Slag Gong Love History

"Zhou Zhuchen, do you know... Liang Yu is simply the biggest bastard in the world! I have never seen such a fucking person in my life!"

are you sure?Zhou Zhuchen thought silently, have you never looked in the mirror?

"The last time I saw him, do you know what he said after sleeping? He said he never loved me, that he thought I was annoying, cheap and crazy. I don't want to sleep with a dead gay like me again!"

"Although I feel very hurt, I also feel that I will die in peace. Because I am really annoying, cheap and crazy, what he said is right, what can I do?"

"..."

"He has said such cruel words, of course I believe it! I have always believed what he said from before! But now what is going on when he named his daughter that kind of name?"

"He still has the face to say that he wants to go to Qinggang... Said that he always wanted to go when he was young? He was willing to admit to a little girl who didn't understand that he wanted to go. Why did I refuse to admit it to me? I sent him back then. When he was talking about that book, he still said I was childish! When I asked him where he put it, he said he had already thrown it away!"

"I'm naive, I admit it. Oh, but Liang Yu, you were too fucking mature back then, weren't you?!"

"It's only high school, and we were only in high school at that time! But as early as that time, your life trajectory after Young Master Liang was fully planned, right? Find a woman, get married and have children, and live an ordinary life. His mother has thought about it since then! Everything has been thought out!"

"..."

"If... If you just don't like me, if you just can't accept men, then I admit it."

"If that's the case, I'll admit it! I deserve it because I'm a man and he's a straight man. He can't like me, so what can I do?"

"But what is this now?! It means that he still liked me at the beginning? He liked me but treated me like that? I cried and begged him and he ignored me. He didn't care if I wanted to die or live. What have I lived for so many years? He doesn't care about the ghostly appearance! I followed the route I had planned long ago to marry a girl from a rich family and have a child to embark on an official career. Awesome! What a rigorous way of thinking this is! I really admire it!"

Xiao Hao laughed, the sound of laughter was desolate, and finally covered his forehead with his hands through his messy hair, and finally began to cry with his head in his arms.

"Why... I don't understand, why didn't he choose me?"

"I loved him so much at that time. If he was willing to be with me, I would never let him down! How much did I want to be with him for the rest of my life? If he was willing to stay by my side, I didn't care what I suffered Such a grievance will definitely not let him suffer the slightest grievance!"

"I can be good to him for the rest of my life! I love him so much, I can give him everything that woman can give him! I even have the conditions to give him more and better things! But why is he unwilling? Believe me? Why don’t you even give me the possibility of at least giving it a try?”

"Why can't I do it with him... What else can I do, how can I make him believe me at that time? I don't understand. Zhou Zhuchen, I don't understand!"

Zhou Zhuchen patted him on the back lightly.

The world is big, everyone is born different, and everyone's trajectory is destined to be different.Some people can burn unrestrained and enthusiastic souls all the time, while others are naturally restrained and cautious.

You can never know what kind of reasons and trade-offs other people's choices are based on.So Xiao Hao may never know what high school, Xiao Hao, and Qinggang mean in Liang Yu's heart.

So, with eternal pain and unwillingness, that rotten relationship just rotted in the flesh, with sores and maggots.Even if you cry once, there will always be a second and a third time, no matter how you apply it to the wound like an invalid medicine, it can't relieve the pain.

That night, Xiao Hao went to Chen Du's house.

"You didn't really throw that painting away, did you?"

"Ah, I didn't throw it away! But I made a little modification to it, you don't mind?"

"Revise?"

"Yeah. The original painting was too blue, so... the whole picture is too blue. Then Lan couldn't stand it, so, so I just..."

Xiao Hao's face turned blue suddenly, and Zhou Zhuchen silently made a "you want to finish" expression to Chen Du behind his back.

"Ahhh, my fault! You, you only said that you put it in my house, but you didn't say that this painting is very important to you! I just bought new paint at that time, and on a whim, I just..."

That painting was originally about the blue sea under the sun, but under Chen Du's modification, it has already become a dreamy waterside with deep purple under the beautiful sunset light in a somewhat fantasy style.

In good conscience, Zhou Zhuchen thinks that this picture looks much better than the original one after it has been altered. The only problem is——it seems that this place has no necessary connection with the legendary "Sunny Harbor".

To make matters worse, Chen Du also happily added a pair of backs on the trestle bridge in the middle scene.They looked like a couple.

"Hey hey, don't be so angry... Look, your face is turning purple! It's really not good, I, I will pay you..."

Xiao Hao didn't say much, turned around and left.Zhou Zhuchen hurriedly chased him downstairs.

"Don't follow me!"

"Huh? I don't want to follow you either! But..." But I came with your car, okay?Chen Du's house is separated from Lao Tzu's by half Beijing, and I still expect you to drop me by the way.

"I'm not going back today, you can take a taxi and go by yourself," Xiao Hao said calmly, "I'm going to Qinggang."

"What?"

"I'm going to Sunny Harbor, right now."

Zhou Zhuchen immediately felt the "deep sense of powerlessness" that Cheng Qi said.

"I said Xiao Hao, are you still finished?! Qinggang Qinggang, when will you let go of that place?!"

"It's never over." Xiao Hao sneered: "It's never over! This life is never over!"

……

There was a traffic jam in Beijing that day, Xiao Hao waited until midnight to get out of the city, and then navigated the wrong way, driving for five or six hours until it was almost dawn before arriving at that place.

Parking the car on the beach where the old fishing boats were thrown, he got out of the car exhausted after a sleepless night, and looked at the scenery that was about to dawn in front of him, wondering if he was still in a dream.

Because he saw Liang Yu standing by the sea.

Under the sky that had just turned white, there was a mixture of the deep purple painted by Chen Du and the blue sea water nearby that looked like patoite.On the withered yellow lonely trestle bridge, a thin figure in a thin windbreaker standing at the end of the bridge is quietly looking at the reddish sun that slightly rises in the sea and sky.

This is a scene that Xiao Hao can only see in his dreams.

So he just stood quietly on the beach, not taking a step forward.

The sound of strong wind passed by my ears, and my heart throbbed dryly.

in case……

If this moment can be eternal, I think I would like to stand here for the rest of my life.

Even if you can never get close to this painting—if you can not destroy its beauty, you can let it be immersed in such a dreamy blue under the morning glow, and freeze your figure here forever.

And I, just standing in the distance and watching, see that the world is old.

Xiao Hao didn't know how long he stood there, it seemed to be a long time, and it seemed to be only a moment.The wind around me began to change from cold to warm, and the starry sky above my head, which was still scattered with courseware, also disappeared under the brilliance of the rising sun. The bright brilliance of the east dispelled the eternal night and endless cold, making the All living things have found a glimmer of sweet hope.

The person in the scroll slowly turned his head.He walked back step by step along the lonely trestle bridge.

Xiao Hao actually knew that it wasn't Liang Yu when he turned around.

Although that person's outline, figure, and even his cool demeanor, in this twilight world, there was nowhere that did not look like Liang Yu.

It couldn't be Liang Yu.

Liang Yu should have just woken up right now, maybe he was squeezing toothpaste and brushing his teeth, maybe he just turned off the alarm and was about to go back to sleep, or maybe he was having breakfast happily with his wife and daughter.In that not-so-prosperous small city, the sun shines through the windows into the bright living room.

Until that person was close in front of his eyes, Xiao Hao still didn't even have the slightest intention of being moved.The mocking voice that had always existed in his mind still echoed softly and critically at this moment.

He will be here... Sure enough, he loves you more than you thought, right?

Those quarrels and scoldings are really just a mask that he puts on so he doesn't want you to know how deep he has fallen.Facing this person, you can simply sit back and relax...

As long as you hook your fingers, he will come back to you.

But then, what are you going to do with him?

He is not Liang Yu, and he will never be.He is not like Liang Yu at all.You've known every minute of the years you've been with him.

With him, you're not even chasing shadows of the past.You just want to conquer someone who is similar to Liang Yu - but the real Liang Yu will never be conquered by you.

……

It doesn't matter if it's a substitute or not, anyway, from the very beginning, you don't want to love this person from the bottom of your heart.

Perhaps you have ever thought about falling in love with Chen Du, Wei Yang, and anyone who is willing to approach you.Only him, you have been resisting him from the bottom of your heart.

What are you... afraid of?

A mess of thoughts occupied Xiao Hao's mind.But in the next second, he was suddenly hugged, his body was pressed against the other's temperature, and he trembled.

"..."

Before this, Xiao Hao didn't feel that the early morning by the sea was bitingly cold.It wasn't until the sudden warmth made his eyes foggy that he realized how horribly happy it was to be able to suddenly have such warmth.

The annoying voice in my head suddenly disappeared.

There is silence between heaven and earth, only the warm embrace that wraps itself, which is extremely real.

There was no earthquake, no tsunami, not even a breeze between the sky and the earth at the moment.However, there was an inexplicable feeling of sinking rapidly, which made Xiao Hao feel extremely frightened.

He could only hold on to that person tightly.Feeling the temperature he brought, feeling the sense of support he brought, let myself slowly return to the calm ground.

That day, the two spent a day at the beach together.Cheng Qi took Xiao Hao's hand, walked through the winding streets of the seaside fishing village, ate cheap and delicious seafood in the small restaurant on the street corner, and sat on the beach watching the sea.

On that day, Xiao Hao looked like a shy bride in a trance.Cheng Qi held his hand by the sea, and it seemed that it was the first time that he clearly felt the pulse of his heart from his palm.

That night, in a small hotel by the sea, the two made love frantically.

It seems that I want to make up for everything I missed these days.