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"That's your blood pheromone test report. I ordered a test for you last time, but you didn't do it." Lu Shiqing stood at the door of the bathroom and said to Chen Fang who was holding a paper slip in a daze.

There was no trace of blame or sullenness in that tone, it was just a calm statement, but to Chen Fang it seemed to expose a crime.He lowered his eyes guiltyly, carefully folded the paper sheet back to its original shape, and held it in his hand embarrassingly.

"I'm sorry." Chen Fang lowered his head and apologized, his attitude was more sincere than pleading guilty.

"It's me who should say I'm sorry." Lu Shiqing walked over, took out the coat that Chen Fang was holding in his arms, and casually put it on his arms.He didn't retreat, but stood very close to Chen Fang. After a moment of silence, he continued: "I lied to you again. I took a few tests for you while you were awake, and the other results are in my phone. You Wanna see?"

Chen Fang bit his lip, and instead of answering Lu Shiqing's question properly, he asked, "Have you read it?"

"I've seen it." Lu Shiqing said.

Chen Fang lowered his head sullenly and didn't speak, as if resigned to his fate.

Lu Shiqing took out the test sheet that Chen Fang was holding with his fingertips, unfolded it and glanced at it twice, then folded it up and put it back into his pocket, maybe because he didn't need to look at it a few more times, he already knew the result like the back of his hand.

When he took Chen Fang, who was still in a coma, for an examination, he told himself that this was just a doctor's duty, and even for a disobedient patient, he had to be sympathetic.

Even though Chen Fang didn't seem to be willing to do the inspection, the entanglement between him and Chen Fang would end there.If Chen Fang insisted on leaving after waking up, then let him go, and he would not stop him any more.

After all, intimacy is only a thing of the past, and the dividing line between them was drawn by Chen Fang himself.Just wandering around is enough to be ignorant of current affairs, and he is not qualified to cross the line at all.

Until dusk, Ding Qishan, the director of the gland department who had taken Lu Shiqing to practice, contacted him.Several inspection results were placed on the table, Ding Qishan frowned.

Lu Shiqing remembered that Ding Qishan had this look before entering the operating room. That time, the patient stopped breathing and heartbeat on the operating table, and the family members who had been waiting at the door for a long time cried heartbreakingly.

He didn't know whether he should cry too, maybe it was because he was not related to Chen Fang, and he had no position to feel sorry for him, or maybe it was because there had been no more painful things in the past four years, which made him lose the ability to shed tears.

Even if she shed tears one time, it was still in a dream.

It's not a dream at this moment, he's just feeling bored.

Ding Qishan talked a lot, Lu Shiqing listened, and remained silent most of the time.

Finally, Ding Qishan patted him on the shoulder and told him, don't be discouraged, he has survived these years, maybe the patient is lucky.

Lu Shiqing smiled wryly.

When life is controlled by luck, people are already very unfortunate.Occasionally a little bit of luck is given away, just like the little match girl seeing the illusion in the sparks, the flashy delusion makes the misfortune even more unfortunate.

Lu Shiqing walked out of the gland department office, went to the laboratory department to get the blood pheromone test sheet, read each data indicator carefully, did not go to Ding Qishan again, but walked back to Chen Fang's ward unknowingly the door.

He sat on the cold bench, a little dazed, his mind was in a mess, trying to sort out his thoughts, but the mess became more and more messy.

Dependence on inhibitors, extreme susceptibility to pheromones, glandular dysfunction... Every time Ding Qishan said a keyword, Lu Shiqing's heart choked, like a stone without edges and corners hitting his chest, very stuffy and heavy, but did not leave any pain. Use any wound to vent the pain.

It's like he only saw the shocking traces of Chen Fang's wrist wound after scabbing, and couldn't imagine what happened to Chen Fang at those bloody moments. He only knew that the part hidden by Chen Fang was a hundred times worse than what he could see with the naked eye. times.

Her thoughts throughout the night were interrupted by the sound of the door opening of the ward, Lu Shiqing was not surprised when she saw the foot stepping out of the ward.He seemed to have expected that Chen Fang would leave, but the expression on that face was far from what he had expected.

Not as decisive as the back four years ago, it is obviously painful and guilty.

Lu Shiqing didn't sleep all night, insomnia is common for him, but he seemed to wake up suddenly from the nightmare that he had been sleeping for four years.

Looking at Chen Fang at this moment, he clearly and cruelly realized that this person who disappeared for four years did not only exist in his dreams, but was really struggling to survive in a dark corner, and experienced many pains that he did not know , now standing in front of him, and bruised.

Regardless of whether he was indecisive or left unresolved, he had to admit that after four years, Lu Shiqing still had no way to ignore Chen Fang.

He wants to bring him back, even from anywhere, or with anyone.

The steamed stuffed buns on the table were completely cold, and the half-sprinkled porridge didn't make people want to continue eating.

Lu Shiqing tidied up the things on the table by himself. During the period, Chen Fang wanted to help, so he sat down beside the bed, watched Lu Shiqing busy before and after, and went to pick and choose in the corner where the ingredients were piled up.

The generous figure squatted in the corner. After the induction cooker rang for the second time, Lu Shiqing turned to Chen Fang and asked, "Is there a bowl?"

One minute later, Lu Shiqing filled the cooked noodles with the only slightly larger sea bowl in Chen Fang's house, and brought them back to the table propped by the bed.

Perhaps it was because of the steaming mist, Chen Fang looked at Lu Shiqing with a dazed look, mechanically took the chopsticks that Lu Shiqing handed over to him, as if he didn't know how to use them, and hung stiffly in mid-air .

"Eat noodles." Lu Shiqing said, "I have learned how to cook noodles for four years. I am not a novice, so it will not be too bad."

Chen Fang was convinced by Lu Shiqing's words, like a good kid in kindergarten, moving his chopsticks obediently.As soon as a strand of noodles with hot soup touched his tongue, Chen Fang was so hot that he gasped. He subconsciously covered his burnt lips, and the bitten off half of the noodles was still foolishly held in his mouth.

"Why don't you even remember to blow it, really." Lu Shiqing quickly realized that he wanted to drag Chen Fang to the sink to rinse his mouth with cold water, but when he grabbed Chen Fang's wrist, he felt a sudden tremor, and then found his own The palm is attached to the piece of flesh-colored tape that hides the scar.

Lu Shiqing's hand relaxed as if it had been burned.Chen Fang took the opportunity to pull out his hand, turned the side of the wrist with the adhesive tape down, and looked away uncomfortably, as if if he couldn't see it, he could pretend it didn't exist.

"...Does it hurt?" Lu Shiqing asked hesitantly.

Chen Fang's brows frowned, as if he recalled some unbearable pain immediately, and then quickly came back to his senses, as if he realized that Lu Shiqing was probably asking about his burnt tongue and lips.

After all, this is a well-known common sense. Once the wound has healed, it is not so easy to feel pain, and naturally no one will ask if it hurts.

Chen Fang sighed, and replied: "No, it doesn't hurt, it's fine."

"Chen Fang." Lu Shiqing called his name, trying to make him realize his seriousness, "Whether it hurts or not, good or bad, you can feel it yourself."

Chen Fang avoided Lu Shiqing's gaze, as if he didn't quite understand, and he was unwilling to consider this issue too carefully.

"You can't take care of yourself." Lu Shiqing concluded, thinking of Beta who sat beside Chen Fang's bed in the ward and teased him, and teased the female students outside the school gate, and did not arbitrarily put him together, "You... That partner also failed to take good care of you."

"What..." Chen Fang's dull tone revealed a daze.

Seeing Chen Fang's ignorant look, Lu Shiqing couldn't help but get angry, wishing to shake off Xu Jin's evil deeds at once: "Xu Jin is not a reliable person, he eats, leaves the hospital, and when you need him Never, and I saw him with someone else that day...he doesn't see you as a partner at all."

"He, he wasn't..." Chen Fang seemed still puzzled, and said hesitantly, "It's not a partner..."

"Isn't he your boyfriend?" Lu Shiqing turned her head and persistently looked for Chen Fang's eyes.

Chen Fang still looked at him blankly, without speaking.

However, Chen Fang's bewilderment at the moment made Lu Shiqing feel fortunate for a long time, and felt that God's will made him self-defeating, and wanted him to get Chen Fang back.

"The noodles are not hot anymore, let's eat." Lu Shiqing pushed the bowl towards Chen Fang a little bit, seeing that Chen Fang slowly picked up the chopsticks and moved to the side of the bowl to pick up the noodles, he also took a bite of the noodle bowl with the chopsticks .

The sudden approach made Chen Fang pause with his chopsticks, as if what hit his face was not the heat of the noodle soup, but Lu Shiqing's warm breath.

"You can eat it." Chen Fang's chopsticks were hanging in the air, and he pushed the bowl back, looking aloof and polite.

"I won't eat. Today is a working day. I will change my clothes and go back to the hospital." Lu Shiqing put down his chopsticks, put his coat on his arms, stood up and walked towards the stairs. When he was about to step on the first step, he seemed to remember What, suddenly looked back at Chen Fang and said, "Next time, I will bring a pair of slippers for myself."