calm to light

Although I am fine, but at the end of the year after recuperating like this, I was worrying about whether I should attend the New Year’s Eve banquet in the palace. I attended, and so did Zhen Huan.No matter what the queen plans, I am happy.On the other hand, Bao Juan brought Xiao Xizi back all the annual rewards from the House of Internal Affairs, and Sister Mei (2) was more determined, and asked Ju Qing to take Xiao Lezi to get a lot of things from her.This is the case here, but Zhen Huan's place is not too bad. Compared with the concubines attending the banquet in the palace, we are free from entertainment and can have a relaxed New Year.Thinking that this might be the last few easy days I had due to illness, I made a plan early in the morning to celebrate the new year with the people in the house.

When New Year's Eve came, Baojuan and Juqing arranged everything according to my instructions early in the morning, and with the help of others, a group of people gathered around to make dumplings.At the beginning, they were concerned about my identity, and most of them were a little cautious, but Cuisi was so excited, her joy was so exciting that it stirred up the atmosphere. At first, it was a competition of who made the most regular dumplings. , but then everyone tried to make some strange things, and thought of naming them, and everyone played vigorously, until their respective five internal organs temples were empty, and they packed up and boiled dumplings to eat.After tidying up, a group of people were in my room again. I sat in the main seat, and the daughters of the palace each sat on a stool. Xiao Xizi and Xiao Lezi let go, and sat on the floor with a bowl of dumplings. Go around and start tasting your own fruits.I don’t know if it’s because the things I made by myself are particularly delicious, or because the atmosphere makes people appetizing. We couldn’t finish our food, but we insisted on finishing it all. It's full of energy.I am greedy for pleasure, I have lost my restraint, I eat too much, and it is uncomfortable to sit, so I want to go for a walk to digest food.Anyway, the people in Kilometer were enjoying the New Year's Eve banquet, and there would be nothing wrong with relaxing around by themselves, so they were accompanied by Baojuan, leaving the room messy, ordering the rest of the people to tidy up, and went out.

When it was cold, the snow hadn’t melted yet. Ever since I went to see Zhen Huan with Sister Mei, I started to live in a small house again. This is the first time I saw this snow scene in the dark night. .On New Year’s Eve, there was almost no one wandering outside. Baojuan and I walked all the way and didn’t meet anyone. Although there was no one, but because it was a festival, it was decorated after all. After walking a few steps, a red lantern fainted. A circle of red light complements the white snow, which is indescribably charming.I looked at the beauty of the red gauze caressing the whiteness, and I liked it very much. Basically, I just walked a few steps and stopped to appreciate it.Baojuan saw that I was in good spirits, and also liked the scenery with a little red in the white, so he couldn't help suggesting, "There is a plum garden in front of me, why don't you go and see the red plums?"

Yes, Yimeiyuan is not far from here, and I can vaguely see that piece of red. Although Yimeiyuan sounds familiar for a while, it seems to remind me of some memories, but I can't bear the heartbeat at that moment , I ignored it, and followed my own mind, wanting to take a closer look at the beauty of the red plums in the snow.

When I walked in, I was even more surprised by the beauty.

The pure red is originally coquettish, but it looks icy and clean when wrapped in the right amount of pure snow.A garden of red plums stands proudly, with stems like horned dragons and branches like long swords. Although the flowers are soft and tender, they can't get rid of the nobility and strength in their bones.The wind and snow had stopped long ago, and the icy air between heaven and earth was in full bloom. The blossoming red plums were like fires burning with integrity, quietly blooming under the cover of white snow and the dimness of the deserted moonlight, becoming A unique beauty that does not burn the viewer.There is also that strange fragrance, which is so magnificent that it rushes towards the face. When I really smell it, it is clear, light and refreshing, and the cold air is even more refreshing. , very comfortable.I couldn't help stretching my arms, taking a deep breath, closing my eyes, savoring this wonderful feeling, enjoying a contented smile, and murmured to Baojuan behind me, "Such a good red plum, Baojuan, you Go pick some, although it is not as charming as coming to lean on the plum garden in person, but it can also make them happy together." Baojuan seemed to say something, but I didn't pay attention, but when I came back to my senses, Baojuan had disappeared, I wanted to come I went to the depths of the plum grove. I originally wanted to wait for her here, but I couldn't help but want to feel what it would be like to be surrounded by these red plums, so I left the place.

Exploring in this red plum grove by myself, I can't express my nervousness and excitement.Like a mortal who strayed into a fairyland by mistake, he wanted to touch this extreme beauty, but he was afraid of damaging the natural detachment in it, which is why I didn't fold flowers by myself.There is often wind at night, which does not make people feel cold, but how many red plums are blowing with the wind, and the thin snow that has accumulated is flying again.

The red is eye-catching, and the white is attractive. I follow this pure white dancing with the wind, and suddenly feel a sense of loss... I feel stuffy in my heart, obviously happy, but sad.

Wearing the feet on the bottom of the flower pot, I can't help but step on the familiar steps, and use the elegant step shaker on the bun with one hand to act as a Kagura bell (3). The crisp, ear-splitting voice of its own is also somewhat ethereal.There is no ribbon, but the snowflakes I inadvertently brought up when I danced are like flawless ribbons woven from nature, which is a bit better than the real thing.Shenyue Dance, a dance that allows the gods to possess themselves, and the devout prayers of the witches.It turned out that only priestess women are qualified to learn the dance steps. I was also fascinated by the aura in the dance, and it took me a lot of effort to learn it. I didn't expect that I would involuntarily dance with such solemn steps to pray to the gods.

"Yi Ling!" It's so light that it's almost inaudible, but it makes people lose their minds and souls. May those who died in vain sleep peacefully.

"Yiling!" Turning around again, the white cloak swirls and blooms, wishing those who have wronged to be relieved.

"Yiling!" Bringing a whirl of Erxue, she is naturally beautiful and moving, wishing those who get lost will have a bright future.

"Yi Ling, Yi Ling, Yi Ling!", hoping for peace.

"Yi Ling, Yi Ling, Yi Ling!", I hope things will go well.

"Yi Ling, Yi Ling, Yi Ling!", I hope that the love in the palace will last forever.

I dance so much that I forget myself, I have nothing to think about, but I am tired of my thoughts.Asking for many and complicated things, I wanted to be sincere, but was replaced by greed.Can such a Kagura dance make the gods look sideways?Thinking of this, the step in my hand swayed to the ground, the steps under my feet were messy, my mind was unsteady, and I made the lowest mistake for a dancer. I tripped over myself and couldn't stop the result of falling on the loess. I also want to know whether the underground mud leaning against the plum garden is as fragrant as before?I was prepared to avoid a terrible fall, but I didn't want to wait for Xiangxue's cold pain to hit her face, but instead felt the rescue of a strong arm, and in the blink of an eye, I was already in a cold embrace that smelled of wine mixed with Meixiang.Looking up in horror, what I saw was a face with no expression. It was a rare and beautiful face, but it took all my attention because of those deep eyes. The dark tide in those eyes made me afraid. Struggling to imprison my powerful arms, but because of little effect, it made me more panic.

Just at this time, Baojuan came, and her voice of calling me made the man hold back a little, so I took the opportunity to break away from him, dragged Baojuan who didn't know why, and left.The sky was dark and the distance was far away, Bao Juan could only vaguely see a figure, seeing my strange expression, he dared not ask questions, just supported me in case I would fall.I was in a mess in my heart, thinking that the man's identity must not be simple, either the prince or the emperor, has such a person seen my Kagura dance?I have a lot of troubles myself, if I don't come out, I will be fine, if I provoke such a person, I don't know what kind of trouble I will have in the future?

Back in my own palace, I kept replaying that man's expression and eyes in my mind, thinking that he was not angry but powerful, and I was upset by his noble aura.Although the kagura dance originated in Japan, it is obviously different from the general entertainment dance. It has an obvious religious flavor, and people with a little wink can see something. How can I explain that a woman from a humble background can do this? A holy dance that ordinary clergy rarely practice.Thinking of this, my rare good mood is gone, only full of annoyance and regret.

After a few days of fear, just when I was about to relapse from my old illness, Sister Mei finally got some free time and came to see me with Zhen Huan, who was in good health.I was thinking about things in my heart, and I didn't pay attention to the outside world. When I saw the two of them coming, I finally diverted my attention.It's rare to relax, but seeing both of them looking at me with worried eyes, I was a little puzzled, I thought it was Bao Juanjuqing who noticed something wrong with me these days, and told her two people to come and solve it, but see Looking at Baojuan's evasive look and Juqing's expression of clearly hiding something, he felt that it was not true, and he really didn't know why, so he simply asked the two people who had done well, "You two sisters, I have something to hide from me. "

Listening to what I didn't ask at all, they understood that I must figure it out, and they didn't hide it. Sister Mei and Zhen Huan looked at each other and said, "It's nothing, I just want to tell you something strange about Zhuang. Your Majesty For some reason, I fell in love with the maid who leans on the plum garden." At this point, Sister Mei paused for a while, looked at my expression, and then continued, "I heard that she is talented and can sing Kunqu Opera, Your Majesty Maybe it feels fresh and stays with me.”

Hearing this, I probably understand why they are all worried. Although I come from a humble background, I am also nobler than a court lady. I will let the people who are lower than me be favored before me. They are worried that I have heard the gossip earlier. , I came to comfort, this kindness makes my heart warm.It's just Yimeiyuan, maid, I laughed complicatedly, thinking about the dream, it came true again, I just don't know if Zhen Huan went to Yimeiyuan that night on New Year's Eve, but I went, and met In all likelihood, it is the emperor's man, and it is not like what was shown in the dream.

I was silent because of other things. When Zhen Huan and Mei Zhuang met, they thought I was really caring. Zhen Huan took Mei Zhuang's words, and then enlightened, "But her background is left there, and she will not go past us no matter what. There is nothing but scenery for a while.”

"I don't care. Listening to the music and admiring the flowers, everyone would like it." I didn't want them to worry too much, so I smiled and didn't care. "I was just thinking about it. I'm afraid Yimeiyuan is very lively recently."

It can be heard that my words imply that those who are jealous and want to follow suit may go to the doctor in a hurry, and at the same time they are relieved and amused. Made us worry."

······After a few days, I lived quietly, and the man did not move at all. Although it was hard to figure out what he was thinking, but I didn't have any fear, and I thought that if it came, it would be fine.During the period, when I had nothing to do, I listened to the things that Xiao Lezi inquired about from nowhere, most of which were related to the blockbuster Yu Yingying who leaned on the plum garden.Yu Ying's arrogant behavior was outrageous. Yu promised to imprison Xin Changzai in the Punishment Department. Later, he alarmed the Queen Mother, deprived her of the title of Mrs. Miaoyin, and was punished for confinement to contemplate her mistakes. Her favor was greatly reduced.While talking, Xiao Lezi also performed with actions, amused me who originally wanted to blame him for discussing the right and wrong of the young master, thinking that he just wants me to be happy in front of me, even if he has a close relationship with me in front of others The mouth was very tight, and he just said a few words, and let him go.Just listening to Yu's various deeds, I wondered if Zhen Huan would appear in front of everyone with a high profile like in a dream?

It was rare that there was a heavy rain, and the emperor insisted on swimming in the Imperial Garden in the rain. Fortunately, he was unharmed.A few days after the rainy day, I heard that the members of the Yu clan who had committed crimes and humiliated Suiyuxuan were punished as official daughters.Not exactly the same, but roughly the same.

I am also completely at ease because of the emperor's importance to Zhen Huan, thinking that the emperor will not have the heart to think about my Kagura dance in the short term.It's just that I don't know that this emperor has never been completely different from the one in my dream.It was an emperor who had loved him deeply for most of his life and who had accompanied him for most of his life could not understand him.

On the same day when Zhen Huan was made a nobleman, Yixiu thought that the emperor of the new beauty would be in Broken Yuxuan even if he had time, but he didn't want to come to his palace during lunch time.Yixiu was pleasantly surprised to be able to eat with him, but also a little inexplicable fear, she never understood the man she loved, and gave her heart inexplicably, so why wasn't she afraid.This unexpected lunch, the expected coexistence is full of unexpected restraints, Yixiu dare not say a word, suppress the emotions in his heart, and dare not even add food for him , my heart is astringent and sweet.I thought I would finish this lunch in silence, but I didn't want the emperor to speak first. My husband, my God, and other women I have talked with for a long time, this time is no exception, "Guan nobleman is still in good health?" It's a bit hypocritical, I want to take her to Tangquan Palace."

Hearing this, I should feel pain in my heart, but I didn't feel any surprise at all. I probably took it for granted, so I didn't feel hurt. Instead, I was delighted because of the respect he told me in advance, "Your Majesty is weak. , bathing in hot springs is perfect, the emperor is thoughtful, and his concubines can't match it." Yixiu thought that when he said this, the smile on his face was absolutely gentle and charming, it was true, he must like such a magnanimous beauty, otherwise he would How could he stare at himself for so long?

"By the way, what about An's promise?" I thought he would only think about Mrs. Guan, the woman with the face he likes, but he didn't want to still care about An's promise. It was just a promise, but it made him miss it many times. , the hands under the tablecloth slowly clenched into fists, but they couldn't grab anything with all their strength.

"Not long ago, Doctor Wen from the Imperial Hospital said that Ann promised to be fine, and I think she will present her green card today." As soon as Yixiu finished speaking, he saw the person he was thinking of smiling with satisfaction, with joy in his eyes. Guanghua's already handsome face made her unable to take her eyes off her eyes, and said to her, "In that case, let her sleep with you tonight."

At this time, apart from smiling, she would not have any other reaction. In front of him, she has always only had a decent smile.The pain in her heart is like the force in her hand, it has always been close in front of his eyes but never let him see it, sometimes she would think that she really concealed it so perfectly that she would not show any signs of dew in front of him who is as thoughtful as him ?

Watching him rejoice over other women time and time again, sister, concubine Qi, concubine Hua, concubine Jing, nobleman Shen, nobleman Guan, and Ann...promise... which time will it be for her, the queen.But she's used to it...

Notes: (1) Kagura dance is a dance that only senior priestesses are qualified to dance to please the gods. It is used for prayer. Personally, I think this dance has no national boundaries. It is beautiful and holy, so I borrow it. No wonder.

(2) I have been thinking about how to call Mei Zhuang and Zhen Huan better, but I don't actually call them sisters.It doesn't mean that Lingrong doesn't accept them in his heart, but the author feels that Lingrong is actually much older than the two of them, and he doesn't want her sister to keep talking.The reason for changing the name of Meizhuang here is because Meizhuang has a unique and beautiful personality, considerate and steady like an elder sister.

(3) Kagura bells are bells commonly used in Kagura dance. There are three rings on it, with 3, 5, and 7 bells adorning them from top to bottom respectively.There are usually 5 to 6 feet of five-color bells embellished.

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