old love [rebirth]

Once the weekend was over, Jiang You stepped up his offensive.

Chen Lou was a little unfamiliar with such things, so he could only try his best to learn how to cooperate.He still doesn't know how to grasp the so-called love, or the state of him and Jiang You is not in love. After all, the time they have known each other is too short, so short that he is not even a little excited. I was still hesitating in my heart.

Fortunately, Jiang You's demeanor is very good, and although the invitations are frequent, they are not so embarrassing.After a few days of getting used to it, Chen Lou gradually felt relieved.They went out to eat a few times, you come and I spend quite a lot.We also went to the park together and pressed the road a few times, and finally had dinner with Jiang You's friends.

At that dinner, Chen Lou met Jiang You's ex-boyfriend, who was knowledgeable and cheerful, and indeed very good.The others who gathered together are also Jiang You’s college classmates, who are now working hard in their respective industries, or are single or with families. The topics are very broad, from virtual technology to world politics, and then We talked about the special snacks of City C.Chen Lou occasionally participated in a sentence, which felt a little alienated, but it was not embarrassing.

A meal is a feast for the host and guest.It's just that Jiang You can't drink when he drives here, and his friends don't come at him, they just hold up a small wine cup and make a fuss at Chen Lou.Although Chen Lou was able to evade it, he didn't want Jiang You to lose face, so he took a few sips and didn't feel it when he was eating, but he felt a little dizzy when everyone was gone.

Jiang You was surprised at his low drinking capacity, seeing that he was sober at least and had no problem speaking, so he hurriedly took the car over.

It was a bit weird that the sky was dark this day, and the clouds made people feel depressed. At first, Chen Lou didn't pay attention to it, but as soon as he got into the car, he heard thunder crackling and exploding above his head, and then the bean-sized raindrops fell with a crackling sound. down.

He sobered up immediately.

Jiang You's voice sounded at the right time, and he asked him worriedly: "Are you okay?"

Chen Lou was stunned for a moment, then turned to look at him and shook his head.

Jiang You said: "I didn't know you could drink so little. If I had known earlier, I should have stopped some of them and wouldn't let you drink."

In fact, although those few friends were booing, they all had a very good attitude. They only took a small sip each time and did not force Chen Lou.

Chen Lou shook his head, lowered his eyes and said, "I should drink this wine."

Jiang You didn't speak.

Chen Loudao: "You introduced friends to me. Although the introduction was polite, your behavior and actions are very protective of me. They are all thoughtful, and they must have understood our relationship from the beginning." He said here, thinking of During the dinner, Jiang You's ex-boyfriend made a joke, turned his face and asked: "Did you rarely introduce new friends to them before?"

"...Tonight is the first time," Jiang You smiled embarrassedly and said, "I tried to talk to two people before, but as soon as I got to know it, I felt that it was not suitable, so I didn't confirm the relationship, and I didn't introduce it to my friends. Pass."

Chen Lou nodded and sighed softly: "...So, I have to drink tonight's wine. You have given me enough respect, so I naturally have to know how to protect your face." The two of them must at least pay attention to each other when they get along. Fairness and equality, Jiang You has no reason to put him first in everything, coming and going is a basic rule.

Even in other words, it was true that Jiang You regretted seeing him feel uncomfortable after drinking, but on the occasion at that time, he saw that Chen Lou didn't like drinking but smiled and held on, and his heart was also genuinely happy.

The world of adults is not too complicated, but after a deep analysis, it is unavoidably romantic.

Jiang You paused for a moment, and asked after a few seconds, "That's it?"

Chen Lou knew what he was asking, just as it was impractical for Jiang You to hold back wine for him but still made him look forward to it, Jiang You didn't want him to hold back wine because of "responsibility" rather than emotion.

Chen Lou thought for a while, pressed his forehead for a long time, and said truthfully: "...I am indeed still hesitating." Although he didn't know Jiang You's conditions, what else could he hesitate about.

In fact, he tried to say the phrase "I do" more than once. Even on the night of Jiang You's confession, he stood alone in front of the full-length mirror in the hotel and practiced a few times in a very difficult and unfamiliar way.The lights in the hotel were dim, and in the U-shaped cloakroom, Chen Lou looked at himself in the mirror with a stiff expression, and saw that his figure seemed to have lost weight, and the corridor on one side was dimly lit, half of his body Submerged in it, it looks like a lonely ghost.

The sudden fear made him stagger twice and escape from the cloakroom in a hurry, and quickly turned on all the lights in the room.The feeling of fear dissipated quickly, but what followed was an indescribable loneliness.

Whether he admits it or not, the past he has forgotten and his paranoid and crazy self make it difficult for him to start a new relationship so happily.From this point of view, in his relationship with Jiang You, he really could not escape self-blame from time to time.

The day before Mr. Gao was admitted to the hospital for chemotherapy, Jiang You asked him again and asked him if it was convenient to help Mr. Gao look at the room.They hadn't contacted each other for three days after the dinner that night, Chen Lou hesitated for a moment, and finally agreed.He carefully selected a more casual outfit, making himself look a lot more gentle, and took out a previously packed pen from the drawer, and hurried out the door this time.

Jiang You had introduced his work before, but Chen Lou didn't pay much attention to it at the time. He only knew that he was mainly managing a charitable foundation besides taking a stake in a company.Chen Lou's impression of charities is that they don't take money for nothing, so they always thought that Jiang You was at most a middle-income earner. At the beginning, he was even worried that Mr. Gao's chemotherapy expenses would not be enough, so he set aside some emergency funds.

It wasn't until today that Jiang You drove the car straight to the gate of a residential area with an elevator bungalow that he realized how naive his previous thoughts were.

When Jiang You was studying abroad, he had already partnered with someone to do an e-commerce project.In his words, the income at that time was no less than it is now, and the hourly wage income was astonishingly high, and I felt that money was not money every day.In the past two years, he sent money home a lot, but Mr. Gao didn't believe in the sugar-coated bullets of the capitalist society. He was always afraid that he would learn bad things for money outside, so he returned the money back to him repeatedly.

The idea of ​​changing the house this time has been around for a long time, but he has been busy with work in the past two years, and there is no real estate suitable for the elderly to live in, so this matter has been delayed until now.

The community of elevator bungalows is very green. All vehicles are diverted underground. Even the non-motorized lanes on the ground are separated separately, without interfering with the pedestrian road. The green plants and flowers in the community have also survived. A swing, a small deck chair, or simple fitness equipment.Even though Chen Lou had no plans to buy a house, he couldn't help but feel a little moved when he saw this community.

What Jiang You fancy is a duplex, the floor and lighting are very suitable for the two old people, but the space is too wide, with four bedrooms and two living rooms, the living room is so big that it can run a horse.Jiang You thought it was good, so he went to ask Chen Lou for his opinion.As an outsider, it is naturally inconvenient for Chen Lou to say more, but he was a little surprised and said: "If Teacher Gao and his wife live together, don't you feel empty?"

Jiang You was looking at the various documents handed over by the real estate consultant, but he couldn't help but smile when he heard this. He waited for the others to leave before he came over, took Chen Lou's hand and said, "Who said it was the two of them?" , the four of us."

The sunlight poured in unrestrainedly, haloing halos on Jiang You's eyebrows, the corners of his lips slightly raised, and he said proudly: "There are two bedrooms, one big and one small, upstairs and downstairs, which are just right for our family. Of course, don’t worry, the ceiling here is five meters eight, and the sound insulation of the compartment is quite good, so don’t worry about privacy.”

Chen Lou was taken aback when he heard that, but his heartbeat jumped a few times because of the phrase "one family". His hand moved, but he never moved back.

The pen in his pocket failed to be given away in the end. After Jiang You took him to see the house, he went to a small theater to watch a movie.This theater is small in scale, featuring more than a dozen private rooms for couples, and besides the latest blockbusters, there are also many other old movies to choose from.When they came, they saw a young couple going in, hugging each other very intimately, almost full of hormonal smell.

It was only then that Chen Lou regretted it, but Jiang You held him and didn't let him go. He turned around and saw that he was not natural, so he smiled reassuringly.

Chen Lou was still a little hard to accept, and after a long time he worked up his courage and said, "That...doesn't it matter? I think it's a bit boring here."

"There is an air conditioner inside," Jiang You said with a smile, skipping all kinds of unedited blockbusters at the front and casually flipping to the back: "What's more, didn't you say it last time, you want to see this in English Original."

His hand touched the animation column, and Chen Lou glanced at it, only to see a ferocious tiger in the center of the picture, with "lifeofpi" written on it.

The Fantasy Drifting of the Boy Pi is indeed a fantasy blockbuster worthy of serious viewing.Chen Lou had read the original novel, but only glanced at it briefly.When the film was released in China, he was running between the laboratory and the dormitory, busy reading literature and writing papers.I wanted to see it several times but didn't find the time.

He didn't expect that Jiang You would remember what he said - if there is a chance, he would really like to make up for the few blockbuster movies he missed before.Of course, he never thought that Jiang You would choose this movie, because apart from the metaphor and deep meaning of the movie itself, Chen Lou was almost shocked by one of the lines.

The general idea of ​​that line is "Even if you have to learn to let go in life, the saddest thing is not saying goodbye." It's just that what shocked Chen Lou was not the original sentence, but something related to this sentence. Another passage from pi said: "What I hate most is that my nickname is an endless decimal point. It's the big thing in life to get everything to a close. Only then can you let go, otherwise you will be forever There are things that should have been said but left unsaid, and your heart is full of remorse."

The endless fear and loneliness became real at this moment, the intermittent memories, the entanglements of the past and the present, and the unfulfilled wish of the Three Purities... At that moment, Chen Lou finally understood that he was not incompetent in love, but just in love. Before starting again, he still owes his "past self" a solemn farewell.