old love [rebirth]

Chen Lou asked himself more than once, what is the meaning of your rebirth?

Is it to correct the mistakes of the previous life one by one and re-enter the pinnacle of life?Get the career you want and stand on a height that you have never had before?Or is it to completely get rid of the relationship with Guan Yu and stop torturing each other?

He often asked, but did not dare to think.Because every time in his mind, there will always be another voice, asking with a sneer: "What if there is no rebirth?"

What if there is no regeneration?

What if rebirth was just a dream?What if this rebirth could end at any moment, and you end up going back in time?

Then Chen Lou, are you a loser?

Was your last life so bad?

Is it because of Guan Yu that you feel unsustainable in such a bad moment?

Chen Lou didn't dare to think about it.

These years have been smooth sailing for him. He was successful in his studies at a young age. He was favored by teachers and promoted by noble people. He went abroad for further study and traveled to Africa. However, in just a few years, he returned to school again and was able to speak as an alumnus speech.

Even before speaking at the school celebration, some juniors in the audience complimented: "Senior Chen is our role model, and I will strive to be such a person as senior in the future." Chen Lou smiled at the time, but still couldn't hide his complacency and said: "Your other seniors are also doing well. I'm still a nerd who just graduated, and I haven't saved much money."

The younger brother said: "Others, like Senior Guan? Although Senior Guan has a lot of money, who is willing to go to Africa? Although they are all self-made successful people, there are still differences in the quality of success." He didn't speak any more, but he vaguely agreed in his heart.

Compared with Guan Yu, and even compared with most of his peers, his achievements are enviable.Even if he can form a partner with a young talent like Jiang You again, then all the wishes he made in the Sanqing Temple will be fulfilled one by one.

He still remembers to this day that he was standing on that gray hilltop, rubbing and rubbing against the stone statues of the three Daoist masters, and made a wish: Keep Guan Yuli away from me, and don't call me again.It is best to pass the postgraduate entrance examination smoothly.Of course, it would be better to have a little fresh meat.

He even promised that after all this is accomplished in the future, he will go back and reshape the bronze bodies for the three Taoist masters—now the bronze bodies have not yet been molded, but his wishes have come true one by one, smoothly and naturally .All his bad luck and failures ended in the summer when he and Guan Yu parted ways, and the slightly humble request and his stern accusation at that time also became the last silhouette in his mind.

So far, he has never looked back.

Afterwards, Chen Lou and Jiang You went out twice, and a friend tried to persuade him to drink, Jiang You really stretched out his hand to block it, using the excuse that Chen Lou was allergic.The group shifted their targets to vent their anger, but he didn't insist. He held the car keys with a smile and asked his friends who would be willing to send him into the classroom.

Jiang You is a person who is very principled but well-versed in the world. He seldom embarrasses others, but his actual actions often make others voluntarily give in.Chen Lou sighed that he was inferior in this regard, and when he said goodbye to the other party that night, he also said his plan.

Sure enough, Jiang You readily agreed, just glanced at him and said with a smile: "Don't praise me for having a high EQ. What's the use of others making concessions to me? You don't mention anything to me like a saw-mouthed gourd."

Chen Lou made him look a little guilty, and said sincerely: "I just spent a few days alone to relax. I figured it out, and I will tell you what I need to tell you. Now I don't hide it deliberately, but I don't want to hide it myself. know what to say."

Seeing that he was serious, Jiang You hurriedly said: "It should be, this is your freedom, just take it as a little complaint from me..." He saw Chen Lou smiled, and said with a smile: "You don't want to talk to me. Said that we will not be able to see each other for a few days."

Chen Lou didn't understand, so Jiang You said helplessly: "Didn't our foundation just participate in a charitable medical aid in City Q, and now we are about to sign a contract, and the other party asked to meet me alone. I may have to travel for two or three days .”

Chen Lou breathed a sigh of relief silently, and then heard Jiang You say, "But we've come to this point, the problem shouldn't be too big. You should relax yourself these few days. Whenever you want to contact me, you can call me after nine o'clock in the evening." I'll definitely answer the phone then."

Chen Lou pondered for a moment, then blessed: "I wish you success."

Jiang You nodded, and when he turned to leave, he paused, reached out and touched the tip of his nose, and said with a smile, "I'll wait for your news."

Jiang You’s flight at noon the next day coincided with Teacher Gao’s admission to the hospital for the first round of chemotherapy, so Chen Lou went to help pick up the elders early in the morning, and completed the admission procedures with Jiang You. When the teacher was buying gloves, Jiang You was called by the doctor to learn about the chemotherapy plan. Chen Lou took a look in the doctor's office at that time, and when he came back after buying the gloves, it was already empty.

Jiang You's footsteps were hurried and it was too late to say goodbye, Chen Lou felt lost for a while, got up and went to Sanqing Temple.

The current generation of Sanqing Mountain has been planned, and the scenery along the way is almost the same as that of the previous life.Chen Lou even saw the small garden in his previous life, but it was the end of spring at that time, but now it is early autumn.After the peony bloomed, it was probably cleared out by the owner, and now there is a small rose in the garden.

Chen Lou asked the master to drive all the way to the entrance of the Taoist temple, but he didn't go to the place where tourists gathered. He only bought a few tributes, and after placing them respectfully, he went straight to the main hall to find the temple master.Chen Lou came here this time to fulfill his wish, but the current Taoist priest was changed to a golden statue when the Taoist temple was rebuilt, and the bronze body he promised at that time may not be used, so he wanted to donate some items to the Taoist temple .

Who knew that the temple master was not there, so he went to find the on-duty hall master of the main hall, and was told that the hall master had just left the house.The breeze in the mountains was cool and comfortable, and Chen Lou had nothing else to do today, so he simply told the people in the main hall, wandered along the path of the Taoist temple, and waited.The Taoist temple itself was built according to the situation of the mountain. Later, when it was rebuilt, the nearby residents were very unanimous. They donated a cultural and health garden behind the Taoist temple. Tourists rest there.

Chen Lou found a shady place to sit down, and just took a breath when he felt someone squeeze him.

He turned his head to look at the man, and was stunned for a moment.

It turned out to be a monk with a fleshy face. He was wearing a loose yellow robe, which was not dirty, with a bundle on his arm, and crossed sneakers on his feet. Seeing Chen Lou looking at him, he immediately frowned. He turned his head drooping.

Chen Lou: "..." Why is this monk, who doesn't seem easy to mess with, so shy?

He paused for a moment, then felt that something was wrong, turned his face to look at the monk's fleshy face, and then looked at the scar on the other's forehead, no matter how familiar he looked.

The monk felt uncomfortable when he saw him, coughed and shouted in a muffled voice: "The benefactor——"

As soon as the words were finished, Chen Lou was stunned for a moment, and suddenly remembered - isn't this the old liar at the entrance of their hospital?

Oh no, to be precise, he was the worst fortune teller among the many fortune tellers at the gate of Taishan Hospital.Chen Loushang had become acquainted with these people when he was working in the hospital. Generally speaking, there were not many fortune-tellers at the entrance of the hospital, and most of them had signboards saying "calculate characters and get names".

This is where the old liar became famous at the time. At that time, there was a family of five escorting their daughter-in-law to expect childbirth. It turned out to be a boy.The family believed in this at first, but when they saw that the birthday was special, they became very nervous, so the whole group went to find a fortune teller to get a name.

It was the old liar I was looking for.What the old liar said at the time was very clear, Balabala talked about the stems and earth, the five elements and the gossip, and finally said that the child's five elements are short of water, so a single name is enough.Keep him safe and sound in the future, and there will be no disasters.

The family was grateful to Dade and paid the 666 naming fee.

However, this matter did not end. The child was congenitally weak and had jaundice. After returning home, he always cried and had a fever. Remembered the old liar.With a thought, she came to the stall of the old liar this time, but she didn't say she knew her, she just told the master to show her grandson's date of birth and name.

The old liar thought that another big fish had been hooked, so he slapped his thigh and shouted: "This name is inauspicious! It is a sign of a catastrophe!"

The child's grandma jumped up violently, lifted the bricks he was pressing down on the stall, and threw them over with curses...

When Chen Lou passed by from get off work, the child's grandma had already left. The old liar's head and arms were covered in blood, and his money was also looted. He was curled up on the ground holding back tears.Chen Lou softened his heart for a moment and took him back to the hospital...

Counting the time, the Qixi Festival in this life has already passed, and I don't know if the old liar was beaten badly this time?And who sent him to the hospital?

Since Chen Lou was reborn, he only felt that the farther away from the past life, the better, but now he suddenly felt a little nostalgic.Thinking of this, he couldn't help but sighed, and simply got up, giving up that spot.

Unexpectedly, just after sitting down for a while, the "monk" followed him again.

Chen Lou: "..." He just remembered now, the other party is using himself as a target customer?

Sure enough, the "monk" sat down next to him again, held out an alms bowl in a dignified manner, and said, "Benefactor, you are destined to be with me!"

Chen Lou nodded with a smile and said, "It's a predestined relationship."

The old "monk" was not strong enough, and his eyes suddenly lit up.Chen Lou thought for a while about the common tricks before, and suppressed a smile in his heart, but said with an extremely serious face: "I've been troubled by something recently, and I don't know if the master can explain it to me?"

The other party nodded like pounding garlic.

Chen Lou said again, "But I only have ten yuan with me."

"..." The old monk glanced sideways, thought for a while, and said, "Then draw a lot, ten yuan for the lottery, and fifty yuan for the solution."

There was still no movement in the main hall, Chen Lou was free and had nothing to do, so he really took the lottery and shook it twice.Not long after, a stick fell to the ground, and Chen Lou went to pick it up, but the old monk had already picked it up in his hand.

Chen Lou: "..." Are you afraid that he won't give you money?

Chen Lou took out the ten yuan from his pocket, and seeing the old monk looking at his pocket with sly eyebrows, he clicked his tongue and said, "Master, monks don't lie, if I give you the money, will you sign it for me?"

The old monk smiled: "Of course." After speaking, according to the signature, he took out a small ball of paper from his side pocket.

The handwriting in the paper ball is very delicate, it is a small short sentence: "The circle is short, the short is round, the low and the dense must be mixed, and the time comes and the fate is seen."

There is a note in the upper left corner: sign under.

Chen Lou laughed, balled up the note, and threw it directly into the old monk's arms.

He just noticed that this old liar's nature is hard to change. Just now he saw that he had the whole money in his pocket, so when he handed the lottery container, he moved his right hand.

Sure enough, the old monk was shocked and shouted: "Place the lottery, benefactor, you have to pay attention."

Chen Lou said, "What are you paying attention to? Do you notice that your lottery is filled with lots?" Seeing that the other party was stunned for a moment, his eyes were about to roll away, and he frowned and said, "What can you do? You must be fooling around. Haven’t you heard of karma in the business of people? What’s more, it’s not easy to earn money, right?”

Old monk: "..."

"It's not easy to make money," said the old monk, "There's no place to go. The scenery here is good, and there are not many repeat customers. You can fool one by one."

Is this a long experience?

However, looking down from this Taoist temple, you can see the clouds in the distance, and the surrounding green mountains and green waters. It is indeed a good place to enjoy the scenery.

"Then how many times have you fooled?" Chen Lou asked, "Is anyone really fooled?"

"Three or four." The old monk rolled up his monk's robe, sat on the steps with his legs curled up, squinting his eyes and said, "Aren't all of them as stingy as you, and the least is fifty." He paused , maybe it was boring, and sighed: "I've been like this all my life... Hey, it's because I didn't have experience back then..."

He didn't say what his experience was for, and Chen Lou didn't want to ask.The two sat side by side for a while, the old monk was bored, and while talking about what to do in his next life, he waved a sign out with his hands.The two words at the beginning of the signature are "Dingbo".

Chen Lou glanced at it and was immediately happy.This guy forgot to change the sign, and he also signed the next sign.He smiled and said, "How is it? What did the sign say?"

"Ha," the other party finished reading it carefully, but curled his lips after reading it and said, "He said I deserve what I deserve, and I can't blame others."

He said it casually, and Chen Lou also thought it was reasonable and funny, but he just pulled the corner of his mouth, only to find that his face was numb.

That day he sat around until very late, and neither the master nor the master of the Taoist temple came back. In the end, he had to go home first. , transshipment and other businesses, the mobile phone number is written below.

Chen Lou didn't take it to heart, took a shower after returning to the hotel, but felt bored again.

This day he was busy in vain, he still hadn't fulfilled his wish, and he didn't talk about how to let go of the past when he wanted to ask the temple master for advice.Jiang You was still waiting for his news, but he was having an inexplicable awkwardness with himself.Thinking of this made me a little irritable, and I sat in front of the French window for a long while, my heart fluttered, and I thought of the old liar again.

He remembered that after taking the old liar to the hospital in his previous life, he returned home with half of his body covered in blood, frightening Guan Yu who was waiting for him to get off work at the gate of the community.At that time, when he saw Guan Yu's figure from a distance, he felt irritable. He felt that this person was a supervisor at fixed times, so he often deliberately delayed on the road, either to detour to buy something he wanted to buy, or to work for a colleague, or to take the bus. When I was in the car, I sat for a few stops and then came back.

Guan Yu seldom uttered a word. Every time he saw him walking home from the intersection, he would smile and wave at him. Only that time, before he frowned impatiently, he heard a sharp brake on the road...Okay Guan Yu ran over fast enough, and the owner of the car was also skilled, otherwise they would never have been scolded that day.

Chen Lou remembers having dinner with a few seniors when he was abroad, and everyone booed and told the truth, and said the answer within three seconds, otherwise they would have to drink and admit punishment.

Everyone is far away from home, and it is not embarrassing to talk about their privacy.When it was Chen Lou's turn, the moderator asked: Do you regret breaking up with your ex?

Chen Loudao: I don't regret it.

The other party asked again: After leaving him, are you happy?

The others protested that the senior brother was biased and asked such an innocent question.Only Chen Lou was there in a daze, and drank the first glass of wine at the party after a while.

Memories are not a comfortable thing, because once it starts, it is difficult to end, and as the person involved, he will deliberately favor himself subjectively, but intellectually knows right from wrong.

It's like an old liar asking for a lottery. What he thinks about in the next life is good luck, wealth and prosperity, but he also knows all the experiences in this life in his heart, and he can't blame others.

Half an hour later, Chen Lou ordered a drink from the hotel, turned off his mobile phone, didn't use a decanter, and only barefooted, drinking from a bottle while looking at the lights of Wanjia outside.

After a few sips, his head became a little dizzy, but Chen Lou didn't stop, took another sip, and only pressed his hot forehead against the glass window. A layer of moisture.

He remembered the night before he was reborn, he and Guan Yu had a meaningless quarrel, the lights were turned on one after another in the opposite building, and the children were crying in the distance.

He thought of his occasional outbursts of anger in the last two years, Guan Yu's blank eyes.

He thought of the bottle of ketchup that was smashed on the refrigerator, Guan Yu's back silently bending over to wipe it.

He remembered that evening, when Guan Yu hurried to find him with two Carrefour bags, he was knocked to the ground, and the sun apricots bounced away one by one...

Drinking in sorrow, but sanity became more and more clear, and the old liar's phrase "I can't blame others for my bad life" was repeated in my mind.Chen Lou finally couldn't bear to ask again——Chen Lou, were you a loser in your last life?Are you living so badly?Are all your failures because of Guan Yu?

He didn't dare to think about it before, and he didn't dare to answer it, but suddenly he thought of Guan Yu's question - do you think I love him more than I love you?

The smell of alcohol came back little by little, and Chen Lou suddenly leaned against the window and started laughing until his eyes became moist and his chest felt tight.

Although he and Guan Yu were not named as husband and wife, they fell in love when they were young and shared joys and sorrows. They have been together for seven years. Later, because of the ex-matters, a rift gradually developed, and Guan Yu was wronged. He always occupied the moral high ground.But he also had to admit that during the two years of getting along with each other, he had been deliberately magnifying the other party's shortcomings and mistakes, and he was bored, so that the family was cold and cold, and Guan Yu was often treated harshly by him after get off work, and suffered a lot. torment.

When this life was broken, he still only singled out Guan Yu's faults and blamed all the misfortunes in his previous life on the other party - he was the one who was sad and suffering, he was the one who was worried about gains and losses, the work was not going well because of him, and the interpersonal relationships He is also to blame for the poor management of the relationship.Guan Yu never refuted, just like the previous life, he passively endured, but didn't want to let go.

Blaming all our problems and sins on others always brings us better relief.

However, Chen Lou had to admit that Guan Yu's question "If I don't make the same mistakes as last time in this life, can you reconcile with me?" His answer from the bottom of his heart was: You have forgiven me, and I have forgiven you too. Ashamed.

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The phone lay quietly for a few days, but Jiang You never received an answer from Chen Lou.He unconsciously began to panic, but there was no other way to inquire.In addition, what made him even more anxious was that the charity medical project in Qing (q) City was about to start, and the organizer made another excessive request of them.

The reason why Jiang You chose such a partial rescue activity was because he took a fancy to the government resources this time.The project was led by the Western Medical Project Office of the Ministry of Health, and the organizer was designated as Qingshi Medical University, and the coordination with the district and county health bureaus was still directly in charge of the city bureau.

Jiang You has worked hard to participate in this project, but the idea is that after the completion of this project, the social rating of Chunyu Foundation will definitely improve a lot, and the income tax exemption alone will save a lot of money.It’s just that this kind of non-existent thing is not what everyone is willing to do. Jiang You got the overseas Chinese, but he didn’t expect that the Qingshi Municipal Government would not like them to participate—they checked, and the total expenditure of the Spring Rain Foundation last year was 820w, which contains at least ten items.And the source of donations for this foundation is also very limited, only a few young entrepreneurs in C city.

The amount of donations is not large, the sources of charitable funds are unstable, and the project cycle of medical assistance is long. It is difficult for anyone to guarantee that there will be no mistakes in the middle.Qingshi wanted to refuse, but also didn't want to refute the overseas Chinese's face, so he gave Jiang You a compromise—hoping that Chunyu Foundation could try to get Tunghai University to cooperate with Qingshi Medical University.

Jiang You rushed over excitedly at the beginning, saying that he did not expect such a situation.He knew the intention of the other party - such a big project would inevitably be widely publicized through the domestic mass media and newspapers and magazines. Others of the five major projects were easy to talk about, but the "Medical Poverty Alleviation Training Program", which was shot at the top, was a bit ugly.Because Qingshi Medical University, which is in charge of the training program, is only a B-rank institution.

Qingshi wanted to be more beautiful, but he didn't want to share his achievements with other cities, so he went far and wide, and fell in love with Donghai University in city C where Jiang You was.Although the Department of Medicine of Dongda University was established a few years ago, it is one of the 24 A-level institutions after all. If Jiang You can promote the cooperation between the two institutions, then Qingshi will reap the benefits. If Jiang You can't do it , then what they reject is also high-sounding.

Jiang You struggled with the officials here for a few days, but there was no progress. In the end, he had to report the situation to Guan Yu truthfully, but Guan Yu said, "I'll talk about the school affairs, but you have to make conditions with them."

Jiang You asked: "What conditions?"

"The University of Southeast Asia will only send administrative representatives, and the in-service professors will not participate in any of their training courses."

Jiang You thought for a while and said, "I'll talk about it. But isn't it too good that there wasn't even a doctor representative at the project kick-off meeting?"

"This can be a special guest invited by the foundation." Guan Yu paused, and then said suggestively: "In fact, participating in charity work is beneficial to the evaluation of professional titles, so there is one more thing to add, our special guest must be published in the newspaper."

Jiang You suddenly thought of something, his heart skipped a beat, and he pretended to ask calmly, "Mr. Guan, is there anyone for the special guest?"

Guan Yu was silent for a long time.

Jiang You held his breath, and finally heard the other party say: "No." Before he had time to be happy, he heard the other party add: "You can choose this person, and you can arrange the specific matters according to your own circumstances. You don't need to tell me anything."

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Two days later, the contract was successfully signed, and Qingshi's attitude changed drastically. He said that he didn't take good care of him before, and insisted on keeping Jiang You for a day, and someone specially assigned him to take Jiang You to visit several scenic spots in Qingshi.

Jiang You was relieved, and he was not in the mood to play, so he found an excuse to drive people away, and after thinking about it, he called Chen Lou.

It took a while for Chen Lou to pick it up, and his mouth was a little hoarse: "Jiang You?"

Jiang You froze for a moment, and couldn't help but ask, "Have you caught a cold?"

"Yes...not serious..." Chen Lou cleared his throat, his voice was still weak, and it felt like his vocal cords were damaged.

It was only then that Jiang You realized that Chen Lou might have been ill these few days, so he lost all romantic thoughts, picked the key things and said, "That's it, our project has been signed."

Chen Lou seemed to say congratulations in a hoarse voice.He couldn't hear clearly, and quickly stopped him: "You are already like this, take a break and stop talking, just listen to me."

It really quieted down there.Jiang You said with a smile: "The project has been signed, but because it is a medical aid project, and there are so few talents here, our foundation needs to invite a special guest to come over to support the venue. I have already talked with them, guest In addition to attending the kick-off ceremony here, you only need to participate in their first training course, which lasts for a week."

The medical poverty alleviation training opportunities are aimed at medical personnel in the following districts and counties. The original plan was to have more than 20 sessions of five days each.And if the special guest only participates in the first session, he does not need to teach the basic courses, and the total class time is only about four to five hours.

Jiang You paused at this point, guessing that Chen Lou had almost digested it, and then asked with a smile: "If the Foundation is temporarily short of manpower and asks Dr. Chen for help, I don't know what Dr. Chen would like?"

Chen Lou was trapped under the quilt of the hotel, with his eyes closed.The sequelae of being drunk that night were a bit severe, so that the headache lasted for four or five days, and it only slightly improved today.But he understood what Jiang You meant, and it was a good thing for him both in public and in private.

Chen Lou thought for a while, then hummed to express his agreement.Jiang You also talked about the specific schedule and precautions.In the end, he smiled and said that the foundation's standard business trips are all standard gold, and he planned to make a fake business trip for his own sake, arrange Chen Lou with himself, and ask Chen Lou if he would like it.

Who knew the phone fell silent.

Chen Lou knew what he should say, but when he opened his mouth a few times, he felt that the phone he was pinching was hot, which made him a little upset.

After a while, Jiang You spoke first.He was somewhat helpless, but he still said with a good manner that if he disagrees, he can exchange with others at that time, so don't be nervous.

Chen Lou also felt that he had overreacted, so he said no in a hoarse voice.

Jiang You asked about me and you, have you considered it?

Chen Lou was silent again, and after a long time he sighed, and when he was about to speak, Jiang You said with a smile, "I don't want to listen to what you said on the phone, there are still two days before the kick-off meeting, so let me have a double happiness, okay?"