calm to light

The heart disease was difficult to treat, so I stayed at home, living in my own modest room, and rarely even got out of bed.The queen saw that I had been ill for a long time, and it seemed that it was difficult for me to make a bright future. She didn't pay much attention to me at the beginning. When people come to visit, even the other concubines don't care about it. Only Meizhuang really cares. Even though he is valued by the emperor, he is in charge of the sixth palace, and he is busy with everything. He still finds time to visit, and keeps sending things to us who are seriously ill.I was moved by this friendship in the midst of hardship, and made me like Meizhuang more and more, and became more and more honest. I got closer to her bit by bit, and I was treating her as my sister, and I hoped for her well.

In the past few days, the weather has started to get colder. I don’t know if it’s because I’m almost recovering from illness, or because the cold weather has refreshed me a lot. On the contrary, I feel a little more energetic and my appetite has improved a lot.When Meizhuang came, he was very happy to see that my complexion had improved a lot. He talked and laughed and made an appointment with me to see Zhen Huan together.I feel that I am in good spirits. Looking at the snow outside, although the air is cold, it is rare to be clear. In addition, after staying in the house for a long time, I always feel a musty smell all over my body, and I want to go out to breathe. Regardless of Mei Zhuang's worries, she put on a lot of clothes under her instructions, and deliberately didn't bring Bao Juan, who was afraid of hurting me when I came out in this cold and snowy day, instead called Cui, who was childish and wanted to go out. Si and the more prudent Ju Qing, persuading with reason and evidence, and acting childishly, insisted on pulling Mei Zhuang to Broken Yuxuan together.

Along the way, I stepped on the thick snow. Although I was still a little tired, I was very excited. I was from the south in my past and present lives. Such heavy snow is really rare. I like it very much.One step at a time, the shoes on the bottom of the flower pot make a unique sound when they step on the white snow, soft and simple, but it makes me feel comfortable. In the center of the center, I picked the corner where the snow was thick and flat. Cui Si followed suit, full of childishness. Ju Qing, who was next to me, was afraid that I would fall, and couldn't bear to spoil my rare good mood. She just helped me carefully. with me.

Mei Zhuang looked at the appearance of the three of us, saw that I was having fun, looked childish, and thought about my illness, and said, "You are such a big man, and you still care about playing so much, even if you are not afraid of being laughed at by others, you can still play." Be careful not to fall." The concern in the words was half teased.

I had fun because I was accompanied by Mei Zhuang, the sister I recognized, and it was precisely because I cared about her that I was ashamed when she said that, "Sister," I stopped and turned around Looking at Mei Zhuang walking behind her, and seeing Cai Xing Caiyue beside her looking funny but not daring to laugh, she became even more dissatisfied, "You don't understand that I have never seen such a good snow, Of course I'm happy."

It's rare to see the coquettishness of a girl like me, Mei Zhuang not only didn't restrain himself, but laughed together with Cai Xing Caiyue, now I was even more furious, looking at Mei Zhuang who had walked up to me unwillingly, staring With big eyes, he intends to take Ju Qing and Cui Si, and leave them far away.Mei Zhuang felt it was even more funny when I looked like this, and hurriedly grabbed my hand. Feeling a little cold, he gathered up the robe for me, and motioned Ju Qing to put on a plush hand covering the same color as my scarf, "Look With your temper, I don’t know if it’s because you’ve been bored during this period of time, or because you’re just childish,” she said, and when she saw me, she was unhappy again, and hurriedly showed weakness, “Okay, it’s my sister’s fault, what a majestic look , don’t blame me.”

I covered it with Juqing's hand, and my heart was warm. What I like to enjoy is this kind of thoughtfulness. Since I like it, I can enjoy it. What's so childish, the blessing of being loved and cared for is more precious than anything else.Thinking about it this way, I'd be more than happy to mess around with Mei Zhuang, like an angry younger sister, just ignoring her.Seeing me like this, Mei Zhuang felt warm in his heart, "Good Ronger, my sister has made amends to you. How about your lordship?" Ronger... was originally only called by my mother and aunt. Said from Mei Zhuang's mouth, it also made me feel at ease, and I felt the feeling of being pampered with all my heart again, and I didn't have any thoughts of fighting with her. I smiled and looked at her sincerely, and my happy eyes narrowed There is a gap, and I am a little embarrassed to say, "I like sister Mei to call me Rong'er." This is the beauty of Meizhuang. Even though I have lived many years longer than her, I still rely on her like a junior, I like her, I really think of her as a gentle sister.

She didn't expect me to say this, and she cut my forehead hair for me. I felt the gentle touch of her warm hands, and thought of my mother in a trance. Listening to her soft words, "If you like it, I always call you like this. I always feel that you have been ill for a while, and you have thought a lot, and I am happy for you." Indeed, I have been ill for a while, and I have thought a lot.The emperor's favor can just go with the flow, what I cherish in the harem is the sisterhood between Mei Zhuang and Zhen Huan, look, isn't her care as charming as the warmth my mother gave me?

After all, I am not in good health, and I am a little tired from the journey from my own palace to Broken Yuxuan. Fortunately, I have arrived at Broken Yuxuan, and I just went in to have a rest.It's just a little strange, Meizhuang and I entered Broken Yuxuan, but none of the servants saw us.Mei Zhuang also felt strange, and we went to the door of Zhen Huan's room together, only to see that the waiters in Broken Yuxuan were all kneeling in the room. Although Mei Zhuang and I were curious, we also knew that now was not the time to go in, so we went Standing on the porch.Not long after, I saw Kang Luhai, the eunuch in charge of Broken Yuxuan, come out in a hurry with his head bowed and his waist bowed. When he saw us, he just took a guilty look and ran away.Afterwards, a few court ladies and eunuchs ran out, but most of them didn't dare to look up at us. Looking at the scene, Mei Zhuang and I looked at each other, and we both saw the clear meaning in each other's eyes.There are many slaves in the palace who push the high and step down. Zhen Huan has been ill for a long time and cannot be favored. The people who serve her will inevitably be restless. In my opinion, it is a good thing. Be loyal, slaves don't care too much, just be sincere.Mei Zhuang is a little angry, she is such a person, she doesn't want her sister to suffer a little grievance, and she has been taking care of Zhen Huan and me when we are sick.Otherwise, Zhen Huan and I, the two nominal young masters, would have suffered a lot.

Zhen Huan inside had already taken care of things, Jinxi came out and saw Mei Zhuang and me and rushed in.Zhen Huan was very happy to see Meizhuang, and was even more pleasantly surprised to see me coming too, but she felt a little uncomfortable thinking that we must have bumped into each other just now.Mei Zhuang and I also understood and sat down.Mei Zhuang looked at the attire in Zhen Huan's palace, it was even simpler than mine. I think there is Fucha nobleman in my palace, and Mei Zhuang is taking care of me. Looking at the faces of the two nobles, it wouldn't be too skimpy, but Zhen Huan really lacks interest here, even Meizhuang is somewhat beyond her reach.Even knowing the reason, Mei Zhuang felt a little distressed. Seeing Zhen Huan's pale face, it was obviously not as serious as mine. I was almost fine, but she didn't improve much. The resignation of a conscientious person is even more dissatisfied with the negligence of the Ministry of Internal Affairs. "The Broken Yuxuan is remote, and it's not suitable for recuperation when it's cold. I brought you some silver charcoal. You can deal with it first. I saw black charcoal burning in the charcoal basin outside your house. It must be the Ministry of Internal Affairs." Those slaves are doing bad things. You and Rong'er have been ill for a long time, and they began to neglect. Just now I saw those unscrupulous people in Kang Luhai also leave. Thanks to your patience, I will report to the queen and severely punish these unscrupulous people. Competent servant."

Mei Zhuang is kind, but I think she is in the limelight now, and she was punished by Concubine Hua for one month not long ago. Apart from Kang Luhai, the head of the House of Internal Affairs is said to be a distant relative of Concubine Hua. There is really no need to confront Concubine Hua again for us, just as I was about to speak to persuade, but thought that after all, Mei Zhuang was complaining for Zhen Huan, and it was not appropriate to speak up by himself.Why don't I talk about it when I go back later, fortunately Zhen Huan also thought of it with me and persuaded Mei Zhuang. Seeing that Mei Zhuang gave up his intention of punishing the Ministry of Internal Affairs for doing things badly, he still refused to forgive Kang Luhai lightly. "Although you are polite, I still have to teach Kang Luhai and the others a lesson. It's good to remind those servants to be vigilant, otherwise you and Rong'er don't know how much more idleness you will suffer."

"Sister, there's no need to work hard for those who are not worth it. Since it's useless, I won't take it to heart. It's better to leave." Zhen Huan is also open-minded, happy that Meizhuang cares for her At the same time, I don't want her to cause even a little trouble for unnecessary things.

Seeing Zhen Huan's calm face, Mei Zhuang really didn't take what happened just now to his heart, and saw my agreeing expression, so he let it go, thinking that what Zhen Huan said made sense, "Listen to what you said, turn around I also want to take a look at the people in my palace." Someone told me, "Rong'er is the same."

I enjoy such inadvertent but most sincere caring care. I looked at Ju Qing and Cui Si, who were silent beside me. One was steady, the other was lively, and both were equally loyal. When I was sick, one cared for me and the other I thought of a way to make me happy, together with Baojuan, Chamomile, Xiaoxizi, and Xiaolezi in my palace, even though people gossip a lot, they still treat me with the same respect. I am really satisfied, because I have these people The lovely person waited on me and thanked me, "Sister Mei, don't worry. I am also lucky, and the people around me are good." I mean it, Ju Qing blushed with joy when she heard it, and Cui Si was even more eye-catching. They were all lit up, and their happy mouths were grinning to the ears, but they lowered their heads to cover up because of shyness. The appearance of the two of them increased the credibility of my words, and they also laughed at the other people in the room.

"Knowing that my sister is sick, I have been worried about it, and I am sick, and I have been unable to see my sister in person, but I don't want you to come first." Zhen Huan looked at my blushing cheeks, although seeing that I was in good spirits, she was still a little worried Yes, "I just heard from Dr. Wen that you are fine, but at least you should cultivate more. It is said that illnesses go away like silk. If you come to see me in such a cold snowy day, if you feel uncomfortable, you can Not to make me feel guilty."

Meizhuang saw that I was a little embarrassed by what was said, so she spoke first, "She is so bored, I can't stop it, if it really feels uncomfortable, she deserves it." I thought she was doing it for me. Smooth things over, but don't want to make fun of me again.

"Sister Mei!" I complained dissatisfied, well, just now I made Mei Zhuang laugh, but now I am happy Zhen Huan.Maybe I shouldn't be out today.

After entering the palace, the three of us managed to talk together again. Unfortunately, Meizhuang had to go to see the decorations for the New Year in the palace, and I didn't have much energy, so we broke up soon.When I went back, Mei Zhuang must insist on sending me back first, saying that I was brought out by her, and if I was not sent back properly, she herself would not be at ease.Mei Zhuang sent me back to my Ledao Hall (1), and left in a hurry.She is really busy, so it is inconvenient for me to keep her. Remembering her thoughtfulness, she is in a good mood.Seeing me happy, and the servants in the palace also feeling at ease, Cui Si said happily, "Young master should go out for a walk, and when people are happy, they will recover quickly." Seeing their concern, I feel like It's a lot easier.

I have been ill for a long time, and it is not that I have not been schemed by influential people. Following me, a humble master who has been ill for a long time, they have not enjoyed a day of blessings, and they have been ridiculed by other palace people. The last servants around Mr. Cha are always ordering them around. Among them, those who are more stable and thicker bear it, and have not expressed dissatisfaction in front of me at all. Even Cuisi, who is pure in heart, once met I saw her aggrieved red eyes and crying nose, and I also remembered Bao Juan Juqing's advice, don't let me think too much when I am sick, and tell lies that can't deceive anyone, and I am moved by the innocent way of forcing myself to mature and make me feel at ease Distressed again.I didn't treat them well, and dragged them down to become slaves among slaves. If they are dissatisfied and resign, I understand, but I don't want them to treat me like this. It's my fate.

An illness, a few months of recuperation, and missed the opportunity to be favored, few people will save me for my shame, and I feel happy in my misfortune.Only I know how much I cherish the opportunity I got due to illness, drinking cold drinks and warming alone in the recuperation room.I think Zhen Huan should have the same feeling as me.

Notes: (1) Ledao Hall is the residence of Ling Rong in the TV drama version of "The Legend of Zhen Huan". I also saw it when I was writing this chapter. , so say something.

Spoof: Every time I watch episode 7 of The Legend of Zhen Huan, when Yu Shi provokes Zhen Huan, Yu Shi said arrogantly, "Your status is only a little bit higher than mine." I always hallucinate "Your status is only slightly higher than mine." Well, everyone can ignore the meaningless things.

The author has something to say: