After wearing a sick and weak white moonlight, I collapse every day

Fu Younian has been very worried about whether Yu Xi will have any serious chemotherapy reactions.

He remembered that his father had advanced stomach cancer at that time. Although he often took a lot of medicine before chemotherapy, especially pain relief, he went to the hospital several times and took him there by bike.As a result, after starting chemotherapy, the whole person rapidly aged and weakened, and died within two months.

The side effects of chemotherapy can sometimes be as debilitating as the disease itself.

But Yu Xi didn't seem to have any reaction after returning to the ward after the first chemotherapy, but his face was a little pale, sitting on the bed with his knees hugged, with a plush puppy in his arms, and he didn't speak, An Jing Quietly watching Fu Younian walking up and down.

He misses his puppy very much, but Fu Younian dare not take it to the hospital to find Yu Xi.

In case the paws scratched Yu Xi's skin while playing around, or accidentally bit him, the bleeding would be difficult to stop, and it would easily cause infection.

So Fu Younian went to buy him a Samoyed doll.

However, I haven't found one that is particularly soft when kneaded. For the time being, I can only use this for a few days.

"What do you want to eat at noon?" Fu Younian saw him staring in a daze, with a strand of hair curled up, looking a little silly, couldn't help laughing, sat down on the bedside and kissed his white hair on top of the puppy's head. Finger, "How about buying wontons? The one you said you like last time."

Yu Xi tilted his head to rest on his knee, reached out to touch Fu Younian's face, and stroked his brow bone.

While in a daze, I heard someone knock on the door of the ward.

Fu Younian glanced back, the door was pushed open a narrow gap, and a little girl stood there timidly looking into the ward.

She is Yu Xi's patient friend, her name is Dou Dou, she is the six-year-old child.

The patients in the ward here are either seriously ill in bed and have difficulty getting up and walking normally, or they are elderly people.Yu Xi was bored staying here, when Fu Younian wasn't with him, he would just lie in a daze alone, or sit in a daze in the corridor.

Occasionally, when Doudou was playing outside, although Yu Xi had nothing in common with her and didn't like children, he could barely talk to each other.

"Brother Xiaoyu, do you want to see Jiujiu?" She asked Yu Xi in a low voice.

She has been sick longer than Yu Xi, and was transferred here recently.

When Fu Younian went to Yu Xi's attending doctor to inquire about follow-up treatment, he saw her parents were there.Five or six-year-old children are not yet fully developed, and their physique is weaker than adults. It is difficult to bear the side effects of chemotherapy, and they also have heart disease. This situation is best treated with drugs.

Yu Xi didn't really want to go to Jiujiu, he was about to get Jiujiu ptsd.

A few days ago, he was watching a foreign hip-hop reality show with parkour elements in the hallway with his tablet. As a result, this kid ran over and sat beside him to watch it together.She was quiet, she didn't make any noise or make noise, and she didn't cling to Yu Xi. In fact, Yu Xi liked her quite a bit. Afraid that she wouldn't understand, he randomly searched for a cartoon for her to watch.

What is it called "The Adventures of Jiujiu", it is a little lark taking an adventure in the forest.

Who would have thought that in the next few days, the two of them finished reading the complete works of Jiujiu, and when they were sleeping at night, Yu Xi felt that he was going to hallucinate, and the chirping in his ears was always filled with birdsong.

Yu Xi was still in trouble, the little girl's mother quickly followed her and took her away. Knowing that Yu Xi had just finished chemotherapy and needed to rest, she apologized to him, "I'm sorry, I didn't keep an eye on her just now, so I bothered you."

"It's okay." Fu Younian's tone was very polite, but somewhat cold.

The girl's mother led her out of the ward here.

"What are you looking at?" Fu Younian turned around, raised his index finger and flicked Yu Xi's forehead.

Yu Xi's back was covered in cold sweat. After he finished chemotherapy, he started to have abdominal pain, and his leg bones were always aching. If it was the severe pain that broke out completely, he could bear it instead. It was like this day and night. It's pure torture like a thin needle piercing a bone, biting a nerve.

He took the plush puppy and pressed it hard on his stomach, only to feel a little relief.

The throat is also astringent, with a bitter taste, and I have no appetite, and I feel nauseous just thinking about it.

"It's this Jiujiu." Yu Xi played tricks on him, mouthing him, as if asking for a kiss.

Yu Xi's lips were originally slender, and the slightly raised curve of the lips was very beautiful. He had just drank water, and his lips were not as pale as usual, but moist red.

Fu Younian lowered his head and pecked at him, making a small noise.

This kind of kiss is also very pleasing to Yu Xi. When he is in a good mood, he always listens to Fu Younian's words, and stays obediently by the side without flailing around.Fu Younian held his face and kissed him again, always feeling that the kiss was not enough, and occasionally tasted the faint smell of medicine between Yu Xi's lips and teeth.

Sometimes Fu Younian has the illusion that they are not in the hospital.

Except for the daily treatment, there is actually not much difference from when he took Yu Xi to the ski resort years ago.

Now that Fu Younian thinks about it, his parents' faces have long been blurred. If he doesn't look at the photos, he actually doesn't even remember what Fu Ruzhuo looked like. If a person forgets someone, death is really the most straightforward way.

What he will never forget is the familiar and pungent smell of disinfectant, and the countless bony shoulders and backs in front of him, all telling him how painful it was. Even after many years, recalling it is more unforgettable than death.

But he didn't feel that kind of suffering from Yu Xi.

Yu Xi was addicted to Fu Younian's kiss on his lips, which seemed to be more effective than any painkiller.When he slept at night, his bones ached all over his body, and even the backs of his hands were numb. He turned around and moved into Fu Younian's arms. He felt that Fu Younian subconsciously patted him on the back a few times in his sleep, and felt as if he could breathe again. Stay for one more day.

The two of them hid in the ward and kissed each other, without hearing the sound of footsteps coming from outside the ward.

As soon as Luo Chen pushed open the door, he was stunned for a few seconds, then quickly raised his hand to cover his eyes, and said rather rudely: "Hey, I didn't see anything."

The roots of Yu Xi's ears burned instantly, and his cheeks flushed red. He pulled up the quilt to cover his head, and lay down pretending to sleep.

Fu Younian patted his lower back through the quilt amusedly.

"Don't you stop chirping?" Fu Younian leaned over and asked him in a low voice, his tone mixed with a bit of teasing, which sounded particularly unbearable.

Yu Xi became furious, lifted a corner of the quilt, picked up the plush puppy and threw it at his face.

Fu Younian blocked it with a smile, then picked up the puppy, put it casually on the bed, got up and went out with Luo Chen.

"Are you two in the hospital or on your honeymoon?" Luo Chen said when he turned around and saw Fu Younian closing the door of the ward.

Fu Younian raised his eyebrows and glanced at him.

Yu Xi has been hospitalized for nearly a month.

During this time, Fu Younian also lost a lot of weight.

Yu Xi needs to take too much medicine every day, which hurts his stomach.And this week I started the first course of chemotherapy. The most common side effects of chemotherapy are abdominal pain and loss of appetite. Once it becomes difficult to eat normally, people gradually become weak and weak, and they are not far from being bedridden.

In this regard, Yu Xi's original attending doctor should know better. Fu Younian went there and memorized some methods of diet therapy to nourish the stomach, and made nutritious meals at home every day and brought them to the hospital for Yu Xi to eat.

Then I have to go to the hospital to accompany Yu Xi for treatment throughout the whole process, and communicate with the doctor about Yu Xi's treatment plan, including the situation of bone marrow matching.

Then I went to my friend who is studying medicine and contacted foreign experts, hoping to find some special drugs with less side effects.

In addition, the company also has complicated chores and meetings. Even online meetings require time and energy.

Yu Xi often suddenly had a low fever around three o'clock in the morning. Fu Younian noticed that his forehead was slightly hot, so he didn't dare to sleep anymore. He stayed by his side until dawn when Yu Xi's fever subsided. Rarely can I sleep five or six hours a day.

But Fu Younian's health is very good, this little consumption will not affect him, but his eyebrows are deeper than before.

"But speaking of it, I really didn't expect Yu Xi to be from the Yu family." Luo Chen originally wanted to light a cigarette, but then remembered that this was the corridor of the hospital, so he put the cigarette case back.

Luo Chen didn't expect Yu Xi's family to be so good. To be honest, when he first found out that Fu Younian and Yu Xi were together, he also wondered if Yu Xi deliberately hooked up with Fu Younian for the sake of resources or money. After all, With Yu Xi's face, I'm afraid few people can sit still.

But now that he knew it, he suddenly thought of another question.

If the Yu family couldn't find a suitable bone marrow match, Fu Younian probably wouldn't be able to find one either.

"I might go abroad next week," Fu Younian said to Luo Chen, "I'll be back in three or four days, come and take a look at Yu Xi for me when you have time."

Fu Younian found several hospitals with a high cure rate of leukemia on the Internet. He did not intend to transfer Yu Xi to another hospital. After all, he still had to adapt to going abroad. He was afraid of causing other reactions, but he still wanted to bring Yu Xi's medical records with him. Ask in the past with the laboratory report, maybe there is a better treatment plan.

These few days, Yu Xi had just finished chemotherapy, and it may not be when the chemotherapy reaction will appear, and he can't leave people around him, so he wants to stay with Yu Xi for a while before leaving.

"Okay," Luo Chen agreed, "Anyway, I'll come over and play games with him. Seeing that you two are busy playing games every day, it's just for him to take me to the top."

Yu Xi was lying on the hospital bed, and when he heard Fu Younian and Luo Chen walking away, he lifted the quilt and got up to go to the bathroom.

His stomach was very empty, and he only vomited out a puddle of water and the medicine he had taken in the morning.

In the end, there was a little bloodshot, probably because my throat was broken.

Yu Xi's chemotherapy reaction was actually very serious. After he vomited, the hand supporting the wall trembled, his pale fingertips convulsed, and his feet seemed to be stepping on cotton, and he was exhausted and weak.He felt that he had become a little frighteningly thin recently, and he couldn't touch any flesh on his cheeks.

The more he wanted to eat more, the more he vomited, and he was still empty in the end.

Fu Younian returned to the ward alone.

When I opened the door, I saw that there was no one on the bed, and the quilts were piled up in a mess.

"Yu Xi?" Fu Younian glanced into the ward.

As a result, he heard a rustling sound coming from behind the curtain, and then Yu Xi nodded slightly and looked at him.

"What are you doing hiding here?" Fu Younian walked over, trying to open the curtain.

"Where is Luo Chen?" Yu Xi still felt a little ashamed after thinking about it, and couldn't help but blush, fearing that Luo Chen would come in with Fu Younian, and Luo Chen would definitely laugh at him.

Fu Younian took his hand holding the curtain, and said, "Luo Chen is gone."

Yu Xi was skeptical, looked past Fu Younian's raised arm, and looked towards the door.

He was relieved to find that Luo Chen was really not there.

Fu Younian reached out and hugged him out from behind the curtains, lowered his head and buried the tip of his nose in his warm neck and rubbed it. He didn't know what he remembered, and suddenly laughed a few times, Yu Xi was hugged tightly in his arms , could almost feel a slight vibration in his chest.

"What are you laughing at?" Yu Xi always felt that there was nothing good, so before Fu Younian could speak, his face turned red, suddenly shy for no reason.

"Laugh at your cuteness." Fu Younian said.

Taking care of Yu Xi is not an easy task, even though Yu Xi is already obedient enough to never make trouble, and he is more tolerant than most sick people.But Fu Younian didn't feel bored or tired, there was nothing better than seeing Yu Xi like this every day and hugging him.

Yu Xi was hugged and kissed reluctantly, unable to avoid it, so he had to follow Fu Younian to kiss him.

Waiting for Fu Younian to relax for a moment, he pushed him away and went to eat with wontons.

When Fu Younian and Luo Chen went downstairs, they stopped by to buy food.

I don’t have time to go home to make it today, but I added a spoonful of pork bone soup that has filtered out the oily stars in the wonton bowl.

Yu Xi smelled very fragrant, but tasted like he lost his sense of taste, and he started to vomit again halfway through eating.He suppressed the nausea, finished the bowl of wontons, and when Fu Younian went out again, he couldn't help but go to the bathroom again and vomited it all up.

He squatted on the cold tiled floor of the bathroom, his face was buried in his knees, even breathing was trembling slightly, his slightly wet black hair fell on the back of his neck, making his skin pale.

Yu Xi told the doctor about his nausea and vomiting after chemotherapy, but he didn't tell Fu Younian, and asked the doctor not to tell Fu Younian.

Since it was something that no doctor could do, he couldn't be completely unaffected by the chemotherapy reaction, telling Fu Younian would at most just make Fu Younian worry.

After the trembling was relieved, Yu Xi went to take antiemetics, and felt that he was not very sleepy, so he didn't want to lie down on the bed, so he went to sit on the bench in the corridor.

DouDou was playing with her father in the sunny corner by the window, when she looked up and saw Yu Xi, she ran towards him stepping on her little leather shoes.

This little girl is also very thin, with slender arms, thin cheeks, and her almond eyes are set off very large, but she is a little dull because of her long illness.

Yu Xi heard from her father that she might bring her home next month.

It doesn’t mean that it’s cured, it means that it’s almost impossible to get better anymore. The effect of targeted drugs on Dou Dou is gradually fading. She has developed resistance to many painkillers and cannot receive chemotherapy.DouDou was actually a successful bone marrow match with her father, but DouDou couldn't do a transplant operation, and success was useless, like a joke made by fate.

"Brother, does chemotherapy hurt?" Doudou stretched out his little hand with slightly sweaty palm, and held Yu Xi's wrist.

She had never had chemotherapy, but she was very curious to hear these words being said in the neighboring wards all day long.

Yu Xi was a little uncomfortable, he was not used to having such contact with children, or not just children, he was not used to having physical contact with anyone other than Fu Younian.But he didn't hide, and let her thin little hand touch his cold skin.

Sunshine came in through the glass windows in the corridor and fell on his face, his drooping eyelashes were coated with a light golden layer, and even his hair melted into the warm light.

Yu Xi shook his head.

Out of the corner of his eye, he saw Fu Younian's shadow on the ground next to him, and the shadow stopped there without moving.

Yu Xi put his hand on the colic abdomen, feeling a gut-piercing feeling, his voice was slightly hoarse, with a little smile on the corner of his mouth, and he said softly: "It's like you slept with the bear in your arms, It doesn't hurt."

作者有话要说：感谢在2020-11-2523:56:11~2020-11-2623:53:35期间为我投出霸王票或灌溉营养液的小天使哦~

Thanks to the little angel who threw the mine: Nana Qiuqiu hahaha 1;

Thanks to the little angel of the irrigation nutrient solution: m sweet flower wine w1 bottle;

Thank you very much for your support, I will continue to work hard!