If the fleeting year has not come

The revolving restaurant turned around and turned back to its original position. Looking back, we saw the table we chose. Senior sister and Wan Qiu had already returned to the table, seeming to be talking about something.Wan Qiu frowned in a rare serious manner, as if she wanted to see a flower on the senior sister's face, but the senior sister lowered her head as if she was embarrassed.

Anyone with a discerning eye could tell that Wan Qiu was admonishing her senior, or bullying her. Although she really wanted to step forward to stop her, there was a small voice in her heart, listening to what they said.I can't blame me for being sensitive and suspicious, it's just that the senior sister's attitude towards Wan Qiu has always puzzled me. In other words, if the senior sister really came to find Wan Qiu, then what am I? Really played a big role.

With their backs to them, I chose a place not too far away, and approached them pretending to be passing by to get food. I don’t think I would be spotted without a special disguise. Judging from their expressions, the topics they discussed were not easy, and the atmosphere was also not easy. Unpleasant, estimated to have no time to assess surrounding events.There is another possibility that there is no third person between them.

"I said it before I came here. Come back after thinking it over. What is your attitude now? Do you think your acting skills are so good? No matter how dull you are, you can feel something is wrong!" Wan Qiu's voice was suppressed. Very low, it is not difficult to hear the suppressed anger inside.

"I..." The senior sister only uttered a monosyllabic word, and there was no more text.

Then there was a long silence, and Wan Qiu didn't speak. From the way she tapped the plate with a spoon, she could see the restlessness in her heart, as if she was trying to calm down her emotions.

Could it be that the senior sister confessed to Wan Qiu? This magical idea took shape in her mind. What is certain is that Wan Qiu has absolutely no meaning for the senior sister in that regard, so it has nothing to do with me. I waited gloatingly below.

"If you want to travel for free, then you can come at any time, but I told you what the meaning of this time is. Or, if you just want to prove your charm and find a cloud backup, then don't come under my nose, I will Looking bad."

"But..." It was still a meaningless particle, and the senior seemed to take a deep breath, "I didn't really want to come, but Aunt Ye asked me to come with me."

"Well, since you don't want to come, why do you have to force it? Or, she promised you some benefits after you go back." Wan Qiu suddenly changed into a tone that I had never heard before, filled with undisguised mockery and malice .

"She just said that Xiaoyu was ill, so..."

"So what, in exchange for your sympathy, so that she can get your charity in her lifetime, and let her misunderstand that you also like her, and finally died in your arms happily? Have you watched too many TV dramas or have you lost your mind? Drinking water, fantasizing that I am the white lotus of the Virgin Mary who saves the world." After a series of words, Wan Qiu spoke in a bland tone, even stopping to knock on the plate, and squeezed the spoon tightly with one hand, inexplicably People felt the slightest coldness, she was really angry.

They were discussing why the senior sister came here, and I came to the conclusion that the senior sister didn't like Wanqiu. The happy thing is that she came here for me, and the sad thing is that she came here for me of sympathy.I nodded secretly, and suddenly I was glad that I had been suffering from a disease commonly known as scleroderma. At least it could be used as a stalk, allowing her to use the overflowing love on me.

It seems that everything makes sense, why does the whole world change when I wake up.Aunt Ye took advantage of the senior sister's sympathy and came to celebrate Christmas with us, but Wan Qiu told her to think carefully before coming, because Wan Qiu knew that this would cause my sensitive heart to get out of hand.

In the end, the senior sister still came, because she is a good person, a person who is so gentle that she doesn’t want to hurt anyone around her, but after sleeping all night, she found that I didn’t have the so-called sickness, so she started to avoid me and use practical actions to get rid of my negativity. Resistance, such as the differential treatment of late autumn.

Wan Qiu is a good person, a person who is so upright that he can't get used to other people's deceit.Auntie Ye is also a good person. She hopes that the senior sister can gradually understand and accept me from the beginning of sympathy, and finally be happy together.

It turns out that there are so many good people around me. Except for myself, I am a weak person who is used to being protected and only knows to live under the wings of others. I silently despise myself in my heart.No wonder my senior sister doesn't like me, and my mother doesn't want me anymore. It's not that they haven't noticed my goodness, but the fact is that there is nothing about me that they should cherish.

Taking a deep breath, I looked up towards Wanqiu's direction, they were still arguing, their mouths were opening and closing without knowing what they were talking about.I really want to tell Wanqiu, don't become indifferent because of me destroying your female nerves.I also want to tell my senior sister that anyone is fine, the last thing I want to see is her frowning.Just like me now, I really want to go back to the dining table as if nothing had happened, and say with a smile that the dishes here are nothing more than that, and I lose my appetite just looking at them.

Although I have a lot of things I want to do immediately, my feet are like being cursed by the floor. I just want to be treated as air, silently retreating to a corner where there is no one, I don’t need care, let alone sympathy.

Today, I have a new understanding of the word "playing on the spot". A kind person will do so many things that she didn't want to do or even feel disgusting because of sympathy.Su Zi actually kissed me out of sympathy, although it was only an understatement for a moment.

As long as everyone gives a little love, the world will become a warm world. This lyrics suddenly came to my mind, why does it feel like I am mocking me.The so-called happiness in front of me actually refers to the happiness that is blinded by glasses. I have obtained the so-called happiness. What about senior sister, for her, kissing someone she doesn’t like, sleeping with someone she doesn’t like, It must have been a torment.

And I hope she is happy, even if there is no me in that happiness.But now, she was educated in late autumn because of me, and because I frowned deeply, so if I leave her world, can her life return to the way it was before, at least without suffering unnecessary troubles.

Driven by this inexplicable impulse, I ran out of the restaurant as if fleeing for my life. The outside was still gray and everything was in chaos. I didn't know when I would return to the original point.I took the elevator down to the bottom of the TV tower. I walked out in the opposite direction to the flow of people. I had no specific destination or clear direction. I just wanted to leave this place. Like before, I encountered a mess and didn’t want to face it. Things run away decisively.

Walking aimlessly, looking at the bustling traffic on the road, if the world loses me, no one will notice.

Then I discovered another miraculous thing. I was not particularly sad, and I didn’t feel sad at all, not even the most basic feeling of heartache.It was as if after the curtain fell, my role was over, and I just left the scene because I didn't want to see the protagonists holding flowers and receiving rewards.And my character is probably a clown who makes people sad, or a clown for people to play with?Anyway, they are all ugly, and I suddenly feel at ease with being ugly, and it feels good to just walk around doing nothing.

It feels like the phone in my pocket is vibrating all the time, I don’t want to pick it up and I don’t want to know who it is. I have only a handful of friends, and it seems that there are only a few of them, nothing new.

I don't know how long I walked, I felt a little tired, only to realize that I came out in a hurry, and my coats were all in the revolving restaurant.I wanted to find a place to have a cup of hot cocoa, so I laughed at myself. I don’t have money to pawn things, but the most valuable thing on my body is a scarf, which was the last gift my senior sister gave me.I thought about it today, the senior sister should not have any contact with me anymore, I am so self-willed and disregarding other people's feelings.Grinning and smiling at the sky, his throat is inexplicably bitter, probably because he hasn’t drank water for a long time, it’s time like this, and he still suffers from a literary disease. Then again, will this disease be sympathized by the seniors? ?

He randomly found a corner and sat down, his feet were numb from the cold, the cold wind poured straight into his clothes, and he couldn't help shivering, the only warmth came from the scarf around his neck.What the hell is this? The warmth I can feel comes from the sympathy of all evils.I violently tore off the scarf, which made my neck turn red, and my hands were scratched by the thick wool. I wanted to throw it away but was reluctant. I always looked like such a worthless person.

Silently wrapping the scarf back, I lowered my head and pillowed it on my knees, the faint fragrance stimulated my sense of smell, and since my nose was blocked by the wind, I could still smell the familiar smell that surrounded me all night last night.Leaning against the wall and starting to be in a daze, maybe it's just pure emptiness, I don't know what I was thinking, but I just ran out without caring, how embarrassing it is to meet in the future.

"An Yu?" A voice appeared above her head.

"Damn." I don't want to look up, and I can meet people I know when I walk on the side of the road. This must not be true, just like the fallacies I heard just now, they are all just dreams.I willfully closed my eyes, it really was a dream, otherwise how could I have the scent of my senior sister in front of my nose.

"An Yu." This time, he replaced it with an affirmative sentence.

Trying to wake me up from this nightmare?Another nice guy, I said to myself.But there are too many good people around me, and I am afraid.

"Hey, you think Teemo can become invisible just by squatting still!" The visitor squatted down and shook me, feeling something cold on my body, and there was no longer any cold wind blowing in.

It turns out that my real body is Teemo and I will be invisible, but how did this guy see me? I didn't see her with real eyes. I reluctantly showed one eye and looked at her sideways.