through those heavy years

On the day when the incident came to light, Zheng Zheng took the drugs from him and came back from saving money in the city.Slowing down, Luo Feng stood on the path waiting for me under the moonlight after he quarreled with the contractor last year.The memory of that night echoed this scene, as if it had just happened.The moonlight is like water, the tree shadows are mottled, and the breeze is gentle.Luo Feng's figure, smiling face, and the artistic conception presented, give people a feeling of thumping, so unforgettable, I can't bear to say it clearly.The moon is shining brightly tonight, like frost.It's just that the air is cold, the shadows of the trees are strange, and the people are also dark.

Luo Feng saw me from a distance, and called me coldly: "Wang Xiaodong!"

Looking at his figure standing under the moonlight, I feel more and more vaguely thinking that I have returned to that night.But with the cold wind, he soon woke up.I can never go back again. The relationship between people has changed due to the passage of time. People always have a lot of thoughts and behaviors in their later lives to destroy the harmony of the past, pollute the beauty of the past, and even destroy the past. with memory.I was silent and walked over like a wandering spirit.Slowly, I saw his face clearly.He waited for a long time, his face turned red from the cold, his lips were purple, and his eyes were like night wolves, emitting a green light.When passing by his side, I gave him the penis, but he didn't reach out to take it.I stuffed the dick down his pants, and he didn't refuse.He just kept looking at me sullenly, the veins on his fists were bulging, and his face was ashen-colored.

I have never heard a word "Wang Xiaodong" that can make my heart feel like a knife, and all thoughts are lost.I can't be as free and easy as I was when I was a child. I am not afraid of anything. After doing something wrong, I am fearless and dare to take responsibility.Now I can only try my best to restrain my fear, walk past him as if I don't know anything, and continue to move forward.

He turned around and suddenly shouted at me: "Stop, don't you have anything to say to me?"

He wants to make a deal with me.I have expected it but I don't know if I am mentally prepared.Don't blame anyone, and don't blame God.Everything is my own cocoon!

For a long time, it seems that I never dare to speak for a long time.I am a person who may never learn how to speak.I said, my voice was illusory, "You already know it all, so you don't need to ask me!"

"Oh!" He sneered, crying, "So, you admit it?"

"It doesn't matter whether you admit it or not, what you think is the most important thing!"

"Why?" He almost roared, tears streaming down his face, and his emotions were very intense.

Throat dry and sore, I fell silent again.Tears rolled down her cheeks, her back trembling in the dark night.I stood still in the moonlight, already lost consciousness.Origin and extinction, after all, a word of love.

Luo Feng rushed forward and straightened my body.He was full of grief and indignation, looked at me with tears, and said, "Do you want to keep silent again? This happens every time. How can you be so heartless and righteous!"

Looking at his teary eyes and his face distorted by sadness and anger, he no longer thinks he has anything to say.All that lies between us is pain.I have always been a ruthless person!

Luo Feng said: "If Caixia didn't mention it, I saw you standing on the edge of the third floor looking at her several times. When I saw the stones and the wire ropes made of hands and feet, I was still deluding myself into thinking that it wasn't you. You know I know that Caixia will stand below waiting for me every day when I get off work. People who usually don’t take the initiative to talk and don’t care about work suddenly want to move the pipe. You said it will rain at night, but the sky is full of stars. I’m also surprised, you I never watch TV, and I don’t know what the weather forecast is, but it says it will rain at night. Do you think it’s funny that a person like you cares about rain.”

Yes, people like me are always unpredictable, always scary and dark.For a person like me, many people expect me to die, but I am still alive and well.

"Why did you deliberately murder Wang Caixia, why did you dislike her when she came, and became a passerby with me. Why are you so good, you want to change everything, why are you so stupid!" He was hysterical at me again growled.The bird sleeping soundly in the shadow of the tree flapped its wings and flew to the sky because of being frightened.The sound echoed in the emptiness, and my heart was like a boat struggling to stabilize its balance on the raging sea, and was finally swallowed mercilessly by the stormy waves.

"Speak up!" Luo Feng shook my limp body.He endured my silence for a long time, and he couldn't take it any longer. He said, "Do you know that killing someone intentionally is a violation of the law and will be shot; ;If Caixia didn't plan to go upstairs, and a group of people just came out of work at the top of the stairs, and the pipe rolled down at that time, do you know how many people would be killed? Do you know how much you would have to squat even now if I drag you to the police to file a case? You are not young, why do you not go through your brain when you do things? Even if you and Caixia have a great hatred, you should not have the idea of ​​killing! What do you look like now, like a ghost, disgusting, Like a madman, scarier than a madman!"

He pushed me to the ground forcefully, and he already hated me so much that he hated it to the bone.yes!Madman, everyone said I was a madman, a wild dog.Yes when I was a kid, and still when I grow up.

"I'm a lunatic, I've always been a lunatic!" Tears were like a flood breaking a bank, and cries were like howling ghosts.Because I am crazy, I do stupid things and push myself into a situation where there is no redemption; because I am crazy, I like someone of the same sex, and life is worse than death.What twisted me, why did I love so painfully, and my body and mind were so filthy.If there is a medicine for regret, I will drink as much as I feel pain.If I were to go back in time, I wouldn't naively think that if I killed Wang Caixia, Luo Feng would come back to me.Now is not the ending I want to see, I don't want to see Luo Feng's grief-stricken look, and I don't want him to call me a lunatic, let alone us declaring broken under the once beautiful moonlight.But love is like this, it is doomed to have no ending, and it is unwilling to give up; knowing it is wrong, it still insists on going its own way.

Luo Feng wiped his tears, looked at me for a long time and said, "Yes, you are indeed crazy, maybe it is true as you said, you have always been a lunatic!" He took a deep breath, distraught.I know that he cares about me, and his sadness is no less than mine.Now we are strangers, and the last memory is full of tears.

"Do you know?" Luo Feng's voice trembled, "Not everything is expected to be perfect. If you know you can't ask for it, you will force yourself to smile after letting go; if you choose to bear it, you will be responsible until the end if you don't want it! I say this, I just want you to understand that everything will be fine if you bear the burden. No matter how painful it is, you can’t have evil thoughts. You know, if you kill for your life, your life is worthless!” he said, shaking Wiping away the tears on his arm, "I will not call the police, and I hope you will take care of yourself!"

The surroundings were suddenly quiet as before.Tears are about to freeze on the face, and the wind blows over, piercing into the skin like ice blades, causing dull pain.The moonlight is dim, and there are many lonely shadows.The vastness of time makes people unable to face it.Right, you can't force it, it's better to let it go.Some people cannot be forgotten, but are destined to disappear in your life.When you love someone, maybe you can only grow up with him in the long years, and wither together at the last moment of your life!

One day, it snowed, and the snow covered the earth, and it felt very cold in winter.I was injured, and I accidentally cut my palm while operating the cutting machine. Blood gushed out and dripped into the snow, and the snow turned into blood!The cold wind blows, the blood coagulates, and I feel no pain.Looking at the wound, accompanied by a cold heart, I just feel that it is another winter, but I feel desolate.

I really want to think about it, I really want to go back to my hometown and snuggle in the arms of grandma.Only there is my most reliable harbor, a place where I can forget the pain and enjoy the warmth.

But I hurt grandma.Willful thought it was to prevent her from suffering.In fact, I was still selfish so that others would not look down on me.I could have finished high school, got into a good college, and worked a part-study program to pay for my college career.But my irritable character, in the face of painful reality, chose aloofness and willfulness.Perseveringly with a knife glow, one knife hurts, one knife cuts.

A few months later, Luo Feng left.The workers said that Luo Feng would never come back, and that he and Wang Caixia were going to have a wedding that spanned thousands of years, to have a smart and cute fat child, and to live happily together forever.Little did I know when they left that we ended up without even a final goodbye.

If it wasn't supposed to be like this, then what would be the ending.People can't regret, and they can't expect if.Some love is gone, leaving bloody memories.But the idea is no longer so simple.And the next time you meet love, you may be desperate.It's just that you can't forget it this time, and it won't be unforgettable next time.Some people, born like this, are crazy about love once.And I really regret it, I can't insist on thinking.Those youthful and fearless days disappeared.

There is no nostalgia here.I should also go to a different life again.The contractor was still so fat, and when he saw that I was going to resign, his face turned blue with anger.He said, do you think you can come and leave whenever you want to my place?I don't know how many times I have forgiven people like you. I never thought that at a critical moment, when my project was short of manpower, I would still do something like a dog biting Lu Dongbin.Okay, you have the guts to leave, unless you don't want your salary for these two months.

Yes, I am such a person.Once he is determined to leave, even a few months of salary cannot be retained.I left at night, amidst the snores of my roommates, and without anyone knowing, I carried the same luggage on my back as when I came last year, and took the last bus and left.When I left, it was pitch black outside, and there was a wind blowing in the night sky, with ice slag falling down sparsely, but it covered the sky after a while.Last winter was so warm, this year's winter was so cold.It seems to leave the deepest impression at the last moment.

It was snowing, and the goose feathers were flying all over the sky, flooding the power plant, and the sky and the earth were blurred.When I look back, there is already an irreversible past, and the sound of snoring is the last farewell.

The familiar bus aunt couldn't help but ask me, is this going to leave?I looked at this aunt who had never known each other before and nodded.Probably will never get here in her car again, many of the guests on the trip got off.

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