wait for me to grow up

The two people in the living room were silent, Huang Zitao didn't even lift his head and stared at the wooden floor in a daze, Li Donghai quietly brushed his hair and didn't know what to use as a breakthrough point, so he leaned on the sofa and looked at Tao on the opposite side, and then looked at Look at the door...

"Um...that, Tao~"

"Brother Donghai~"

"...Why are you here at this hour?"

"..."

"No, I mean..."

Looking straight at Brother Donghai, a certain panda's mind is full of Li Hyuk-jae who he just met when he went out, and the phrase "he is taking a bath" seems to be haunted by the magic sound...

"Brother, do you think...is it strange that boys like boys?"

"..." Li Donghai opened his mouth wide after hearing this, forgot to wipe his hair, and shook his head hastily, "No, no, you misunderstood!" The water droplets from his hair fell on the floor, and they were smashed one by one.

"..." What... did I misunderstand?

"Oh, Tao, that bastard and I don't have that kind of relationship!"

"..." Who are you talking about?what relationship?

"Didn't you hear what others said?"

"..." Actually bro...I came here because I wanted to tell you something~

It wasn't until the panda explained the purpose of his visit that Dong Hai sat lazily on the sofa and wiped his hair that was about to dry as if he was relieved.

"So, who is that man who confessed to you?"

"Don't ask this!" Huang Zitao frowned, "I'm here to ask brother what I should do."

"You really don't like them? Didn't they all refuse?"

"If you refuse, won't it be awkward to get along with each other in the future?"

How can it be?Li Donghai turned his head to look at Tao, if he hadn't seen the sad face on the panda's face, he would have almost said those four words.Thinking about it, I still shook my head, "It's hard to talk about feelings. It's also possible that you refuse at one second, and the two of you get together again at the next second. So you have to see clearly what you think in your heart." .”

"Is it possible to reject them all?"

"Of course!"

"Who?"

"It's not...it's that so-and-so and so-and-so!" Donghai coughed dryly, "Okay, let's not talk about that, in fact, Tao, men are sometimes very persistent when it comes to feelings, and it's not impossible to be stubborn. If he decides that you are the one he likes, it is not impossible to persist for a long time. After a long time, will you still be as firm as you are now?"

"But knowing that it's not a relationship that can go on forever, how can you change your mind?" Huang Zitao doesn't understand what the definition of love is, but the words in his heart that only he can see are the most important to this matter. The most authentic attitude?In fact, the subconscious resistance for that second already explained the problem.Just like what others often say, you can’t pretend to like someone, and you can’t force it if you don’t like it. He can’t make himself make a decision to resist madly in his heart, and he can’t persuade himself to try to like someone.In his opinion, love...at least should be innate, otherwise how can it become a special ability that only human beings have?

"Because...sometimes, the rejection is because of embarrassment..."

"Is it because of embarrassment?"

The question came suddenly, the person who spoke was standing at the door in home clothes, the hat was still drooping on his head, and Lee Hyuk-jae looked at Donghae who was facing him sideways with a half-smile. look.

"..."

"..."

Huang Zitao blinked and looked at Brother Donghai. Li Donghai also widened his eyes in surprise, and the words he hadn't finished speaking were really stuck in his mouth.

"Tell me, isn't it because of embarrassment?" Li Hyuk-jae suddenly felt that Donghae's behavior was very interesting, so the half-smile on his mouth deepened for a while.

"I told Tao something else, what do you know?" Dong Hai yelled at the person at the door.

"Why are you in such a hurry?"

"..." Immediately fell silent, Li Donghai suddenly felt that Li Hyuk-jae's eyes were sharp and piercing, he curled his lips and stopped talking.

Huang Zitao didn't know if he was a little sensitive, why did he feel that this atmosphere was a little weird?Whether it's Brother Donghai's slightly shy and slightly angry expression, or Senior Eunhyuk's eyes looking at the person opposite him with a smile, it's all... weird and too obvious.It's so obvious that people don't know whether to think too much.

Huang Zitao felt that the wisest decision he made was to stand up like a spring and bid farewell before the weirdness of the atmosphere further escalated.

Li Donghai clearly wanted to stop it, but Huang Zitao retreated too fast while saying goodbye, and Li Hyuk-jae who was standing over there nodded slightly, "Tao, I will come to play often~" It was clearly a posture to see off guests.He also stopped Dong Hai who was chasing to the door by the way.

"Wait a minute, it seems that we haven't finished our business yet."

"Hey, do you know what Tao wants from me?" Pushing away the other's hand, Dong Hai gave him a blank look.

"Even if you worry about other people's affairs every day, leave some time for me, right?" To be honest, he has long had a taste for Dong Hai's warm heart, and the reason why he cares more today is probably because he heard what he said when he came in just now Let's talk.He stared at Donghai very seriously, "You always tell the truth when you tell others, right? What is that refusal because of embarrassment? Give me 5 minutes and you can explain clearly."

"..."

What is the relationship between Lee Donghae and Lee Hyukjae?

Is it... the relationship I had in mind?

Huang Zitao's brain, which was not enough to use, was even more confused because of the impact of such a question.Walking on the road thoughtfully, covering himself tightly with a mask and hat, he only looked at the land in front of him, but he didn't have any other thoughts, his mind was in a mess like a ball of cotton.

Because he was a little ignorant, he accidentally bumped into someone head-on, Huang Zitao was hit hard, and subconsciously raised his head.

The man opposite was wearing glasses, he looked like an ordinary college student, his hands were full of bags, he looked at Huang Zitao with an apologetic expression, "Well, I'm sorry..."

Here, before the apology was finished, a female voice came from not far away, "Ah, why don't you come over?"

The man was a little embarrassed and quickly said sorry to Huang Zitao, then hurriedly rushed to the side of the long-haired girl in a short skirt in front of him, letting his girlfriend pick on him in various ways, just nodding vigorously Respond, never refute.Instead, when he looked down at her, his eyes were full of pampering.

Huang Zitao looked at all this, as if he was a couple who often played in TV dramas, but he himself was still an outsider, only envious.

Ah, it turns out that that is love.

In the eyes of others, it seems unreasonable, but in the eyes of lovers, it is too cute to be cured.In the eyes of others, this couple is both head-watered and IQ-decreased, but those two fell into the melodrama of their own feelings and became irreplaceable dynamic supermen~

It turned out that this is love.

It is indeed an amazing relationship.But...how can you be sure that you love someone?

Huang Zitao shook his head, forget it, he is simply not suitable for thinking about such complicated things~

Originally, I made a special trip today to hear some kind words from Brother Donghai, but now I have nowhere to go.Tao listened to his footsteps with some hesitation, where can he go now?by myself...

When Wu Shixun's call came, it was really timely. Huang Zitao was standing on the side of the road in a daze, looking at the endless stream of vehicles and crowds, and was sincerely producing a kind of independent film, and then the phone rang happily, "MaMa" The prelude immediately broke this atmosphere, a little weird~

"Sehun~"

"Where did you go again?"

"Me? I'm just..." Tao looked around, curled his lips, "I'll be going back to the dormitory in a while."

"Well, accompany me to a place later."

"Ah."

In fact, I was a little hesitant when I agreed, after all... about Wu Shixun, what I think in my heart is still the person he likes, what he likes... is not someone else, it's beef, he admitted it in front of himself last night, and... And what beef likes seems to be me.

Huang Zitao sighed, why does such a bloody plot happen in life?What he doesn't know is that life is often more bloody than idol dramas, with coincidences, embarrassments, and endless occurrences.

A few days ago, Brother Junmian ordered him to find the place where Wu Yifan met him. When the two of them raised their heads, they were stunned.Wu Yifan was holding a black bag, he had never seen him carrying it, and walked forward with his head down while wearing a hat.Huang Zitao was stunned for a moment, then lowered his head subconsciously, then raised his head and looked at the person opposite him with some embarrassment.

Forget it, anyway, I haven't found the expression to face each other, so I just pretend that I didn't see each other.That way it won't be so embarrassing.Huang Zitao thought so, but when he was about to walk past him as if nothing had happened, he heard the other party ask in a cold, low voice, "That's it... don't you want to see me?"

"...you tell me, what is the best way to do it?"

He stopped at the same spot without turning his head, Huang Zitao wished that an accident would cause him to lose his memory, he understood everything, but he didn't know how to deal with it.No wonder some people always say that it is best to be confused!

"Have you ever thought about what kind of mood I used to confess to you?"

Maintaining the same posture, although no one could see anyone, Wu Yifan still grasped the bag in his hand a little nervously, because his fingers turned white slightly due to the force.

If you can't love it, it is naturally painful, everyone knows this.

It's okay to be tortured by love, but now...you have to be tortured by rejection.

Huang Zitao inexplicably felt that his eyes were a little sore, but rationally made himself try to widen his eyes, it's best not to even blink.Just when he was about to say something, and even his body had the tendency to turn around, Tao suddenly saw a person standing not far in front of him.

The man was wearing a light blue shirt and had brown hair with bangs that were a little long over his eyes.The sunlight shone on him, which was cleaner and brighter than anyone else, like a piece of jade that had been deposited for thousands of years, emitting a soft light.

Wu Yifan was waiting for Huang Zitao's answer, but after a small silence, he heard a chuckle, Huang Zitao's soft voice became a bit firm, and he said, "Have you ever thought about what kind of mood I am in? reject you?"

"..."

Wu Yifan wanted to turn around, but he heard someone behind him calling "Yellow Paper Peach", he suddenly felt that something had flowed away from him.So he didn't look back, as if nothing happened, he took firm steps and left the person he had sworn to stick to for the rest of his life - that person.

Wu Shixun is always a child who can't wait. Huang Zitao can clearly see the anxiety on his face from such a distance. Is it because he is afraid that he will be embarrassed by meeting that person?Or do you think that if two people cannot be lovers, they will become enemies?

So when Wu Shixun came in front of him, Tao was ready to smile, "Ah, what can't wait? I'm back now."

"where did you go?"

"Know what that one is going to do?"

Seeing Shixun's mouth pouted and his eyes rolling skillfully, Tao just smiled, "Okay, aren't we going somewhere? Where are we going? I'm already hungry, let's go eat."

Wu Shixun glanced at Wu Yifan who was walking away, then looked at Huang Zitao who was smiling nicely at him, and decided that he didn't need to care so much, so he relaxed his nervous heart, and stretched out his hand to the panda, "Follow me I'm leaving, and I've made arrangements for everything else."

Staring at the little white paw in front of him, Tao was in a daze for a moment, and then Bai Xian's face suddenly came into his mind, and he knocked off Shixun's hand casually, "Why are you holding hands, it's so disgusting!"

While Shixun was rubbing his beaten palm, his eyes were full of complexities, and even the self-confidence he had just built up seemed to disappear.In fact, he wanted to ask clearly, Hey, Huang Zitao, do you really dislike me?If... If that's the case, everything I want to do today will become a joke.

But even if I knew it was going to happen, I still had to do my best, didn't I?

Thinking of this, Shixun jumped up and put his arms around Tao's shoulders as if nothing had happened, "Oh, it's so cold, shouldn't we get closer?"

"...but it's not even June yet~"

"Ah, ah, what do you care about those details?"

"..."

The two put on their peaked caps and sat quietly on the bus.Huang Zitao is still not very familiar with the route in Seoul. When he asked Shixun where he was going, Shixun didn't say anything, so he could only be led to transfer several times, until he asked impatiently, "How long is it?"

Wu Shixun patted his head through the peaked cap, "We'll be there soon."

"We've all been walking for an hour."

"The journey was originally more than an hour."

"It's so far away." Being stuffed into the seat by the window, Huang Zitao looked out the window. It was a road he didn't know. Then he took out his mobile phone to look at it. It was almost three o'clock, but his stomach hadn't been soothed yet, thinking I think it's really pitiful.

As soon as Wu Shixun turned his head, he saw Huang Zitao's sad eyes, and he was stunned, "What's wrong?"

"I said I was hungry~"

"...Understood! I'll take you to eat delicious food right away, can't I?"

Seeing Tao's brightened expression in a second, Wu Shixun thought of his oolong confession, it seemed that it was because the guy was hungry... So, is it true that he must feed the panda to make him obedient?Who in the world is as pitiful as him, who has to feed before confessing...

"Wu Shixin, what are you thinking about frowning?" Huang Zitao poked the arm of the person next to him, "Also, why do we have to go so far away for a meal? Isn't there a good restaurant near the dormitory?"

"Which question do you want me to answer first?" Wu Shixun turned his head to look at him, with fair skin and clear eyes under the peaked cap, just like a porcelain doll displayed in a shop window.Huang Zitao's eyes were blinked by Wu Shixun who was too white, and he looked away as if nothing had happened, "Why are you frowning?" He asked in a low voice.

"Because... I have troubles." Staring at Tao's eyes that had been avoided, Shixun smiled bitterly silently, because there are too many troubles in places you can't see, that's why I'm shrouded in a dark cloud , although I want to give you the best of me every time I face you, but... secretly liking someone is a bitter thing in itself, and the saddest thing is hesitating whether to say it or not, being afraid That dazed stage where you get rejected.And you are always in my mind 24 hours a day, making people feel like they can't do anything well.So I think all the time, should I tell you?How can I tell you?

Because of this, I am so troubled.

Although he has been in Korea for a long time, there are still many places Huang Zitao has not been to. This is actually a pity.I also talked to the group members many times, saying that I want to see everywhere, at least I want to see all the famous scenic spots in Seoul.Although this Sehun has thought about it, but the focus of their life before was on practice and debut, where is the time to travel around?

Therefore, Huang Zitao actually only talked with resentment, and he only listened with regret.

Today, it was Huang Zitao's first visit to Beiyue Mountain. The nature that suits his aesthetics suddenly made him forget the hunger he was complaining about just now. Excitedly looking here and there, he turned his head to Sehun Laughing, a pair of peach blossom eyes seemed to bloom instantly, and even the fat lying silkworms underneath showed a touch of coquettish grace.

Wu Shixun froze in a daze, and then his cheeks turned red in the next second. Fortunately, the panda turned around and took out his mobile phone to keep taking pictures, and didn't notice his embarrassment.

Shixun looked at that person's back, and even every strand of hair revealed joy. This is Huang Zitao like this. Still tears, as long as it belongs to him, everything becomes precious.When did it start?It seems that as long as he is by his side, he can ignore the whole world.It became more and more inseparable, and I smiled, with bitterness mixed with joy.The person Sehun was looking at seemed to radiate multicolored light, while everything else became blurred except for that person.

Ah, Huang Zitao, have you... fed me poison?

That kind of poison that can't fall in love with anyone except you?

That kind of poison that must be yours?

When Huang Zitao turned his head, he bumped into Wu Shixun's sea-like eyes, in which blue and deep black alternated, and there was a deep vortex, rolling people inward inch by inch.

"What are you thinking?"

"Miss you."

"..."

"Miss you... aren't you hungry? Let's go eat."

"……it is good."

There was a moment of heart palpitations, Huang Zitao shook his head ignorantly to prevent himself from thinking wildly, he must have watched too many TV dramas, and that's why he...had some unrealistic imagination~

The style of the restaurant that Shixun took Tao to was very refreshing. Normally, Tao would not want to indulge in the temptation of delicious food instantly, but today the person sitting next to him has a slightly stronger sense of presence. Even if he doesn’t stare at him, he still doesn’t understand Some fidgeting.Even the signature dishes recommended by the store have no taste in your mouth.

Because... the atmosphere of eating with Wu Shixun now is a little weird.

This is clearly...that is...

"Do you see it?"

"...Huh?" Frightened by Shixun who was smiling lightly across from him, the terrified little panda was shocked, and stared at him with a pair of round peach blossom eyes.

"Even if you see something, you don't need to expose me now. My planned itinerary is not over yet."

"An itinerary planned?"

"Well, I'll feed you first and let's go for a walk after we have something to drink." Wu Shixun looked at the person opposite, his eyes full of tenderness.

"But..." Tao looked out the window, "It's already this time now, and this place is not close to the dormitory, we are going back very late, should we still take a walk?"

"Yes."

"It's getting dark."

"To go to Skyway, it's only after dark."

"Then how late are we going back to the dormitory?" A certain panda was confused~ Brother Junmian should be worried again.

"Then we won't go back."

Not going back?Huang Zitao was a little scared.Is this still the maknae who was supposed to be obedient?Actually urging myself to stay out at night.

"Then we..."

"I have a friend who lives nearby, and he doesn't stay when he goes abroad. I know the password of his house. He said that if he comes to play, he can live there." Wu Shixun said while carefully cutting up the beef on the plate and putting it away. After arriving at Tao's plate, he raised his head with an impeccable smile, "Don't worry, I've made all the arrangements."

That expression... is completely saying: Look at how reliable I am~*^_^*

Huang Zitao looked down at the beef on his plate, and suddenly remembered something, his eyes started to dodge.Shixun was stunned, when did this panda become so sensitive?

"What do you think about men liking men?"

The person on the opposite side asked this suddenly, Huang Zitao almost spit out the juice he just drank in his mouth!

Coughing uncontrollably due to choking, Shixun quickly got up from his seat and patted his back lightly, "What did you do to be frightened like this? It's not like you haven't experienced this kind of thing before." He said, Tao rolled his eyes at an angle that he didn't see.Your brother's confession is well known to everyone!snort! !

"Cough cough, what... what cough?"

"Same-sex liking." Sehun's hand on the back of a certain panda became lighter and lighter, until it seemed to be stroking at the end, "In your heart, is there any difference between men and women? Do you... hate it? "

This question is casual, but cautious everywhere.

Even someone as slow as Huang Zitao can hear it.

With a demented expression, he was thinking, what does Wu Shixun mean?Are you curious?No, he obviously likes a man too.He quickly lowered his head to look at the fragrant beef on the plate, and pouted without knowing it, feeling unexplainably uncomfortable.

Probably... because I knew someone else's secret...

And this "other" is not someone else, but Wu Shixun who keeps saying that there should be no secrets all day long, so that's why...

This content that I can't say out because I'm so uncomfortable is still very close to myself, so I'm even more... entangled.

Yes, nothing wrong, very tangled.Who can see the thoughts that are almost tangled into a mess in his mind?

Shixun asked himself this way because he must care about his friend's opinion, maybe... maybe this arrangement today is simply to confess to himself, and then let himself help him confess...

How to do how to do?Do you want to promise yourself?If he didn't agree, Shixun would be very disappointed. Shixun believed that he told him a secret that no one told him, how could he hurt him so much?But... if you agree, do you want to help Sehun pursue beef?Let’s not say that I know that Beef doesn’t like Sehun and Sehun will be sad, just say that Beef has already said that he likes him, and if he confesses for others... Beef should be angry too~

Oops, so tangled! !

A certain panda with a big brain hole completely misunderstood other people's thoughts without knowing it, and its tangled little eyes fluttered in various ways, but in Shixun's eyes, it was clearly shy with anticipation.

I couldn't help feeling a little more confident, maybe...he also likes me.

"Do you hate it?" Because there was no response, he asked again, with his hand on Tao's shoulder, Sehun asked softly with his head bowed.

Probably because he could imagine the pitiful expression on Wu Shixin's face after he gave a negative answer, a certain panda who was still struggling subconsciously shook his head, "Even if I refused, it doesn't mean I have any prejudice against this!"

So, I won't take your liking lightly, don't worry.

Tao turned around and held Shixun's hand in his own, looking at him warmly, actually... in front of me, you don't need to pretend, I can understand, really.Before a certain panda who was shooting gentle rays with his eyes had time to feel his tenderness and kindness, he was caught by the scorching eyes of the other party looking straight at him. As soon as he blushed, he wanted to let go of Sehun's hand, but he was held instead. tight.

"really?"

"...Well, of course it's true. If you like someone, you just like it. How can you say you like it when you care so much."

So, Sehun, whether you like girls or... or beef, as your older brother, I will support you unconditionally.Because those are your feelings, you are the only one who can make the decision, and all I can do is hope that you will be happy.

"So, so Sehun, there's no need to question your relationship just because I have some bad experiences here. If you like someone, you will regret it if you don't try. Although...Although I also know that concealing is Maybe it's mutual respect, but it's also after you have a tacit understanding with each other, your feelings... that person doesn't know yet, does he?"

If he knew, he wouldn't be so open to reveal his heart to himself. What would happen if Niu knew what Shixun was thinking?Maybe Beef has never thought about this possibility. If he knows, maybe... maybe he will seriously consider the possibility of each other.

Wu Shixun raised his eyebrows, "Could it be...are you encouraging me?"

"Of course I encourage you!"

This brat, as a big brother, of course he has to be encouraged!Yes...as a brother...

The inexplicable depression has yet to find a reason, and Wu Shixun, who suddenly brightened up next to him, is very confusing. Before he had time to ask Shixun, he waved to the waiter to come over to pay, so Tao took his hand from Shixun's hand like a conditioned reflex. Go back and look through your wallet.

"I'll pay the bill!" Shixun held him down, "This is also part of my plan, don't grab it!"

So a certain panda obediently stopped. How should I put it, I always feel that there is something different about Wu Shixun today. He sits quietly and exudes a desire to control like he doesn’t want money. Isn’t it because he confesses to himself that he likes beef? What are you doing so seriously?So when you confess, do you have to be more careful?

Unaware that he was actually fascinated now, a certain panda secretly rolled his eyes, Wu Shixin, who is obsessed with sex!If you forget my brother and me because of beef in the future, I will not dismantle you and my surname is not Huang! !

The whole person was immersed in the various joys of "Oh my little panda encouraged me to confess to him~" "Oh I'm about to succeed~" "It's not a dream to hug a beauty~", Wu Shixun didn't realize it Seeing that the person he led out of the restaurant was not that happy, instead he stared at the back of his head seriously.

Why did I become so strange?

You said you should bless and encourage, right?

Isn't it a good thing for Sehun to like someone?

But why...why do you feel uncomfortable?It was stuffy like something stuck in my heart.

Under the setting sun, the person walking in front of him turned his head and showed a pure smile like a child.That person smiled at himself, with a light that was warmer than the setting sun, "Hey, let's go for a walk together!"

Because of joy, eyes bent into crescent moons, all happiness is condensed into the arc of a smile, even a little overflowing.

So Huang Zitao didn't realize it, he stared at him blankly, nodded subconsciously, "Oh."

I don't know why the person holding my hand is smiling so beautifully.

Confused, Huang Zitao remembered the answer he wanted to know today.

Love...what the hell is it?

Does Wu Yifan, who confesses to himself and tells about his own possessiveness, know?Or does Baekhyun, whose eyes are filled with sadness and says that he will stop there, know?Or... the Donghae brother who said he refused because he was embarrassed, or the senior Eunhyuk who excluded himself with his eyes?

Or...Where is this Wu Shixin who seems to have won the whole world when she smiles?

Does he know?

Unconsciously, he clasped his hands tightly and followed his footsteps, that person seemed to guide him, so that even if he was in this strange place, he would not feel uneasy at all.It seems that as long as you follow him, everything... doesn't matter.Oh Sehun, that guy, was he such a reliable existence in the first place?

Or Oh Se-hoon, who is immersed in his own love, has also become an omnipotent dynamic superman.Become a superman exclusive to one person.And...that person...is Bai Xian.

Yes...Baekhyun~