I Just Came to Borrow a Light

It was past nine o'clock when Lin Chengbu drove away from Shenqiao, the night in the countryside was extremely dark, but the stars in the sky were densely lit.

When the car arrived in Xiaojiang Town, it was already pitch black, and there was no nightlife in the town. There were people singing open-air karaoke in the central square of the town, but it was closed at nine o'clock.

Lin Chengbu parked the car on the side of the empty road and lit a cigarette.

Kind of like a dream, I'm your boyfriend, and that kiss.

There was also the meal after that, although there were not many conversations, but nothing happened. The cake was not delicious, too sweet, and there were a lot of big words. I kept talking while eating, but everything was comfortable.

After eating, Yuan Wu didn't say much, so Lin Chengbu didn't say anything. After taking the big head back to his family's boat, Lin Chengbu sat with Yuan Wu in the stern all the time.

Yuan Wu said you should go back, so he drove out.

It was like a dream.

Lin Chengbu leaned on the car seat, looking at the starry sky outside the window, Xiaojiang Town was as quiet as a deserted town, making people feel that walking forward, through the silence and darkness, is another world.

He had a fight with Yuan Wu in this world, kissed him and ate a meal, and when he returned to another world, he would return to reality as if he had woken up from a dream.

A little reluctantly.

Lin Chengbu let out a long sigh, put out his cigarette and started the car again.

When the car drove to the outskirts of the city, he stopped the car at a random street parking space, and called Jiang Chengyu: "Have you arrived yet?"

"It's the east gate of the building materials market," Jiang Chengyu said vaguely, probably with a cigarette in his mouth, "Where are you?"

"Just wait for me at the east gate. I'll walk over there in 2 minutes." Lin Chengbu said.

Before he came out, he called Jiang Chengyu and asked him to drive over to pick him up. Jiang Chengyu was at the bar at the time, and he was quite reluctant. Lin Chengbu felt that he probably ruined the prelude to his date again.

"You look pretty good." After getting into the car, Jiang Chengyu looked at him and said with a smile.

"Really." Lin Chengbu glanced at the car window, but couldn't see his expression.

"How much did you drink? I still need to pick it up." Jiang Chengyu turned the car around and drove towards the city.

"Two bottles of beer." Lin Chengbu said.

"Fuck," Jiang Chengyu laughed, "I drank two bottles after calling me all the way? You can't even taste the taste."

"Did it delay your business?" Lin Chengbu gave him a sideways look.

"No," Jiang Chengyu said, "I heard that you are so long and short all day long that I am in no mood to do business."

"I didn't go to you for a long time to talk about it." Lin Chengbu leaned on the car seat, "I'm going to take the blame too?"

Jiang Chengyu smiled: "How was your birthday today?"

"It's okay." Lin Chengbu thought about this night, and suddenly he was in a very good mood, feeling that he should indeed look good.

"Can you celebrate your birthday next month with me?" Jiang Chengyu asked, "Anyway, you have already passed it at Yuanwu, and you dare not tell him that you will celebrate it again."

"I won't live alone with you." Lin Chengbu said.

"Did I say I want to be alone with you? Seriously, I'm really tired of being alone with you, it's hard to serve," Jiang Chengyu clicked his tongue, "Call Yang Hui and his gang to play."

"Okay." Lin Chengbu smiled.

Jiang Chengyu sent him downstairs, when he got out of the car Jiang Chengyu stopped him: "Let me remind you."

"What?" Lin Chengbu looked at him.

"It feels like you're a little too emotional today, probably because of something," Jiang Chengyu said, "If he's not in this state one day...be careful not to mess things up."

Lin Chengbu was silent for a while: "I know."

Jiang Chengyu's words were correct, and this was also the source of his uneasiness wrapped in excitement and joy all night.

Although Yuan Wu cannot be said to have amnesia, he does "do not remember" the past.

If one day he returns to a normal state, all of what he has now will become unknown.

He returned home, fell on the sofa, and stared at the TV that was not turned on.

How should we handle this scale?

He didn't go to Shenqiao for the past two days, he had to go to work, and he had a lot of things to do on the weekend, and he hadn't gone back to see his parents for a long time, so he had to go back to lead his death.

He will look forward to it as soon as his phone rings in the past two days. No matter what the consequences are, he has forcibly attached the persona of "Yuan Wu's boyfriend" to himself. Although it is a bit inexplicable, he still hopes that Yuan Wu can accept this Set it up, hoping that he will suddenly connect a certain line to call himself.

But the phone rang many times, none of which was Yuan Wu.

This is actually not surprising. After Lin Chengbu gave Yuan Wu the phone, he never saw the phone again. I don't know whether Yuan Wu hid it or threw it away.

And he didn't dare to call, he was afraid that if something happened too suddenly, Yuan Wu would be frightened.

This tangled one has caught up with the Chinese knot.

Lin Chengbu picked the day when Lin Huiyu was not around and went home, his parents would definitely scold him, plus Lin Huiyu, he was afraid that he would not be able to carry it.

"I haven't been home for a few months. I don't know what you're busy with." Sure enough, as soon as the meal was over, my mother started, "My son just forgot his mother after marrying a wife. Our son Well, if the daughter-in-law doesn't marry, she can forget her mother."

"I'm busy." Lin Chengbu took the TV remote control and pressed it down.

"What are you up to, you're a cook." Dad said aside.

"The cook is busy too, I have to study the recipes." Lin Chengbu smiled.

"It's almost over," my mother sighed, "Don't think that if we don't tell you, it's because you fool us every time we succeed. In fact, the success rate is 0, do you know that, do you know that, thieves?"

Lin Chengbu tugged at the corner of his mouth and said nothing, it took him a long time to realize what kind of thief this mother is.

"It's not that I'm talking about you, you're just a dick," my mother looked at him, "You're so stubborn, try to do things that normal people don't do."

"People who are not crazy are in vain." Lin Chengbu said.

"Don't bully your parents for being poor at school!" Mom raised her voice, "Besides, you are not a teenager! You have the nerve to say that you are still a teenager with such a big face!"

Lin Chengbu remained silent.

"You are wandering around about that matter every day, and I just want to ask you if this matter is over?" Mom started to get a little angry.

"No." Lin Chengbu said.

"You got involved with this, didn't you?" Mom glared at him.

"I'm idle anyway," Lin Chengbu said, "I don't have anything else to do."

"How long are you going to be free?" Mom pointed at him.

"I guess I've been pretty free all my life." Lin Chengbu replied.

"It's your responsibility to piss your dad and me to death, right?" Mom picked up the cup and poured water on his slippers.

"Mom," Lin Chengbu sighed, "Understand Long Live, okay? I didn't kill or set fire, and I'm a pretty honest person except I didn't do well in school. I always have something I want to do and I'm willing to do. , understand each other."

"Your mother is worried about you," said Dad, "for fear that you will run around like a blind moth."

"I'm not stupid." Lin Chengbu said.

"You call yourself a fool king and no one dares to argue with you!" Mom pointed at him again.

"It is said that the child's IQ is mainly determined by the mother." Lin Chengbu smiled.

"Don't play tricks on me!" My mother shouted.

"You have to play tricks with your own parents." Lin Cheng stepped up and stood behind his mother, holding her shoulders. "You said I'm not a teenager anymore, so I'm embarrassed to find someone to play tricks on."

Mom sighed heavily.

Coming out of his parents' place, Lin Chengbu squatted on the side of the street and smoked two cigarettes.

Is this thing over yet?

He also asked himself this question, what should he do if Yuan Wu is like this in his life?

He likes Yuan Wu, and this liking includes appreciation, infatuation, and desire for what he can't get, and he thinks it's quite solid when mixed together.

It's just that if Yuan Wu has been like this for the rest of his life, he doesn't know if such a relationship can last a lifetime.

But if he really doesn't care, will anyone care about Yuan Wu's existence?

Thinking of this makes him feel distressed.

The lost struggle of a holy father fanboy.

After returning home, he turned on the computer, lit a cigarette, and entered Xing Tian's column.

Today's update has been uploaded, Lin Chengbu didn't click to read it, he knew what the content was just by looking at the title of the chapter.

There seems to be no light at the end of the road.

This kind of chapter title, which is full of gloomy and not like a chapter title, has always been the style of Xing Tian's novels. Many times, Lin Chengbu feels that the scariness of these stories does not lie in the ghosts and ghosts, but more from the author himself.

where have you been?

Lin Chengbu stared at the page with a cigarette in his mouth.

After smoking a cigarette, he opened the search page, entered the words "smile and drink a glass of wine", and slowly looked at the page that popped up.

Lin Chengbu felt that except for the printed A4 paper, he hadn't stared at the words for a long time. After turning over a few pages, his eyes were a little dry, and he couldn't sit still. dizzy.

The tragedy of illiteracy.

Lin Cheng got up and went to the refrigerator to get the half can of yogurt that he hadn't finished yesterday, and took a few sips.

After wandering around the room a few times, he sat back in front of the computer and continued to flip through the pages.

In fact, he doesn't know what he is looking for, he only knows that this ID is currently used by Yuan Wu, so this ID may still be used in other places, and he may be able to find some clues.

After turning dozens of pages, Lin Chengbu finally stopped holding the mouse, and clicked on one of the links.

This is a message board. There have been no new messages for two or three years. It seems to be attached to some abandoned website. The website can no longer be opened, and no one enters the message board.

The latest message on the message board, the ID is a glass of wine with a smile.

The following content is only a very simple sentence - I decided to go.

Lin Chengbu stared at the time of the message for this sentence for a long time, which happened to be almost two years ago, and then he looked down at the other messages, which were earlier than this one, focusing on three years ago.

He moved the recipes in his mind to other places, leaving room to think about the time issue.

This message board was shut down along with this website about three years ago, and after that, it is no longer possible to enter directly from the website. If you want to come in to leave a message again, you can only enter the address of the message board directly.

This message came in and left after a year.

After Lin Chengbu came to this conclusion, he scanned the other messages, and then felt a chill down his spine.

This is an anonymous message board, no registration is required, anyone can leave a message by entering an ID, and every message, including those with happy words, seems to be full of... despair.

Even people like Lin Chengbu who didn't go to school well and who don't know anything about it can tell right away, and it was mentioned in Xing Tian's first ghost story that he has suicidal tendencies The secret meeting point of the crowd.

"Fuck." Lin Chengbu kicked the table, and the chair slid back.

He took out the cigarette and lit it, and took two puffs hard.

His heartbeat was a little unsteady, and he took the yogurt and drank it all in one gulp, feeling overwhelmed with shock.

What happened?

After calming down a bit, Lin Chengbu dragged his chair and sat down in front of the computer again, wanting to scroll forward again to see if there were any messages from people who had laughed off a glass of wine, but he found that the message board could only save the last 5 pages in total.

Even the message board is so desperate, it directly erases those people who existed before.

I don't know life or death.

Lin Chengbu didn't sleep well all night, and his dream was full of Yuan Wu, sitting at the stern of the boat without a smile and looking at the water.

This scene woke him up several times a night.

When I wake up in the morning, I feel like I haven't slept.

He didn't go to work today, he went out after a quick wash, he was going to Shenqiao.

After seeing that message board, he suddenly wanted to stay by Yuan Wu's side, without talking, without any form of communication, as long as he could see Yuan Wu.

When passing by the small vegetable market downstairs, he ran in and grabbed a bunch of fresh vegetables, meat, and fruits with a group of old ladies who were grabbing breakfast vegetables, and then bought a bunch of snacks in the nearby supermarket, and then carried He hurriedly got into the car.

After the car left the urban area, the speed limit was 80. He kept driving at 80 and slowed down when he approached Xiaojiang Town.

The air here became better. Lin Chengbu turned off the air conditioner and opened the car windows.

After taking a few breaths of fresh air, the cell phone he threw on the passenger seat rang.

After a glance, he quickly pulled over the car and stopped, grabbed the phone and answered it: "Big head?"

"I'm Datou's mother," said a female voice with a local accent, "Are you Xiaowu's friend?"

Lin Chengbu was stunned and immediately replied: "Yes, I am!"

Big headed mother?He suddenly felt afraid in a daze: "What's the matter? Has something happened to him?"

Datou's mother is a straightforward rural woman, her words are completely without turning or tactful, and her voice is loud: "He jumped into the river before dawn!"

This loud sentence made Lin Chengbu jump up from the car seat like a thunderbolt, hitting his head on the roof of the car, and he roared: "What?!"

"He's not dead! Come and have a look, he's fine now! But I don't know what's going on!" Datou's mother shouted.

"Ok, ok, ok, ok, ok..." Lin Chengbu yelled again and again, shifted gears and drove towards Shenqiao, "What's his situation now?"

"Sleep now! Asleep!" Big-headed mother replied.

"Okay, okay, thank you, I'll be right there, I'm in Xiaojiang Town now." Lin Chengbu bit his tongue three times after saying a word.

After hanging up the phone, his mind was buzzing, and there was all kinds of chaos in front of him, so he had to park the car on the side of the road again, took a few wet tissues and wiped his face to calm himself down.

Jumped into the river?

Jumping into the river?

Yuan Wu, who is so afraid of water, actually jumped into the river?

But people are fine now.

People are fine.

Still asleep.

How could he fall asleep after jumping into the river!

In the end is to jump into the river or swim!

After regaining his composure, Lin Chengbu took his mobile phone and called Jiang Chengyu.

"It's so early in the morning," Jiang Chengyu was surprised, "I was just going to sleep, what's the matter?"

"You have nothing to do these two days," Lin Chengbu said, "Just now I answered the call from Yuan Wu's neighbor, saying that he jumped into the river, and I will be there right away. I don't know if there is anything wrong. Don't arrange for two days..."

"Okay." Jiang Chengyu responded quickly, "If you want to help you call me, I'll be there anytime."

"Thank you." Lin Chengbu hung up the phone.

For the first time, he felt that the road from Xiaojiang Town to Shenqiao was so fucking difficult, the road was narrow and bumpy, especially the dirt road after passing the tourist area, which made his neck sore.

After finally driving to the old pier, he poked his head out and stared out before the car stopped.

There was nothing unusual about the old pier, it looked the same as every time he came here, no people, no cars, no signs of anything that seemed to have happened.

Even the big head who always plays on the pier with a gourd on his back is there.

It's just that the big head didn't squat today, but ran over as soon as he heard the car.

"Brother Xiaobu!" He ran to the side of the car and shouted.

"Big head, what's going on?" Lin Chengbu jumped out of the car and squatted in front of him.

"I don't know, I didn't see it," Da Tou frowned, with an anxious expression on his face, "Mom won't let me go, but Brother Xiaowu is sleeping now."

"Is he on the boat alone?" Lin Chengbu stood up and ran over there.

"Uncle Fool is here," Datou ran after him, "wait for me."

"You don't want to go there," Lin Chengbu knew that Datou's mother would definitely not allow Datou to go under such circumstances, "You just play here, I will come over and tell you, be obedient."

"... Oh." Datou hesitated for a moment, and squatted on the edge of the pier.

Lin Chengbu ran and bounced among various boats and boards to the side of Yuan Wu's boat, and saw the fool sitting on the bow at a glance.

"Brother Fool," he lowered his voice, "do you still remember me? I am Lin Chengbu, the naked one that day..."

The fool nodded, pointed to the cabin, and made a sleeping posture again.

"He fell asleep?" Lin Chengbu walked to the cabin door, not daring to push the door, but leaned into the crack of the door and looked in.

Yuan Wu was lying in the cabin, covered with a small blanket, tightly wrapped.

Lin Chengbu couldn't see his face clearly, only his messy hair was still wet.

He didn't know whether to breathe a sigh of relief or worry about Yuan Wu's current state, but Yuan Wu fell asleep, and he couldn't ask, so he could only turn around and ask the fool in a low voice: "What's going on?"

The fool looked at him, made a diving motion, and then couldn't express it.

He stood up, jumped onto the boat next to him, and waved to Lin Chengbu, who followed him and jumped over.

The fool pointed to the side of the cage, and then walked there along the intertwined boats.

Lin Cheng followed him step by step and turned around to the cage.

The two workers guarding the net cage were serving rice and eating noodles. When they saw them, they stood up, and one of them pointed to Lin Chengbu: "Are you his friend? Oh, you came very quickly."

"What happened to him?" Lin Chengbu asked quickly.

"Hey, I don't know, I can't tell, I don't know what he is going to do, I have never seen him like this, even if he is going to die, I have never seen him die like this." The worker tsk tsk tsk with emotion.

"What did he do?" Lin Chengbu asked.

"I jumped into the water right from the boat and couldn't get up. The fool saw something was wrong and went down! The water is so good that I didn't get him up!" The worker was a little excited, waving his hands and half shouting, "I'll go down too quickly Yes, look, he is holding a handful of water plants and won’t let go! He can’t even pull them away! I got him up after cutting the water plants with a knife! If I didn’t bring the knife, he would be finished! I’ll go back to the boat and get the knife before going down. He must be choking! If he breathes inappropriately, he will die! What do you think he is doing!"