through those heavy years

In the second year of high school, the grades were still stable around the middle.For many students, even if they do not study or attend class, even if they sleep in class, their grades are still stable, which is really amazing.In fact, no one is [-]% genius. Although I did not study or attend classes at school, when I returned home, I worked hard every night to study with the lamp on.

I don't know how other students study. I myself seem to be able to do my high school studies with ease without spending all day studying.

In the evening, I will spend three hours finishing the exercises in mathematics, physics and chemistry, and spend another hour previewing the content of the next day's class.At twelve o'clock, things are basically done, and then I spend half an hour reciting ancient poems and English words. Go to bed at 12:30 on time.The next morning, I didn't go to morning reading class.Get up at six, take care of the family affairs for half an hour, and recite words and ancient poems for half an hour last night.Limit yourself to memorizing twenty words at a time, and it will take three days and six times to memorize them for twenty words.Therefore, even though there is no grammar knowledge in class, the full score of 150 points in English is about [-] points.

I will review for 10 minutes before class, and take out what I don’t understand for an hour at night to study new knowledge, and study it again.If you really don't understand, just listen carefully in class. The class is 45 minutes, and you can basically understand it in 5 minutes.The remaining 10 minutes can be used to study other subjects, or sleep to replenish energy.

In the afternoon, I am usually full of energy because of the morning sleep, and I can skip class and go out in the second and third classes.More than three to four hours are all my labor time.To fish, to cut pigweed, to herd cattle.At the beginning of spring, the fields must be plowed, plowed, and ashes scattered.Sometimes we have to weed, apply pesticides, harvest and so on.

People in the village can always see me busy in the farmland.They have never been able to understand how the school gives students holidays, why they can read books and do farm work.Are the teachers in the school condoning this, the principal of the town high school, is this the way to restore the school's style?They were full of questions, but since I was a weirdo growing up, I didn't come to ask more questions.They only love to discuss, to discuss with speculation.

Although in the second year of high school, I have a certain understanding of human beings in terms of thinking compared to when I was a child, but I am still a loner.It can be said that it is a habit, or a willingness to one-sidedly think and affirm that some adults are worldly and lack kindness.No matter how old you get, you won't be unwilling to deal with them.I don't care about the feeling that distant relatives are not as good as close neighbors.If you can rely on yourself, you don't need to curry favor with others, and do small favors.I don't need to tell people my heart and sympathy.Ordinary life is already tiring enough, why bother to talk a lot of nonsense.Even if he died in the future and no one buried him, he would just die on any hill.It's all dead, and it's all vain to think about things that no one will bury after death.At that age, I let myself think and live in such a lonely, stubborn and arrogant way.Neither in school nor in Murakami, I have never had a single friend (except when I am away from home).I have disdain to have friends for a long time, Luo Feng is another kind of existence in my life, has a special and irreplaceable position.This kind of feeling and status cannot be achieved by friends.

Well, I think it's quite satisfying to live well like this.If you are really thoughtful, there are also old cows and fat pigs, let's talk about it.When I am talking about emotion, they will make some voices to echo, and there is also interaction.

It's just a life as light as a white cloud, and no one provokes anyone, but there are some people who want to get involved urgently.

In the second semester of the second year of high school, the school transferred a female trainee teacher who had just graduated from college. She was 23 years old and taught mathematics. She was fair and beautiful, with a curvaceous figure.Dressed in a clean and gentle manner, she speaks beautiful and delicate standard Mandarin, with an elegant demeanor inside and out, and a very kind and sweet smile.

She is a girl from the city.It seems that girls in the city and girls in the country can be distinguished at a glance from the skin.At that time, the girls in the city always thought that their skin was as white as paper, and they looked like a beautiful and noble lotus blooming in a pond from a distance; the girls in the country always had dark skin like a cow. The stool, even if it is a little white, can't get rid of that rustic smell.Compared with the lotus as a whole, it can only be regarded as a pumpkin flower (this kind of view refers to the rural girls at that time, and the nature is quite different now).

This city girl fell from the sky, causing the students and teachers of the school to go crazy and commotion for a while.The student who is used to being reserved, couldn't help being bold, and ran to the teacher's office wretchedly to sneak a peek at her.After taking a glance, he turned back to the classroom and gathered together with a group of boys to talk about how beautiful she is.Among the teachers, there is no need to guess, the head teacher is the most active.Normally, as long as you walk to the teacher's office, you can see him making jokes and amusing others with his sloppy Mandarin.A lot of age, always go along with other female teachers to make myself laugh innocently, it makes me feel sick when I hear it.I don't know how this spotless female teacher overcomes her psychological barriers and greets her with a smile, without showing any disobedience.

Next, another bombardment of sexual news made the students in the class with strong adolescent hormones go crazy.That is, the female teacher will be the math teacher of our class.From now on, they can enjoy the beauty and beautiful sounds of the female teacher so closely every day, without having to run around too tired.Because the classmates talked a lot, I couldn't help guessing in my heart that if I can teach in our class, the head teacher should make a lot of suggestions and careful thinking later.I know that he is the best at working behind the scenes!

The female teacher's surname is Zhou, and her first name is Zhidong, which is a mouthful but fashionable and fresh name for us.When she stood in class for the first time to give a lecture, she seemed a little nervous and shy.After a few days, I gradually get used to it, and I will chat with my classmates and tell some jokes to reconcile the atmosphere.He is not interested in jokes, but when it comes to jokes about the city, he listens intently.She always talked a lot, and I was very fascinated by what she said.I think, I will definitely go to the city to have a look.

Of course, skipping those descriptions of cities, the quality of her lectures is also very good.She has a clear articulate and unique approach to solving problems.Compared with some experienced teachers, her teaching purpose is more focused on guidance, not forced indoctrination.With her novel teaching method and her kind and pretty face, she attracted all the students, no matter they were naughty or not. She couldn't help but sit upright and listen attentively. It wasn't until after class that she could recover her active limbs and talkatively.At the same time, she is also very patient. Whether she is in the office after class or sleeping in the dormitory at night, if some students come to ask her questions, she will take the trouble to answer them one by one carefully.The classmates affectionately called her "Sister Guanyin".

It's a pity that the class of "Sister Guanyin" can't be done without sleep.There is no way, staying up too late at night, I can't resist sleepiness during the day.I thought to myself that the teachers from the city should be respected.But when drowsiness comes, it means that you have enough energy to spare.Besides, I have become used to sleeping, and I can't change it for a while.

However, she didn't seem to have much of a problem with my sleeping in class and my disregard for discipline.I don't know if the girls from the city will choose to let go in the teaching philosophy out of a kind of humanity.Still, the head teacher told me to ignore the black sheep.Of course, it's not completely ignored. When she was giving a lecture, she would look at me intentionally or unintentionally, and then smiled.She never asked me to answer questions, just a listener.Her attention to me seemed to be limited to occasional smiles.This is what is different from other subject teachers.I said dispensable to her smile, but I was happy that she didn't care too much.Because if she takes more care, I don't think I have the energy to pester her.The head teacher is no better than a female teacher, he can be ruthless.If the female teacher wants to trouble someone, any resistance seems wrong.If she insists on going her own way, she will have a special kind of patience, clinging, roundabout, and entangled to the end, until she has to give in (it turns out later).And Teacher Zhou looks kind and gentle at first glance.That smile is not useless, like my grandma, it feels gentle.In this way, it is even more difficult to make an overly indifferent gesture.

Mathematics in high school is relatively difficult compared to other subjects.Or rather, be brutal.If you study well, you can get full marks; if you don't study well and have no luck, you may get zero marks.I am also struggling in mathematics.Because I have few questions to do, I can't comprehend by analogy.When I was in high school, except for the teaching textbooks issued by the school, I basically did not buy any extracurricular exercise books.Therefore, among the many science subjects in high school, mathematics is the only subject for which I cannot confirm the true level.

Once, in the February high school exam, the questions were particularly difficult.The math scores came out, and the students in the class didn't do very well in the exams, but because I didn't control it well, or the problem happened to be lucky, my math scores were outstanding all of a sudden, which made Teacher Zhou immediately focus on me. I came up and looked at me suspiciously several times.Personally, I am also very annoyed, regretting that it has attracted unnecessary attention.Then there was the mid-term exam, and the math questions were quite easy. Our class did well in math on the whole, but I was below average.When Mr. Zhou handed out the test papers to the students one by one and called my name, his expression became more suspicious, and he pursed his mouth slightly.

I walked over to get the scroll, and was threatened by her dignified gaze with my head lowered a little.Teacher Zhou did not hand over the test paper directly to me, but put the test paper on the corner of the table, pointed to the blanks in some questions and some miscalculated results, and asked, "Do you know all these questions?"

This was the first time Teacher Zhou asked me a question, and she spoke to me more gently and crisply than when she was lecturing.She made me feel that she is young, but she has the style of an elder, with extraordinary qualities.

I have difficulty speaking and cannot speak without swearing.I don't know when it was developed. I can't say what I want to say normally, and it's difficult to speak when I have to speak.Couldn't even say a 'yes' or a 'no' (that's when I realized I was a pretty silent person).

Teacher Zhou should have never encountered a student who refused to answer, her face turned red slightly, and she was a little choked up when she spoke. She said: "As long as you are a little more careful, you will not make mistakes in this question. There are also questions behind you." Big question, why not move?

"Even if you don't know how to do it, you should be able to do the small sub-questions of the big questions. The college entrance examination is rigorous, and one more score or one less score may affect a person's life!"

From the beginning of this conversation, it should be Mr. Zhou who said it alone, and I started in silence.Teacher Zhou developed a kind of desperation to find out.She began to observe me secretly.She thinks that I am not a pure person, not a high school student who can be seen clearly at a glance. She sees that although I am silent on the surface, I am actually the most thoughtful.