calm to light

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blame?Does such a small child understand resentment?If you understand, what kind of mentality should you use to ask me, the concubine who was designed by him.The corner of his mouth involuntarily evoked a smile, "Why does the fourth prince ask you that?"

My rhetorical question made him frown slightly, and with his childish face, he was a bit out of place, "Mr. Yun is a new favorite, but because of my prince's words," when he said this, he actually evoked a tricky smile, like As if trying to arouse my anger, the expression on her face was rather beating, "I'm afraid Huang Ama is annoyed by the nobleman, and she doesn't even want to see her once."

"Isn't it like you don't want to see the fourth elder brother?" Hitting the red heart, my words blocked the fourth elder brother's speech, and he just glared at me with burning eyes. It looked so cute.

He may have wondered that I didn't have the reaction he imagined. Even if I poked a painful spot, he didn't get angry for long. Instead, he said again like a grown-up, "Why don't you care so much?" Obviously, the women in the harem care the most. It's Huang Ama's will, he thought, even if he is as smart as a nobleman, he is afraid that he will always be for Huang Ama's will.Why does the person in front of her not care so much, just like she has never cared about her embarrassing prince.

There is confusion on the face that has not yet grown up, and the injury across the eyes has completely replaced the innocence that should belong to him. Looking at such a fourth brother who looks like a small beast that is injured and abandoned aside and ignored, on the one hand I admire his precociousness, and feel that he is worthy of being the son of that person. On the other hand, I lament his situation, subconsciously thinking that this child may be able to get along well with me.Zuo You himself has been given by the emperor to accompany the fourth elder brother, so he should be kind and sincere in his words. "How does the fourth elder brother know that I don't care?" I looked at him as if he was dissatisfied with my answer, and wanted to refute, "I just don't want to show this concern on the surface."

"Why?" A smart child can think of a lot.

"Even if you show it, you can't change anything. Maybe it will mess up your mind." I smiled and saw him nodding his head in agreement. "You just know everything in your own mind. What do you think, Brother Si?"

"Mr. Yun's words mean that although the nobleman is kind on the face, he actually angered the prince in his heart?" Applying what he has learned, drawing inferences from one instance, is probably to describe the person in front of him.

"Brother Si, you're overthinking." I chuckled lightly. Although I said so, I leaned towards my aunt, put my weight on her, and planned to withdraw myself from Si Ah brother holding hands.No matter how precocious he is, as a child, his palms will sweat when he is nervous. I don't know why he cares so much about his answer, but being held by wet hands is really uncomfortable. "My elder brother and I don't have a deep relationship. Today, the fourth elder brother's move makes me even more panic. I see that the fourth elder brother is not a stingy person. I wonder if the elder brother can clear up my doubts?"

He was injured by my actions, and he clenched my hand tightly to prevent me from pulling away. He was stunned for a moment when he heard my question, and then he reacted, "This prince is like that!" A grudge," he remembered the indifference in her eyes that day, just like Huang Ama's indifference to him, such eyes made him uncomfortable, but it made him want to get closer, as if he knew clearly Huang Ama doesn't like her, but she always deceives herself, "You little nobleman, how dare you ignore me, I will naturally hold grudges." Obviously complaining to me, but the child's grievances are not in the slightest. because I.

Probably because of the emperor's indifference to him and his father's indifference to him, the child was like a hedgehog. It happened that he touched the soft flesh of a hedgehog for some reason, which made him vigilant.

"Too unnecessary." I sighed softly.

"what?!"

"I said, it's too unnecessary." I looked at him, rarely looking directly into his eyes seriously, "I'm just a stranger to you. How can you care if I ignore you? Ignore for things you don't care about." It's a pity that I lost what I really care about. It's not worth it."

"Mr. Yun...what did you say, the prince can't understand." It was rare to pretend to be stupid.

Since he doesn't want to be picky, I won't say anything. It just so happens that the place where he lives is right in front of him.Looking at it from a distance away, a small courtyard is surrounded by green bamboos, which is quite quiet and elegant.This is the bamboo garden where Si Age lived.

"I heard that the place where the fourth elder brother lived was bestowed by the emperor, but is it true?" Such a place is quiet, but it is also a good place to concentrate, and it must have a great influence on cultivating a person's mind. .

"It was indeed bestowed by Huang Ama." He looked at me with provocation in his eyes, "The bamboo garden is the farthest place from Huang Ama's residence. If you want to see Huang Ama, it will be very difficult. "It's very difficult, one is in the most corner of the palace, the other is in the deepest part of the palace, they are far apart, and there are many obstacles, she will definitely be like herself, no matter how hard she tries, she will never be able to see that superior person.

"There is nothing difficult in this world, as long as there is a heart." This child, why is he so obsessed with horns? Isn't it because he can't see his father? , not afraid of wasting the childhood time that was only once in vain, "If you really hit the south wall, you can just turn around. The fourth elder brother is still so young, there are many opportunities to start again, why worry more than me, a woman in the deep palace Woolen cloth."

"What do you mean this prince is worried, this prince is not worried at all!" Oh, he was on fire, "It's you who has to worry, you just wait for the old dead palace to cry!" After he finished speaking, he stomped his feet , and took the lead to enter the bamboo garden, the appearance of the fried hair is so cute, I didn't expect this child to have a proud nature.

Perhaps my expression was too weird, I obviously wanted to laugh, but I controlled myself to be calm, and what I presented to my aunt who was supporting me was my forced smile, which naturally made her understand that I was swept away After saving face, she smiled happily, "Master Yun," she tried her best to save her little master, "Actually, the fourth elder brother likes him because he likes him."

Children sometimes do this, the more they like it, the more they hate it. This contrast is more obvious in children who have been hurt in their hearts.So what my aunt said is also possible, but, "I only met the fourth elder brother once, how can we talk about liking?" The only time I met, I didn't behave well enough to make a sensitive child like me.

"My lord, the servant watched the fourth elder brother grow up. If he didn't like to care about it, the fourth elder brother wouldn't bother to ask the emperor to let the nobleman come." The wisdom of too many things, that kind of appearance, let me change the rest of her anxious look in my heart, after all, she is an old man in the palace.

"Then accept my aunt's auspicious words." Such a person should be truly loyal to the fourth elder brother, but the emperor is her real master. It is a rare character that she can treat an elder brother who has fallen out of favor like this. .

It can be said that it is a coincidence that there is only one such servant around the fourth elder brother, but I don't want everyone around him to be like this!This makes people have to think too much.

In a blink of an eye, I have lived in Zhuyuan for a while, and the longer I stay, the more I see, and the more I feel that something is wrong.There are very few decorations in the fourth elder brother's house, but the ones that are commonly used must be good.The pens, inks, papers and inkstones are all good, not at all as I originally estimated, mainly inferior and defective products.This is just one of them. In addition, although there are not many people around the fourth elder brother, they are not simple, and they have a certain degree of advancement and retreat, and most of them are old people in the palace. Not to mention their experience, even their loyalty is extremely high.

I thought that when I entered the bamboo garden, there should be servants of so many forces, but after so long, I haven't heard a single gossip, and the people in the bamboo garden really respect the fourth elder brother. Treat like a master, not sympathetic kindness.Such a person is absolutely impossible to be cultivated by a young prince who has no powerful background.

"Mr. Yun, why did you come back so early today?" When we walked into the main hall, we saw a child sitting on a slightly higher square stool, with short legs hanging down naturally because they couldn't reach the ground.When the child saw me, he put down the book in his hand, concealed the flash of light in his eyes, and evoked a hint of sarcasm, "Could it be that he gave up."

"I wasn't tempted at first, where did I give up?" I have said this many times, but the doll in front of me is like this time every time, and I don't believe it at all, "I was just going to serve the Queen Mother. Now the Queen Mother If you don't have to serve me, I will be free."

"Mr. Yun, you said that even the Queen Mother doesn't want to see you?" He kicked his legs, got off the chair, trotted to me, and smiled happily, "Didn't you lose your last hope?"

I naturally squatted down and looked at him at the same level. This kind of action made him a little unnatural. I realized that he was about to back away. I reached out and stabilized his shoulders, "Sometimes I really don't know who you are. Not a child?"

"Of course it is!" He opened his arms and showed me his own small body, to show that he was just a child with short limbs.

"Indeed, when you are a child, why not enjoy yourself and be a child."

"It's true that I am a child, but I am also a child of the Tian family." Since childhood, he has been indoctrinated with such thoughts by the people around him. Since he was a child, he has never been treated as a child. It's a prince, a prince who is hated by the emperor!

"What about the child of the Tian family?" To be honest, I don't want to go along with this child anymore. Since it is possible to get along with him for a long time, I just want to let that child know my thoughts and dissatisfaction in my own way.Now is the troubled time, such a prince who doesn't know whether he is valued or despised, is very troublesome! "Even if you are a child of the Tian family, you are not as noble as a prince!"

"You!" He thought I was mocking his current situation, so he exploded!

"You have low self-esteem, you think more than ordinary children, and you are unhappy because of other people's thoughts all day long. Compared with ordinary children, such a prince lacks a lot of self-confidence and pride that belongs to children alone!"

"What do you know!" He became angry and wanted to break free from my confinement.

"I know everything I need to know." I looked at him, like looking at a struggling beast, "You come from a humble background, but in my opinion, nobility does not lie in blood. If you are self-respecting and confident, who can see?" I am inferior to you. You think that you are not liked by the emperor, even if it is true, if you want to be liked by your own emperor, why not try your best to make him like you. You think that you are dispensable as a prince, but you look forward to others If you are respected, then you will try to be respected by others! Such self-pity is too cowardly. You don’t want to be pitied by others, but you don’t want to be yourself, making others have to pity you.”

"You...you are just a concubine, an outsider, you... nonsense!" I looked at each other, I saw the tears in his eyes, but I felt relieved in my heart, I would rather this child could cry One day, his eyes were too oppressive, if there wasn't a heavy rain, how could it be sunny.

"Yeah, I'm just an outsider, but you insist on pulling me in. If you don't value me as a concubine, why should you be so?"

"That's right! I made Huang Ama annoy you on purpose," he said in a hurry, and sure enough, this person still resented him, and he made her lose his honor for nothing, that's why she was like this today, but , but, "I just want you to accompany me." He has always envied, always envied his third brother, who has a mother and concubine who loves him, and he has always hoped that he has a mother, not everything goes his way, but But he can point out his shortcomings without hesitation, just to make himself better.

On that day, he was annoyed by his aunt's obedience and comfort, so he wanted to go out to see his Ama by himself, even though he might make Huang Ama dislike him even more because of this impulse.At that time, he went there with a broken heart, but he didn't want to see her before meeting his father.

She was alone in the pavilion, and she simply sat down, making the whole pavilion soft.Seeing himself barging in, there was no trace of panic in his eyes...disgust.Facing the aunt she found, her confession made him angry and at the same time faintly happy, even if it was unintentional, this person stopped him.

At that time, a certain thought in his heart became more and more intense, so he began to use his heart and wisdom for the first time. Sure enough, due to Huang Ama's disregard for him and his age, the plan was very successful.But the result was not what he expected. She was very calm when she looked at him, and she was very calm when facing him, smiling so that she didn't dare to approach him.

It's like a pure white flower that blooms on decay, you want to touch it but you're afraid of being stained, if you touch it, it's hard to resist the poison!

Just like now, he encountered it and felt uncomfortable, "You asked for it, who made you meddle in my own business that day!" Who made you stop me that day.

I looked at the inexplicable silence of the child in front of me, and watched him open his mouth again with teardrops falling down, which were extremely white and crystal clear, and without knowing why, he blurted out a sigh.Living in Zhuyuan for the past few days, it’s not that I didn’t notice his cautiousness. At first, I just felt strange. Zhuyuan is not small. If he sees me uncomfortable, he can take care of himself, but he greets himself every day. As long as I don't leave the garden, he will definitely stay by my side in disguise.Even if I go out, he will definitely find an excuse to be halfway with me.

There are also small movements every time I eat at the same table. For any dishes on the table that I have moved three times, he will definitely not move the next time.

And the body beside my bed every night, the little fleshy palm holding my hand, the whisper echoing in my ear, "Er Niang." Carefully check if I have any signs of waking up, see that I have no reaction, and start giggling in a low voice again.

I'm confused. Could it be that I look like his mother-in-law?

Using force with my hands, I pulled him into my arms, but his body froze, and the tears flowed more fiercely, soaking my clothes in an instant, and slightly stroking his small body that was convulsed by crying silently, I used my own The softest voice said, "Yes, it's all my fault for meddling in other people's business. That's why you got into trouble."

Yes, this trouble, this burden, I have already taken over.Not only because of the emperor's holy will, but also because of the child's silly smile.

On this side, the fourth elder brother and I finally got an opportunity to ease the relationship, but elsewhere:

"Empress Dowager, the nobleman Yun is like this today, why doesn't the Empress Dowager speak for the nobleman?"

"What do you say, the emperor is annoyed by her now, and Mrs. Huigui and Mrs. Wangui are too powerful, so it's better for her to be left in the cold." The sisters were favored but lost their power, and it was inevitable that a rift arose in their hearts, and this rift was beneficial. palace.Furthermore, "I'm afraid it's going to rain, so she'd better not come out, so as not to get wet."

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"Your majesty," Su Peisheng told the emperor everything he had learned. Seeing the emperor's expressionless silence, he couldn't tell for a while. Mr. Yun is present?"

"Isn't Hongli's birthday coming soon?"

"Yes," Su Peisheng added with a smile after understanding what the emperor meant, "It just so happens that Mr. Yun's birthday is also on those days."

"It's rare," Yinzhen smiled, and seemed to think of something, "Go and do something. She is so in my heart, I really should do something for her." Hongli's request was indeed beyond his expectations In addition, the subsequent push forward is for protection, but also for seeing clearly.

What kind of existence An Lingrong would be to Hongli, and what would it be to him.