So you are bad!

From the day Chu Mo confessed to Li Xin, Li Xin never thought that one day Chu Mo would leave him, and he had always believed in his sincerity and affection.He knew that no matter how he treated Chu Mo, he would never leave him alone.But he never thought that Chu Mo would let go in such a way. His giving up was actually to fulfill him.

However, Li Xin doesn't want to be fulfilled like this.If he survived, but Chu Mo could never survive again, then what is the meaning of his survival?

Li Xin is not confident that he can pretend to be Chu Mo's heart full of Li Xin and continue to live. If he accepts Chu Mo's heart, if the heart has memory, will every beat remind him that Chu Mo has a heart? love him so much.If that's the case, he's afraid that even breathing will hurt, and he'll want to cry when he opens his eyes.

This is not what he wants.

Along the way, Li Xin called Chu Mo countless times with trembling hands, but no one answered.Having watched countless TV dramas, Li Xin knows exactly what Chu Mo's fulfillment means. If he wants him to live, then he must die.Sometimes organ transplants are such a sad thing, when one person's breathing stops and another's heart keeps beating.

The phone was already hot by Li Xin, and he couldn't stop crying while holding the phone.Because Leng Huangxi had to drive, he couldn't give him more comfort, so he could only comfort him with words.

"Li Xin...you don't have to worry, I believe Chu Mo will not leave you without saying goodbye. Even if he wants to sacrifice himself to save you, I think he will definitely say goodbye to you beforehand. Think about it, Is there any place he might go? Maybe, maybe he will go there."

Leng Huangxi's analysis calmed the flustered and sad Li Xin a lot, but the tears still couldn't stop falling.He thought about it hard, and found that he couldn't think of a place where Chu Mo might go, and felt even more sad.

"I don't know... I can't think of it, I can't think of anything. I met Mo in France, I... I have no idea where he might go here at all. I don't know... cold, what to do? What to do ?" Li Xin panicked for a moment and grabbed Leng Huangxi's arm, Leng Huangxi had no choice but to slam on the brakes and stop the car to the side of the road.

"Don't panic, think about it again, does he have another place to live in Nancheng? Or is there any place he wants to go?" Leng Huangxi held Li Xin's shoulders, motioning him to calm down.

Li Xin held back crying, closed her eyes and thought about it carefully.Suddenly, he opened his eyes.

"I got it?"

"he is……"

Li Xin remembered that Chu Mo told him before returning to China that he must visit the place where he was born and studied when he came back.Apart from that place, Li Xin couldn't think of any place where Chu Mo might go.Now, he can only beg God, Chu Mo is really there.

When starting the car, Leng Huangxi also hoped to find Chu Mo in one go.Now, he is more worried about Ning Cai.Ever since he realized that he hadn't followed up, Leng Huangxi's heart had been hanging, as if he could sense something. He always felt that something must happen if Ning Cai didn't follow up this time.Ning Cai was in danger last time, if he hadn't arrived in time, what would have happened afterwards was unimaginable.

If Li Xin was not so sad and anxious to find Chu Mo, he would not have left Ning Cai alone.

Li Xin was ill at first, but in order to find Chu Mo, he tossed back and forth, and when he finally saw Chu Mo's figure at the expected place, he had no strength to approach him at all.If it wasn't for the company of Leng Huangxi behind him, he might have fainted on the spot.

Chu Mo sat alone under the willow tree by the lake, just from the back, let alone how lonely he was.Li Xin suppressed the bursts of pain in his heart, and it took a lot of effort to adjust his disordered breathing, so that no one could notice the slightest abnormality, and then he walked towards Chu Mo at a somewhat "shambling" pace. Enter.Leng Huangxi tactfully did not follow, but he was also worried about Li Xin's current situation, so he could only wait behind the flower bed.

Taking advantage of this opportunity, Leng Huangxi took out his mobile phone and called Ning Cai, but was immediately hung up as soon as he got through.Leng Huangxi had "ordered" Ning Cai absolutely not to answer his phone call, but now Ning Cai made it clear that she did not answer it on purpose, which made him a little worried.He looked back at Li Xin and Chu Mo. Since Chu Mo was there, Li Xin should be fine. Leng Huangxi thought about it and decided to leave to find Ning Cai. Ning Cai disappeared suddenly and did not answer the phone. This really made him uneasy.

No matter what time of day it is, the riverside is always a windy place.The willow branches are blowing with the wind, the corners of the clothes are blown constantly, and even the hair does not forget to dance with the river wind.Standing behind Chu Mo, Li Xin quietly looked at him who was lonely and seemed about to die forever, tears fell against the wind.

"You obviously don't want to part with me, why do you want to leave me alone?"

Hearing the voice from behind, Chu Mo was stunned, stood up abruptly, turned around, and was shocked to see Li Xin, whose face was full of tears and pale.

"Xin...Xin'er! Why do you..."

"If I don't find you today, does it mean that I will never find you again? Even if I turn the world upside down, I won't be able to find you, right?" You can still talk to Chu Mo, and Seeing him, Li Xin felt very grateful.As soon as he opened his mouth, the joy in his heart turned into grievance and pain. He couldn't imagine that if he didn't find Chu Mo today, he would never be found again in the future.

"Xin'er, I..." Seeing Li Xin's sad look, Chu Mo probably guessed that Li Xin already knew everything, and he didn't want to tell Li Xin about it, because he knew that he would not accept it. Secondly, I just don't want to see him so sad.But now, let him know. Seeing that Li Xin was seriously ill and came here, Chu Mo's heart twitched in pain.

"Didn't you already promise me to take me back to France? Didn't you already propose to me? Didn't you also promise to give me a romantic wedding? Why... why you haven't done all of this yet? Abandon me?"

"Xin'er, I'm sorry, I have no choice but to find a donor is too..."

"Even if that's the case, I don't want your heart. You clearly know that if your heart is installed in my body, my illness will never recover for the rest of my life. As long as... as long as I feel it, then obviously If it belongs to your heartbeat, my life would be worse than death, do you understand?" When Li Xin got excited, she couldn't stand still, and when Chu Mo saw this, he rushed up to catch him and hugged him in his arms.

"Xin'er, don't get excited. Your condition is very unstable now. Do you know how dangerous it is to run out like this? Go back to the hospital with me first. What's the matter? Let's talk about it after your condition stabilizes, okay?"

"Chu Mo, Leng doesn't want me anymore. Now, do you want me too?" Li Xin didn't listen to persuasion at all. He leaned into Chu Mo's arms, grabbed his hand, and looked at his face ,question.

"No, Xin'er. I didn't want you. How could I not want you? I just want to save you. I don't want you to disappear from this world so early." Chu Mo also became more and more sad as he talked. A good way, how could he make such a decision that would only bring endless pain to Li Xin.

"You don't want me to disappear, so you plan to disappear by yourself? In this world, you are the only person who cares about me. If you and I are going to lose, then do you think that even if the operation is successful, I can live alone again?" How long? How can you be so selfish to make a decision for me?"

"Then what do you want me to do? Do you want to watch you die?"

That was the first time Li Xin saw Chu Mo look so helpless. He was stunned for a moment, but then he was relieved.

"Mo, not all people are going to die, it's just a matter of time. You promise me, don't do stupid things. I don't want your heart. If God wants me to die, it doesn't matter if I can't find a donor. As long as I finally This period of time spent, and you being able to accompany me, is enough."

The sick person was Li Xin, but he comforted those around him instead.Having experienced death once, he doesn't seem to be so afraid of it, what he is afraid of is the endless pain and torture that death will bring to those who stay behind.The most painful thing in the world is parting from life and death.Those who passed away are gone, but they don't know that the pain he left for those who survived is endless.

It is said that men do not flick their tears lightly, but at this moment, Chu Mo looked at his lover in his arms, maybe he would fall asleep in the next second, and then he would never wake up again, but tears poured out unconsciously .He stretched out his hand, stroked Li Xin's pale cheeks, and wiped away the tears from the corners of his eyes.

"Xin'er, I'm sorry...I'm sorry..." Chu Mo regretted endlessly, he only thought about sacrificing himself to save his loved one, but never thought about whether his sacrifice was what Li Xin wanted.Now that he thinks about it, he realizes how stupid he is. He almost never sees Li Xin.

Li Xin was held tightly in Chu Mo's arms, and he felt the real feeling when he felt the familiar breath of the other party.Fortunately, Chu Mo has not disappeared. Fortunately, in the end, he will not lose everything.He hugged Chu Mo back, yearning for the warmth of that embrace.

"Mo...thank you...thank you for not turning me into a human..."

Li Xin's feeble thanks came from Chu Mo's arms, and Chu Mo's heart ached, he was about to let go of Li Xin, but the hand around his waist dropped down.At the same time when he lost that warmth, he heard Li Xin say to him in a crying voice: "Mo... I'm sorry..."

Li Xin, who lost her strength and consciousness, just slipped and fell into Chu Mo's arms.Chu Mo hardly dared to move. He looked at Li Xin who had closed his eyes in his arms, and it took him a long time to react.

"Xiner? Xiner? What's wrong with you, Xiner? Xiner... Xiner... don't... don't, Xiner doesn't want it. Don't you want me to take you back to France? Don't you want me to give you a romance Xin’er, please... don’t leave me, don’t!” Li Xin’s coma has completely confused Chu Mo, he kept shaking the person in his arms, but no matter how much Chu Mo shouted in his arms, Li Xin did not wake up after all.

Chu Mo rushed into the hospital with Li Xin in his arms, shouting "Doctor! Doctor!" After hearing the news, the doctor briefly examined Li Xin and said in a very serious tone: "No, the patient must undergo surgery immediately. Otherwise, life will be in danger. Immediately contact the patient's family and the donor." The nurse took action immediately after hearing the doctor's words, but was stopped by Chu Mo.

"No, I'm his family member and the donor."

"What!!" A group of doctors and nurses looked at Chu Mo in disbelief.

Chu Mo, who was still flustered, suddenly calmed down. He raised his eyes and looked at the group of people in front of him with firm eyes.

"Doctor, please save him no matter what, please operate on him."

"This..." The doctor who knew the truth was also embarrassed. How could he "kill" another living person in order to save one person.