the other side of the fireworks

Xia Fengshu has lost weight, and with her cooking method, even an iron man would lose their skin.

When Xu An went, she was talking to a male doctor about the child's situation. The male doctor's face was as white as his white robe, he was delicate and handsome, and his voice was light and sweet.Xu An stood behind Xia Fengshu and listened to him explain why Xiao Miao's lungs were prone to infection and what to pay attention to. He didn't deal with the hospital much, but I heard that the doctors were impatient.Xu An instinctively thought that this doctor was so enthusiastic about Xia Fengshu.

When the doctor looked at Xu An, the concentrated Xia Fengshu realized that there was someone behind him. When he turned around, he almost bumped into Xu An.The eyes met in a collision manner, and Xu An blushed inexplicably.

"Well, don't move, stay here, I won't drive you away." Xu An seemed to say something insignificant in a flat tone.

"I won't be going back to live there again."

"Xia Fengshu, stop making trouble, I will be tired even if you are not tired."

"I've already given you the answer, I don't want to talk about it any further." Xia Fengshu turned and went back to the ward.

Xu An stood at the door for a while, walked to Xiao Miao's bed and said, "You have children, why are you still so willful?"

"It's because of Xiao Miao that I can't go back to live."

"Why?" After asking this sentence, Xu An regretted it. It's not like she didn't know that she was to blame for Xiao Miao's illness. "Well, then I won't turn on the air conditioner in the future."

Xia Fengshu didn't pay any attention to her, poured a glass of white water and drank it all in one gulp, Xiao Miao fell into a deep sleep, with a drip tube inserted into her foot, the thin tube was extraordinarily thick on her foot.

Xu An said: "Xia Fengshu, I have already given in."

"Why do you come here to say these things, do you know?"

Xu An was taken aback, she had never thought about this.

Xia Fengshu said: "Stop talking, I'm very tired."

The parent in another hospital bed came back with the child in his arms, happily preparing to leave the hospital.

Xu An's fingertips touched Miao Miao's hand again, this time Miao Miao did not hold her, and put her little hand into a fist and put it next to her ear. "Little one, I'm sorry."

Xia Fengshu turned her back quickly, tears rolling down her cheeks, if she wasn't in the hospital, she would have cried out loud.

Xu An was familiar with her tears, the twitching back made Xu An's heart shattered, she approached slowly, "Xia Fengshu, I'm sorry."

"Don't come close to me." Xia Fengshu moved half a step to the left, she felt like a bubble, Xu An blew and she was about to burst.

Xu An didn't understand what it meant, thinking she was still blaming him, he backed away in annoyance, feeling that he had nothing to say, glanced at Tong Xiaomiao, and she left.

The next day, when Lan Weiqing came to move again, Xu An dialed the power of the air conditioner without saying a word, and then threw the remote control of the air conditioner into the trash can. "It's up to you."

Lan Weiqing blinked and said, "I, what can I do."

"I don't care what you do. Did you think about what I would do when you brought her here? Now let me teach you what to do?" Xu An slammed the door and went out.

Lan Weiqing said to Xia Fengshu: "You go back and live, leaving like this is too cruel to Xu An, I can't explain to her."

"It's me who is cruel, not you." Xia Fengshu said coldly.

"She doesn't turn on the air conditioner anymore, Xia Fengshu, she threw away the remote control. You don't have to be too extreme."

"Actually, I regret it. It was an impulsive and naive decision to live with her. I am repeating the mistakes I made."

"What's wrong? After experiencing a man like Tong Zhan, do you still have illusions about men?"

"But I shouldn't fantasize about Xu An."

"Let's be together if you like!"

Xia Fengshu thought of the day when Aunt Xu An came to knock on the door, she felt ashamed and uneasy.Do you give up when you have a choice, and pick up when you have no choice? "No, I won't do that. I didn't deserve it back then, and I don't deserve it now."

Lan Weiqing smiled wryly, "Are you as good at patience as I am? Can you live your whole life in the arms of a man, but love another woman in your heart?"

"With Xiao Miao, I don't need anyone anymore."

"Then go back! Holding my daughter, I won't be affected by anything, and I can achieve the purpose of saving rent."

"Are you killing me?"

"Reality, Xia Fengshu, if Xu An doesn't get awkward with you, you can live well there, can't you? Wait until Xiao Miao's body is strong, then you can make plans."

At 05:30, Xu An drove to a Hunan restaurant. Today, Mengli had a grand gathering here to meet a group of online friends.Xu An signed up right away, she really wanted to meet Velociraptor, the master who acted as her flower protector in the game.

The owner of this restaurant is the deputy leader of the league.As soon as Xu An entered the lobby, he saw a sign saying, friends of the Dragon Warrior Club, please go to the second floor.Xu An went up to the second floor.

There are five square tables arranged in a long row, surrounded by red sandalwood square chairs, which is really a bit like a meeting of heroes.

The name written on each chair is the name used in the online league.A dozen people were already seated, all of them male. Xu An was sitting on Hua Wuque's chair. From the moment she entered the door until she sat down, she was always the focus of attention. After she sat down, everyone laughed. It turned out that someone had guessed before she came. Hua Wuque is a woman.Xu An asked what the reason was, but no one could answer, and they all said it was based on intuition.

More people came one after another, and one of them brought a woman. They became a couple after meeting in private, and they looked like a perfect match.

Xu An's eyes fell on the chair of the Velociraptor from time to time. It would be a disappointment if this guy didn't show up.Xu An didn't dress up much, plaid shirt, overalls, hair tied casually, and no makeup.She didn't want to present herself as a beautiful woman, just like the "Hua Wuque" in the League.

The velociraptor is here, with a tall and straight figure, and that face looks familiar.He was two people away from Xu An, so it was not easy to take a look at him, and it was even more inconvenient to take a covert look.The reason why Xu An is interested in him is that he can't remember where the familiar feeling came from.

Everyone was talking about online weapon forging methods, PK skills, and diplomatic relations with hostile gangs. They brought the community relations in the virtual world to reality, and they were so interested.

Xu An was the first to leave. She didn't plan to participate in the follow-up program, and it didn't matter if she was called a disappointment.

"Leave so early?"

Xu An turned his head and saw the Velociraptor chasing him out. "I don't know your name yet."

"I don't know about you either, but I don't really want to know."

"Why do I feel that he secretly looked at me several times?"

"Yes, it looks familiar."

"Why don't we exchange names and phone numbers when we compile the address book?"

"Not that curious." Xu An walked away rudely.When I walked out the door, I heard him say: "My name is Jie Sheng!"

Xu An stopped, turned his head again, and flashed through his mind a certain photo he saw in Jiechu's house. Yes, it was his uncle's cousin, with drooping eyes and thick black eyebrows.

Sitting down at a nearby McDonald's, Xu An was curious, she didn't believe it was a coincidence.

What Jie Sheng was talking about was actually something in the game. Xu An endured it for 10 minutes. When the coffee changed from boiling hot to lukewarm, she said, "How did you find me in the game? If you say it was a coincidence, I will disappear immediately."

Jie Sheng was not in a hurry, he stared at Xu An for a few seconds before saying, "Would you like another cup of coffee?"

Xu An was impatient, and was about to stand up when his hand on the table was held. "You are so cranky."

Xu An sat down and withdrew his hand. "How dare you do this to me?"

Jiesheng spread his hands, "What's wrong with me? Help you calm down your irritable mood."

"Don't draw a talisman with me here, just talk if you have something to say, don't say I'm gone, try to touch my hand again if you dare."

"How about we talk online at night?"

"When I saw you, I couldn't see the light. I was hiding and talking, and I didn't bother to talk to you."

Xu An walked ahead, followed by Jie Cheng, "Why are you acting like a dog's skin plaster?"

"Your aunt asked my aunt to find a job for you. I heard them talking about you, saying that you devoted your youth to online games. Considering that we are also like-minded, I asked what games you play."

"How does my aunt know what game I play?"

"It seems that you have a notebook that records all your game IDs, passwords, and names."

Xu An suddenly became furious, "My aunt told you all this?"

"I told her, I have a way to make you quit online games."

"You are really... not too shy, why do you? Why do you accompany me to fight the boss every day?"

"Yeah, I lied to her just to get close to you."

"For what purpose?"

Jie Sheng said with a smile: "My cousin's girlfriend is a lesbian, I'm curious."

Xu An shook slightly.She didn't even have the courage to ask, who told him this, was it Jie Chu?

Jiesheng put away his smile, "Can you still see Hua Wuque online?"

"Why did you expose your identity so quickly? You should tease me for a while longer!"

"It's not my style to always hide in the dark."

"Unmasking is the end, who the hell knows what style you are." Xu An drove away, the feeling of betrayal hit again, she hated this feeling.

Xu An went to his aunt's house, opened the door and entered, just to say a word. "Don't come to my house again."

Auntie was surprised.

Xu An dropped the car keys, turned around and left.

Uncle called her, "Xiao'an, you can't go like this, speak clearly."

Xu An stopped, and once again realized her recklessness. "I hate feeling betrayed. No matter what your goals are!"

Aunt is still puzzled.

"Jiesheng!" Xu An had to mention that name.

Auntie understood, "The kid said...he's not a kid anymore, he's only half a year younger than Jiechu, and he said that there is a way to help you quit online games. He opened a big game company by himself, I think he is a professional, There must be a way. Xiao An, look at you, playing a game, turning black and white all day long, and insisting on driving a taxi, I am so worried. And you still smoke, how unhealthy it is for girls to smoke!"

"What I do is my business, please don't intervene in my life anymore."

"Xu An, how can you say such heartless words to your aunt?"

"Then don't make me say anything more heartless!"

"You child, you child..." Auntie was so angry that her hands were shaking and her tears rolled down.

Xu An left without looking back.

Xia Fengshu was washing the baby bottle, Xu An was not happy to see her busy posture, and also felt that it was a bit awkward to meet like this.No one said anything, she returned to the bedroom, and habitually pressed the computer's power button, thinking of Jie Sheng, she couldn't help but withdraw her hand.Awkward, indescribably awkward.

Lying on the bed for a long time, he took out a cigarette from the bedside table, lit it, and smoked.

This passivity hurts.

Thirsty, she walked lazily to the kitchen, the glass square cup was full of cold boiled water, she poured a glass, swallowed like a drink, what time was it, she looked at the electronic clock in the living room, twelve Fifteen, what a manic time.Can't sleep, and don't want to surf the Internet, maybe, I should go out and have some fun.

Xu An took out his mobile phone from his pocket. There were some fun friends on it. Although he hadn't contacted him for a long time, it shouldn't be difficult to find them and play with them.

Another bedroom door opened, and Xia Fengshu came out with a feeding bottle. She was a little surprised to see Xu An. Xu An's eyes slanted from the phone screen to her. Only relying on the dim moonlight outside the window.Xu An didn't know what he drank just now, but felt a desire rising from the soles of his feet, making her hold Xia Fengshu's hand when he passed by.

Looking at each other, at this moment, language is not the way to resolve.

Xia Fengshu understood that Xu An was injured, and was asking her to comfort her with the blood splattered wound.

"Did you come back here because of this house or because of me?"

"Why transfer the responsibility to me?"

"What responsibility?" Xu An was surprised.

"My choice determines whether you want to hang out or not."

Xu An let go of his hand, flustered for a long time, and said: "After you go away, only half of my heart is left. And this half is disappearing, Xia Fengshu, I'm not saying you owe me Yes, but there are some things you should give me."

Xia Fengshu felt sad, Xu An was right, she owed an explanation, even if the reason was in the other party's heart.

"I have the audacity to live here at the end of my life."

"I hate it when you say things like that. It's basically forcing me to sympathize with you."

"As a betrayer, I am no longer qualified to say sorry, I can only speak truthfully about my current situation. I don't care for sympathy, especially yours. I accept your ridicule, rejection, indifference, these are what I deserve , but I will not burden your life, how to do it is your own choice."

Looking at each other again, Xu An smiled wryly.Xia Fengshu suddenly uncovered the scar, which was far more tragic than her, and more realistic.It seemed that she had given up on her self-esteem.

Xu An suppressed the urge to hug her tightly.Silently returned to the room, just after lighting a cigarette, Xia Fengshu knocked on the door and said, "Are you taking a bath? The water temperature is just right."

"dont wash."

"Don't wash it down." Xia Fengshu hummed at the end of his voice.

Xu An slowly extinguished the cigarette, took off his clothes while walking, and entered the bathroom.