If the fleeting year has not come

Going home with excitement mixed with indignation, Su Zi and Wan Qiu are sitting in the living room watching TV. This is an unusual atmosphere. Wan Qiu is someone who would rather die in front of the computer than turn on the TV. TV is just a model.

"I'm back." When I said this, I was inexplicably guilty. After thinking about it, I felt wrong. I had no reason to be guilty at all, and I couldn't be frightened by their bluff.

"Hmm." Wan Qiu just glanced up at me, her attention was still focused on the TV, I don't know what program made her focus so much.

Then there was another awkward silence. This kind of invisible pressure made people upset, and the cold violence without saying anything was really terrible. It would be better to just start a fight.

The senior sister also didn't say anything, her eyes were looking ahead, she was not so much watching TV as she was letting go.

In this case, I silently changed my slippers and prepared to enter the room. There was an inexplicable emotion that made me feel that whoever spoke first would lose. I can't always be led by her nose like this.

"Let me tell you, you've been shopping efficiently. No wonder you went out without your coat on. In fact, you're dating some girl." Wan Qiu's words were stinging.

The army green down jacket wrapped around me is obviously not my favorite. Influenced by Aunt Ye, I probably prefer rice-colored colors, such as rice-colored colors.

The clothes are not mine, I admit it, but dating must be impossible, Wan Qiu's brains have been eaten by dogs, she clearly knows that I am loyal to some uncivilized person.

"Did you forget to eat brain fragments at noon?" I must have retorted after being wronged, I choked back.

"It's you who should take medicine when you're sick!" Wan Qiu broke his kung fu, and couldn't pretend to be calm and watching TV anymore. She stood up and raised the volume. She was angry, which was obvious.

It was just an exaggeration, but it sounded very harsh to me. I admit that I have to take medicine every day when I am sick, but since taking medicine has become a reason for your sympathy, why not be thorough and just rely on me for everything, I'm not going to live long anyway.

Scleroderma is a disease that is really incurable. Long-term medication and injections can only relieve the symptoms from worsening. In the end, the skin of the whole body is rough and black like a stone, and it dies in the shape of a coke. Even looking at it makes me feel sick. Uglier than the Golem Guard in the game.Just like me now, although I try my best to ignore my own situation, the black marks on my arms and neck still exist ferociously. Summer is the season I hate the most, and I feel uncomfortable if I don’t accept other people’s strange eyes.

If I said this in the usual late autumn, I would definitely laugh it off as a joke, but now, the emotions that I have suppressed for an afternoon need a point of expression, and her words just hit it.I know I am sick and I take medicine, and I don't need your inexplicable sympathy.

Looking up at Wan Qiu, I don't know what kind of expression I have on my face now, it may be a bit scary, but I can tell from Wan Qiu's sudden change of face.

"No... I'm just talking casually, don't think too much..." Wan Qiu's tone suddenly softened, as if he was afraid that I would be overwhelmed.

I can only look at her, trying to pull a smile with my mouth, but it seems difficult to do it.Excessive concern about my mood, in fact, is still out of sympathy.

"Your new clothes are pretty." The senior sister interrupted suddenly, trying to save the delicate atmosphere that was about to take a turn for the worse.

I really want to smile and say thank you, but it seems that my efforts have not had much effect. I feel that my hands and feet are trembling inexplicably cold, and the corners of my mouth just want to droop down. After a calm afternoon, my mood finally has ripples, sour and bitter.I quickly ran into the room and locked the door. With such an ugly appearance, it is better to stay alone so as not to scare others.

It feels like there is a salty wet liquid flowing on its own, no matter how you rub it, there is no end, it can only let it fend for itself.Rolling up the sleeves and looking at his arms, it was really scary. The skin was wrinkled and knotted together, and the skin color was completely covered in black, as if it had been twisted into a spiral shape after being roasted by fire.

At this time, the skin was probably lying on the gun and covered with holes, and I laughed at myself again.In the final analysis, it is just because my desires are not satisfied and my feelings are not responded to, so I keep blaming this and that, making people around me feel embarrassed, and to put it bluntly, I still do it myself.Now even I have been blamed, it is really self-inflicted.

It was my fault for running out without saying a word. Wanqiu has been working hard to match me and senior sister. Even if I accidentally overheard the conversation, she was blaming senior sister for treating me badly. I have no reason to blame her. .Then the senior sister was worried about me so she followed me all the way, but I understood that she didn't dare to face my feelings. In fact, she just didn't want me to have accidents and was afraid that I would think too much, so she followed me all the time.As for why she didn't contact Wan Qiu, it was probably because she was afraid of embarrassing me. After all, I still have to live here for so long.

They are so gentle and always thinking of me, but because of my own selfishness, they are inexplicably angered.I am always emphasizing my feelings, but I never think about what will happen to the people around me, as if their kindness is taken for granted, and I never think about why they are kind to me, and why I enjoy such treatment.They treat me as a friend and give care without asking for anything in return, but I think it is wrong for them to do so.If you think about it in another way, the one who made the most outrageous mistake is myself.

Looking at myself in the mirror with red eyes as if I have been wronged a lot, I have the urge to smash the person in the mirror, you don't even have the right to cry.Taking other people's goodness for granted, she thinks she is a white lotus green tea bitch.

Rubbing my eyes hard, I decided to cheer up and apologize to the two people outside.In the next second, my attention was drawn to a cup on the bedside table. The cup of milk in it was still hot. The senior sister really made milk for me.A small note was pressed under the cup, and the three words "sorry" were written in elegant fonts.

She actually apologized to me for being so unreasonable. I am the one who should really apologize.I wiped away the meaningless salt water on my face, and smiled in the mirror that was uglier than crying. I was the one who didn't eat the brain fragments at noon.

Opening the door and returning to the living room, Wan Qiu and her senior sister were still watching TV, this time both of them were anxious.Seeing me coming out, Wan Qiu stood up and walked to me, opened her mouth to say something, but looked at a loss.The senior also followed behind, just staring at the floor in a daze.

Sure enough, it made them feel embarrassed again. I loathed myself in my heart, and all the embarrassment and grievances actually came from my own black hole.People sink deeper and deeper into the pain they imagined, and finally they can’t extricate themselves. Aunt Ye once told me that, I didn’t take it seriously at that time, but now I think it’s just right to describe me.

"I shouldn't have run away suddenly and didn't answer the phone and acted like the whole world owed me 500 million. I'm sorry." I omitted the punctuation and said the apology in one breath. When something was put down, the whole person felt a lot more relaxed.

"There are so many people in the world, you should be the richest man in the universe now." Wan Qiu smiled, as if she didn't take my sudden temper to heart, and touched her nose, "Who will say that you are sick in the future, I will just open it to him." sick leave."

"Well, your side job is a school doctor, so you have the right." I nodded.Listening to Wan Qiu's words, my nose suddenly became a little sour again. I have never discovered such a good person, and I have been repaying my kindness with complaints for so long.

"There is ginger soup in the kitchen. I must be the one who suffers from the cold and illness after hanging out naked for a long time. Don't look at me with such distrust. I didn't cook it." Wan Qiu waved her hand carelessly, " The young master has gone to code words, and you made me want to change the plot because of your fuss."

"You're just naked..." Looking at the back of Wan Qiu swaying back to the room, I wanted to refute but felt that it was worth not to say anything. An inexplicable warmth surged up. It turned out that the heating had started to run.

Suzi, who hadn't spoken all this time, just looked at me hesitantly, but finally said nothing, turned around and went to the kitchen to bring out a bowl of ginger soup and put it on the table.

"It's still hot, drink it." Suzi sat down at the table.

Brown sugar is added to the ginger soup, which is sweet and spicy mixed with a magical taste. I drank it upside down in one breath, raised my head and pretended to be drinking the soup, and dared not put down the bowl because I didn’t know what to use. What kind of posture is facing the senior sister sitting opposite.Wanqiu is a friend and a heart-warming big sister. She can laugh at ordinary apologies. However, senior sister, who is still special to me and will always be special, how should I explain my series of disturbing words and deeds? .

"Thank you." After holding back for a long time, I continued to keep my head up and drink the soup until my neck was sore, and I could only say two words dryly.

"I don't hate you, it's just that I'm at a loss. Some things happened too suddenly..." the senior sister said suddenly, her voice was so soft that it seemed to be talking to herself, it was hard to hear if you didn't listen carefully, "I saw you I am very happy to have made new friends.”

"What are you happy about?" You don't hate me, and you don't like me.My brain habitually diverges thinking, does she think of herself as a mother or does she think that my relationship with Li Zhiyang is unusual.

"I used to think that you were a child who needed someone to take care of you. Now you have Wanqiu and the person in the afternoon by your side. Isn't that very good?"

"You know Li Zhiyang, we used to be from the same school, she and I were just at the same table, and we just met on the road today." I explained.Why did I hear other meanings from her words, telling me that I didn't think too much this time.

"Yeah." The senior just nodded slightly, not intending to expand the topic, "I'll be back tomorrow."