a photo and sent it to Yu Xi.

Yu Xi had just finished the infusion, when he heard the phone ringing next to his pillow, he couldn't help laughing after opening the chat page.

In the photo, Fu Younian shook hands with the puppy with some disgust.

[. ]: You don't always bully it.

[Fu Younian]: Obviously it bullied me.

Fu Younian sat on the carpet next to him, patted the tooth mark on the hem of his trousers that was bitten by the snowball, and complained to Yu Xi.

[Fu Younian]: [picture]

[Fu Younian]: It bit my pants.

[. ]: Then you can bite it too.

"..." Fu Younian always felt that this conversation seemed familiar.

[Fu Younian]: I stewed pork bone soup, and I'll bring it to you later.

[. ]: [Suction slip.jpg]

Every time Fu Younian chatted with Yu Xi, he was immersed in a state of 'my wife is so cute', and when he looked at that Samoyed, he felt much more pleasing to the eye.So he patted its head sincerely, only to be bitten on the wrist by Xueqiu, who was busy eating, and then withdrew his hand, thinking that he might really not be suitable for keeping a dog.

Fu Younian gave the cats and dogs some drinking water, and then took his lunch to the hospital.

Yu Xi chewed more and more slowly, he didn't have much appetite, and felt that Fu Younian had worked hard for him to cook food in different ways, so he tried to eat as much as possible.But this process was really tormenting. He couldn't taste much, and it was difficult to swallow. After eating, his stomach began to churn again.

"You can go to sleep first, you don't have to stay here with me all the time." Yu Xi looked up at Fu Younian.

Fu Younian had already finished eating, and sat by the bed waiting for him.

Yu Xi noticed that Fu Younian was prone to sleepiness recently, and sometimes he would sleep beside his bed, holding his hand.

In fact, Yu Xi suggested many times when he was in the hospital that Fu Younian should find him a nurse, so that he would not have to take so much effort to take care of him, and he could come and see him again when he had time, but Fu Younian did not agree, and every time Pretend not to hear.

"I'll go out for a walk." Fu Younian felt a little sleepy, but Yu Xi hadn't finished his transfusion today, so he didn't want to sleep.

Yu Xi waved at him, urging him to hurry up.

Fu Younian just smiled, put his right hand in his trouser pocket, rubbed his hair with the other hand, and said, "You little heartless thing."

At this time, there were not many people in the hospital corridor.

Fu Younian occasionally sent a voice to talk to Li Yao about work, and went to the consulting room to find a doctor.

Walking halfway, when I raised my eyes, I bumped into an acquaintance, and both of them were taken aback.

Fu Ying had just finished the physical examination, still holding the laboratory test sheet in her hand, she hesitated, wondering if she should talk to Fu Younian, after hesitating for a long time, she walked over, "Why are you here?"

Fu Younian didn't answer her question, but looked down at the test sheet in her hand, and said, "Come for a physical examination?"

Every spring, the school will provide free physical examination quotas for faculty members and family members. Fu Younian heard about it once before, and it was about this time.

"Yes," Fu Ying nodded, "My dad is here too."

Fu Younian frowned slightly.

Every time his uncle came to this hospital, he would go upstairs to chat with Yang Queming's mother, maybe he would meet Yu Xi.

Now that he had talked to him, Fu Younian couldn't just leave like this, so he could only wait downstairs with Fu Ying.

It took almost seven or eight minutes before he saw his uncle come out of the elevator.

Fu Younian noticed that his uncle didn't look surprised the moment he saw him, so he knew that he probably couldn't hide it, so he didn't open his mouth and waited for the other party to ask questions.

The matter of Yu Xi's illness and recuperation naturally spread on the Internet. If you pay a little attention, you will know, and you don't need to search it specially.

Fu Younian guessed that Fu Ying and Fu Le must know about it, but whether they will tell their parents is another matter.Fu Ying probably doesn't know how to speak. She learned to be cautious many years ago, especially when it comes to Fu Younian's affairs, she has never spoken much.

The uncle took Fu Younian to chat for a few words, and when he walked to the place where there was no one at the stairs, he hesitated and asked him, "I saw Yu Xi at the inpatient department upstairs just now, what's going on?"

"If I get a little sick, I may have to stay in the hospital for a few days." Fu Younian said.

"Isn't that the hematology ward over there?" Uncle couldn't hold back and asked again.

"...Yes." Fu Younian couldn't utter those few words, he lowered his head and remained silent, the answer was actually obvious.

The atmosphere was a little dull for a while.

Fu Ying turned around and left without listening to them.

"How long has it been since you found out?"

Yu Xi felt a little bloated after eating, and wanted to go out for a walk, maybe he would meet Fu Younian.

With a coat on his shoulders and a mask, he casually tied the back of his head, clutching his slightly painful and weak left arm behind the buried tube, and walked slowly downstairs.

He just heard Uncle Fu Younian's voice, and stopped subconsciously.

"It's been more than two months." Fu Younian said.

If it was two months, counting the time, it was almost the time when he had just finished calling Yu Xi. Fu Younian's uncle was silent for a long time. I feel that the child's complexion looks bad, as if he is sick, so I ask you to take him to see him earlier, or ask him, you don't take it seriously."

Fu Younian put his hands in his pockets, leaning against the railing behind him, without saying a word.

"I also called him. At that time, he said he had a cold and didn't mention anything else." Fu Younian's uncle continued.

He was indeed not very satisfied with Yu Xi, especially after he found out that Yu Xi was ill.

It's okay to switch to something else. They have all experienced this kind of disease, and they know how much effort it takes to take care of such a patient.He felt ashamed, but frankly speaking, after Fu Ruzhuo's death, he also felt relieved for a moment, as if he had unloaded an extremely heavy burden.

He was naturally towards Fu Younian, and he didn't want Fu Younian to take care of Yu Xi again.

He even wondered if Yu Xi had deliberately concealed it from Fu Younian.

"Won't his family come to take care of him?" Fu Younian's uncle asked with a frown.

Fu Younian was about to speak, when he caught a glimpse of a corner of his sleeve from the corner of his eye, and then there was a sound of light footsteps, getting farther and farther away.

"I have a sense of proportion and will take good care of him. I will take him to see you and your aunt when the time comes." Fu Younian spoke concisely, but blocked him from further questions.

Fu Younian sent his uncle and Fu Ying to the entrance of the hospital, then went upstairs to find Yu Xi.

Yu Xi was not in the ward, he sat alone on the bench by the window in the corridor with his head bowed, wrapped his coat tightly as if he was afraid of the cold.

Fu Younian walked towards Yu Xi's direction.

He thought Yu Xi would cry, but he didn't.

When she reached out to touch Yu Xi's cheeks and the corners of her eyes, there were no wet marks.

Yu Xi looked up at him, but didn't speak.

Fu Younian forgot the injury on the back of his hand, subconsciously touched Yu Xi's face with his right hand, and when Yu Xi saw it, he grabbed his wrist and asked him, "Where did you rub it?"

"In the company," Fu Younian lied, "I accidentally scratched the office when I moved it."

Yu Xi couldn't see how serious his wound was under the gauze, so he believed him for now.

"Did you meet my uncle just now?" Fu Younian knelt down on one knee in front of him and asked while holding his hand.

Yu Xi shook his head.

He didn't see anyone in the ward, he just found the nearest path and went downstairs.

"Don't take his words to heart." Fu Younian kissed his cold fingertips.

Yu Xi found out that he had always been self-indulgent. He thought that Fu Younian's family really accepted him, and they were all caring about him before.

But it wasn't too sad.

And Yu Xi felt that what the other party said was not entirely wrong.

When he passed by other wards, he would occasionally take a look. Even at Dou Dou's house, there were several people accompanying him in the bed, but on his side, Fu Younian was always accompanying him.

Yu Xi knew he couldn't get well, how could he be cured well.

He is always going to die.

Now he struggles even to go upstairs, he has undergone chemotherapy, and the arm where the tube is buried is not only unable to carry heavy objects, but also has bone pain, and it is even difficult for him to get out of bed when turning over.

The more Fu Younian pays for him, the more he will miss him in the future.

When he thought of his own death, he felt that his mind was blank. He couldn't imagine what it would look like, or it might be ugly, or it might be as pale as a piece of paper, but he didn't care, even thought about it over and over again, and his heart was indifferent , not even a little wave.

But when he thought of leaving Fu Younian alone after his death, his heart began to ache, and the blood flowing in every blood vessel was sour.

Just turning this thought around a little bit, there is an urge to cry.

Seeing that Yu Xi stopped talking again, Fu Younian lowered his head and said nothing, then looked around and found that there was no one there, then took Yu Xi's hand, moved closer, and quickly pressed it on his lips. kissed.

Yu Xi had a straight face at first, but he couldn't pretend anymore, and smiled with his lips pursed, his eyes curved a little.

Fu Younian was still worried for a while. He was always afraid that Yu Xi would be unhappy and would be at a loss in front of Yu Xi. It might be a bit shameless to say that, after all, he was no longer a teenager, but even when he was young, he never There was a feeling of love for someone.

He hides a treasure in his heart that he is not willing to show to others easily.

It is the person he loves the most, the only person he has ever loved, irreplaceable, and he will be careful when mentioning the word "love" in front of him, for fear that he will feel frivolous, and he can do anything for him, as long as he doesn't want it.

Yu Xi reached out and touched Fu Younian's face. He was about to speak when he heard the nurse calling his name, and quickly distanced himself from Fu Younian.

The nurse went over with a temperature gun and took Yu Xi's temperature.

Just as Yu Xi put down his sleeves, he saw the nurse measuring Fu Younian again.

Fu Younian was a little confused by the measurement.

This nurse has also worked in the hospital for more than ten years, and has known Fu Younian for a long time. She was supposed to take Yu Xi's temperature, so she took his temperature. Unexpectedly, the temperature was really wrong, so she took it again and found that It is indeed a bit of a fever.

Fu Younian held hands with Yu Xi and was scolded, saying why the family members had a fever and had close contact with the patient, so they were not afraid of infecting the patient.

"I'm sorry, I didn't feel it." Fu Younian said.

He pinched Yu Xi's fingertips, a little worried that he had caught a cold, and he kissed Yu Xi just now.

"I guess I stayed up too late." The nurse wrote down Yu Xi's temperature at noon in the notebook without looking up.

Every time she went to make ward rounds at three o'clock in the evening, she would see Fu Younian sitting there waiting for Yu Xi's fever to subside, with clear eyes and no sleepiness.

Yu Xi touched Fu Younian's forehead with the back of his hand, only to realize that Fu Younian's body temperature seemed to be higher than his, a little hot.

"Go downstairs and have a look." Yu Xi said to him.

"Well," Fu Younian nodded, "then you go to bed first, I'll be back later."

Yu Xi got up and went back to the ward to lie down.

He flipped through the text messages in his inbox. Some time ago, his grandfather said he wanted to find a nurse to take care of him. Yu Xi originally picked one, but Fu Younian disagreed, so he didn't contact him.He turned to the message record, looked at the number, and tapped it a few times with his fingertips, but didn't press it for a while.

Yu Xi couldn't fall asleep, so he looked at his phone aimlessly.

The private messages on Weibo were already full, and Yu Xi didn't bother to click on them for many days. Just after clicking on them, his phone froze for a moment.

He watched a part of it, and then changed his trumpet to go shopping in Chaohua.

There was a post that kept getting upvoted. He clicked in and took a look, and found that it was a photo of Fu Younian walking the red carpet last month.Fu Younian seldom walks with his female companions now, unless the organizer of the film festival has clear arrangements and requirements.

That time Fu Younian left alone.

But the camera angles are sometimes intriguing, with a few shots as if he was looking back to hold an actress behind him.

The blogger posted an analysis full of details, with a lot of pictures, saying that this person is just good at acting on the occasion, he treats everyone like that, and his affectionate expressions are all disguises, why do they still eat fish so sincerely? In the end the truth is all false.

Yu Xi actually received several private messages from fans, urging him to break up with Fu Younian.

Saying this kind of scumbag is not worth it.

Of course, they had no evidence that they were together, they were just speculating, especially since he and Fu Younian had collaborated in so many dramas and variety shows in a short period of time, and even the last movie had a same-sex theme. Lang is so hot, not only does not avoid suspicion, but also dares to shoot anything, which is not normal.

Yu Xi looked at it for a while, then turned off the phone.

Fu Younian went to see a doctor, and then took some antipyretics.

No problem, maybe just tired.

When he returned to the ward, he saw that Yu Xi was still awake.

Fu Younian didn't dare to sleep with Yu Xi again, so he sat beside him, hooked Gou Yuxi's fingertips, and said, "Take a break, I'll read some documents."

"...Otherwise, leave me alone." Yu Xi whispered.

Fu Younian didn't hear clearly, and looked up at him.

Yu Xi shook his head and said, "It's nothing."

Seeing that Fu Younian didn't ask any more questions, he closed his eyes and went to sleep.

He was so skillful at pretending to be asleep that Fu Younian didn't even notice. He occasionally looked up and found that he was still asleep, so he sat back down again, frowning and pressing his temples to continue reading the company's documents.

Li Yao came once in the middle, tried to keep his voice down, and talked with Fu Younian about something.

When he was about to leave, Fu Younian was planning to go downstairs, so he went with Li Yao.

After closing the door of the ward, Li Yao saw the injury on the back of Fu Younian's hand, and casually mentioned, "Remember to bring the driver with you next time, so don't drive there by yourself."

"I haven't." Fu Younian refused to admit it.

Yu Xi felt that he couldn't continue to watch Fu Younian stay here with him.

Not long after they got together, Fu Younian once mentioned to him whether he wanted to go abroad to play and find a place he likes to stay for a while.

Yu Xi could tell that he wanted to rest himself, but at that time, it was impossible for him to listen to Fu Younian.

He just doesn't want to stop, he would rather live like a perpetual motion machine, or only in that way, he can feel that he is still alive, instead of staying in a closed nursing home, unable to see the outside world, when night approaches, It feels like waiting to die.

Besides, Fu Younian didn't like him much at that time, and he didn't have much trust in Fu Younian either.He didn't know if Fu Younian would give him expectations like He Huixing and the others, leaving him alone in the end.

Now he hopes that Fu Younian is that kind of person.

I hope Fu Younian doesn't like him that much, and don't treat him so well.

The author has something to say: There should be a few more chapters to come, the progress of the serialization period is just looking at it, and it is not too far away from the end. Those who can persist can chase it for a few more days, see the comments and Subscribing to follow-up updates is more motivated by code words~ If you feel really uncomfortable looking at it, just stock up. I will write the title of the chapter when I recover, and then I can continue to read hhh

感谢在2020-11-2723:55:57~2020-11-2823:55:28期间为我投出霸王票或灌溉营养液的小天使哦~

Thanks to the little angel of the irrigation nutrient solution: 40 bottles of never staying up late; 8 bottles of encounters in a corner; 5 bottles of deep forest and shallow water; 1 bottle of m sweet flower wine;

Thank you very much for your support, I will continue to work hard!