restart breathing

The two stalemate silently, and it took a long time to recover.

Lu Shiqing just slowly put down his hand, as if he had already become accustomed to similar dreams, and his mood was not greatly affected, and he even took the initiative to make a rescue, saying that he probably fell asleep accidentally because he was really busy and dizzy.Chen Fang didn't react too much, he just got up and took out two sets of tableware and put them on the table, silently calling Lu Shiqing to eat.

The emergence of this episode did not bring much change to the relationship between the two, as if the two were awake and knew they were in a dream.

Don't expect dreams to come true easily. When you fully wake up, you may not even be able to wait until the next scene.

Lu Shiqing still went to Chen Fang's small basement like he had planned to clock in after work every day. He didn't violate the rules and didn't stay too long. He simply had a meal, as if his daily task was to confirm Chen Fang's day If you are doing well, you can leave with peace of mind.

Chen Fang didn't say anything sharply to Lu Shiqing again. Although he felt that it shouldn't be, he still acquiesced in this kind of well-measured contact, and even prepared a simple dinner before Lu Shiqing's regular visit every day. He didn't explain the reason clearly, and Lu Shiqing didn't ask too much, and everything seemed to go with the flow.

The current state is unclear, without a clear positioning, not as close as a lover, not as alienated as a stranger, but it is not a friend either.

Chen Xin should understand the time limit of this relationship, but he still can't help but fall into panic when Lu Shiqing is late by accident.It seems that he is a speck of dust floating in the alternation of day and night, not knowing where he will go with the wind, not knowing whether he can see the morning light or night light of tomorrow, existing too cautiously, so dazed that he can't help himself, he can only Passively waiting for blessings, without the courage to chase light spots.

I muddled along, and a month passed.

When Chen Fang saw Lu Shiqing the last few times, he always felt a pain in the back of his neck that was not very obvious. He immediately realized that his difficult fever period was coming.

Even though Lu Shiqing politely and considerately used the pheromone-blocking medicine every time he came to find Chen Fang, he still couldn't avoid some contamination on his body.For normal people, the dose of alpha pheromone, which is negligible for normal people, is almost a strong drug with a catalyst added to it, a spark that ignites in the air under the perception of Chen Fang's morbid and extremely susceptible omega glands.

Whether it is pain or lust/desire, it is extremely unbearable for a fragile omega.

Chen Fang's discomfort became more and more intense, he asked Xu Jin to help him push back the day's work, and stayed at home groggy all day.The remaining sanity and sobriety finally collapsed in the evening, as if countless needlepoints on the glands were piercing the skin, and the out-of-control pheromone overflowed from these gaps from light to thick.

Even though it doesn't have the characteristic smell of ordinary omega pheromones, the atmosphere filled with pheromones is still so strong that even Chen Fang himself is dizzy.

He supported his weak body to find out the inhibitor in the canvas bag he usually carried, and stabbed the needle into the back of his neck without hesitation.After the cold liquid permeated the whole body and the restlessness in the blood was forcibly suppressed, Chen Fang managed to regain his consciousness. He turned on the ventilation fan to drive all the annoying pheromones out of the small space.

When he saw the bowls and chopsticks in the sink that were not cleaned in time due to physical discomfort, Chen Fang's mind, which had become a little dull due to fever, suddenly realized that Lu Shiqing would still be here tonight.

He must not be seen by Lu Shiqing like this during his fever.

Chen Fang took out his mobile phone, struggled to see the screen clearly, paused his fingers, and dialed a series of numbers fluently.

This is the first time since they kept this state for a month, he took the initiative to call Lu Shiqing, just to keep him from coming to him.

The phone beeped twice and was connected. Lu Shiqing seemed a little surprised, and asked as if he didn't dare to confirm: "Chen Fang? Is it you?"

"It's me." Chen Fang replied.

"Are you okay?" Lu Shiqing's tone was a little nervous, "You sound tired."

"It's okay." Chen Fang spoke reluctantly, and he couldn't even force his voice to cheer up, like a rubber band that was pulled too far beyond its elastic limit, and it seemed that it would break if it was pulled harder.He breathed a sigh of relief, calming his beating heart under the dual effects of fever and tension, and continued: "I'm a little tired from work today, and I may not be able to make dinner. Or you...don't come at night."

"You're in better health, and you work so hard." Lu Shiqing's tone was more painful than complaining, "I'm not just here to eat your dinner, so don't do it."

"Then don't come tonight." After Chen Fang said that, he felt that he was a little too emphatic on this matter, and added: "I'm going to sleep."

"But..." Lu Shiqing still had something to say.

"I'm really going to sleep. Remember to eat dinner yourself. That's it." Chen Fang interrupted Lu Shiqing, afraid that if he said a few more words, his lame lie would be exposed.

After hanging up the phone, Chen Fang took another injection of the inhibitor and put it under the pillow so that he could give himself an injection whenever necessary.He lay back on the bed and closed his eyes, frowning tightly, like a person waiting for drowning, sober and painful, waiting for the fever reaction produced by the ruined omega glands to engulf him.

The pain in the back of the neck burst out, and Chen Fang was in a daze, wondering if he had fallen asleep.He could clearly feel the pain, but he didn't even know when Lu Shiqing entered the door.

"It still woke you up." Lu Shiqing carefully moved her hand from Chen Fang's hair, picked up the bag at hand, and filled it with ready-made food, "It's better to have a little dinner. This meal is recommended by the head nurse Yes, it is said to be very delicious."

He clearly said that he was not allowed to come, but he still appeared in front of him.Chen Fang rubbed his eyes, and asked Lu Shiqing helplessly, "How did you get in?"

"Ask the landlord for the key." Lu Shiqing said while laying out the lunch box: "The landlord saw me on surveillance and said that I come every day. He looked familiar and gave me the key."

Generally speaking, the omega in the febrile period will instinctively refuse to eat in order to prepare for the long relationship with alpha.

At this moment, Chen Fang didn't have any appetite looking at the delicious food, but if he didn't eat it, Lu Shiqing didn't achieve his goal, so naturally he wouldn't leave easily.He didn't know when the wave of heat would engulf him, so it was better to coax Lu Shiqing away before everything became uncontrollable.

Chen Fang propped himself up and sat up, enduring the increasing pain in the back of his neck and the strong nausea, he put the food into his mouth without taste, chewing and swallowing with difficulty.After eating less than half of it, the gastrointestinal tract seemed unable to withstand more stimulation, forcing Chen Fang to put down his chopsticks.

"Is it not to your liking?" Lu Shiqing asked Chen Fang nervously.

"It's delicious." Chen Fang frowned in embarrassment, feeling guilty for wasting Lu Shiqing's heart, and said apologetically, "I'm just too tired, it's not that I don't like my appetite. I'm sorry."

"Then... let's rest quickly." Lu Shiqing packed up her things and stood up, looking at Chen Fang with some nostalgia, "I'm leaving."

"En." Chen Fang replied, trembling in just one syllable, and got up weakly supporting the side of the bed.He wanted to send Lu Shiqing off, and at the same time locked the door behind him to prevent anyone from entering, so that he could pass through the fever period quietly.

Lu Shiqing put on her clothes, turned her head to see Chen Fang following, waved her hand and said, "Go back and lie down."

"...Let's go." Chen Fang supported the door frame with his hands, his knuckles were bluish white, and he lowered his head to prevent Lu Shiqing from seeing his pained expression.

Lu Shiqing stepped out of the threshold with one foot, and his tall back suddenly stopped, as if he had realized something worthy of hesitation, he turned his head, and at the same moment he heard the sound of Chen Fang kneeling on the ground and his knee hitting the ground.

"Chen Fang!" Lu Shiqing turned around and stepped into the door. While supporting Chen Fang, he felt the abnormal heat on the surface of his skin, and immediately confirmed to him: "Are you in the fever period?"

Chen Fang seemed to have lost the ability to respond, unconscious sobs overflowed from his nasal cavity, he knelt down on the ground, curled up his body, covered the stinging glands on the back of his neck with one hand, his nails were desperately digging at the skin, almost embedded in the flesh inside.

pain.

The world twisted sharply, the air stinging at him.

It was like holding a handful of thorny thorns, wrapping them round and round around his neck, and tightening them violently, strangling his body.

He vaguely felt the warm and light pine fragrance all over his body, which seemed unreal, and Chen Fang thought he was hallucinating.

The same hallucinations that have occurred during every heat for the past four years.

Lu Shiqing shouldn't hold him like this anymore.The deep-rooted thought that someone was biting the back of his neck made him have to think so.

Chen Fang hoped that the pine fragrance in the hallucination would gradually corrode him, and every strand of it would be entangled in his flesh and blood, and then make him mistakenly think that he could die in Lu Shiqing's arms.

"Chen Fang, can you hear me? I'll give you a temporary mark so you won't feel so uncomfortable, okay?"

Lu Shiqing in the hallucination couldn't speak, this was the first time, Chen Fang hadn't heard it for a long time, it was like a dream come true, which made him suddenly reluctant to die like this.

He opened his eyes with difficulty, and his blurred vision met an extremely anxious face, which was so close that he could be touched with his hand.Warm, soft, eagerly calling his name, palms to soothe his aching soul.

People usually think that they have endured enough pain, so it doesn't matter if it hurts a little more.

In fact, there is a so-called, very so-called.

It is because the pain that has been endured is too much, and even a little bit more will become unbearable.

Especially at certain moments, it is obvious that nostalgia and light are within reach.

He was suddenly very unwilling.

Why, why should he be patient forever?Why should he give up forever?

"I don't want a temporary mark."

Chen Fang's tears rolled down from the corner of his eyes, ran down his cheeks, and slid into Lu Shiqing's palm.

No matter what Chen Fang wants at this moment, Lu Shiqing will go through fire and water to give it to him.

"I want you."