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"I, I'll do it myself."

In the small bathroom, a clean bathtub missing a corner was filled with warm water. Lu Shiqing carried Chen Fang into it, and heard Chen Fang's weak voice.

"Okay." Lu Shiqing straightened up, his eyes lingered for a moment on the back of the neck covered by Chen Fang's slightly long hair, and before going out, he warned: "Be careful, the water will not touch the wound on the back of the neck. "

Chen Fang nodded lightly, wrapped his arms around his knees, and curled up his whole body, looking listless.

Lu Shiqing knew that he should be very tired at this time, so he turned around and left the bathroom without speaking.He found a set of clean sheets from under the neatly stacked clothes. Facing the wrinkled and messy bed, he looked a little gloomy.

He knew that his behavior had crossed the line, and he had expected that as long as Chen Fang said a word or looked in his eyes, he would be able to throw away all the so-called principled restraint, and bring Chen Fang back to him in any way desperately.

With hugs, with kisses, with gentle and strong affection/love, and if Chen Fang is willing, with a bite mark on the gland.

Even a temporary mark with a short-term effect indicates the affiliation of alpha and omega, and the pheromones interact and fuse to form an invisible and undeniable bond between the two.

Lu Shiqing should have gone crazy with joy.

But at this moment, his fingers pulling the sheet are stiff, and he is staring at some messy fold on the sheet, but the scene in front of him stops at the blurry picture left in his mind, lingering, making him feel like a fallen man now. ice cave.

At that time, Chen Fang was crying very quietly. Lu Shiqing thought that he was crying because of unbearable passion. If Chen Fang's pain could not be kissed away, a temporary mark seemed to be the safest and most appropriate solution. .

But he never forgot what Chen Fang said.Hate alphas.

"Do you hate me?" Lu Shiqing asked suddenly.

Four years later, Chen Fang's more indifferent and sharp words than the rainstorm were still a thorn in Lu Shiqing's heart, which made him a little urgent and despicable.Knowing that it is difficult for Chen Fang to say no to him now, but he still chooses to threaten and try in this situation.

But Chen Fang didn't answer, just asked him a question.

"Will you still tag me?"

Marking was once a very unfamiliar topic between them. Lu Shiqing seldom thought about it, and now he has lost the ability to think.

The beloved omega's request for marking was like injecting a painkiller in Lu Shiqing's heart. He just silently expressed his willingness in the eager and gentle invasion again and again, kissing from Chen Fang's lips to the back of his neck, using Alpha's instinct is to look for the source of his fascination.

The touch between the lips is somewhat different from the snow-white smoothness in memory. Lu Shiqing looked down subconsciously, and saw slightly rough and fine scars concentrated on the skin on the surface of the small glands, and there were fresh pinholes, which would scab in the future, new and old. The overlap is probably the trace of injecting omega inhibitors for a long time.

It is abnormal enough to use inhibitors at such a high frequency. Lu Shiqing frowned, but found a circle of scars around Chen Fang's glands, like tooth marks, and the damaged tissue after hyperplasia was wild and hideous. He showed no mercy at all, as cruel and bloody as if he wanted to bite off Chen Fang's entire gland.

Lu Shiqing paused for the canine teeth that were about to pierce the gland, and heard Chen Fang chuckle suddenly as his movements stopped, exhaled deeply, followed by uncontrollable painful crying and almost desperate tone, and asked him again: "Are you... still willing to tag me?"

Lu Shiqing looked up at Chen Fang, and only then realized that Chen Fang's words were not out of unbearable desire/desire and dependence when he was in a state of confusion, but a vague and desperate warning from his remaining consciousness.

He was already broken, and he was no longer a treasure that should be held in the hands. If he insisted on doing it, he would be hurt by the fragments.

Both are Chen Fang, both are pain, between the two, he has to bear one.

After a moment that was not enough to fully consider this complicated decision, Lu Shiqing lowered his head, and devoutly branded a kiss on the back of Chen Fang's neck, aiming his canines at the fragile omega glands again.

It's not impulsive, or riding a tiger.He once thought at a certain moment that the four years they were separated was actually a long time, long enough for them to abandon the past and plan a new life, even if they each found a new love, they would not be accused of being ungrateful.

Lu Shiqing thought that it would be good if someone had treated Chen Fang sincerely and properly in the past few years, at least he would not have had a hard time.

But that doesn't seem to be the case at all.

Someone once pierced Chen Fang's back neck with his teeth, but they didn't regard him as a treasure and smashed him easily, leaving only painful cracks.

Thinking of the tooth marks around the gland, Lu Shiqing's eyes were scarlet, and he didn't know whether he should be jealous or angry for a moment, but any of them was enough to drive him crazy.

He regretted it.

There shouldn't be anyone else.

Chen Fang should have belonged to him alone.

When the canine teeth pierced the gland, Chen Fang's body tensed up, and his fingertips sank into the skin of Lu Shiqing's broad back. His thin body was surrounded by scorching heat, but it was still like a butterfly's wings shivering in the autumn wind, shivering from the cold. Vulnerably trembling.Skin to skin, Lu Shiqing hugged Chen Fang tightly in his arms without any barriers. While feeling his heart beating, he seemed to be able to feel Chen Fang's heartbeat passing through his body, hitting his chest hard pain.

Lu Shiqing kissed and kissed on the marked marks, raised her head to look into Chen Fang's eyes, panicked, filled with an emotion called fear.

He is afraid.

Chen Fang's fear was embedded in the shocking scars, and Lu Shiqing couldn't let Chen Fang experience blood dripping again, so he would never know.

The bed was half made, Lu Shiqing tore off the sheet, and the pillow rolled aside, revealing the inhibitor needle hidden underneath, which was still unused, but Chen Fang was obviously ready to use it.

Lu Shiqing walked over to pick up the needle tube, carefully looked at the instructions written on the wall of the tube, his eyes darkened.

"Omega is only used for febrile periods, and the dose should not exceed two per week."

Lu Shiqing thought, just now when he looked at the needle holes in Chen Fang's glands, he probably had already given himself an injection, and was planning to give himself a second injection at any time.This is only the first day of Omega's fever period, but it seems that the inhibitor's effect on Chen Fang has been greatly reduced, and it can't suppress the symptoms at all.Then in the next few days, if you don't look at Chen Fang, you don't know that there will be a few more pinhole marks of inhibitor abuse on his glands.

He had seen Chen Fang's examination results, and the situation was very bad, so he couldn't let him continue to ruin himself.

Lu Shiqing put the inhibitor into his pants pocket, stood where he was, and the room became quiet, only to realize that the bathroom had been silent for a long time.

He hurriedly turned around and walked into the bathroom, and saw that Chen Fang was not washing himself, his eyes were blank, sitting in the bathtub, the water surface was choppy, and it was he who was scratching his wrist.

"Chen Fang." Lu Shiqing walked over with a frown, and saw that the adhesive tape on Chen Fang's wrist had been soaked by water, wrinkled and disconnected from the skin, and the scar that should have been covered was exposed in the water, and was being picked by Chen Fang's nails. , has turned red, and even bloodstains surfaced.

Chen Fang himself didn't seem to know it at all, he didn't even seem to hear Lu Shiqing calling his name, he was still dazed, and the almost self-harming movements in his hands didn't stop.

"Chen Fang, what are you doing? Stop!" Lu Shiqing pulled Chen Fang's hand away, and Chen Fang barely reacted with his angry voice and slightly rough movements.

His eyes fluttered a few times, and he turned his head to look at Lu Shiqing with a loose look, as if what he saw was not Lu Shiqing, but something terrible.

At the moment when Lu Shiqing was stunned by his weird and strange reaction, Chen Fang suddenly withdrew his hand and covered his glands, his brows were furrowed in pain, and he bit his lip before making a trembling sound.

"It hurts. Don't go. I'm... not dirty."