Slag Gong Love History

"Xiao Hao seems to be in a bad mood recently." In the cafe, Zhou Zhuchen stirred the expensive coffee: "You went back to Beijing specially for him, didn't you plan to just lose your temper and never talk to him again? "

"In your eyes...does the whole situation look like I'm having a tantrum with him?"

Zhou Zhuchen frowned, not understanding what Cheng Qi meant.

"Actually, I'm really...really powerless. Zhou Zhuchen...you really don't understand this feeling?"

Cheng Qi smiled wryly, propping up his forehead with one hand.

"I really racked my brains...I can't think of any way. He is obviously there, and I can feel that my hand is only an inch away from him. It's very close. It's so close but it's just out of reach. Him! I can see that he still harbors old wounds from the past, but in fact, as long as I can pull him into my arms, I am confident that I can heal his previous torture..."

"However, no matter how hard we try, we are still a little bit short."

"I don't know what to do anymore."

"He didn't let me touch him at all, not to mention the wound, he just protected himself completely and didn't let me have a chance to touch any part of him at all! I tried desperately to find even a slight gap. I tried my best, but I couldn't find it, I couldn't find any breakthrough!"

"What should I do if this continues? Zhou Zhuchen, can you tell me what to do? No matter how close I get, even if it's only a centimeter by a millimeter, I still can't touch him in the end! Then the result is destined to be the same! One day he will suddenly wake up from his dream and find that I am just a stranger lying next to him all day. Between us, it will always stop here."

"So, what the hell am I supposed to do?"

what to do?you ask me?

Zhou Zhuchen felt that it was ironic to really ask himself this question - because if I knew, I would have reached out to save him long ago.

It was because it was very clear from the very beginning that Xiao Hao was too difficult to save, it was simply an impossible task, and it was very likely that after everything was involved, he would be stripped of his bones and discarded like a shoe. I have been standing on the shore helpless and anxious.

"Actually, I... don't want to quarrel with him at all, but I can't do it if I don't. Because if I don't... we will be like that, and it will be completely the same as last time."

"Every time I fight with him, I'm actually scared to death, you know? Because after such a quarrel, I absolutely can't go to him - as long as he finds out that I really don't want to lose him, I'm completely finished ; but if I don't go to him, as long as he doesn't come to me again, we will really break up."

"I don't want to break up at all."

"Whether it's now or before—" Cheng Qi's eyes were red: "It's impossible for him to know how I lived the past few years."

"However, no matter how much I don't want to break up, even if my desire to see him is so uncontrollable that I have to flee the city, I absolutely cannot ask him. If he doesn't keep me, I can only silently lose; even if he Even if you beg me for mercy, I can't be ecstatic."

"Actually, I also know that maybe there is no need to be so serious."

"If it's someone else, it really doesn't matter who bows first. But because the other party is Xiao Hao, I can't; because it's Xiao Hao, I can't back down!"

"Because falling in love with someone like him is like standing on the edge of a cliff at any time, and if you take a step back, you will fall into the abyss."

"So, where I stand now is my last stand."

"Because I know that Xiao Hao is that kind of person—it's hard to say whether he is a masochist, but he is the type who is absolutely arrogant. Once he sees that I can compromise or retreat, he will win, and he will definitely win from now on. Relying on the fact that I can't leave him, I continue to trample on my bottom line recklessly."

"But things like the bottom line, once trampled on, will always be trampled on."

"So I will never let him do whatever he wants, and I won't let him wantonly look down on me, and then enter into the vicious circle where he does whatever he wants like other people, and finally ruin this relationship again."

"He doesn't want to show me his sincerity, and I can't be in a hurry, just spend time with him like this."

"Maybe this will be an endless rally, maybe I will walk on thin ice everywhere, and I will fall short in the end. But it doesn't matter. Love is a gamble, and I believe him, so I spend endless time and I am willing to give everything to gamble with him , willing to bet and admit defeat."

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To be honest, Zhou Zhuchen lived with Cheng Qi for three years and thought he knew him well.

However, he still found himself underestimating the determination of that person, which was firmly rooted in his flesh and blood under his plain appearance.

"It shouldn't be like this for everyone... I used to always feel that I looked down on everything. I never thought that I would become such a person one day."

"It's just because that person is Xiao Hao. It's just because I am very sure that he is the one in my life'', an existence that no one can replace."

……

"Well, I invited Xiao Cheng to the bar at night, and lied to him that you were not there. Do you remember to come when the time comes?"

"What?" Xiao Hao glanced at Zhou Zhuchen: "Who the hell let you meddle in our affairs?"

Zhou Zhuchen froze for a moment, and quickly regained his composure.Anyway, it wasn't the first time or twice that he was bitten by Xiao Hao's side anyway in his life.

So you pester me like that every day, don't you mean you want me to help? !

"So... aren't you coming?"

Since you didn't mean to ask me to help me, don't be too affectionate.

"Whoever comes is a dog! Hmph! If he wants to beg me to reconcile, it's okay, come and tell me straight! I went to him once before, and this time he came to me by himself! You are so stupid Middleman? Nope!"

"Oh……"

However, at seven or eight o'clock in the evening, the pipedream bar was still gorgeously welcoming the owner who was always on the lookout.

"What about people?"

"Who?" Zhou Zhuchen on the platform looked stunned.

"Who are you talking about! Didn't you say he was coming?"

"Uh... Didn't you say who will be the puppy?"

"I just happened to be passing by!"

"Oh, because you said you wouldn't come, so I told him in the afternoon to make an appointment another day. Otherwise, I'll help you make an appointment tomorrow night?"

"No need!" Xiao Hao viciously hugged a beautiful boy who came to play, and immediately put on a sweet smirk: "I said, how about playing with brother tonight?"

"Hey, shopkeeper, don't you want to take care of your wife today, huh?"

"My wife is dead! Looking for a new one! I think you are fine!"

Zhou Zhuchen has ten thousand horses in his heart.That night, Xiao Hao seemed to be having a great time.

However, this joy did not last for a few hours.

The next day, Zha Gong was extremely happy and sad and caught a cold.Nested on the hospital bed without arrogance, in the afternoon when he developed a low-grade fever, he began to babble by himself, mostly talking about how heartless Cheng Qi was.

"What? You know you miss someone when you're weak? You know you're sad?" Zhou Zhuchen had a mocking face.

"Is there anything wrong with me being sad?! You can yell twice if you lose a dog!"

"Uh, apart from Liang Yu, I've never seen you depressed for even a minute after breaking up."

"I'm old now!" Xiao Hao roared, "Is it normal to be sentimental when I'm old?!"

"Look at your worthless appearance! How hard is it to beg him again?"

"No! It's obvious that he is making trouble for no reason, so why do you always let me beg him?! And you figure it out, we didn't break up, okay! Anyway, after a while, that guy will not be able to hold back. What am I afraid of? !"

"You can't tell," Zhou Zhuchen looked at him, "If Xiao Cheng is really disappointed in you, maybe he left again?"

"Who cares to go away! I will find someone better than him every minute, believe it or not?"

……

That summer, Zhou Zhuchen counted the days when Xiao Kong would return from vacation with bliss, while Xiao Hao, who was struggling, continued to secretly poke and maintain the state that he and Cheng Qi didn't know whether it was a cold war or a breakup.

The elementary school students' summer vacation is the first to arrive.Xiao Hao's cousin said that she brought her little nephew to Beijing to play, but in fact she simply left her son with Xiao Hao, and she went to the street to buy clothes every day, leaving early and returning home late.

"Xiaohuan, is your girlfriend Xiaoqing still together?"

Xiao Hao, who has absolutely no experience in raising babies, was tossed and tossed terribly by the energetic elementary school students in those few days.

"Of course, we love each other! We are in the same class now!"

The child swooped on Xiao Hao who was lying down, and almost pushed his uncle's lunch out of his stomach.

"From now on, we will be in the same class in junior high school, high school, and university!" He stretched out his little hand and patted Xiao Hao's shoulder like a kid: "Little uncle, you have to be more confident! Don't be like last time and follow my future father-in-law." Can't make it through!"

"You..." If you won't complain to your mother, I really want to beat you up.

"Speaking of which, your little girlfriend is called 'Liang Qing', right? I always thought his father was quite educated, but what is the name? The blue-colored one is called 'Liang Lan' 'Liang Lu' sounds better!"

"Hey? Uncle, you made a mistake! It's not cyan, it's 'Qing' from 'Sunny'! It's 'Liang Qing', not 'Liang Qing'!"

"..."

"Xiaoqing told me that her name was given by her father. It's a place name. It's called Qing or something... It's a small town by the sea anyway! Xiaoqing said it was the place her father always wanted to go to when he was young. They also have a book at home, which is a collection of photos from that place, and Xiaoqing secretly showed it to me!"

"..."

"Hey! Uncle! Uncle? What's the matter with you? Why are you in a daze?"

"Uncle, why are you crying?"

"Uh, uncle... are you okay?"

Xiao Hao also didn't want to be so ashamed to cry in front of such an uncute child.But the sunshine that day happened to be very good. Through the glass, it was like the brilliance that shone into the classroom when I was 16 years old.So the tears burst down the embankment like that, completely uncontrollable.

That night, he went to the seaside town of his dreams again in his dream.

The sky over there was unusually blue.