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Lu Shiqing left that day, and Chen Fang didn't give him his contact information, but he still received a call from him the next evening.

Lu Shiqing did not change the number.

At a certain time four years ago, Chen Fang received almost crazy and tireless calls from this number, but he didn't answer any of them, just stared at the caller ID day after day in a daze.

I don’t know if it’s because I looked at it for too long, or the thoughts of my fingers are more honest than Chen Fang’s brain. After a long time, the numbers arranged on the screen of the mobile phone are so familiar that no reaction time is required, and even a weak muscle memory is aroused. Let your fingers subconsciously press the answer button immediately.

The moment he pressed the button, Chen Fang regretted it, but Lu Shiqing's voice had already come from the other end of the phone, and it was hard to hang up, so he could only bite the bullet and put the receiver to his ear.

"You've changed your number." Lu Shiqing said, not sure if it was because the ambient sound over there was a little noisy, making his voice a little lonely.

"...Well." Chen Fang was very unconfident, as if changing the number was like peeling off a layer of skin, changing many layers inside and out, making him ruthless.He frowned and asked, "Where did you get the number?"

"Xu Jin who asked." Lu Shiqing didn't seem to mind, and said easily, "He used your number to sell money."

Chen Fang had nothing to say, after all, this really seemed like something Xu Jin could do, he paused, and then asked: "Then... what's the matter?"

"Ask if you want to eat tonight." There was the sound of a kitchen knife chopping on a chopping board from Lu Shiqing's side, probably at the fresh food market.

"...No." Chen Fang said something in a low voice, and he didn't speak again, but there was no movement from Lu Shiqing.After a while the phone was hung up, Chen Fang listened to the cold busy tone on the receiver, and belatedly began to panic.

Did... make him angry?

Although they shouldn't be in touch anymore, it seems...he should be the one who regrets, and he has no right to treat Lu Shiqing like this.

He would rather be treated with such sneering words than he is now, saying things against his will and doing things against his will, while feeling guilty all over his body.

Lu Shiqing still came, and the first thing he said when he entered the door was to explain to Chen Fang that he just hung up because of bad signal, with fresh ribs in his hand, he staggered when changing shoes at the door.Only then did Chen Fang raise his head to look at Lu Shiqing's face, his brows were tightly frowned, his eyes were bloodshot, and his face couldn't hide the exhaustion. Even after seeing Chen Fang's gaze, he smiled, even the corners of his mouth curled up with difficulty.

"Is the hospital... very busy?" Chen lowered his consciousness and asked.

"It's okay." Lu Shiqing smiled, and said indifferently as if chatting: "Just be busy this week. I'm in the emergency department. I have a lot of things to do."

"Aren't you from the gland department?" Chen Fang remembered that the first time he saw Lu Shiqing in the hospital was in the gland department ward. Lu Shiqing followed the chief physician of the gland department and treated his burned hand.

"I'm a fifth-year junior, and I'm just an intern in the hospital. Each department has to be rotated once a week." Lu Shiqing explained patiently, as if suddenly thinking of something, and asked: "The last time I rotated from the gland department After that, I went to the ward again and found that you were not there."

Just because of department rotation.

Not avoiding you.

It's not that I hate you either.

Is that right?

Chen Fang didn't dare to open his mouth to ask, he was afraid that if he was too sentimental, he would make a mistake, and Lu Shiqing didn't need to explain to him.

He didn't respond either, he just took the things in Lu Shiqing's hand, found out the pots and bowls, and went back and forth to get busy.Lu Shiqing wanted to help, but Chen Fang turned his back to avoid him. He pestered him for a long time before getting Chen Fang to say, "Let me do it, you can't do it."

Lu Shiqing replied a little unconvinced: "I can do it well."

Chen Fang continued to wash the ribs carefully under the running water, without arguing with Zhangkou again.So Lu Shiqing stood in the small space behind Chen Fang like a wall and looked at him. When Chen Fang washed the ribs, he took two steps back with his hands, and hit Lu Shiqing's chest with his back defenselessly. He said in a low voice, complaining, "I want to go there, but you are in the way."

Lu Shiqing smiled when she heard the words, turned sideways to let Chen Fang walk over, and then walked out of the narrow corner, and sat down on the corner of the sofa with all kinds of clothes neatly stacked against the wall.

Chen Fang didn't intend to make it complicated, he simply boiled the ribs, added some soup base and quick-frozen meatballs that Lu Shiqing bought last time, and a bowl of soup came out after a while.There is no green onion or other condiments that can enhance the appetite. The appearance of the soup is really ordinary, and the taste may even be ordinary.

People like Chen Fang are already living a decent life, and the family doesn't prepare these things, but he doesn't worry about it either.He followed the eating habits for two years in high school, and he didn't think about changing them after such a long time, not to mention that Lu Shiqing had these taboos in the first place.

Chen Fang was about to bring the soup bowl to the table. The room was as quiet as no one else. Chen Fang's eyes were flustered for a moment. After searching eagerly, he found a figure that was too large for the small space curled up on the small sofa in the corner of his vision. On a pile of his usual clothes.

The temperature of the soup is very high, and the cheap bowl conducts heat quickly. Chen Fang's fingertips were so hot from the bottom of the bowl, he still put the bowl on the table gently, for fear of making a disturbing sound.Lu Shiqing was not affected in the slightest, with his eyes closed, his breathing was rapid and deep, his brows were also furrowed, as if he was very tired, and he didn't sleep well.

Chen Fang walked over, hesitating whether to wake him up or not.

are you tired?

I thought he could live a relaxed and happy life without drag and restraint, why does he still look so tired now?

Chen Fang squatted down, looked at Lu Shiqing's eyelashes that were still trembling slightly in his sleep, and the eyebrows that were twitched into a ball, as if he had suddenly returned to the classroom four years ago. Looking at Lu Shiqing's sleeping face facing him, he couldn't help it. He wanted to stretch out his hand to soothe the melancholy that came out of nowhere.

The temperature of the fingertips became a thorn that pierced the dream. The moment Chen Fang touched Lu Shiqing's eyebrows, Lu Shiqing suddenly opened his eyes and grasped the extra touch between the eyebrows with his hands, looking eager and hard , I'm afraid that I won't be able to stay dull for a moment.When he was awakened, he said something that probably should have appeared in the dream. It was vague, but it became clear in the uninterrupted contact with Chen Fang.

"Don't go."

Chen Fang heard it clearly, his consciousness seemed to be drawn into that unfinished dream, and he forgot to take out the grasped hand, just like this was held by Lu Shiqing, trembling slightly invisible.

Lu Shiqing looked at Chen Fang who was close at hand, and seemed to have some kind of habitual illusion, and didn't immediately realize that he was no longer in a dream. His eyes became scarlet because of exhaustion, as red as rainwater four years ago. , and then mixed with the temperature of tears, it flowed hotly.

"Brother Fang." Lu Shiqing's tone was dull, as if talking to himself.

Chen Fang lost his mind for a moment, and inaudible syllables overflowed from his throat. As a late response, it seemed to make up for the echo that was covered by the sound of rain four years ago.