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After dinner, Lu Shiqing sorted out the study materials in the study, and Chen Fang cleaned up the kitchen and dining room. He felt that he had nothing to do, and began to sit on the sofa in a daze.

He has never been to college, and now he rarely flips through books. He heard the sound of pages turning from time to time through the open door of the study, and thought that Lu Shiqing was studying inside, he suddenly felt a sense of envy and cowardice.He walked to the door of the study lightly, his eyes passed through the crack of the door, and fell on Lu Shiqing in front of the desk.The pages of the book were flipped lightly, and the eyes flowed, as if it had been like this for a long time.

Chen Fang was a little fascinated, the figure was very familiar, but it was very strange. After all, they studied together and imagined the future. It's been too long.

Even if he lives with Lu Shiqing, he still lacks the courage and qualifications to compare his bleak future with Lu Shiqing's.He is an ant living underground in the city, a frog at the bottom of a deep well, and an eagle bird soaring freely through the light gaps to peek at the sky.

He may have regretted letting go of his hand at that time and allowing himself to keep falling, but perhaps this is the only right way.

Lu Shiqing should be like this, living in the light very well and dazzlingly.

The door of the study was suddenly opened from the inside, Chen Fang came back to his senses, not knowing when Lu Shiqing was standing in front of him.

"Look at me." Lu Shiqing said with a smile.

Chen Fang lowered his head in embarrassment, and asked sullenly, "Are you still busy studying now?"

"Not busy, I'm doing an internship now, just sorting out some materials." Lu Shiqing turned off the light in the study casually, as if he didn't intend to continue reading.

"Internship..." Chen Fang's voice was a little softer, "Then the postgraduate entrance examination, or job hunting..."

"I'm guaranteed graduate school, and I still need to continue my studies." Lu Shiqing patiently explained to Chen Fang.

"I, I don't know much about this now..." Chen Fang's voice became softer, he paused, then raised his head, and said to Lu Shiqing with a smile: "Baobaoyan should be much more difficult than those competitions in high school, right? You have always been great."

"Is there?" Lu Shiqing smiled slightly, but her eyes were dark, she carried Chen Fang back to the bedroom, took advantage of the situation and kept him in her arms, resting her chin on top of his head, and stayed quietly for a while.

"Hmm..." Chen Fang raised his head suddenly after a brief silence, saw the dejection in Lu Shiqing's eyes that had not yet been digested, and asked tentatively: "I remember, you signed up for self-enrollment... it seems that it is not Medical University."

"I didn't pass the exam." Lu Shiqing answered quickly.

Chen Fang was silent, sank his head into Lu Shiqing's shoulder, did not speak, it seemed that even breathing had become a laborious task, with a sinking sound.

Even if Lu Shiqing said so lightly, he knew that it happened before he left, but he still couldn't help but feel guilty.

"Actually, medicine is quite good, and the college entrance examination is also a normal performance." Lu Shiqing seemed to know the reason for Chen Fang's silence, rubbed his back with a smile, and joked: "It's just that my mother is not happy, saying that I have to learn from my father. Get mad at her."

"Auntie..." Chen Fang raised his head from Lu Shiqing's neck, and asked cautiously, "Did she say anything else?"

"others?"

"Ah... no."

Chen Fang breathed a sigh of relief for no reason, and then felt stuffy again.

He didn't know whether to be grateful or feel wronged.To this day, that is a well-kept secret.

It's like no one knows how the wound was printed on his wrist, and how much blood spilled from it, because it was stitched up hastily, together with the unspoken secret.Years of scars have taught him to keep his mouth shut, making pain, fear and silence a part of him.

But Lu Shiqing wanted to be the first to explore his wounds.

"Chen Fang." Lu Shiqing called his name, and said in a very careful and cruel tone: "I want to ask you a question. There is no special reason. Don't think too much. If you don't want to, you don't have to answer. Neck injury, did someone hurt you... can you tell me?"

Xu Jin said a lot today, talking about the pain that Chen Fang endured day after day, and it reminded him that the source of these pains seemed to go back a long time ago. Knowing the painful time swallowed by Chen Fang alone.

"It's not a mark. I read the inspection report. Except for the temporary mark I gave you during the last fever period, there are no traces of other pheromones in your body." Lu Shiqing spoke very slowly and softly, for fear that a sharp tone would hurt you. As if scratching Chen Fang's fragile and pale skin again, the words fell, and even the air almost cracked.

"That's not a sign..." Chen Fang's voice was very soft, cautious to the point of breaking, and he said slowly: "That person...has no smell of pheromone, not alpha, he is probably...a beta."

Chen Fang's words fit into Lu Shiqing's guess. He frowned, obviously unable to maintain a stable mood, and continued to ask with some urgency and caution: "Do you know him? Did he force you... or, or was it because of something else? "

The reason?

It's not that Chen Fang doesn't want to answer, but that he needs time and courage to recall.

Chen Fang had seen that man, but only twice, once on the porch in front of his house, the man was dressed in a suit and leather, and he was Chen Rao's new benefactor at that time.The second time...was in a strange dark room, his suit collar was ripped open, his hair was disheveled, his eyes were bloodshot, and he bit the back of his neck like a vicious dog losing his mind. He was Chen Rao's accomplice at that time .

Or, Chen Rao was just an accomplice.

Chen Fang was locked in the room and tied to the head of the bed with a knot that was beaten to death. He hadn’t had any water or rice for several days. His strength was draining from his body, but the heat from his body was abnormally contributed to the back of his neck like a time bomb. glands.

He has nowhere to hide, but someone wants to ignite it.

When someone came in, Chen Fang heard footsteps. They were sharp high heels and a long skirt as light as a lotus leaf. She was an elegant and beautiful woman very different from Chen Rao.

Chen Fang met her a few times, or she met Chen Fang a few times, in the dormitory of the school, at Lu Shiqing's house, he stood beside Lu Shiqing, and heard Lu Shiqing call her "Mom" very strangely .

Her eyes were like the bright cold light on the edge of a knife, as sharp as ever, and when she opened her mouth, it seemed that what she spit out was not words, but sharp icicles that stabbed straight at the heart.

"Sure enough, it's the son of a whore, a parasite-like omega, who can entangle Alpha in circles, and coax my son to sever ties with me."

"I didn't give you a chance, but I gave you a chance."

"But look at yourself, is it too wishful thinking and too ignorant of current affairs?"

"My son is an alpha, and he will do a lot in the future. Don't try to crawl on him with worthless maggots."

……Can not remember.

The woman talked a lot, but she didn't give Chen Fang a chance to defend herself, because she had already been sentenced to death.The hellhound-like beta-man is ready with his murder weapon, razor-sharp teeth and a knife.

After a burst of tearing pain in the back of the neck, a warm liquid permeated the entire back and cooled down quickly.The foreign object in his mouth that blocked his voice was retched by a slap, he yelled for help until his voice became hoarse, and he was strangled by the beta man who lost his mind.

The cold touch was attached to the skin next to his forearm, but the blade became a life-saving straw that he had to grab.

Chen Fang couldn't control the angle at which the blade sank into the flesh of his wrist. He didn't care too much in order to escape, and it seemed that he didn't even care about the terrible injury he suffered.He only knew that it hurt everywhere, that when the last knot was cut, someone broke into the door, the sound of footsteps was disorderly, someone broke free from the hands around his neck, and someone grabbed his wrist with great strength. the wound.

The eyes are very blurred, and I can't see anything clearly. The most striking thing is only patches of dark red.

He reached out and grabbed a handful of the damp dark red, and he squeezed the slender strip into a strange shape in his hand.

After that came the hospital, the police station, and Lu Shiqing in the rainstorm... No matter how clearly I remember, it was an irreversible future.

Perhaps the real reason had nothing to do with disliking Alpha... It was just that at that time he suddenly realized ridiculously that those sanctimonious perpetrators seemed to be right, and they taught him to see his own way with blood.

Apart from the pain, he will have nothing, and the only valuable omega gland has also been destroyed. He will not be able to protect himself, but will only become a burden.

If it is for Lu Shiqing, he seems to have no way to go except to plunge into the rainstorm and mud.

"Chen Fang... what's wrong with you? Chen Fang?"

Chen Fang came back to his senses in a burst of eager voices, and heard Lu Shiqing calling his name over and over again, hugging his uncontrollably stiff and trembling body tightly.

"Don't be afraid, don't think about it if you are afraid, it's okay now, it's okay." Lu Shiqing held Chen Fang's face in both hands, and there seemed to be moist and warm liquid wiped off by his fingertips at the corners of his eyes, "I'm here, Look at me, look at me."

Chen Fang's eyes refocused on Lu Shiqing's anxious face, and he nodded blankly.

He seemed to be dreaming, and the scars on his wrists and the back of his neck began to ache a little again.

But Lu Shiqing woke him up.