After wearing a sick and weak white moonlight, I collapse every day

Yu Xi's voice was very calm and gentle. In fact, he has never been such a gentle person, but he just pretended to be so.

Doudou believed it to be true, so he relaxed his frown slightly, and gave Yu Xi a piece of chocolate candy hidden in his palm that was about to melt.She pulled Yu Xi's wrist, made Yu Xi lean down, then leaned into his ear and said, "Brother, let me tell you a secret, I'm about to be discharged from the hospital."

"But then we won't be able to watch Jiujiu together." Yu Xi said.

DouDou showed a bit embarrassed expression, but then he became happy again, and said to Yu Xi: "It's okay, I can come and see my brother. Dad said he will go home and rest for a few months, so he will send me to school. The school is next to the hospital." , Brother can also come and play with me."

She couldn't understand the lies behind the adult's words, and she promised that if Yu Xi went to visit her, not only could they watch Jiujiu together, but she would also bring candy to Yu Xi, chocolate or milk candy.

"That's great." Yu Xi solemnly checked her.

After Doudou followed his father back to the ward, Fu Younian came out around the corner.

Yu Xi felt that Fu Younian probably didn't notice anything, half of his acting skills were taught by Fu Younian when he was on the set, and in the end he also deceived Fu Younian.

"I called your agent just now, and he will handle it without you needing to come forward." Fu Younian knelt down on one knee in front of him, holding his fingertips.

It was originally planned that Yu Xi would have several fan meetings in June, both at home and abroad, but now it is already March, and there is no way to undergo surgery. Even if a suitable bone marrow can be found immediately, the postoperative recovery will take several months Time, the fan meeting must not be held.

Although Yu Xi debuted as a child star, he is a complete newcomer in this world and is still on the rise. Just because of a suspense drama and the previous hip-hop variety show became popular, he has to temporarily retire to recuperate. It is very difficult for fans. Unacceptable impact.

It's just that they don't take on new dramas, and they can still get away with it. They don't even go to fan meetings, and all commercial activities are suspended. It's impossible to hide it no matter what.

The company will send a short Weibo explanation for him, but it will not say what disease he has, only that he needs to rest.

Yu Xi took his mobile phone from Fu Younian, just when his manager sent a message saying that Weibo had been edited and sent out.

For the first time, he was a little afraid to read the comments.

At that time, he had an accident on the set and caused serious head injury and blindness. After the news spread, in fact, the first wave of cynical doubts and speculations ushered in. It was not until he was really diagnosed that he would never see the light of day again. Such remarks gradually dissipated. , the rest is pity and sympathy.

Yu Xi didn't look at the comments under his Weibo first, just flipped through them casually, and diverted his attention by the way, so as not to focus on his aching stomach all the time.

He was on a small account, and only Fu Younian was followed on the account, as well as their CP Chaochao.

Fu Younian sat down beside him, put his arms around his waist, and looked down at his mobile phone screen.

Yu Xi blocked the screen, moved a little to the side, and raised an eyebrow at him.

"Stingy ghost." Fu Younian said.

He scratched Yu Xi's waist.

Yu Xi was ticklish all over, when he touched him, he subconsciously hid with a smile, picked up the cashmere scarf on his lap, and threw it towards Fu Younian.

Fu Younian was caught off guard and was hit right on the ground, and the world suddenly went dark.

Fu Younian: "..."

The nurse who passed by to deliver medicine to Yu Xi couldn't help laughing when she saw it.

Fu Younian was laughed at and felt a little depressed.

"Can you be gentle with me?" Fu Younian took off the scarf and folded it, turned his head and whispered to Yu Xi.

Yu Xi looked at him like he was looking at a fool, his eyes were full of pity.

Yu Xi ignored him, secretly clicked into Chaohua, and then paused with his fingertips, almost slipped his hand and dropped the phone directly.

[Zhizhi Taotao: Although, I haven’t seen Mr. Fu going to participate in any activities recently. Is he recuperating with the fish? ]

[It's a sheep bleating: I found a blind spot upstairs. ]

[Sapphire: Teacher Fu's itinerary stopped on the 26th of last month and has not been updated...]

Yu Xi felt that the cabinet doors between him and Fu Younian were about to become transparent.

The film crew of "Blind Friend" has not been exposed, and even Reuters has not. It stands to reason that no one will know who the leading actor is.But in fact, it is impossible to hide it completely. Some fans have already known the news, but the official did not mention it clearly. Maybe there are still variables, so no one speaks out.

Occasionally, some marketing blogs post a few plausible pictures, but not many people pay attention to them.

If it was before, Yu Xi felt that it was okay to come out with Fu Younian, and their falling in love was not an unreasonable thing, and they did not feel sorry for anyone.But now he doesn't really want to come out with Fu Younian unless he recovers from illness.

If he can't get well, Fu Younian will be left alone to be criticized at that time, just thinking about it makes him feel uncomfortable.

Fu Younian saw that Yu Xi had been looking down at the phone, his expression didn't fluctuate, as if he hadn't been affected too much, so he hugged Yu Xi's scarf and sat beside him silently leaning against the wall to rest.

The scarf felt very warm to the touch, and it still carried the body temperature and breath of Yu Xi.

Yu Xi looked at Weibo for a while, clicked on the fanart written by a few fans and glanced at it, then turned it off with a blushing face, turned to look at Fu Younian cautiously, only to find that Fu Younian fell asleep at some point up.

He closed his eyes, and he could faintly see the tiredness in his eyes. From the brow bone to the bridge of the nose, the outline of his side face showed a little cold and even cold arc. His brows were slightly frowned, probably because he couldn't sleep well. After all, the hospital staff behind him The pale walls are somewhat hard.

All in all, it doesn't look like a good deal.

Yu Xi sat sideways, staring at him intently, then stretched out her fingertips to poke his cheek.

Fu Younian did not wake up.

Yu Xi moved a little closer, and pressed Fu Younian's upper lip with slightly cool fingertips.

He played by himself for a while and felt a little bored. Just as he was about to withdraw his hand, he felt that Fu Younian suddenly kissed his fingertips and slapped him on the arm unhappily, "Why are you pretending to be asleep?"

Fu Younian raised the corners of his lips, then opened his eyes, stretched out his hand to pinch his thin but still delicate chin, his movements were thin, and his tone was teasing, "I just fell asleep, I don't know which little bastard owed it to you!" tidy."

As soon as Fu Younian finished speaking, he felt Yu Xi's sudden silence, and he had a bad premonition in his heart. Before Yu Xi couldn't bear to slap him, he stood up and ran to the other side of the corridor with a smile, and took the scarf away, so as not to Yu Xi had something in his hand to hit him.

Before lunch break, someone in the next ward poked his head out to look at it gossipingly.

Yu Xi couldn't stand the shame, so he gave Fu Younian a displeased look, and went back to the ward to hide his face with his collar.

Turning her head to see that Fu Younian hadn't come, she hid behind the door of the ward clutching her stomach and hooked her fingertips at him.

Only then did Fu Younian walk over and hold his hand.

After staying in the hospital for another week or so, Yu Xi's condition gradually stabilized, and the chemotherapy reaction was not as serious as it was a few days ago.

Although I still have no appetite, at least I can eat something, and I won't spit it out every time I just finish eating.

If you can maintain the status quo after another week, you can temporarily leave the hospital and go home to live there, and come back to the hospital when you need routine treatment or reexamination.

After hearing what her mother said, Yang Queming planned to visit Yu Xi in the hospital.

When she came over, Yu Xi was still asleep, and Fu Younian was guarding outside the ward.

"It's really not possible, you hire a nurse for him to take care of him for a few days, you go back and have a rest." Yang Queming looked up at Fu Younian, feeling that his figure had become thin and sharp in just a few months , "Maybe you have to wait a few years for the operation, if you just suffer like this, you might collapse before him."

Fu Younian looked at Yu Xi's sleeping face through the clear glass of the ward, and remained silent.

Yu Xi slept very groggyly, and when he woke up he was still a little dazed. He felt that his reactions were slower than before, and even the movements of opening his eyes were weak.

He raised his fingers to pull the corner of the quilt, and after breathing in and out, he was taken away a little bit of anger like a cocoon.

So he put his hand down a little discouraged.

Yang Queming followed Fu Younian's gaze.

The angle they stood at would not cast shadows by the window, and from Yu Xi's direction, unless they straightened up and raised their heads, it would be difficult to spot them.

Yu Xi just lay there on the hospital bed in a daze, quietly and motionless.

Occasionally, his eyes would fall on the sunlight coming in from the floor-to-ceiling windows, and the light spots danced on the cold white wall, looking like sparkling water waves.

But he didn't lie down for a long time, just like an ordinary person getting sleepy after a nap, or after a night's sleep, he quickly sat up with the low cabinet next to him.

Seeing that he picked up the tablet and didn't know what he was looking at, Yang Queming said to Fu Younian in a low voice: "Look, I'll tell you that Yu Xi is even more optimistic than you. Don't always think about him." Illness, it’s good if it can be stabilized, maybe one day the matching will be successful, you have to wait until that day.”

"You don't know." Fu Younian said after a long pause.

Yu Xi suddenly picked up something from the pillow, and held it on his fingertips in a daze.

"What is he looking at?" Yang Queming asked.

The thing was too slender and covered by the quilt, Yang Queming couldn't see it.

Yu Xi's too slender fingertips were wrapped around a hair.

He has just started chemotherapy, and he is not at the stage where he will lose his hair.

And he also went to ask the doctor specifically, the doctor said that not everyone will lose their hair after chemotherapy, just like the side effects of chemotherapy will not happen to everyone.Even if you lose some, the symptoms are not necessarily so serious.

But I still care a little bit.

Occasionally, Fu Younian would find him secretly looking in the mirror, or touching his hair, and he also saw the traces of blood on the bathroom floor that hadn't been wiped off in a hurry.In the early morning, Yu Xi sometimes tossed and turned in his sleep because of bone pain, his fingers dug into the quilt, and the small piece of quilt was wrinkled and slightly wet.

"He was just afraid that I would be sad." Fu Younian said.

Yang Queming fell silent for a moment.

She wanted to persuade Fu Younian a little bit, but she really couldn't persuade Fu Younian at this point. She couldn't let Fu Younian leave Yu Xi alone. No matter whether Fu Younian could do such a thing, she would I can't open my mouth.

Fu Younian walked over and knocked on the door lightly a few times before taking Yang Queming in.

Fu Younian had to leave once he went down.

Although almost all the affairs in the company were handed over to Li Yao and other assistants, he had to attend some occasions.

After sending Yang Queming to the door of the ward, Fu Younian went back again, sat by the side of the ward, held Yu Xi's hand, and said to him: "Baby, I may come back later at night, and someone will give you Bring the food here, wait until the infusion is finished, if I haven't come back, don't wait for me, go to bed early."

Yu Xi nodded.

"I'll watch a movie if you're not here." Yu Xi added.

Staying in the ward all day long with nothing else to do, Yu Xi was always watching TV or a tablet, but sometimes he didn't watch it, he just turned it on and there was a little sound, making the ward less dull.

Fu Younian was afraid that he would hurt his eyes, so he often closed his screen suddenly.

"Well," Fu Younian said, "but you have to go to bed after the infusion."

Yu Xi thought he was so talkative, held hands with him for a while, his fingertips were slightly wet with sweat, and felt that he was so clingy, so he pushed him to get up and go away.

Before leaving, Fu Younian leaned over and held the back of his neck, bowed his head and kissed him.

Fu Younian took Yang Queming home on the way, and then drove to the company.

Last night, Yu Xi had a fever again, and the fever was a little severe. He almost fell into a coma, his breathing was weak, and he was almost sent to the emergency room. After being put on an oxygen machine, he recovered a little.Fu Younian was beside him waiting for him to wake up. He didn't sleep all night, and used the back of his hand to test his forehead from time to time. It wasn't until dawn that Yu Xi's fever subsided, and he barely opened his eyes to look at Fu Younian.

Fu Younian was sleep-deprived, so he made a cup of strong black coffee during the meeting.

Li Yao didn't dare to say too much, he could only try his best to do all the work that could be done, so that Fu Younian would not have to review it again and waste energy.

After the meeting, Fu Younian went to the restaurant to have dinner with several investors and directors.

It is inevitable to drink a little wine on this kind of occasion, but Yu Xi has not been able to smell the more pungent smell like wine recently, so Fu Younian declined all the steps of pushing the cup and changing the cup, citing gastroenteritis, and has never had a drink. To clink glasses.

This meal lasted until very late, Fu Younian couldn't get away, so he went out and sent a few messages to Yu Xi.

Yu Xi was probably looking at his phone, and replied quickly.

[Fu Younian]: What are you doing baby?

[. ]: I just called Lu Zhan.

Yu Xi erected the pillow and put it on the head of the bed, then leaned up wrapped in the quilt, and nestled in that corner to send messages to Fu Younian.

He usually doesn't feel particularly shy when he hears Fu Younian call him baby, but when he saw these two words when he sent a message, he suddenly felt that Fu Younian was so nasty, but he couldn't help but turn it up and take another look. After reading it over and over again, His face gradually turned red.

[Fu Younian]: I want to go back to find you, I miss you.

Fu Younian also found it very strange, obviously he and Yu Xi met every day, although it can't be said that they were tired of being together all the time, at least they spent more time alone than when they were still filming or recording variety shows.

But it was easier for him to miss Yu Xi.

Every time I stepped out of the door of that ward, I began to miss it, and flowed into my limbs along the fingertips that Yu Xi just touched.

Compared with Yu Xi, he is more like a sick person, or a drunk and not sober person.

Only instinctive impulse remains.

[. ]: But you've only been out for a few hours.

Yu Xi then posted a [salted fish collapsed] emoticon package.

You can see the tangled and speechless through the screen.

Fu Younian looked at it and smiled.

[Fu Younian]: Do you still feel a headache?

[. ]:No.

[. ]: Have you been drinking? You can’t drive back after drinking.

[Fu Younian]: No, baby, I bought anchovy shrimp from this store to take back for you to eat.

[. ]: But I'm going to sleep, you told me to sleep after the infusion.

[Fu Younian]: You can save it for tomorrow and put it in the freezer.

Yu Xi raised his head and saw that there was still a half transparent liquid in the infusion bottle.

[. ]:What time are you coming back?

Fu Younian reckoned that the time should be gone, and he would return to the private room later for a few more pleasantries at most. The contract would definitely not be signed today, but it was just a matter of negotiation, and Li Yao would bring someone over to sign it tomorrow.

[Fu Younian]: Soon, about an hour.

Yu Xi ignored him.

Otherwise, the two of them would have been chatting for a long time.

During this period of time, Mr. Yu also came to see him, as well as other members of the Yu family, some he knew, and some he had no impression of. No one mentioned the matter of bone marrow, so they kept silent about it, as if they were afraid of being stimulated. If you see him, you will deliberately bypass this topic.

Yu Xi knew that there was probably no hope.

He looked down at the mark left by the buried tube on his arm, and the bruise accidentally made when the infusion needle was pulled out on the back of his hand, which fell on the cold white skin, looking blue and purple, a little scary.

Fu Younian had agreed with Yu Xi that he would go back in more than an hour, and it happened that Yu Xi finished his infusion.

I thought I had plenty of time, but something went wrong on the way.

Li Yao almost died of fright when he received the call, so he quickly took a taxi to the hospital, and when he got in, he saw Fu Younian applying medicine there, and then the nurse quickly put a piece of gauze on the wound.

"Are you trying to die for love?" Li Yao lowered his voice and scolded him, "What's going on?"

"..." Fu Younian pressed his temple, and he got a headache from the noise, "No, there was a car going the wrong way on the road, so I hid for a while."

In fact, Fu Younian was able to dodge completely, but he may have been too tired during this period of time, and accidentally bumped into Dao Ya while dodging. He protected his head, but the back of his hand was bruised, but it happened to be his right hand.

He was a little worried, he would definitely be seen by Yu Xi when he went back.

"Lend me your gloves." Fu Younian pointed to Li Yao's hand.

Li Yao was really speechless, so he took it off and threw it to him.

Fu Younian didn't drive when he went back, Li Yao drove him directly to the back seat, intending to send him to the hospital.

Fu Younian didn't dare to go to the hospital where Yu Xi lived to get medicine, for fear of being caught by Yu Xi.

He sat in the back seat, tried his best to put on the gloves, rubbed his wound sorely, and couldn't help frowning.After wearing it, the wound is slightly compressed, and because of the gauze, it looks unnatural, but it's okay, it's better than showing it brightly.

After Yu Xi finished the infusion, he found that Fu Younian hadn't come back yet, and didn't send him a message.

Yu Xi didn't really want Fu Younian to come over.

Fu Younian sent him the address of the restaurant. The place is very close to home, but it takes more than half an hour to drive from the hospital. It's better to go home and rest.

He called Fu Younian.

When Fu Younian picked it up, he was still a little guilty, and somehow felt like he had done something bad behind his wife's back.

"Why did you call suddenly?" Fu Younian asked him.

"Are you going to the hospital soon?" Yu Xi asked back.

"Not yet," Fu Younian said, "It may take more than 20 minutes."

Yu Xi said: "Then why don't you go home and go to bed, anyway, you can only share a bed with me here. You can come and see me tomorrow morning."

Fu Younian didn't agree, but still wanted to find him.

Yu Xi had no choice but to hang up the phone.

He tore off the infusion patch on the back of his hand, put on his shoes and coat, and took the scarf. He thought about it when he walked to the door, then went to take the plush puppy with him, and went to find a corner on the first floor of the hospital and sat down. , Waiting for Fu Younian to come back.

In the middle of the night, there were almost no people on the first floor of the inpatient department. The nurse saw someone sitting there and wanted to let him go back to the ward.

But when he found out it was Yu Xi, he didn't bother.

This is also a private hospital, Mr. Yu told him not to interfere with Yu Xi.

Spring is cold, especially at night.

Fu Younian got out of the car and felt a little cold. The hem of his long windbreaker picked up a gust of night wind and walked into the hospital.

When he looked up in the empty lobby on the first floor of the hospital and saw Yu Xi sitting alone in the corner, he was taken aback for a moment.

"Whose baby, why are you sitting here alone?" Fu Younian walked over, with a smile on his lips, and asked in a low voice.

He put his right hand behind his back, hooked the index finger of his left hand, and scratched the tip of Yu Xi's cold nose.

"Waiting for my boyfriend." Yu Xi said embarrassedly.

作者有话要说：感谢在2020-11-2623:53:35~2020-11-2723:55:57期间为我投出霸王票或灌溉营养液的小天使哦~

Thanks to the little angel who threw the landmine: Ru Zhensao 1;

Thanks to the little angel of the irrigation nutrient solution: 5 bottles of dai;

Thank you very much for your support, I will continue to work hard!