through those heavy years

When I came to the city and enjoyed the hustle and bustle, I thought I had exposed a pure heart, and I was willing to gallop in a life full of thorns.I haven't taken a step yet, but it seems to be full of scars.Who can say that life is smooth sailing!Ups and downs and helplessness, pain and heartbreak, separation from love, long-term resentment, inability to ask, inability to let go, twisted, entangled, insomnia at night, inability to eat, all kinds of disheartened things happen from time to time.Sometimes it's too late to catch a blow, and sometimes it's hard to stop it from slowly seeping in. My heart is cold to the bottom of the valley, and sadness flows upstream like a river.Negativity, withering, despair.Even so, time has never stopped.Tomorrow the sun will rise, the ice and snow will melt, and the buds will look forward to spring and grow vigorously. What happened has already happened, and what happened today will become a thing of the past. It seems that the sins can only be baptized by time.

Is life just a busy figure, non-stop footsteps, anxious mood and eyes waiting to grow old?

When the bell of midnight rings the thousand-year salute; when the colorfulness of the city shines in the sky of the 21st century; everything starts again.Everyone is rejoicing, with bright smiles blooming; everyone is full of confidence and embarking on a new life.In the hustle and bustle of the city, amidst the bells and salutes, I felt a rare peace.Luo Feng and Wang Caixia, I wish you happiness!

I became a long-term part-time restaurant worker last year.I want to start a new starting point in my life here.Last year I promised Luo Feng that he would go home for the Chinese New Year, but this year he broke his promise as usual.Because this year's Spring Festival, there are still things that I don't want to face.Although I want to bless Luo Feng and Wang Caixia, I don't have the courage to attend their wedding.Although my grandma is looking forward to it at home and I miss it very much, I still feel that I am terrible and have no face to face.And my money, all stored in the bank, was inadvertently taken away by Luo Feng.I chose to give up my last two months' salary because I wanted to leave.With only more than 500 yuan left on me, I found a single-room rental near the hotel and spent it.Fortunately, the restaurant provides three meals a day to the employees, so that when they are poor, they will not starve to death on the street.

This is a small rental house, simple and dilapidated inside, with a foul smell.There is a bed, a desk and a chair in the room.The kitchen and the toilet are connected. At first glance, I was taken aback. It was as dirty and smelly as a bathroom on a construction site.The tiles above the kitchen were covered with oil stains, a black mixture of dead bodies of flies and mosquitoes, and all kinds of unimaginable disgusting substances; the toilet pit was full of feces, black and cracked, no matter how long it was deposited, it would still stink still.In addition, the houses here are densely packed one by one next to each other, and basically there is no sunlight all day long.Open the window to see black wires, and there are all kinds of household garbage on the wires, underwear, and bloody sanitary napkins.What's more, the condoms, which I didn't know until a long time later, contain thick yellow liquid inside, hanging down one by one on the top, which is actually a spectacle when viewed from a distance.

Although the environment is not optimistic, it also makes my love almost crazy.I need a quiet and alone space too much to carry a lot of sadness and enjoy the peace.So I can't tell you how much I love this single house.It is my whole world, and when I enjoy enough tranquility, I also experience a freedom that I have never felt before.This feeling seems to grow up all at once, without any constraints.You can do whatever you want, and act as you want to make yourself comfortable.

So I dealt with it calmly, and quickly cleaned up this simple single house, making it bright and spacious.I said that I want to get spiritual salvation here, and even try my best to forget the pain caused by love.Maybe the time will not be very fast, nor will it be very slow, but just right!I lay on the bed and looked at the ceiling silently, hoping quietly.

The single house is not very far from the hotel.It can be reached by walking for ten minutes.Many people who go to work are in a hurry, it seems that their time is very tight and not enough.I always get up early and walk leisurely.So when I work in the city, it seems difficult to integrate into the rhythm of life of the city people.What I feel is that they are still them, and I am still me. Even if they live in the same city and breathe the same air, they still seem to be creatures from two different worlds.

The name of the restaurant is Juju Yipin. It has three floors in total. The first floor is for dining in the lobby, and the second and third floors are for private dining.The decoration is in European style, romantic atmosphere, calm and tender.The employees are well-trained, the women are beautiful and graceful, with a dignified temperament, and the men are tall, handsome, and polite.In today's society, it has developed into a face everywhere.Beauty and handsomeness can also be an available resource for survival.I have never paid attention to my appearance, even in front of Luo Feng, I have never deliberately looked in the mirror to dress myself up.I know I'm not ugly, but I don't know how handsome I am.My height is about 1.7 meters five, and my weight is about 120 catties.My skin is a bit darker from the sun on the construction site, but my facial features are still pretty.It's just that there is no smile on his face all day long, which makes people feel very heartless.Laughing is the same as talking to me. If it is not from the heart, it is difficult to fake it.For me, when I don't remember my experience, there is a touch of sadness, but this sadness has inadvertently made me develop a melancholy temperament.

As usual, Gathering Yipin was full of visitors and business was booming.I am a little waiter, and I have to go back and forth between the kitchen and the hall every day.Ten hours a day, 500 yuan a month.Although it is also very hard, in my opinion, it is much easier and better than doing things on the construction site.After all, you can see all kinds of people.Every day, from their drinking, talking, and behavior, they can see all kinds of social conditions.

There are more than 40 chefs in the kitchen, and they are busy all day long.There is a 25-year-old fat man with fair skin, festive appearance, kind and humorous, and is loved by everyone.When I was working part-time last year, I didn't see this person. He just joined half a year ago.Wearing a big white hat on his head, his hands and feet are nimble, showing that he is not restricted by his body shape.

After passing the interview, the lobby manager arranged for me to serve food in the lobby on the first floor.On my first day at work, Fatty impressed me.There was something wrong with him, it was too obvious.When he saw me, he couldn't help screaming.I naively thought that some chef put too much salt when cooking, or neglected the time to burn the dishes, or didn't put more amount according to the boss's request.Unexpectedly, it was a fat man, looking at me with shining eyes, showing a curious expression, as if he had discovered a new world.

He couldn't help it, his small mouth was open, and there were a pair of shallow dimples on his big face, maintaining a malicious smile.Said: "Let me tell you, let me tell you, I really came to the right place, the boys who serve the food are more handsome than the other!"

When the others heard this, they all looked over and laughed heartily.I have read Wang Xiaobo's book, and there are many examples of comrades. Some comrades dare to describe another boy's handsomeness in public without any taboo, and they are not afraid to reveal their secrets of being gay to the world.These people are bold, I have never seen them in the countryside, so I think one-sidedly that these people are mostly urban people.Last year, my co-workers called me Xiao Nai, which is also a description of my appearance.But it was more or less reserved, so as not to make people feel red-faced.

The fat man was still watching intently with great interest. He said, "A boy who is shy in his bones, has melancholy eyes, and is full of charm as a whole is the most attractive!"

For his unsparing comments, I feel more disgusted in my heart.This person has a thick skin and doesn't care about the occasion.You must know that not everyone likes to accept the evaluation of others in the public.I am a very disgusted person about this.I felt disgusted that he would piss me off again by speaking out loud, so I had to clenched my fists and beat him up.I didn't look at him, pretended I didn't hear anything, picked up the dishes from table number eight, and turned to go out.

Evening is the busiest time.The businessmen who gathered together in Yipin flocked like a tide, and it was frequently full.Even if there are no vacant tables, there are still people who are reluctant to leave, and would rather sit on the sofa outside the hall and wait hungry.In fact, the location of Xijuyipin is not an excellent location in the downtown area, it is even in a deep alley, and there are lush leaves in front of the store.The reason why the customers are so noisy is that I think the excellent dishes are one of the essentials. The elegant environment makes people feel warm and warm. What’s more, the service is warm and thoughtful. linger.I think another point is also very important, that is, there are rows of bookcases outside the hall, and there are a variety of books for reading.Many vacillating customers will make a sudden decision and wait patiently when most of them feel that there is a book.This highlights the boss's ingenuity, and also shows the boss's business philosophy and sincerity.The boss's character of not daring to be careless is destined to lead him to success.

We can be described as busy dizzy.This kind of mechanical non-stop work seems to be easier than the work on the construction site, but it is not beneficial at all. On the contrary, you can sneak in and chat with people on the construction site.But that doesn't mean it pales in comparison, the purpose of saying this is that I just deeply realize that every kind of work is roughly the same exploitation for people like us.We either resign ourselves to our fate, or find another way.Otherwise, no matter what you do, you cannot escape the fate of working hard.

Finally, I hope that the guests will leave one by one.Everyone felt amnesty, and hurriedly kneaded their arms and legs, and sat weakly on the chairs to take a rest.I was used to hard work on the construction site, and my arms and legs were fine, but I felt a little dizzy turning back and forth.I didn't rest and left after get off work.