through those heavy years

The night I ran away from home, I naturally went to find Li Jian again.I lived in Li Jian's dormitory for more than two weeks. During this period, my parents didn't look for me, at least I didn't even hear the basic alarm.Maybe from that day on, they were disappointed in me, and planned not to have my son.So, I also completely went to destruction.

It was a weekend. There were originally six people in Li Jian's dormitory, three of them were from the local area and went home, and the remaining two boys who had a good time with Li Jian made people feel that they were also gangsters.Li Jian said, there is no rush, tomorrow I will do something shocking and weeping ghosts and gods, and he laughed badly after he finished speaking.The two boys also smirked.I don't know what the earth-shattering and weeping ghosts and gods he said, so I naturally don't know what they are laughing at.I ran out of the house, rebelled against my parents, and was in a bad mood to care about.It wasn't until the next morning, after seeing Li Jian and the others dressed up, that I realized that they were going to ask the school belle out to play, and I had a premonition that they wanted to fuck the school belle.

The school belle is really beautiful, with exquisite facial features, tall and slender figure, fair and clear skin, can be broken by blowing bombs, a pair of big and bright eyes, a small cherry mouth, speaks very fast, especially has the spirit of a chivalrous man .She said what to do, she harassed the old lady when she had nothing to do, and the old lady was still sleeping, calling and urging her vigorously.Did the old lady promise to come out? Are you fucking bastards having some crooked ideas? There is no good fruit for plotting against the old lady!

Li Jian pursed his lips and smirked. He said that the big beauty had no other meaning. He just wanted to treat you to a meal. If he couldn't catch up with you, wouldn't he be rewarded for the last candlelight dinner!When Xiaohua heard this, although she despised and disdainful, she finally agreed.She saw me and smiled at me.But I lowered my head very hopelessly.

We finished eating in a restaurant, and then Li Jian insisted on taking the school belle to the suburbs for a walk.I had a bad intuition and panicked, so I refused to go, and I also suggested that the school belle should not go.Li Jian was very angry when he heard what I said.I've never seen him get so angry with me. He was angry. I was afraid that he would be angry, and I also felt that I was worthless, so I didn't say anything and followed.Xiaohua is a carefree girl, she also wants to go for a walk in the suburbs, she is not worried about herself at all.

At that time, the weather was fine, the sun was shining brightly, the mountains were covered with green grass, and all kinds of flowers were rushing to bloom.Girls like this kind of environment, which makes them happy and relaxed.It was under such circumstances that Li Jian handed over a bottle of mineral water, which was filled with drugs in advance.I don't know where Li Jian got such things as drugs. Generally, boys who look like gangsters can get things like drugs.

The school belle said that she was just thirsty and drank most of a bottle of water.After she finished drinking, she felt extremely sleepy, and then fainted to the ground.I was flustered, but Li Jian and the other two boys showed their nasty cockroaches, and then skillfully carried the school flowers to the top of the mountain.There are many graves on the top of the mountain, and the surrounding areas are plastered with cement.They took off their clothes and spread them on the concrete surface, and put down the school flower, intending to mouth the school flower next to a group of graves.

My voice trembled with fear, saying that this is not good, if she breaks the law, I should send her back immediately.Li Jian and the others laughed at me, at me as a coward.It is not against the law to say that this is what the sluts asked for.Li Jian said, after they are happy, let me have a good time, let me taste what it is like to be a woman.

They quickly took off Xiaohua's clothes one by one, and then vented their desires on Xiaohua's body one by one.It can be said that I am a person who has never even watched a pornographic film. Now that I am in the scene, looking at their obscene movements and the body of the school girl, I feel that my mind is full of desire, and my reason is completely squeezed out.The body trembled.

When Li Jian and the others finished, I don't know.He pushed my unconscious body and said you.But I didn't move as if I didn't hear it.Li Jian didn't respond, and smiled, what's the matter, can't you go?I still didn't move, Li Jian said, what do you mean, shy?Well, let's go away if you are shy, you play slowly, and clean up after you are done.

Li Jian and the others really left. After leaving, it seemed that I suddenly had the courage to face the school belle alone.I ended up losing control of my dick and doing disgusting things.Afterwards, my sanity quickly recovered, and I became completely at a loss.I felt like I wouldn't do it, but I did it anyway.I quickly helped Xiaohua get dressed, not daring to leave, and hid in the bushes behind the grave, waiting for Xiaohua to wake up.In my sobriety after desire, I felt extremely scared.

After Xiaohua woke up, she burst into tears.She was a girl who was raped and found herself lying beside the grave. No one could accept the insult and fear.

I dare not go back to school, Li Jian and the others seemed to have disappeared out of thin air.I ran out of money, so I went home and stole a few 100 yuan notes.That was the first time I stole money. I felt that at that age, I did all the things that the parents said the bad kids did, even the things that the bad kids didn't dare to do.I feel like I've been a complete bad boy, so I've got my comeuppance.

After Xiaohua called the police, the police quickly launched an investigation. The police only detected my sperm in Xiaohua's body, and Li Jian and the others were able to get rid of the crime.Li Jian and the others had already planned to use me as a scapegoat, but I fell into the trap foolishly.I didn't notice that they wore a thin rubber cover during intercourse, I didn't know there were condoms available for that.I deserve to be arrested, who told me to be so naive!

What makes me even more sad is that my parents have been ignoring me since I ran away from home.They even refused to come to the court for a trial after hearing that I had committed a crime and was arrested.Thinking about it, how could they, who have always been noble, tolerate having a son who committed a crime.They must be saying, go to jail, shoot him, it doesn't matter whether he is dead or alive, just pretend that this son was never born. "

His voice became weaker and weaker, and the tears did not know when they would stop flowing.

"Maybe they just haven't figured it out yet!" This is the only sentence I can think of.

"You don't know!" He said a lot, his voice getting deeper and deeper.The moonlight shone on his face, which was as pale as a blank sheet of paper. He said, "My parents can't figure it out. Their cruelty is unmatched. If they are willing to participate in my trial and understand my situation, maybe I I won't be sentenced to eight years in prison. If my parents are helping to find some connections and make bribes, maybe I won't even have to sit in jail. My parents are rich and powerful people, and finding connections is easy for them But they didn't, wishing to get rid of me earlier. They will regenerate, and then raise a child who lives according to their ideas. When they saw that I was disobedient and not growing up, they had already planned to have a second or third child .So for them, I am dispensable. But that's fine, I have nothing to worry about when I leave, so parents like this don't matter!"

It pains me that some people crave parental love and some would rather not have it.I said, "Now that you know this, there's no point in dying!"

He hurriedly replied: "No, no, you don't understand me. I don't want to die because of my parents. It's because I think I'm too noble. If I want to live with the logo of being imprisoned and prostituted all my life, I would rather go to Dead. After death, I can be reincarnated, and then be a clean human being. When I was alive, I couldn’t live for myself; if I want to die now, I can finally die for myself.”

His words embarrass me.Don't we live for ourselves when we live, and die for ourselves when we die?All of a sudden I thought he was courageous, but also stupid and weak at the same time.He has the courage to die, but he doesn't have the courage to live a better life, to prove himself, and to live a noble life.I have always felt that on the journey of life, not every scenic spot is so dirty, as long as you are alive, you can usher in a paradise.

Jiang Haoran's voice was already very low, but it still disturbed the person sleeping on the upper bunk.He turned over and said, "If you poke it, just poke it, why are you arguing. I knew you two were right perverts."

After cursing, the snoring sounded.Jiang Haoran's life is coming to an end.

He said: "When I was in the detention center, I wanted to die, but I was always stared at. I had no right to die. After I came to the prison, it was not easy to want to die. It took me three days to grind the handle of my toothbrush. It became pointed and broke the artery little by little. I was a person who would have died long ago, but you were locked in a confinement room because of me. You are a good person, and I have to see you for the last time before I can be content, so I just waited until today.

"You know, we came to this prison in the same prison car. I was shocked and envious of your fearless expression at that time. At that time, I thought you might be a habitual offender, so I didn't mind going to prison at all. Not afraid. But after listening to them chatting, you are only in your early twenties, and you are in prison for the first time. You are not afraid of anything, you can endure hardships, you can suffer, and you don’t let yourself be wronged. You are a very principled person. I admire all these You, really, I admire you very much, and thank you very much. You have to live well, your life is not a simple life, it is exuberant and can make people surrender. If people really have souls after death, I will The place favors you!"

Unknowingly, tears have flowed down.This is the saddest thing I've ever heard.Jiang Haoran committed a crime out of nowhere, and was finally put to death by bursts of despair.He died, and in pleading eyes, I fulfilled him.Some people would say that I was cruel, immoral, and allowed Jiang Haoran's death.I really don't know if what I'm doing is right or wrong.When I saw those eyes eager to die, at least at that time, I felt that he would be happier in death than in life.