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When I opened my eyes again, it was already dark, and it was not Baojuan who was guarding me, but Cuisi, a lively and active girl who was earnestly wiping the cold sweat off my forehead. I couldn't reflect it all at once, but just stood there in a daze.

"Cuisi, help me up." Only when I opened my mouth did I feel my throat was so dry and thirsty, as if my throat was filled with sand, and as soon as I opened my mouth, I felt uncomfortable. I don't know if I heard my heart, a glass of water appeared in time In front of me, Cuisi behind me helped me up, and I just held that hand, drank water, moistened my throat, felt better, then looked at the person who handed the water. I thought it was Baojuan, but I didn't think it was Juqing.

While Ju Qing helped me to finish, she asked Cui Si behind me to prepare some light food. After sleeping for such a long time, I became more refreshed, and I really felt hungry. Ju Qing was as safe and careful as Zhen Huan said.As I thought about it, Ju Qing spoke again considerately, "My lord, you have been sleeping restlessly, sweating all the time, and having nightmares all the time. Baojuan just asked the imperial doctor to see it again for the lord, and now it should be where you are going." The Queen has spoken."

"Queen?" Why do you want to answer the queen's words?I really couldn't figure it out for a moment.Hearing my question, Ju Qing felt a bit embarrassed and didn't know what to say. After thinking about it for a while, I realized that she was jealous of this kind of gossip, so I asked Ju Qing to speak directly.

"Originally, tomorrow is the day when the newly promoted concubine will go to bed. I'm afraid I won't be able to go to bed because of illness." Hearing the news, I was really relieved, but Ju Qing thought that the little lord The master was sad that he was sick at the wrong time, and missed the opportunity to be favored, so he hurriedly picked another word, "I heard that Wan Chang is like the young master, who can't go to bed because of illness."

"Sister is sick?" When I came back, I lost my seven souls and six souls. I really didn't pay attention to the expressions of Mei Zhuang and Zhen Huan. I didn't expect that she was also sick. "Is she seriously ill?"

"This servant doesn't know."

"How about Sister Mei?"

"Although Shen Guiren was also frightened, there is nothing serious about it, the young master can rest assured."

Ju Qing smiled gently, and I felt relieved when I saw it, "That's good, I'll be free later, Ju Qing, please help me go to Broken Yuxuan to see my sister."

"Yes, my lord."

I don't know what the queen said to Baojuan. When the girl came back, she was worried, even if she tried her best to cover it up, she couldn't hide it.And she obviously didn't want to reveal it to herself, and the way she kept avoiding contact with her eyes was the best explanation.I have never been a curious or nosy person. She didn't say anything, but I didn't ask. Seeing her secretly relieved because of my indifference, I actually compared her in front of me with my dream. The wanton Baojuan who used clever words to control her and smiled after she succeeded behind her became one. Could it be that she is really the Queen's person?Or is it all just my own thinking?

Not long after Bao Juan came back, Ju Qing also came back, along with Mei Zhuang who met her at Zhen Huan's place.When Meizhuang came, I had already had dinner and was lying on the bed. Although I didn't have the low-grade fever that I had at the beginning, I was still weak and unable to lift my spirits. When Meizhuang entered the back room, he saw that I was sick He hurriedly came to my bed to prevent me from getting up, and sat down on the chair Baojuan brought.

"Ju Qing, sister Mei didn't pass the news when she came?" I didn't really blame Ju Qing, I just complained casually, and the girl was not dissatisfied after hearing it, she was very well-behaved, and Mei Zhuang was also satisfied with her Gentle, said, "Don't talk about Ju Qing, I didn't want you to be tired, so I told her not to talk."

On the other side, Baojuan served tea, and Meizhuang took it without drinking it, but continued, "I went to see Huan'er just now, she is fine, but you are serious. Tomorrow the new concubine can serve you." It's time to go to bed, and it's not the right time for both of you to be sick. But don't worry, just take care of your body." I felt that Meizhuang was really thinking about myself, and I was afraid that I would feel uncomfortable in my heart, and I didn't want to be wronged. She has something to hide, and at the same time, I also remember that dream. In the dream, Shen Guiren, the first person among the newcomers to be favored, because Zhen Huan pretended to be sick, her favor made Concubine Hua miss her, Your Majesty Her love gave her the opportunity to assist Liugong, but it also made her grudge against Liugong... Because I like Meizhuang very much, even if I know that the dream is just a dream, but because I like it, I would rather believe it. I found a reason to dismiss the servants, it was obvious that I rejected others, although Meizhuang was strange, she followed suit and asked the person who accompanied her to wait outside.

"Sister, I don't want to hide it from you. It's a good thing for me to be sick this time," I saw her puzzled, so I continued without waiting for her to ask, "I don't know why the Empress Concubine Hua misses me. With such a thing, I am afraid that today I will get enough of the limelight, and if I am favored by the emperor again, it will be a disaster rather than a blessing."

"What you said is also reasonable." Mei Zhuang agreed with my words and woke up, "It's a good thing that you and Huan'er are sick together, Huan'er is too popular. I also think of ways... ··”

"Sister Mei," looking at Mei Zhuang's worried look, I couldn't bear her to be startled, "You are different from me, I come from a humble background, but you are not, and Sister Wan and I can escape due to illness, but you may not, It's better to let nature take its course." With Mei Zhuang's background, the emperor's favor for her is inevitable, and the harem's fear of her cannot be eliminated, so it's better to take advantage of the prime time to consolidate her position.

Mei Zhuang obviously understood the meaning of my words, "Ling Rong, you still have a thorough thought."

"I can't help my sister. I'm afraid the emperor will go to my sister's place tomorrow night." I didn't want Mei Zhuang to worry all the time, and knowing that she had girlish feelings towards the emperor's future man, I couldn't help joking, "Big sister But let go of your hands and feet and fascinate the emperor's heart and soul, so you won't be afraid."

Sure enough, upon hearing my words, Mei Zhuang hurriedly became annoyed, "You bad girl, you are sick and still talking like this, be careful, I will never come to see you again!"

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A pair of callused and thick hands, with a strong masculine breath, slowly stroked along my eyebrows, slipped on my eyes and stopped for a while, my heart tightened, trying to slow down my breathing and keep it As long as ever, pretending to be asleep, I don’t know if I’m covering up seamlessly and fooling the other party perfectly, I only know how fast my heart beats when that person’s hand rests on my eyelids, the sound of a pounding pulse The sound kept vibrating my eardrums, which made me wonder that the other party actually knew that I was awake?But who would be able to enter this deep palace, and who would be willing to take the trouble to enter this deep palace for himself, and I can only think of one person, if it is really him, good...or bad.

His movements became more presumptuous. His fingertips slid down the bridge of my nose and began to stroke my face. From face to lips, he seemed to be having fun. The abdomen touched my lips, and even put his fingers into my mouth and touched my teeth!

Rogue, dirty to death!This kind of teasing won't teach me to be shy, but only make me angry and disgusting!He must be right!He is getting more and more presumptuous, trying to poke his fingers in, and his breath is getting closer and closer, it's so disgusting...

"I don't mind pretending to be asleep. The beauty closed her eyes and pretended to be asleep, but the thick eyelashes trembled, making my hands and heart itchy..." Sure enough, he knew that he was not asleep, so he took the opportunity to tease him and let go of his mouth slightly. Taking advantage of the opportunity, the salty taste from the tip of my tongue spread to my brain, which made me feel sick to my stomach. Suppressing the discomfort, I clamped my upper and lower teeth fiercely. Hearing his whole body whispering, I opened my eyes and saw that With a face that deserves a beating, he leaned very close, smiling so hard, I could see that I was biting hard, knowing that there was a bloody smell in my mouth, and my own teeth were sore, but he laughed more and more arrogantly , I saw my frowning and angry look in his mocking eyes, I was very weak, so I pushed him away with all my strength, and even said goodbye to his fingers, with a disgusting taste in my mouth. I wanted to get up and vomit on the ground, but I thought it would be difficult to explain if there were traces left, so I leaned against the side of the bed and turned my head to look at myself sitting casually by my bed, wearing a eunuch uniform with a nasty face The man thought of a way, and when he saw me staring at him, he became even more stinky, as if showing off, he put his claw that was bitten by me to his mouth, stuck out his tongue and licked the teeth on it. mark.I was disgusted looking at it, I felt that the anger in my eyes was about to burst out, but there is such a short-sighted person who insists on misinterpreting what I mean,

"Master's taste is good." He seemed very satisfied with his bloody smell, and perverts are not as disgusting as him! "So the beauty is not willing to leave her mouth?" As she said, she stretched out her blood-stained finger to me, "Ye, you are very generous, I will reward you more." As if I was afraid that he would repent, I immediately grabbed him I grabbed his hand, looked at his flattered look, and immediately rushed into his arms, spit out all the things in my mouth on the front of his clothes, and felt the stiffness of his body. Enduring his own discomfort, he spit out a few more mouthfuls by the way, and when the spit was finished, he got up and got out of bed, leaving him far away.Looking at the person on the bed with his head down and unable to see his expression clearly, I laughed at him in my heart for his weak mental endurance, and I haven't reflected on it yet.But I didn't want him to laugh out loud suddenly, which scared me.In the middle of the night in the palace, he is not afraid of being discovered if he is so presumptuous. I don't want to die early, so I quickly leaned forward and covered his mouth with one hand, and made a silent sound with the other hand. There is no one in the room, and the surroundings are quiet and chilling. Could it be that... when I turned around, I bumped into those dark eyes that seemed to suck my whole body in. The cold light in the eyes frightened me, "What did you do?" I didn't know how trembling and thin my voice was, and all I could think of was the pale face I saw during the day.

He took my hand down very calmly, as if he was satisfied that my terrified appearance gave him a chance to dismiss his face, "It's just a fancier." Yes, killing people in the palace is a stupid thing for him, it's him Think too much.When I heard him say this, I was relieved but my legs were weak, and I fell to the ground, thinking about the cold light in his eyes, how he came and went to the deep palace at will, and I was actually being targeted by such a person, really... ··Laughing at myself, I could feel his eyes staring at me, but I didn't want to pay attention to it... I just want to spend the rest of my life peacefully in this deep palace, can't I?

He saw that she had completely lost the courage to bite him just now. Although the appearance of giving up on herself was not weak and beautiful, it lacked that ostentatious beauty, which made him upset for no reason, "Master, I heard that you fell ill from fright, I thought it was your heart, but I didn't want it to be true." Of course, I was immersed in self-deprecating depression and didn't notice the change in his mood at all.

His words were cold and without any emotion, as if he was interrogating a useless servant. After listening to me, I was overwhelmed with emotions. I didn't know how to answer him. He didn't intend to let me answer. He got up and squatted on my bed In front of me, "Why, are you scared like this?" He became impatient when he saw that I was ignoring him, he reached out and pinched my chin, raised my head, and let me look at his face with a completely meaningless smile .

I felt his contempt and contempt for me, "Where is your courage to fight against the master? Or is that courage just your calculation, a disguise." The sternness in his eyes was even worse, and the strength in his hands was even greater. It made my jaw hurt, and I felt cold when I saw it, "Who are you?" Who are you and who are you helping, the queen, or Concubine Hua, or an unknown old man in the palace waiting to rise.

He didn't expect me to ask such a question, he stared at me for a long time, and smiled a familiar yet unfamiliar smile, "Master, your surname is Nian!"

young master!Concubine Hua's relatives, the nephew of that dazzling and ruthless woman, do such people need my help?Why did you find me who came from a humble background and was not the most outstanding?

"Because among those beautiful girls, the Lord likes you the most!" It turned out that I asked the question in my heart in a low voice.Looking into his eyes, I knew that I must smile very coldly, very coldly, complaining, "It's really my honor."

"Hehe, it's only now that you look a little bit better. Remember, I don't like your cowardly look just now." What is this?warn?But why do you say it in a joking tone with your lover? Maybe this is the first thing to show his moodiness.

"What can I do for your aunt?" I always felt that my heart calmed down after listening to his words, but I was useless just now.

"Let me think about it," he got up, paced in the room, and said half-thoughtfully, "Auntie punished a restless beautiful girl, which scared you, Auntie punished a useless girl , startled you, I really can't think of what you can do."

After sitting on the ground for a long time, I will feel cold, I got up and sat back on the bed, wrapped the quilt around my chilly body, there is no need to abuse myself, "Yeah, but I have nothing to use, in this case, What did the father come to do?"

My question seems to hit his heart, he is so happy, his mouth is grinning almost to his ear, his eyes are narrowed, he looks stupid like a boy who is kicking a baby to please praise, there is no such thing as The calculating, hostile and fickle person just now said, "Master, I~~" with a long ending, he leaned in front of me, "I heard that the beauty was sick, so I was so worried that I didn't think about eating and drinking, so I came to visit in person~ ~~~~~~”

"It's a great honor." Such a fickle person made me feel tired and flustered, but I was dumbfounded and pleased him.

"The harem is so dangerous~~~~So~~~~~ Master is thinking~~~~~~~" He tightened up all of a sudden, his long and narrow eyes were dark and hard to distinguish, "I will take you out of the palace."

Take me out of the palace... I didn't expect that I could still hear him say that, it was like a dream.

"Why, are you flattered?"

"Why?" Why me?Why bring up old things now?Why does he say things that are obviously difficult to understand so naturally, with a well-thought-out plan.

"Why? Because I like you. Keeping you in the palace won't help my aunt, and maybe it will cause bad things. I don't worry about it. Now it's a good time. It's better for you to come out of the palace and be my wife."

"Now is the time? Because I'm sick?" If you're sick, you may die. If someone like me dies, it's just a trivial matter if the body disappears.

"You are still smart." He put his hands on my sides, looked at me, and I could see his eyebrows and eyes clearly, "If you leave the palace, you will be the woman that the Lord will protect. "

"But she is also an anonymous woman with no past." Being protected by him... It is impossible to completely abandon everything about me.I think he understood the rejection in his eyes.

"If you insist on staying in the palace, the Lord will make the place where you are a cold palace." With his ability, this is not a joke, he can indeed make himself have no chance of being favored, and I never stayed in the palace because What kind of grace, if he really did this, he would actually help himself.

I probably don't know how much my expression touched him when I heard his words. I just smiled like this, so shallow that I didn't even notice it. The ridicule and disdain that was revealed was so heavy that no one could resist it. It made him suddenly not want to continue this topic, and his heart was full of anger but he didn't know why.

······The conversation between me and him came to nothing, he stayed in the deep palace because it was inconvenient, what did he say in the end?It seems like a lot, and it seems like there is nothing, just when he walked to the door, his figure stopped, turned his back to me and said in a deep voice, "Master's commitment is still valid, if you figure it out, I will find you to come in." Palace's little plum."

Little Lizi... When he entered the palace, the little father-in-law respected him probably because of him. I didn't expect that the little father-in-law was really an informant. Looking at the people in the room who were sitting and serving him with their own affairs, and There are a few other people, a few sincere people...

In the emperor's heart-nourishing hall, the queen was personally serving the emperor Yinzhen who was reading the poems and books. Seeing that Yinzhen put down the poems and books in his hand, the queen Yixiu took the opportunity to ask, "Today's new concubine can serve the bed. , is the emperor planning to go to Concubine Hua?"

Hearing the sound, Yinzhen stared blankly at the dignified and smiling person in front of him for a long time, and said with difficulty distinguishing between joy and anger, "Queen, are you trying to test my mind?"

"The concubine dare not speculate on the holy will." I have long been used to his suspicion and jealousy, but I still feel sad, I lower my head to hide the hurt in my eyes, she, Zhu Yixiu, will not show weakness and pretend to be pitiful in front of the man she loves, "Please Your majesty, turn over the sign." After speaking, he stretched out his hand and summoned the supervisor of the respect room to bring up the sign.

Yinzhen looked at those signs for a long time, but didn't see what he wanted again, "Where is the sign of Wanchang?"

"Returning to the emperor, someone from the Imperial Hospital came to report this afternoon, saying that Wan Changzai and An promised to be frightened by heart palpitations, and needed to be isolated and rested for sudden illness."

"Palpitation and fright?" Yin Zhen said angrily, "How can the two of them who are so good-looking have palpitations and fright together?" He was speaking to the father-in-law who was kneeling in front of him, but he was asking the queen who was sitting beside him.

Yixiu has served Shengjia for many years, so he naturally understands, "Concubine Hua is here in front of Guanchang, Shen Guiren and An promised, and ordered to give Xia Changzai a foot of red. Xia Changzai is now disabled." How much is in the words? A little bit can't bear to be cruel to Concubine Hua.

"Then why?" Yinzhen understood the purpose of the queen's visit today, and he didn't mind pushing the boat along, as long as she didn't overdo it.

"It was Xia Chang who was rude to himself and beat An in the palace and agreed, but Concubine Hua was too ruthless."

"If you do something in the palace, you should teach her a lesson, don't bother with her." Yinzhen understands Concubine Hua's temperament, so naturally she won't care about Concubine Hua's fault for someone who is not polite, "How about An's promise?"

"Injury is a trivial matter," Yixiu didn't expect the emperor to ask in person.He promised An that although he was not as caring as Zhen Huan, he was still extraordinary, "It's just that Fuzi in Concubine Hua's palace fell into the well for no apparent reason. Terrified."

As soon as she entered the palace, she experienced so many things, no wonder she... "I don't understand? What did Concubine Hua say?" Yinzhen was a little dissatisfied with the queen's words.

"It's a mistake, but Jiang Fuhai thinks something is wrong."

Yinzhen looked at the expression on the queen's questioning him, lowered his head and thought for a while, "The court ladies are also from the Eight Banners, you should check this matter carefully." Already?", An agreed, and neither of the two people she was interested in could sleep with.

"Shen Guiren is still fine." Seeing that the emperor seemed to be thinking about whose brand to turn over, Yixiu who was at the side suggested it.

"Shen Guiren is a bold one, let her be." Compared to the palpitations and fright of the two of them, this unharmed Shen Guiren seems to make people wonder.

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Later in the day, Tai Tai Hospital came to see me again. Although my illness was not as serious as it was at the beginning, but because of a knot in my heart, I was weak all over, and had no appetite. I lay limp on the bed and had no energy , Physician Wen prescribed a recuperation prescription for me, and by the way told me that the medicine is difficult to cure the root cause, so I can only prescribe it on my own.I got a heart... At night, Baojuan got a good news from nowhere, saying that the emperor will spoil Meizhuang tonight, as I expected, but Baojuan has always been by my side, which seems to be comforting. Complaining that if I hadn't been ill, the emperor would have favored me first, which made me very upset, and sent me away and only let Ju Qing wait in front of the window.

Baojuan's words made me doubt her even more, and also made her worry. If Baojuan really belonged to the queen, why did the queen think highly of herself?

Mei Zhuang's favor is the same as in the dream, but I was ill when I was fine.

Zhen Huan's heart palpitations were frightened, just like in the dream, but the boy who had never appeared appeared.

Baojuan’s words have deep meanings, just like in the dream, but how do I know that it’s not her who has a ghost in her heart and misinterpreted her...

How much can I use that dream...

Mei Zhuang didn't come to visit me the next day, and she was too exhausted to come to sleep with me last night.I heard from Baojuan that the emperor is very satisfied with Meizhuang, and the rewards from the Meizhuang Palace are also sent one after another every day. I am happy for Meizhuang and worried about the future of Meizhuang, but I think it is inevitable for Meizhuang Yes, I don't think much about it.In the evening, Aunt Jianqiu, who was next to the queen, came to visit on her behalf. I was on the bed and had Baojuan serve me and drink the medicine.Jianqiu just came from Broken Yuxuan, and said that although her complexion is poor, she is much better than Zhen Huan. Zhen Huan is sicker than me. She keeps talking on the bed, has a low fever and sweats, and can’t take any medicine. I heard I was worried, but also strange, I looked fine that day, but I was so sick when I went back, could it be that someone was behind it, or it was like in a dream, Zhen Huan was pretending to be sick?

In Jianqiu, besides telling me to cultivate myself well on behalf of the Empress, I also mentioned the tragic fate of the Xia family. Yizhanghong beat her to death, and Concubine Hua moved her to the cold palace who could no longer walk. The emperor knew about it. The son didn't say anything, but only asked the queen to investigate the cause of the girl named Fuzi's death.We little lords who have the name of the emperor's women are sometimes inferior to a court lady, which is really chilling.As for the empress' condolences and Jianqiu's words, they seem kind and more vigilant. I really can't understand the queen's intention of letting Jianqiu say these words to me.

The frightened and serious illness is only temporary, and I am afraid that I will be frightened for a lifetime in the future.