wait for me to grow up

"So, how do you feel about him?"

Do you feel it?Huang Zitao was a little dazed, one must know that the current situation is really unimaginable, his Brother Yixing looked at him so seriously, and asked himself how he felt towards Wu Yifan.

Really, it's weird no matter how you think about it.

I thought back to the time when I made these two men as role models and worked hard, but I never thought that there would be such a time.

Zhang Yixing suddenly smiled lightly, revealing beautiful dimples, and looked at Tao warmly, "Otherwise, let's go for a walk on the Han River, brother, can I buy you something to drink?"

"..."

Wu Yifan never thought that it would be Lu Han who called him first, there was a long silence on the phone, just when Wu Yifan was considering whether to hang up the phone, Lu Han seemed to explode and said, "Wu Yifan, you bastard!"

"..."

"Are you the only one in the whole world? Really, this is the first time I feel that you are so selfish!"

"Luhan, why are you pretending to be noble? It's as if you haven't thought about anything, you... are all pure, aren't you?"

That's right, he did something wrong, and he has already received the greatest punishment, but there is no need for everyone in the world to condemn him as a sinner.

"Do you think we didn't say anything because we were cowardly? Because we knew the consequences! When you told him you liked him, what was his expression? Was he frightened?" Lu Han can imagine now even if he closes his eyes See Huang Zitao's panicked expression.He sneered, "So, are you satisfied now? In the future, not only you, we treat him well, but he will think why, and then hide from us like bugs. And his future life will still be Come with us... Wu Yifan, you really, really did a great job!"

Originally, liking this thing is a matter of one person, and the most beautiful thing about it is that everyone has the right to love.But... who would want their love to become a burden?A relationship is like a priceless dress, which shines dazzlingly in the window and shows its brilliance to the whole world.But if you know that this dress doesn’t fit you, and you put all your eggs in one hand and lock it in your closet, then its brilliance will no longer be able to shine in the sun, and its pride will only be reduced to the sorrow of being played by one person...

And they all couldn't go back.

Whether it's the dress that has been crushed with pride, or the buyer who stubbornly wants to get it but loses it forever, and everyone else who keeps the dress as a dream in their hearts in front of the window.All of them can't go back.

To Wu Yifan, he seemed to have said enough, but he had never told Yixing brother his thoughts so thoroughly.Although in the eyes of others, Huang Zitao is like the captain's follower, but deep down in his heart, his feelings towards these two people are both the same and different.

Holding the hot coffee given by Yixing, the waves in Huang Zitao's eyes shone like the Han River under the sun.

"Xing, you may not know that when I saw you for the first time, I was really special and excited."

"me?"

"Oh, I heard from others that you are like a legend. What I saw with my own eyes is that you are full of strength. When you really get in touch, you are a warm you. In fact, you are so happy. If you say something carelessly, you will make you proud If so, you are the goal of growth in my heart."

"..."

"It's really in my heart, I don't want to say so much, let everyone know."

"Why, do you think I'm ashamed?"

"Yeah, no!" Quickly shook his head to explain, Yixing smiled and patted his head, Tao pouted and continued, "It's me, I feel ashamed."

Recalling the original self, ignorant, but brave.Silly persistence, but the future seems to be invisible.At the hardest time, hearing people around him talk about Zhang Yixing and his persistent deeds made Tao feel that what is wrong with this world?

That senior named Zhang Yixing is the best example, isn't he?

He doesn't believe that he is the only one who is difficult, but so many seniors who are also difficult have really made achievements. Does it mean that he is not working hard enough?So Huang Zitao persisted even more and worked harder.Then he became another character in the rumors - the second Zhang Yixing!

If it is said that the admiration for Wu Yifan at the beginning was like a little girl's nympho, then for Zhang Yixing, Huang Zitao admired him from the bottom of his heart.As a result, until Zhang Yixing revealed his soft and cute temperament, Huang Zitao did not dare to surpass it.

Zhang Yixing listened to Huang Zitao's words, and the corners of his mouth were slightly curved. He didn't look at Tao, probably because he was embarrassed, but just quietly stared at the water surface of the Han River.

"What I love the most is that you put everything in your heart, and you can only know whether you are tired after guessing, but I... But I can't find a way to comfort you. Obviously, you are better than Brother Fan get along, but it is easier to hide than that person."

"Really?" Zhang Yixing pretended to shake his head and smirked, but in fact his heart warmed a lot. He looked up at Tao's serious expression, and couldn't help but want to laugh.Obviously, this child is more used to concealing things than myself~ Although it is easy to see through because of childishness, Huang Zitao is still the same, he will share happiness with you without hesitation, but when there is pain, he wraps it up like a hedgehog, armed outside The iron wall is solid, and in the softest place inside, I toss and turn in pain, but I still don't want others to approach.

"Of course it is! I have nothing to hide from my brother. I am really very distressed. It's not that I haven't thought about it. It's just that when I thought about it before, I thought I thought too much. Well, Brother Fan really likes me Do you like boys and boys?"

"People like people, what's the matter? Wasn't it you who cried when watching Brokeback Mountain?"

"...That, isn't it a movie?"

"I thought you always learned from movies."

"..." It seems to be correct to say that.True or false, don't you believe it too?Huang Zitao bit his lip, "Xing, don't you find it strange?"

"You... feel strange?"

"It's not... that is, how can you be sure that the one you like is the one you like?"

Almost dizzy by the panda, Zhang Yixing stretched out his hand and took the person into his arms, "The love I want to have contains desire, it will be sad, and it is powerfully harmful. It's like... Wu Yifan treats you like that."

"To me like that?"

It's just... Is it something that feels weird to me?

"Huang Zitao, actually...I envy you too."

"..." Hearing this kind of words for the first time, Huang Zitao, who was still struggling with "like", was deeply stimulated again, he opened his mouth not knowing what to say.

On the contrary, Zhang Yixing relaxed, and his smile became more and more natural, "It's also natural to be liked, and it's also natural to express your emotions. Tao, you don't know how many people in this world want to live like you."

Perhaps it was because he heard Tao's innermost thoughts today that Yixing expressed his feelings.Not only does Tao yearn for his persistence, but he also deeply admires Tao's tenacity.How should I put it between two people, there must be something of sympathy between them.Especially Huang Zitao, who broke into their world under the title of "the second Zhang Yixing", how could Zhang Yixing himself turn a blind eye?He paid more or less attention, and then saw that child under his own name, who was so different from himself.

He told Lu Han and the others before that Huang Zitao is the most authentic self in everyone's bones.It was the innocence who was hurt and shattered when he first arrived, and he gave up cruelly but was reluctant from the bottom of his heart. He was the truest self who carefully insisted on wearing the big hat of the world.It is also the most precious thing they lost after being honed by life.

They like Huang Zitao so much, a large part of it is because of envy, reminiscence, seeing the loss before their eyes and couldn't help wanting to protect it.

In this world, there are too many people telling you what to do and how to do it.Too many people tell you that you are wrong and that is not good.

Even if we know that we are not wrong, but if we are told by one or two people, we will refute it, and if we are told by ten or hundreds of people, we will remain silent. When tens of thousands of people criticize us, we will gradually question ourselves. When the whole world tells you that you have to give up, don't you... become one of the whole world and start to completely push back to your former self.Be a person that the world will like, be a "smart" person.Be the one who caters to most people and just keeps silent even if it doesn't feel right...

Are we...will this be the case after all?

That's why he envies Huang Zitao so much, because he clearly tells you his right and wrong, he clearly shows you his integrity.But sometimes, looking at him, I can only cheer for him in my heart, and envy that simple freedom by the way.

"What's so good about me, it's not like Brother Yixing doesn't know that my life is also a mess."

Not only the groundless rumors, but also the thoughts of the people around him, which made Tao Xin tired~ He changed his usual heartless appearance, sighed, and looked super deep.

"So, do you want to change?"

"Change?" Huang Zitao blinked his eyes, "No, I've figured it out a long time ago, so I won't change. I'm already very tired, and I have to pretend to be another person, so I'm just exhausted. !"

"That's fine."

Zhang Yixing smiled, this kind of you is the best you, promise me, never change~

"But, the problem is still not resolved!" Tao frowned in distress, "How do you think I should get along with Brother Fan? I'll die of embarrassment!"

"Are you still thinking about this question?" Seeing that the sun was setting, Yixing looked at the melancholy certain panda and smiled helplessly.

"How could you not want to? I think I might bore myself to death today!"

"Tao." Yixing's sudden serious voice pulled the distressed panda out of the endless loop. Zhang Yixing's eyes reflected the streetlights that had just turned on, "Sometimes, I'm really jealous of Wu Yifan."

"what?"

No, a certain panda stared round, why does this atmosphere seem to be wrong again?Shouldn't this be a consolation session?

"Whether you get a positive response or not, he who completely occupies your heart is much happier than me who is sitting next to you and you can't see it, isn't it?"

"Xing..." Startled by the sudden words, Huang Zitao started to get flustered, what happened to him today?Write the rhythm of the idol drama.That... brother Xingxing isn't serious, is he?

"Oh, I can bear it when I think about it, this is not the first time, I see you every time... what do you think my mood should be like?" Zhang Yixing lowered his voice when he said this Head, expression hidden in the shadows, people can not see clearly.

"..."

"I've actually thought about it too. I just want to be an older brother. Didn't you say that you treat me like your own brother? Although I never take a bath with you, I will give you everything you like to eat, although I will sometimes refuse you. , At that time, I couldn't help helping you pack your things. Although I don't go shopping with you, I teach you how to dance. Although... I don't say I like you, but I really like you. I don't do many things because I want to All you did was your brother..."

Although the identity of this "brother" is sometimes inferior to other...

"... Xing, you... are you kidding me?"

"Oh."

"...⊙▽⊙?" Frozen again, Huang Zitao's peach blossom eyes were full of doubts, and he blinked, so... Brother Yixing was joking just now?Are you really... kidding? -_-||Oh, I was scared to death~

"Of course I'm joking." Yixing raised his head, still with a gentle smile on his face, "Look, don't think about those messy things now. Is my method of diverting attention particularly good?"

Zhang Yixing, who disguised everything with a joke, patted Tao on the head, "No matter what happens, life will go on. Your stomach is starting to growl, let's go back to eat."

"Uh-huh."

Joke, yes, joke.Why is it that sometimes only through jokes can one speak out the truth in one's heart?And often, a seemingly simple smile.In fact, many, many truths are hidden.Tell you those things that you are afraid of that you can't stand, and tell you with a joke, my heart can feel better, and at the same time, it won't hurt you.It's really the best of both worlds.isn't it?

Zhang Yixing walked to the dormitory with a certain panda that was smiling at the sun again, all he was thinking about was how to make that smile last longer on his face~

"Brother Donghai, do you know? Sometimes, a joke is also a great excuse."

"That's right, it's also a useful excuse."

"But a lot of times I knew it clearly, but pretended nothing happened."

A certain panda locked itself in the balcony again, wrapped in a blanket, counting the stars and talking on the phone.

Donghae, who comforted him with a warm voice on the other end of the phone, suddenly remembered that he saw Sehun outside today~

"Well, Tao, what happened to Sehun?"

"Sehun?"

"Ah, I saw him today. He looked unhappy, as if he didn't even see me. Did something happen?"

"...I don't know." Huang Zitao, who was in an out-of-body state after being confessed, locked himself in his room when he came back. When eating, he only looked at the food and didn't make eye contact with anyone. Luckily, Wu Yifan wasn't there. , there is no need to be so embarrassed from now on, and no one talks to him inappropriately, perhaps because his determination to refuse contact with this world has been seen~

In short, the panda disguised as an ostrich silently avoided everyone's sight, and naturally did not pay attention to whether Shixun was there.

It seems that I really didn't notice Sehun.

"What's the matter? Didn't that kid say that you two had a good time? Why do you act like you don't know anything?"

"That...Brother Donghai, I really didn't..."

"Tao, as an older brother, don't you have to care about Shixun?" Donghai turned on the gossip mode and began to spread the inside information he knew, "I'm not telling lies, I suspect that kid is in love recently!"

"Ahem, love?" Almost choked to death by his own saliva, this time he was completely sober after being confessed, Huang Zitao opened his mouth wide and his eyes widened, completely surprised.

in love?Oh Sehun?

I don't know if it was because I was too surprised, but the news made my heart a little tight.

"Hey, why are you so surprised? Isn't falling in love a normal thing? I've seen his state recently, it's really weird! That sour literature and art, the whole young man who fell into first love and couldn't help himself, really really Yes, I'm not bragging to you, my brother has experience..."

On the other end of the phone, Brother Donghai spoke triumphantly, as if someone else was complaining, and then Brother Donghai retorted, and then went on to say...

But Huang Zitao didn't listen to a few words.

It turns out that kid Wu Shixun is in love, and even Brother Donghai knows something that he actually... Blinking his eyes, Tao felt strange, why did he feel depressed?Probably because he felt that Sehun was too uninteresting, how could he not say anything to himself?No... Didn't it be agreed that there will be no secrets between the two of you?

Being liked by Sehun...

I don’t know why, but I think of the scene of hiding from fans on the side stairs of the hotel that day. Oh Se-hoon is prettier than anyone else… Oh Se-hoon, who is worried about being bullied even though he is a younger brother, seems to be the one who protects him like a rising star.

What is it like to be loved by such Wu Shixun?

"Tao, Tao, Tao?"

"Ah?" As if in a daze, Tao immediately sat upright, "Well, Brother Donghai, I'll ask him what's going on, don't worry, wouldn't it be a good thing to talk about... falling in love?"

"It also depends on what kind of person the other party is~ In short, as an older brother, please care more~"

"Well, I see."

After hanging up the phone, Tao shook his head, trying to get rid of the messy thoughts in his head. For the person Wu Shixun likes, he... I, I don't envy him!

"Strange, it seems like no one likes anyone! Hmph!!!"

Huang Zitao came out from the balcony, and when he looked up, he saw Wu Shixun standing in the living room, standing straight, looking at him expressionlessly.

Probably because that guy was still the protagonist of the topic just now, when Tao met his eyes, he was obviously a little guilty, and he looked away within three seconds.Wu Shixun had been standing here for almost half an hour. He didn't know who Tao was talking to on the phone just now. After learning about Wu Yifan's confession, he went out to ask the person concerned to clarify. He was almost burned to death by his own anger along the way. He didn't even know that Brother Donghai's car was seen passing by on the road.

Shixun found Wu Yifan at the company, Wu Yifan doesn't come to the company very often, maybe he is in a bad mood today and doesn't want to see anyone, but Shixun still came to him.Not in a good temper, he pushed open the door of the practice room. He stood at the door and looked at Wu Yifan who was sitting on the floor without saying a word.

"what you want to say?"

Today, he did a stupid thing, and then received dissatisfaction from all directions, not bad for this younger brother.

"...You know, I like Tao, right?"

"Then don't you know I like him?"

"..."

That's right, it's obvious that this is a secret that both of them know, but it's just a secret rivalry and never pierce the window paper.

"Brother, why did you say that, why did you tell him? Didn't Brother Junmian say..."

"Do I have to listen to Jin Junmian's words for the rest of my life? Will my own life and love be imprisoned by others?" Wu Yifan was also faintly angry, the feeling of being accused by his younger brother was indeed very unpleasant.

"..." Shixun suddenly smiled, dryly, without joy.

"why are you laughing?"

"Brother Kris, now I finally understand, so you only like him."

"..." Wu Yifan looked up at him in confusion, what does it mean to just like him?

"I was thinking, why do I like him the same as my brother, I am jealous because of the approach of others, I want him to stay by my side honestly, I can't help but want to tell him my heart, But I, who couldn't bear it so much, endured it for so long."

"So, you're here to show off your gentleness and kindness?"

"No, although I also rehearsed the scene of confessing ten thousand times in my mind, and even almost made it. But when I really sorted out my feelings, I hesitated. That wasn't fear, just like hearing my brother's confession today. My anger was the same when you confessed, at first I felt that my patience was not worth it, but now, the reason for my anger is not that. Brother, have you ever thought about Tao's feelings?"

"..."

"Or did you think about it but still do that?" Sehun snorted, "I finally understood when I saw brother like this, I am different from brother, you just like it, but I love him !"

Wu Yifan and Shixun looked at each other, two cold gazes intertwined in the air.He looked at the boy who was standing straight and looking down at him in a funny way. Could it be that this world is a fairy tale?like?Has this kid read too many novels?Do you still think that angels also exist?

"That's right, I love him. So... no matter what happens, I won't give up. Since you gave me this opportunity, I won't hide it forever. As long as it doesn't make him feel bad, I will... definitely tell him feeling!"

Wu Shixun stood there looking at Huang Zitao expressionlessly, his heart actually echoed over and over again what he said to Wu Yifan just now, after telling him his own feelings, then... is it now?

When it really came to this time, I was still a little timid.

So did Huang Zitao, he didn't know if he should ask directly, hey!Who do you like?

The two of them just looked at each other like this, each of them had unspeakable question marks in their hearts, and they were almost bursting and almost overflowing.

Just when the two of them didn't know whether to speak first, and looked at each other awkwardly, a person came out of the room over there.

Jin Zhongren raised his eyes and just saw the two people standing opposite each other but silent, frowned, went up and directly grabbed Huang Zitao's hand, "Talk to me, now!"

This sudden change caught both Tao and Shixun off guard. Huang Zitao was dragged directly to the door in a daze. Shixun's words to stop him were stuck in his throat. The moment he turned around, Jin Zhongren had already pulled Tao Fengfeng to close the door in a hurry~

"Zhong Ren, what are you doing!" He didn't let go of Zhong Ren's hand until he got off Lou Tao, "Is there anything you can't say in the dormitory?"

"I'm fine, I'm not afraid of embarrassing you, you and Kris..."

Huang Zitao bowed his head silently, what, this matter again.Has it become news and spread everywhere in less than a day?Although I was quite surprised, everyone's comfort was too timely, right?I am more positive than when I was depressed before!

"Yeah, yeah, isn't it just that he confessed to me, isn't it just that a man confessed to me? I have nothing to do, and I won't really date him. Zhong Ren, don't ask, it's already embarrassing coming!"

"He... confessed to you...?"

Huang Zitao raised his head, and met Jin Zhongren's eyes widened in surprise.What, isn't it about this?

Jin Zhongren was really taken aback, what happened if he didn't pay attention? !He was faintly angry, and squinted his eyes to look at Huang Zitao, "What happened today?"

Tao was even more confused, did Zhong Ren really not know?So... what kind of evil did I do T_T

Kan Tao's face clearly said acquiesce, Jin Zhongren gritted his teeth, no wonder the atmosphere is so strange today.Originally, he thought it was still the previous thing, that it was because of Wu Yifan and his fans that the two of them had a new round of embarrassment.After thinking about it, I really can't stand it. If it weren't for the fact that I can't comfort others at all, why would I want to let that stubborn little panda heal by itself?But if he let himself be so laissez-faire, he still couldn't let a piece of darkness haunt him for so long!

If he hadn't finally decided to intervene in this matter, would he not even know that one day his chick would belong to someone else?

Huang Zitao... This person clearly said that he likes someone like a younger brother, but he hasn't had time to ask, to what extent does he like him?How is it different from others?He is like a younger brother, does Wu Yifan like him like an older brother? ? ?

Obviously Wen Kui said to himself that Huang Zitao is qualified to be by his side, Wen Kui has said that.Mingming Taimin made himself treat Huang Zitao like a puppy, and Taimin gave himself an idea.

But... Is it too late to wake up?That... Is that reserved tenderness still useful?

Kim Jong-in feels a headache!

Huang Zitao, who accidentally broke the news to himself, was embarrassed for a while, and then pretended that nothing happened, hehe laughed twice, "Actually...it's not really a big deal, that Zhong Ren, just pretend you haven't heard about it~"

"You mean... Wu Yifan confessed to you, right?"

"..."

"Wu Yifan confessed to you today, but... I don't know at all?" I don't know if he was asking Tao or himself, Zhong Ren's face was gloomy, and he asked again and again, as if he had fallen into some strange circle and couldn't get out.

"What on earth do you think?"

I don't know when it started, Jin Zhongren secretly regarded Wu Yifan as the biggest opponent in this relationship, it was really a disadvantage for himself.Over there, the elder brother and younger brother had a good relationship from the very beginning, but I had various misunderstandings and missed too many opportunities to get close to this panda.I don't know if it's because everyone is too accustomed to this kind of relationship, Huang Zitao seems to be born to be under Wu Yifan's care, just like Brother Junmian, he is a parent.So unconsciously, he bowed his head in front of him, and hesitated when he wanted to approach him, so...wouldn't it make Tao feel uncomfortable?I am not Wu Yifan.

I seem to... have that kind of thought too, Tao...maybe he likes that person?

Tao knew that that person liked him, even though he said he refused, but what was he thinking in his heart?

"Me?" Huang Zitao rubbed his nose, "What can I think, it's... just a bit awkward, but there's nothing between us, we can still be... the same as before."

Obviously lying!

"Hey, Huang Zitao, have you never, never thought about this?" Jin Zhongren stared at him carefully, "It's okay if you don't think about it, Wu Yifan's feelings for you can be seen even by a blind person. Can't feel it? Or..."

"Zhong Ren..." Interrupting Jin Zhongren's words, Tao looked at the ground, his eyelashes drooping like small brushes, "Zhong Ren, for a person who is more important to you, the more you don't have the heart to hurt him, the more you will change." The more cowardly you get..."

"..."

"So cowardly... I don't even want to know the truth. If everyone can live without pain, it's okay to live in a blur."

The panda raised its head and gave him a big smile, its eyes sparkled like beautiful crystals.

"I thought……"

I thought you were so stupid that you really didn't think about anything. When did you think so much?How long have you been struggling?Are you not the black and white type?Living in such a blur must be... very uncomfortable, right?

"But, Zhong Ren, no matter what we have experienced, we are all a group, I will definitely... definitely try my best to maintain the relationship that we fought together, and it will definitely not affect..."

"You think I care about that, fool?"

"..."

Jin Zhongren frowned, what happened to that little chicken called "Huang Zitao"?Think you're blaming him?I obviously feel distressed, okay?

"What about you? Regardless of what will happen to our team, are you okay? Why don't you take care of your own mood when something like this happens?"

"...I, I'm fine."

It's okay, it's okay, is that your catchphrase?Jin Zhongren was about to go crazy, how could he tell this person to protect himself?It is because of Huang Zitao's behavior that he thinks about others first, as if nothing happens to him, so he is so worried all day long!Please recognize the reality, okay?You are a panda, not Iron Man!

"Huang Zitao!" Zhong Ren held Tao's hand tightly, and his deep and firm voice hit Huang Zitao's heart in the night wind. He looked into Tao's eyes and said to him, "You should never get hurt! Or... Just stay by my side obediently."

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