self-deprecating

When Gu Ze saw Han Zizhou in the hospital, he always felt that something was wrong.

"What happened to you when you got home?" Gu Ze asked.

"It's okay." Han Zizhou shook his head, "You take the money, and I will be your big creditor from now on."

Gu Ze didn't answer, but said, "You have to tell me the truth. If you don't tell the truth, I won't accept it."

"What's the matter? I went home and got something." Han Zizhou smiled helplessly.

Gu Ze was skeptical.

Han Zizhou took the opportunity to put the card in his hand, "Hold it, the password is my birthday."

Gu Ze suddenly smiled, "Don't you usually say 'the password is your birthday'?"

"The future password is your birthday, which is from before." Han Zizhou also laughed.

"Brother Zhou, thank you." Gu Ze leaned against the wall and looked at him with his head tilted.

"No verbal thanks." Han Zizhou joked.

"Then what about me? Promise with your body?" Gu Ze also joked.

Han Zizhou touched his chin thoughtfully, "This is fine."

Gu Ze didn't answer, just lowered his head and smiled.

After a while, Gu Ze said to Han Zizhou, "Brother Zhou, you can go back to school, you can't stay in the hospital all the time."

"I don't want to go to school, I just want to guard you." Han Zizhou looked at him.

"No, you are useless here, you can only sit outside and wait, and you only have half an hour of visiting time a day."

"What about you?" Han Zizhou asked him back.

"I'll stay here to accompany the bed." Gu Ze said as it should.

"I'll stay here with you."

Gu Ze frowned, "Brother Zhou, you don't have to do this, you go to class well. Although I can't accompany you in CCU now, I can only visit once a day, and there are nurses at other times, but how can I rest assured to do other things?" What about things? Even if I'm not in the hospital, I can't concentrate on other things.

You are different, you should go to school and get back to normal life.You can come and see me and my mom often, that's enough. "

"But Gu Ze, if I don't watch you take care of yourself, I won't be able to study." Han Zizhou smiled helplessly at him, "It's a habit."

"Brother Zhou, you are obedient." Gu Ze's voice was full of helplessness and a hint of coquettish charm.

"I only listen to the right words." Han Zizhou said helplessly.

"..." Gu Ze saw that this didn't work, so he had to change another method. The smile on his face disappeared instantly, and he said with a cold face, "Hurry up and go back to school."

Han Zizhou didn't care at all, "I won't go back."

Gu Ze really couldn't figure out why Han Zizhou insisted on being here so much.

Han Zizhou sat down on his own, took out his mobile phone and clicked on a small game.

In fact, he knew that staying in the hospital was of no help, but he just didn't want to leave.When he thought of Gu Ze standing alone in the freezing cold hospital corridor, his heart ached.

He was afraid that Gu Ze would break up with him if he couldn't think about it.

He was also afraid that Gu Ze would let him go if he knew that Ms. Li and Mr. Han had discovered their relationship.

A big "gameover" popped up on the phone screen.

He exited the game and looked at the people coming and going in the corridor without thinking.

Gu Ze was still leaning against the wall, watching Han Zizhou quietly.

The two sat and stood in the corridor of the hospital, seeming to be very close and yet far away.

It seems that once you reach out, you can't grab it.

I don't know how long it has passed, Han Zizhou looked at the time, "It's so late, I haven't eaten anything in the afternoon, I'm going to buy food."

After speaking, he smiled at Gu Ze, turned and left.

After leaving the hospital, it was completely dark, and the pale street lamps shone on him.

Winter seems to come too early and too cold.

Han Zizhou packed food and brought it back to the hospital, and the two of them sat side by side on the bench to eat.

After eating, Gu Ze took out his book from his bag and spread it on his lap to read.

Han Zizhou leaned on his shoulder and pointed to the knowledge points in the book to explain to him.While listening, Gu Ze nodded to show that he understood.

The night is already deep.

Gu Ze rubbed his frozen fingers, "Brother Zhou, can you go back to school tomorrow?"

Han Zizhou froze for a moment, "Why are you talking about this again?"

"I'll feel at ease when you go back." Gu Ze said, "You have to do well, go to school and take exams well.

I have already decided to sell my house during this time.Although this house is my mother and my father's consistent insistence, they worked hard to create a small home.So when my father left, my mother never sold it no matter how hard it was.

But now I have no choice but to sell the house. Medical expenses are a big expense. I want my mother to live a good life. As long as there are people, wherever is home.

When my mother recovers from her illness, I still want to take the college entrance examination with you.If I can't take the college entrance examination this year, then you remember to wait for me, I will take the college entrance examination next year.

In case you see a better world outside and better people, and you don't like me anymore, I like you too. "

Han Zizhou held Gu Ze's cold hand, "I don't like others, I only like you."

"Don't worry, I've made up my mind, and I'll keep delaying you." After Gu Ze finished speaking, he laughed to himself, as if he had watched some comedy movie, his smile was sunny and bright.

"Then you must remember to delay me all the time." Han Zizhou raised his hand and rubbed Gu Ze's stubble.

When Gu Ze called and told Lei Ge that he was going to sell the house, Lei Ge was in the store, and the wrench in his hand fell to the ground in surprise, breaking a crack in the floor tiles.

"Have you really thought about it? Have you told your mother? Does she agree?" Brother Lei knew Gu Lan's feelings for this house, otherwise he wouldn't have owed money for so many years when he sold the house.

"I told my mother, and she said let me decide." Gu Ze held the phone, "I will spend a lot of money in the future, and I have to go to school, so I can't sell the house. And as long as the person is good, other things..."

"Understood." Lei Ge said, "I'll help you find out. Didn't it mean that the houses in the village in the city over there will be demolished in the past two years? There must be a lot of compensation, so you should not worry about selling them. If you are not in a hurry, wait a minute Maybe we can wait for the demolition payment.”

"I'm in a hurry. There is no definite news about this. I don't know if the house can be demolished for a year or two. Brother Lei, please help me find out. The price is right."

"Okay, since you have decided, let me inquire for you." Lei Ge readily agreed.

"Thank you Rego."

"Okay, okay, don't thank me, how is sister-in-law these two days?"

"My mother is still the same as before, and she has gotten better in the past two days." Gu Ze said, "I guess she can be transferred out of the CCU without any problems."

Gu Ze spoke very optimistically.

"That's good."

After hanging up the phone, Gu Ze let out a long sigh of relief, probably in this way, all the unhappiness in his heart can be expelled from his body.

Han Zizhou was in the hospital, he went to the bank to transfer money to Uncle Li.Uncle Li received the money, and his attitude of speaking improved a lot, but Gu Ze didn't care too much, and after paying back the money, there was no intersection.

If you are friendly to him, he will naturally treat each other friendly.If it's unfriendly, he doesn't care.

On the way back from the bank, I passed a bakery.

Gu Ze always remembered that tomorrow is Han Zizhou's birthday.

He walked into the cake shop, and the sweet smell filled his nostrils, making him feel happy.Under the warm yellow light, the exquisite cream cakes are very appetizing.

When I got back to the hospital, the doctor was talking to Han Zizhou.

Gu Ze stepped forward and asked, "What's wrong?"

Han Zizhou smiled, "It's okay, the doctor said that Auntie has stabilized, so don't worry too much."

"Yeah." Gu Ze nodded.

Han Zizhou saw something in Gu Ze's hand, "What did you buy?"

"This...is for you." Gu Ze picked up the small box in his hand and handed it to Han Zizhou.

"For me?" Han Zizhou took it suspiciously, it was a square cardboard box, "Cake?"

"Well, tomorrow is your birthday." Gu Ze nodded.

Han Zizhou asked in surprise, "Can I open it?"

"Ask me why, it's yours if I give it to you."

"Then I opened it." Han Zizhou slowly opened the carton.

It is a small cupcake with a bunny painted by cream and a small paper umbrella, very cute.

Gu Ze rubbed his nose in embarrassment, "It's very small, and I can't afford anything else."

"Very cute, I like it very much." Han Zizhou put the cake back again.

"Aren't you going to eat?"

"Save it for tomorrow, tomorrow is my birthday." Han Zizhou said.

"...not fresh anymore."

Han Zizhou smiled, "It's fine."

It is a simple and sad thing to sit with a nurse outside the ward, and too many times it is just waiting.

When Gu Ze was free, he just sat on the bench to read and write questions, while Han Zizhou sat beside him and quietly accompanied him.

When it was almost twelve o'clock, Gu Ze stopped writing.

"what happened?"

"It's almost tomorrow."

Han Zizhou nodded and took out a small cupcake, "Let's eat the cake."

The tone was cheerful and relaxed, as if sitting on a round table in a big restaurant, full of well-wishers and delicacies.

Han Zizhou took off the small paper umbrella and handed it to Gu Ze, "Give this to my family, Ze Ze, it's so cute."

Gu Ze nodded and took the small paper umbrella.

Holding the cupcake, Han Zizhou mercilessly forked off the butter bunny and brought it to Gu Ze's mouth.

"You eat..." Gu Ze shook his head.

Han Zizhou didn't say anything, a forkful of cream was right next to Gu Ze's mouth.

Gu Ze had no choice but to open his mouth and eat it.

Han Zizhou took another forkful of cake and stuffed it into his mouth.

Just one bite for the two of you, and I finished the little cupcake in one bite.

"Brother Zhou, happy birthday." Gu Ze looked at him, "But I don't have a birthday present for you."

"Then can I ask for a birthday gift myself?" Han Zizhou asked.

"Yes, of course." Gu Ze nodded.

Han Zizhou stood up and threw the garbage into the trash can in the corridor.

He pulled Gu Ze up from the chair again, and turned into the safe passage next to him.

No lights, no people.

Han Zizhou took a look, but found no surveillance.

She cupped Gu Ze's cheek with both hands and kissed it.

When eating the cake just now, Han Zizhou's hands were cold outside his pockets.When he touched Gu Ze's cheek, Gu Ze flinched, then turned his head and immersed himself in Han Zizhou's kiss.

The sweetness of the cream still remains between the lips and teeth.Han Zizhou kissed him gently, without passion/desire, but with a trace of comfort and full of liking.

Gu Ze remembered a sentence, which he saw in "Appreciation of Good Sentences" under the exercise book.

"Life is a pure fire, and we live by an invisible sun within us."

Han Zizhou is his sun.

The author has something to say: That sentence comes from Thomas Browne's "Buried in an Urn"

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