If the fleeting year has not come

It’s really where we don’t meet each other in life. I looked up at the person who came, thinking about what to say. I’m not good at finding topics. Looking at her with an expression, I feel quite tired looking at people against the light, and my glasses are a little swollen and sour.

"I felt like you when I saw it just now, but you disappeared when you turned around, and you ended up squatting here alone with mushrooms. So what are you doing here, lost?"

"Li Zhiyang." I called her name word by word, not the one I wanted.Thinking of this, I couldn't help laughing at myself. They probably haven't noticed that I'm gone. Even if the conversation was not pleasant at the beginning, the boring topic should have ended by now. What new content has started, such as anecdotes? Strange events or funny jokes?No matter what, there is no me anyway, and the topics involving me are always accompanied by heavy boredom, they must have realized it long ago.

"Why." Li Zhiyang squatted in front of me, looking at me with a puzzled face, "Why did you suddenly call someone's name and didn't speak, and laughed so awkwardly."

"It's okay, are you shopping alone?" I shook my head, not having anything to share with her.It's her, with a few paper bags in her hands. Could it be that she has no friends like me, and can only go shopping alone.The clothes on my body still have hang tags, which must be one of her trophies today.

"I was shopping with my friends. It's rare to meet you and want to say hello. Who knows that I lost you after chasing for a long time. I didn't expect you to walk very fast with short legs. Why are you so focused on thinking, calling you Didn't hear anything."

"Aren't you looking for your friend?" I really was the atmosphere destroyer, destroying people's interest in shopping.Is it better to stay at home, so that not only will you not know extra things, you can live happily in your own fantasy, but it can also help others to have a good time playing.

"It doesn't matter to them, it doesn't matter if there are more or less of a group of people. I said, why do you show up in such thin clothes, and you have a face that you don't love, and you are robbed of your wealth?" Li Zhiyang asked in a joking tone, but concern was clearly written on his face.

There is nothing to love in life, and I was suddenly touched by this idiom. It turns out that this is my mood at the moment. I feel that nothing matters and nothing is important. I feel that it is best to disappear in front of people.It doesn't seem to be the case, I carefully studied my mood, although I was not happy, but I didn't feel stuffy, my eyes were a little sore but I didn't want to cry, I felt that as long as I stayed away from my senior sister, everything would be better.Including the kiss last night, I can still tell myself that it was the throbbing in her heart, not the so-called sympathy.The premise is, as long as you don't see her.

"It's just my daily expressionless face, okay? I'm so unlovable." I wanted to respond with a relaxed tone as much as possible, but found that I couldn't do it at all, and my tone seemed serious and blunt.

It's not right to do this, I told myself in my heart, if this continues, Li Zhiyang will be inexplicably angered, but she is just a good person passing by.I took off the coat she put on me, it's good to just leave me alone at a time like this, I don't know how long it will take for me to be a good guy again, able to run, jump and laugh.

"I'm just talking casually, are you angry?" Li Zhiyang asked cautiously, and put the coat on me again, "You want to freeze into a monument when you go out dressed like this, that's not great at all."

"No, I'll come out to blow some air and feel the breath of winter." I couldn't burden others, so I braced myself to respond to Li Zhiyang's words.How can she go away? I really have no choice, but I don't want her to see me in such a strange way.

"Don't you answer the phone?" Li Zhiyang suddenly changed the subject, probably because the phone in his pocket was vibrating so hard to ignore.

It's not that they don't answer, it's that they dare not answer.When asked where I was and why I suddenly disappeared, I couldn't answer these questions, and I wasn't mentally prepared to face them as if nothing had happened.But not answering the phone made them worry, and I became willful and selfish again. I am so bad that I can still get the care of people around me. I have to seriously correct my bad temper.

When I took out the phone, the call had already been hung up. The missed calls were all from Wanqiu and Suzi. The first call I made was about 5 minutes after I left, and they may have gone crazy by now.My sudden escape ruined their lunch, which is a heinous crime. Such a person really does not deserve anyone's attention. Suzi deserves to be disliked by me. This is retribution. I smiled viciously to myself in my heart.

The phone vibrated again, it was from Su Zi, I took a deep breath and pressed the answer button.

"What are you doing!" The senior's tone was very excited, and I could hear it through the phone line. I could imagine her anxiously looking for me like a headless chicken, and an inexplicable sense of satisfaction welled up in my heart.

"Acquainted with a friend to go shopping." I lowered my voice, only in this way can I barely conceal the trembling in my voice.

"So..." The senior sister's voice was full of doubts, and after a short silence, she asked again, "Have you met your friend now?"

"Well, I saw you."

"Come back early, I'll wait for you with some milk." The senior sister's tone returned to the usual, with warm concern.

Silently putting away the phone that had been hung up, I praised myself for my witty lying, and at the same time, an indescribable feeling emerged.Why didn't you scold me and blame me, but ended in such a flat way, because you want me to blame myself.What did you say about making milk? Isn’t it that Wan Qiu told her that I have the habit of drinking milk before going to bed? For me, everyone has a share, I don't want it at all.

Staring at an unknown weed in the cracks of the ground, I feel that my feelings are like this low-quality grass. It has no vitality at all, but it always grows happily because of the senior sister's indiscriminate concern for people. motivation.No matter how hard I grow, or even forget my original self, in the end it is still nothing more than a weed. Everyone knows the fact, but I always accidentally forget it.

"It was Su Zi who called just now?" Li Zhiyang said suddenly.

"Yeah." I answered concisely, but my eyes were involuntarily attracted by the grass on the ground, and I just stared blankly, my eyes were swollen and sore and I still didn't want to blink, I always felt that once I closed my eyes, something would bear it Can't help falling by gravity.

"She hasn't changed at all from before. I recognized her at a glance. It's really her. I just said that I saw someone following you all the time..."

"No, you read it wrong." I interrupted Li Zhiyang loudly to prevent her from continuing.

"But just now she was standing..."

"They say you read it wrong!" I raised my voice and interrupted her rudely.

Someone has been following me, how could I not feel it, but she just followed like that, step by step, but kept a distance, just like the relationship between me and her, it seems to be closer, but in fact it is still far away.Many times I deliberately slowed down, hoping that she would catch up and say something, at least tell me why she followed, but nothing happened, maybe she just followed, simply because she was afraid that I would get lost.Then why didn't she inform Wanqiu to be together in the first place? After all, she doesn't know the way better than me, right?

Until I deliberately sat down by the corner, she still just watched from a distance, and she could turn her head to meet her eyes. I really can't understand what kind of mood it is. Well, if she dared to come forward, I dared to force her to tell the truth. Why would she look at me if she didn't like it? How could it be possible.After finally feeling someone approaching, you can tell it's not her from the sound of footsteps. Since you don't want to approach, what does it mean to make a phone call all of a sudden.

Dare to be honest with myself, I think so, she dare not.And I, always playing a one-sided chase game like this, will also be tired, and it is really impossible to take the initiative once in a while.Since she came to see me out of sympathy, why didn't she sympathize more simply, but did such inconsistent things that even she herself couldn't explain.Sighing, even if there are a million voices in my heart telling myself that I should give up, I am such a disappointing person.

If I look back now and ask her why she has been following me, will she get the answer she wants, or in other words, she doesn't know why, she just followed me instinctively.In any case, I would like to know the answer, whether it is like in "A Story Sadder Than Sadness", this kind of instinct, in fact, is something that she has not discovered herself is sprouting.

Taking a deep breath again, I cautiously turned my head to look at the corner of the street, wanting to greet him with a smile, but found that there was no one there as far as I could see.

She was still there when I made the phone call, so I ran over in a panic. I didn't find any evidence of her existence in the streets or alleys, and I didn't even see her back. She left.

"Su Zi left when he was on the phone." Li Zhiyang followed up and told the truth calmly, "I still want to ask why you guys left without saying hello, obviously walking one after the other and using the phone Contact, this is too hypocritical."

Ignoring Li Zhiyang's words, my mind was filled with the three words why, because I didn't tell the truth and lied, so I left angrily, but Li Zhiyang was clearly beside me, how could people who don't know the truth know that I was lying.Why do you want to go, you really didn't call me to remind me that she was behind me and let me look back, so why did you call.

Abandoning Li Zhiyang who was chasing after me, I ran to the street to take a taxi and only wanted to go home quickly. She said she had soaked milk and was waiting for me at home.