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The edges of the leaves of the street trees outside the studio began to turn yellow.

Lu Shiqing and Xu Jin stood under the tree, Xu Jin took out the cigarette case, took a cigarette and handed it over: "Mr. Doctor, would you like one?"

"No, thank you." Lu Shiqing politely refused, saw Xu Jin put the cigarette in his mouth, took out the lighter to light one end, and said to him: "Mr. Xu, I have known Chen Fang for three years."

"Hey, you don't need Mr. Mr., I can't reach you, just call me by my name." Xu Jin thoughtfully stood downwind, let out a breath, the blue-gray smoke was quickly blown away by the wind, and said, "I know you What do you want to ask, I was a little jealous at first, but I just looked at Chen Fang..."

Xu Jin took another breath of cigarettes, narrowed his eyes slightly, as if he was ready to recall some dilapidated past events: "At that time, he was cleaning in a restaurant, and when I met him, he looked so dazed and out of his mind, I am really impressed." I don’t understand what he came to the capital for. Of course, I didn’t just want to pity him, I also had to live, dragging him to help me take pictures to make money. At first he was not happy. Then one year or so... Yes , New Year's Eve, he saw the landlord's family setting off fireworks in the yard, and watched for a long time. I was joking with him, I said Chen Fang, you can't afford to eat or buy fireworks. If you can't live, you can't even dream I did it, and asked me to help him find a job as if he changed his sex the next day. I thought I had become his life mentor, and thought he was thinking about it. Later, looking at him like that, it seemed that he just wanted to live and drag his own life Fate... I may have figured it out today, he just wants to fall while dreaming."

What dream, how to fall.

Listening, Lu Shiqing couldn't help frowning.

He remembered that it was obviously Chen Fang who turned around and left at that time. Lu Shiqing just felt that he was left in a dream, and he didn't understand why in the end it was also Chen Fang who kept falling in a daze.

"He also dreams. What kind of dream is he..." Lu Shiqing lowered his eyes and muttered to himself.

No matter how soft the voice was, Xu Jin also heard it, spit out the smoke and the emotions just now, smiled and said: "I am not in the dream, of course I don't know. Why, you, the person in the dream, don't know? "

The person in the dream, Lu Shiqing has been in the dream for four years, and suddenly became confused, not knowing whose dream it is.

He frowned and glanced at Xu Jin, as if he thought his judgment was far from his own.

"You still don't believe it. As a doctor, you must know that Chen Fang is sick, and I will not hide it from you." Xu Jin looked at Lu Shiqing's reaction flatly, "Sometimes he is in a trance so badly that he can't wake up like he is dreaming. , and used his nails to dig a few scars on his wrists and the back of his neck, and refused to wake up without seeing blood or pain... I occasionally found out a few times, and I could hear him call your name every time."

"You should understand that Chen Fang is very tolerant, and he is very good at hiding things. What I know plus tens of hundreds of times, it is probably what he bears." Xu Jin extinguished a small cigarette butt in his hand, raised his hand Patted Lu Shiqing's arm with his hand, "Oh, fellow doctor, wake him up, don't let him continue to hurt."

Xu Jin left, and Lu Shiqing stood where he was, feeling that the transition from summer to autumn seemed to have just happened, and the wind around him was suddenly so cold that it made people shiver.

It seemed that after standing like this for a short time, there were light footsteps gradually approaching behind her. Lu Shiqing turned her head and saw Chen Fang coming out of the door. The stature is not enough, and the slenderness is a bit too thin.

When those eyes stabilized, the floating panic settled down, like a muddy pool that gradually cleared up, reflecting Lu Shiqing's shadow.

"Oh, I told you, I haven't left yet." Xu Jin came out from behind Chen Fang again, glanced at Lu Shiqing who was not far away, turned back and said to Chen Fang: "What are you talking about, hurry up!" , go back and wait for you."

"Why did you come out again?" Lu Shiqing walked a few steps closer to Chen Fang, rubbed his thin shoulders a few times, "It's cold outside with so little clothes on."

"It's not cold." Chen Fang looked at Lu Shiqing, pursed his lips, and asked him hesitantly: "You come back tonight...what do you want to eat when you go home?"

"I'll come to pick you up." Lu Shiqing reached out to remove the little fluff stuck to the tip of Chen Fang's hair, and helped him smooth the hair on his temples, as if carefully comforting a shivering little animal, "It's just that it's cold , eat dumplings, I promised to make them for you."

When Lu Shiqing came to the studio in the afternoon, the studio was already empty and the door was locked. Chen Fang sat outside by the small flower bed with his legs huddled, and boredly pressed back the corner of the flesh-colored tape around his wrist that had lost its stickiness time and time again.

"Why didn't you call me?" Lu Shiqing fixed Chen Fang on the co-pilot with a seat belt, warming his somewhat cold hands and asked, "How long have you been waiting?"

"Not long." Chen Fang unconsciously wrinkled the tip of his nose, which was a little red from the cold, and smiled as if he didn't know it at all, "Are you busy, I have nothing to do after the filming, just waiting for you."

"What's right, if you catch a cold from the cold later, just pretend that you are trying to make me angry and make me feel uncomfortable."

"No, then I'll wear it thicker next time." Chen Fang couldn't keep his eyes off Lu Shiqing next to him, and after staying somewhere for a long time, he asked with some uncertainty: "Lu Shiqing, are you now... ...do you still like dark blue?"

"Huh?" Lu Shiqing easily recalled that he seemed to have said that he liked dark blue only once since he was born, and Chen Fang was probably the only person in the world who knew that he liked dark blue, so at a certain moment, a certain dark blue Items become easier to recall.He turned his head to look at Chen Fang, then turned his head back while looking at the car, and said, "There is no need to knit the scarf anymore. Dark blue...I still like it, so I still keep the old one."

"Ah." Chen Fang was stunned for a moment, lowered his head, and said after a while: "That strip has been around for many years, so it must be old and can't keep out the wind. It's still a new weaving strip with the same color."

"That's different." Lu Shiqing opened and closed his lips, and after a slight pause, he said stubbornly, "I like that one."

The two of them went to the supermarket to buy ingredients, and it was a quick battle, because Lu Shiqing's life skills were already very rich, and Chen Fang listened to him for everything now.

After arriving home, Lu Shiqing changed her clothes, put on an apron, and walked into the kitchen with ease, mixing water and noodles very skillfully.Chen Fang wanted to help, but was sent by Lu Shiqing to mix the chopped dumpling filling and seasoning evenly, and his eyes kept falling on Lu Shiqing.

The impression of Lu Shiqing was not like this. Chen Fang was a little curious and puzzled, and asked, "Didn't you live in a dormitory? How did you learn this?"

"I learned it when I was alone at home during the holidays." Lu Shiqing was rolling out the dumpling wrappers in his hands, and he focused on watching Chen Fang while talking, "I don't know why, but I always feel that I should learn, even during the Chinese New Year. Can't use it... don't you need it now."

The dumplings made by Lu Shiqing are very different from those made by Chen Fang, but Lu Shiqing's hands are still as unlucky as before. The dumplings are like long and narrow fish, not as round and cooked as the dumplings made by Chen Fang. Floating up, round and cute.

Lu Shiqing first filled two dumplings to taste, and after confirming that one was cooked, he fed the other to Chen Fang.

"Happy New Year." Lu Shiqing said suddenly.

"What?" Chen Fang forgot to continue chewing.

"It's our new year."

Time has passed, it has passed, since what is missed cannot be recovered.

Then catch up late and start over.