wait for me to grow up

What Wu Shixun gave to Huang Zitao was the quiet path of the skyway and the lights of the entire Seoul.

Huang Zitao looked at the night scene almost with twinkling eyes, his eyes glittered with endless excitement, he hurriedly took out his mobile phone to take a picture and imprinted in Wu Shixun's pupils, it was more intoxicating than the dazzling lights at the foot of the mountain.Standing beside Tao, he stretched out his hand to touch his broken hair blown by the wind, his eyes doted on him, and he laughed silently.

The panda was busy looking at the scenery, but he didn't know that in his own eyes, he was the most beautiful scenery that the whole world would not exchange.

"Huang Zitao, isn't this place beautiful?"

"Yeah." Nodding vigorously with excitement, Tao turned his head and grinned at the person standing beside him, like the little sun who just hid on the top of the mountain.

"So now...you will listen to me well instead of running around?"

Huang Zitao blinked his eyes and didn't know what Shixun was talking about. Naturally, he wouldn't remember the last time Shixun wanted to confess. In his opinion, it was just one of the youngest's many convulsions. Amusement parks also look like hesitant to talk, and besides, he was taken away by Brother Jun Mian justifiably, so he won’t remember things like walking away~

But this is a big event in Wu Shixun's memory, an oolong and a warning.Thinking of it is sour, you will regret, feel emotional, and be amused.This is how he loves Huang Zitao, foolishly, but full of courage.

Accompanied by the slightly cool night breeze in May and June, Wu Shixun raised his head slightly facing the brilliant lights of Seoul down the mountain, letting the soft hair around his ears be played by the wind, with a cool smile, looking like he was enjoying it.His smile was actually a little uncontrollable, because the person who was by his side couldn't control his joy.

"Do you have that feeling? Seoul is so big, we are actually just two of so many people. Without the light of the stage, we are just two of so many people walking in the skyway after dinner."

"Otherwise, do you think that you have your own light wherever you go?" Huang Zitao withdrew his eyes, looked at him and smiled, "The stage is dazzling because people look up to it, and because of the spotlight. How can anyone be so crazy every day in an ordinary life? ?It’s better to stay quietly with family and friends.”

"Yeah, that's how it is now."

"..."

Huang Zitao froze for a moment, his eyelashes trembling cautiously, he didn't know how to answer, and in the end he just defaulted to silence.

"I really like this moment." Without looking back, Sehun grabbed the hands of the people around him, and the smile on his face became sweeter and sweeter, "Really, I really like it."

Wanting to struggle, wanting to tell him why the two boys are holding hands, it's disgusting, but probably affected by his smile-drenched eyes, being held hands obediently, thinking maybe that guy is fantasizing about being with Baek Hyun Let's stand here together~

As for?Such a sweet smile! !hum~

The man (Da Wu!) who was thinking of Baekhyun was about to tire himself of being so sweet, he grinned and said, "It's as if...there are only two of us in the whole world."

Yes, yes, you are the only one in the world who is happy!So I don't have to flash my panda eyes, right?Silently complaining in his heart, Huang Zitao nodded helplessly.

"Really, we usually have more than a dozen of us together, and there are very few times when we are really alone?"

It's true, it seems that I really haven't seen the two of them alone.And didn't the two people meet before and disliked each other?Is it really the rhythm of falling in love and killing each other?No, no, it’s not two-way liking, Baekhyun likes me~←_←

Probably because there was no response, Shixun looked back at him, and he nodded obediently, "Yeah!"

"So, this kind of real time when two people can be together is very rare. I like it, I like only us! It's like... It seems that I only have you, and you... only me~"

Laugh, what are you laughing at!Huang Zitao looked at Wu Shixun's children's shoes alone and sweetly with a straight face, can you tell me before you use me for confession practice?If it wasn't for me knowing that you like beef, wouldn't it make people feel passionate! !

"Tao~"

"What, what?"

"What is Seoul to you?"

"Seoul?" Tao looked at the city decorated with lights and noise, and blinked earnestly, "Seoul is a very beautiful city, even if I don't choose it as the starting point of my dream, I think I will still like it very much from this place."

is it beautiful?Shixun looked at the place where he grew up, and there was a little bit of reluctance in his smile.Yeah, it's just a pretty city after all.In fact, he has asked similar questions too many times, do you like Seoul?How much do you like it?Compared with Qingdao?The answer he got was just as he had imagined. For Huang Zitao, Qingdao was an irreplaceable existence.Because it is my hometown, I can't compare it anywhere.When I spoke to them, there was pride in my eyes.

"Let me tell you, Qingdao..."

"Of course, Qingdao..."

"Oh, it would be great if you went, Qingdao..."

…………

Qingdao, because of Huang Zitao, I really want to visit it.Really... is it that good?

"To you, Seoul...is just a city. But it is my hometown, just like Qingdao is to you." Shixun lowered his eyes, the shadow covered by his eyelashes made him seem to be immersed in some kind of consciousness, helpless But with joy.

"A lot of times I think, compared to people who have the same hometown as you, there are some advantages that I will never have."

Brother Junmian once said to himself so seriously that Tao will return to China one day, so when that time comes, will you go with him or force him to stay?

"But I still feel lucky, it's like fate that we met, didn't we?" Holding Huang Zitao's hand tightly, Sehun looked at him with layers of affection in his eyes, "I didn't think Seoul would What is the meaning of me, but since I fell in love with someone, I feel more and more that this is where I met you, let us have the same dream, and let our future be intertwined~"

"..."

"So I also began to like Seoul. There are so many cities in the world, billions of people, but the person I like can come to Seoul where I am. Isn't this fate? How much I regret our previous I have never met each other for more than ten years, so I am so lucky to have the opportunity to be together in the next few decades. If it were not for this opportunity, would I have lived a life without you? It is plain, without joy or sadness, You won’t cry or laugh for someone, you won’t be heartbroken, and your heart won’t be tightly held by that person... Such a life would probably be very boring, right?”

Wu Shixun, who had said such a long paragraph, looked at him with complicated eyes like a vast ocean. The vortex inside was pulling Huang Zitao's remaining rationality hard, making him unable to distinguish such a confession that made people feel goosebumps. Who is it?

Facing me, can you say what you want to say to Baekhyun?

But this feeling of being treated as someone else is really not good~

So Wu Shixun looked at Huang Zitao with all his eyes, but under his gentle and clear eyes gradually revealed sadness...

Wait... sad? !Shyness or embarrassment, even anger is expected, but what about sadness?

"That... Tao..."

"Very touched."

"what?"

"He will be very touched, let's just say it like this." With a reluctant smile and encouragement, Huang Zitao looked at him very seriously, but even the lying silkworms in his eyes lost their energy and were limp.

"..." Wu Shixun, who was stunned by the other party's words, didn't know whether his confession was a success or a failure. Why did he faintly feel that something was wrong~

"Shixun, what is love in your heart?" He couldn't help but ask the question he wanted to know, Huang Zitao managed to hide the regret in his eyes, and smiled at the man who confessed with sweet words, with a cat mouth It is a cute w-shape, those peach blossom eyes reflect the stars all over the sky because of the overly serious expression, twinkling and twinkling, the twinkling makes Wu Shixun's heart ache a little~

The two looked at each other quietly, as if they were the only ones in each other's world.But the passers-by walking by from time to time make it impossible not to care.

"Sehun..."

"Is it in my heart?"

"Oh." Carefully looking away, Tao bit his lips, "I've been thinking for the past two days, what exactly is love? Does it have a specific definition? If someone can't spend their whole life with themselves, then What is the reason? Is it just a glance and then a hasty decision? No, it seems not to be the case, but what is the reason for being so sure?"

Because Brother Junmian asked, I wanted to find out.

Then I wanted to ask Brother Donghai, but his answer didn't suit me.

Wu Shixun understood when he thought about it, it turned out that this was what he was worrying about.

"Is this what you're always thinking about?"

"I……"

"Don't think wildly!" Shixun became nervous, "There is nothing wrong with your refusal! What are you doubting, doubting!!"

Knowing that Shixun had misunderstood, Tao lightly smiled and interrupted his anxiety, "I didn't doubt it~ I know I did nothing wrong, I never doubted myself, if I do it again, I will still refuse."

That's... that's good.

If that's the case... Wu Shixun's eyes became relaxed, even with some piety, "Didn't you ask me what love is?"

"Ah."

"In my heart, love is a person."

"..." The little panda quietly waited for the next sentence, its obedient appearance was like a primary school student with his hands behind his back in class.Shixun resisted the urge to touch her, and breathed a sigh of relief.

"Everyone has a different explanation about love, but there is no definite answer at all. I didn't understand it before, but if you want to ask me, you must tell me the answer... After falling in love with someone , will understand."

In love with someone...?Tao unconsciously blinked his peach eyes, his quiet appearance made people feel extra cute.

"Falling in love with someone, feeling alone, affirming, denying and affirming again, overthrowing oneself again and again. It wasn't until the end that he was the only one who realized that this strange feeling is love~ It turns out that love is so wonderful Things that make people involuntary, heart-wrenching but sweet. If you want me to say it, love...should be for the other party to change and be omnipotent. I can't bear the other party to be hurt, I just want to see his brightness and joy. I want to be forever By the side of the other party, knowing that he is naive, he still wants to occupy all his scent. In front of the other party, he becomes an angel, but because of the selfishness of love, he turns into a demon that firmly blocks other people from two people. Love, probably is like this. "

…………

Wu Shixun looked at the panda who was stunned by his words, and smiled tenderly and silently.

Love... probably is what I met you, and then everything.

However, Huang Zitao seemed to suddenly understand something. From Shixun's words, he could hear his enthusiasm for the person he likes... It was the same as the gaze he was watching when he was confessing, so intense that it seemed to burn everything in minutes.But it seems that there is something more, such as...the protection in the desire.

Sudden strong envy of Baekhyun, being liked by Oh Sehun.After Wu Shixun thought about it and said those words, the maknae who was doted on by all of them, including himself, his feelings were so young but fierce, without any falsehood, but he still said that he would be the one in front of that person Angel.Baekhyun who is loved so thoroughly... Baekhyun who is loved by Sehun to the point of loving a city... Baekhyun who is liked by Sehun and who seems to accept a lot of sacrifices... Really, I'm envious ~

This feeling is actually quite strange, like a child raised by myself suddenly smiled to himself and said: I have found someone who is ready to love my whole life, brother, please bless me!

Then I hugged him and blessed him, watched him go to that person's side to protect that person for the rest of my life, and then turned my head and shed tears silently~

Suddenly feeling very sad, Huang Zitao severely criticized himself, what the hell are you being hypocritical about?Anyway... that person is Baek Hyun, so what does it matter if they are all people I like.But……

but……

"Sehun, have you ever thought... that you will be rejected?"

Wu Shixun immediately petrified, looking at Huang Zitao who asked such a question in horror.

So... are you going to reject me?

Sure enough, I can't do it either?

So, can you stop hating me?

Can you...

"Sehun, it doesn't really matter, even if he rejects you, don't be sad, because there is no right or wrong in love, besides, how will you know if you don't try?"

"..." ⊙﹏⊙

"If he knows that you like him so much, he will definitely think about it seriously. In fact, some people don't like him, but they just don't realize it. Ah~ So we can be together! Once you find that problem, think about it. Maybe I like it too~ So don’t give up, if he was out of state when he confessed for the first time, you can..."

Bridge Bean Sacks! ! !

Wu Shixun felt his brain exploded!What the hell is that panda talking about now? ?Please, tell him he's dreaming right now, okay?Otherwise, either this panda is crazy, or he is crazy, or... the world is broken~

He would rather be the third type!

"Who told you that I like Byun Baek Hyun?" Wu Shixun yelled flatly, startling a certain panda who was still talking endlessly as an incompetent love mentor for his younger brother.

"is not it……"

"Why do you have such a weird idea?"

"...No, didn't you say it yourself?" Huang Zitao's grievance, can what you said yourself be false?Why are you so excited, are you... shy?

"My own mouth?" Wu Shixun almost laughed angrily! "When? Where? What did I say? Was I conscious? Or were you dreaming??"

"Just last night, I asked you if you like beef, and you said you did!"

"When do I..."

and many more!

last night?Is it by the bathroom door?

So Huang Zitao's sudden question is really serious?

Beef... Shouldn't it be the kind they just ate today?Didn't Huang Zitao, a foodie, really ask about food hobbies?

But...but...but my understanding is not like this~ T_T So did all the shyness of Huang Zitao that he understood before today really existed?

Because he had conclusive testimony, Huang Zitao was a little confident, he recalled it again, there was nothing wrong, there was no mistake in his memory!

"Obviously you admitted it yourself, didn't you?"

"What I said...isn't the beef!"

"Isn't that beef? Which beef is that?" Tao couldn't react, he was always sure...

Not knowing whether to cry or laugh, Wu Shixun took a deep breath and firmly held the shoulder of the person opposite him, "I'm talking about... the beef in front of me! I've been confessing all day today, but I'm thinking Allocating me to someone else makes me so angry that I don’t even know how to say good yellow peach flavored beef!” After speaking, he blocked all the doubts and “fuck” of a certain panda with a tight hug go back.

So, did you get yourself an oolong?

Huang Zitao's head was full of cotton, and he was hugged tightly, but because of the shock, he even forgot to struggle.Until the voice of that person came to my ears, I felt numb from my ears to my fingertips~ The deep voice of that person exploded in my ears, and the sentence "I love you" instantly made all the hairs on a certain panda explode rise!

Subconsciously, he pushed Shixun away, his eyes widened, his face flushed, and he was still a little rational, so he hurriedly looked around and said to him in a low voice, "Are you crazy? This is a public place!!"

"So... What you care about is not whether I hug you, but this is a public place?" Wu Shixun narrowed his eyes because of pleasure, looked at him, and smiled like a cat that stole the fish.

"...That's right, that's not it!" Huang Zitao's brain's ability to process information hadn't fully returned because his computer crashed instantly and then restarted in stages, so he only knew how to retort subconsciously, but in fact, he didn't even have time to think about the question Shixun asked.Because now my mind is filled with a line of words in bold typeface: Is it me that Shixun likes? ! !

As if seeing his shock, his eyes were as gentle as water, looking at him steadily, Sehun said very seriously, "Yes, there is nothing wrong. It is you, it has always been you, I like it, It's always been you!"

Huang Zitao remembers the first time he saw Wu Shixun, it wasn't the confusion when he was dragged by Luhan to their dormitory, nor was he getting ready for everything, holding milk tea and approaching cautiously, it was a very bright day.

At that time, Huang Zitao hadn't even integrated into Yixing and the others, he was just doing an airborne birth that was not liked by others in silence.He made an appointment with another trainee to practice together, but he was let go. No one helped him. He couldn't even understand the pronunciation of Korean, let alone the difficult rap lyrics assigned by the teacher.

I didn't know what to do, when I came out of my small practice room, I saw a group of people passing by.Talking and laughing, playing and fighting, it is the youth of this age.

The first thing Huang Zitao saw was Park Chanyeol, maybe it was because he was tall?It was also because he had seen this person in class, and when he saw that elf-like face, he would think of the subwoofer sound that he didn't want to match.Huang Zitao looked at that person a few more times because of that voice, and then he didn't expect to see him here again.

And that person showed a big smiling face, talking to the people around him while smiling silly.So natural, so intimate.

so envious……

Looking at Wu Shixun for the first time, Tao's eyes were actually full of envy.Then I saw a handsome boy.Yes, it is beautiful.If we use a flower as a metaphor, Wu Shixun is neither a rose nor a peony, but an unknown small wild flower growing on the edge of the flower field, with a light color and small petals. I can’t tell why it is beautiful, but it is beautiful.

Probably because Huang Zitao didn't know how to hide his gaze, that handsome boy suddenly turned his head to look at him, without expression or movement.Instead, Huang Zitao, who was standing blankly at the door, felt embarrassed, wondering if he should look away, and the next second, the boy broke into a smile, his eyes bent into little moons, indescribably dazzling.

Huang Zitao still doesn't know whether the smile that Wu Shixun smiled at him that day was because of what Chanyeol said to him, or...or because of himself?

Never asked.Don't dare to ask when you are not familiar with it, but if you are familiar with it... I am embarrassed to ask.Gradually, things that are only a few seconds in this memory are no longer often remembered.But at this moment, I suddenly remembered

If a person's life is written in a book, is every description of an interstitial story an important moment in life?

If a person's life is made into a movie, isn't every soft-light shot an important memory?

That night on the skyway of Beiyue Mountain is destined to become a highlight in the lives of many people?

The boy said, I love you.

He said, I like you, I have always liked you.

He said, I fell in love with a city because of you.

He said, I feel lucky to have met you.

…………

"Sehun."

As usual, but not in the usual tone, Huang Zitao called Shixun's name in a low voice, he was a little scared, because recently his whole life has become sensitive about feelings, and his cherished brother also said the same...

Afraid of hurting him, but also unable to lie to him.

Because he really doesn't know, what's going on in his heart, and what is his own definition of "love" that others keep saying?

"I don't force you, really, actually, I want to work hard and bear it for the rest of my life~" Wu Shixun smiled hard, but he lowered his eyes and didn't look at him, for fear that he might accidentally notice the depression and sadness in his eyes .After a pause, he continued, "But I keep imagining how romantic and beautiful the scene of my confession to you is. If I really like a scene so seriously, if I don't tell you, I always feel... a bit regretful~"

"Sehun..."

"Well, my favorite."

"..."

"Favorite, you call me that." Shixun raised his head, his eyes were full of stars, although it is not very professional to hide sadness, but it is probably because the happiness of seeing the person he likes covers everything, no matter the corner of the eye or the tip of the brow , or lightly pursed lips, are full of likes.

"But...if I..."

"Yeah, what if you reject me?" Shixun frowned, and then he was relieved, "It's okay, you told me, in fact, some people don't like it, but they don't realize it. Ah~ So we can also We are together! Once you find that problem, think about it. Maybe you like it. So I won’t give up. If you are out of state when you confess for the first time, I can... Oh, what can I do? Are you going to do it? You don’t seem to have said this yet!”

As soon as Shixun reminded him, he was so ashamed to think of a certain panda that he was still a love mentor just now.Unsurprisingly, his face turned a little red, and he stammered, "Well...it's not early that day, let's go back. Brother Junmian should be worried later~" He wanted to be on the same page as he said that run back.

"Hey!" Shixun quickly stopped him, "I didn't say I called Brother Junmian, we live outside today."

Live outside?Both of us?Me... and you... just the two of us? ? ?

Tao's eyes widened, as if frightened.It's not because he thinks too much, the key is that the man in front of him just confessed to him, isn't it a bit too dangerous to sleep together→_→?

"What are you thinking about?" Tao's expression was so angry that he was a little embarrassed, and he rumpled the panda's hair, "What are you afraid of? I have practiced martial arts for more than ten years, and I can still What's wrong with you?"

He made this arrangement because he wanted to spend more time with that panda.There are always more than a dozen people together, and they have to hide everything they want to say. Since I plan to confess my love, give him a chance to say everything I want to say.And...you have to give them time to cultivate their relationship, so he doesn't expect that silly panda, who is so slow and outrageous whenever he encounters relationship problems, to accept his feelings immediately.

But when Shixun called Huang Zitao's children's shoes like this, he became even more shy, what are you thinking, what is your whole family thinking, what is the whole community thinking!I didn't think about anything, hmm!I didn't think so! !

Perhaps he could also know what Tao was thinking. Wu Shixun smiled silently, turned around and walked along the path without saying a word, but Tao also knew that he was telling him to follow.Huang Zitao bit his lip, followed behind Wu Shixun, watched the light stretch his shadow to a long distance, and covered himself in it.Then he recovered bit by bit, and his shadow became more and more compatible with himself.Huang Zitao, who was about to turn red because of this weird thought, turned his head and saw someone riding a bicycle coming from behind, because the speed of the downhill was a bit scary...

"Ah, Wu Shixun!"

Hearing Tao call himself, before he even had time to turn around, he was hugged tightly and pushed aside.That person's chest was tightly pressed against his back, he could feel the beating sound of that person's heart, and he could smell the smell that belonged to that person. For a moment, Shixun felt that he couldn't feel the whole world, only that person. The taste of people and heartbeat are tightly entwined~

When he came back to his senses and saw someone riding a bicycle passing by at a high speed, Wu Shixun subconsciously wanted to turn around and hug Huang Zitao back, wanting to ask if he was injured.I heard Huang Zitao's voice softened because of his anxiety, "Are you all right? Wu Shixun, are you all right?"

"Well, I'm fine. How about you?"

Tao let go of him, worriedly looked up and down several times before he was relieved, and smiled at Shixun, "I'm fine."

"...Hey, Huang Zitao."

"Ok?"

"If...if you reject me, can you stop caring about me like you do now?"

"..."

"Because I will definitely misunderstand, that is, the way you look at me now, I will definitely misunderstand. Your eyes tell me that you really like me."

"..."

.........

Huang Zitao has asked the same question many times: What is love?

I asked many different people on many different occasions and got many different answers.

Until a long, long time later, if someone can open Huang Zitao's precious book dedicated to song writing, he will see a sentence written on the title page, every word is serious, and he has described it countless times.

On the title page it reads:

Love is not me Because of what you did for me, I was so touched that my heart began to tremble,

Instead, I ask my heart, how far I am willing to do for you...