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The door was knocked again, about half an hour later.

Chen Fang had been lying on the bed in a daze, and when he heard the sound, he got up exhausted and opened the door, and saw Lu Shiqing squeezed into the narrow door frame, carrying large and small plastic bags in his hands.

"You don't need to entertain me." Lu Shiqing handed a food bag in front of the stunned Chen Fang, "I bought breakfast, let's eat together."

The host didn't have to entertain, so the guests did their own food and clothing. Although the current situation seemed to deviate from expectations, it seemed that there was nothing wrong with it.

Chen Fang had no choice but to take the food bag, turned around in a daze, and left a door for Lu Shiqing.

The doorway is a downward staircase, which is a basement.The space is not big, the light is dim, the walls on all sides have many fine cracks, and some black mildew spots have even grown from the damp.

In the eyes of others, Chen Fang has always looked clean and tidy. It really doesn't seem like he lives in such an environment, or he shouldn't.Even Lu Shiqing would still be a little surprised to come to Chen Fang's living environment again after four years.But as long as he wipes out a gap in Mengchen's memory, he can quickly understand it, because Chen Fang seems to have always been like this, all the years, he has long been used to it and is good at living in the dirt.

Chen Fang took out a small folding table from the wall and put it beside the bed. Turning his head, he saw that Lu Shiqing was still standing on the stairs. He opened his mouth, as if he wanted to be concerned, but he didn't have the courage to ask him why he didn't enter the door while standing.

Lu Shiqing said, "There are no slippers."

"Ah. Slippers...only one pair." Chen Fang looked down at the tattered slippers he was stepping on, and said with some embarrassment: "Don't change your shoes, my place...is not very clean, not particular."

Lu Shiqing glanced at the footing place at the door again, only the shoes that Chen Fang had replaced, breathed a sigh of relief, and walked down the stairs.

Chen Fang wanted to reach out to take the broken bags in Lu Shiqing's hand, but he dodged without a trace. He found a corner in a small space that could be called a kitchen, and piled up the food he bought there. .

Seeing Lu Shiqing busy with his own work, Chen Fang opened his mouth to speak but stopped, and lowered his head to arrange the breakfast on the table.

Lu Shiqing bought two boxes of steamed buns and two cups of white porridge, a small table can be filled with a few things.The two sat by the bed, on the same side of the table. Chen Fang hesitantly took the chopsticks and put them on the table, and pushed them to Lu Shiqing's side, keeping his elbows carefully. He was obviously at his own home, but it was worse than the first visit. The guests are more reserved.

Lu Shiqing unbuttoned his coat, and brought a cup of warm white porridge to Chen Fang: "There is no more black rice porridge."

"……thanks."

Chen Fang didn't care about the color of the porridge, and reached out to pick up the plastic cup without raising his head, like trying to fish for copper coins in a boiling oil pan, but lost his hand the moment he touched Lu Shiqing's fingertips.

The fingertips are obviously warm, but they seem to be more scalding than boiling hot oil.

Chen Fang's fingers suddenly curled up subconsciously, the suspended plastic cup fell, and fell across the table with a muffled sound, gurgling hot porridge gushed out from the broken seal, and the sticky soup splashed all over Lu Shiqing's body.

"...I'm sorry." Chen Fang stood up abruptly and stood far away, as if he could only recover his thinking ability by avoiding Lu Shiqing, he was stunned for a moment and then immediately went to get a tissue.

Lu Shiqing's coat was heavily wet, and he took it off and held it in his hand. The close-fitting shirt was splashed with soup, and the back of his hand was a little red from the heat.

"The bathroom, over there." Chen Fang pointed to the small door in the corner, and took the coat from Lu Shiqing's hand, so that he could deal with his own hands and the expensive-looking shirt.

"It's okay." Lu Shiqing wiped off the liquid on his hands with a tissue, turned and walked into the bathroom.

There was the sound of water being flushed through the half-open door.

Chen Fang carefully unfolded Lu Shiqing's coat, wiped it briefly, and then used a paper towel to lick the wet water stains little by little.

Clothes worn close to the body will inevitably be contaminated with the smell, and a scent of pine branches gradually diffuses out, which is very light and faint, and it is the smell that Chen Fang is very familiar with.Four years ago, he would sometimes smell this on Lu Shiqing, when they were hugging, kissing or having sex.

At that time, Lu Shiqing always said that he was a beta, and this pleasant smell was just an unknown aromatherapy essential oil.

And on a rainy night, at the gate of the police station, when mixed with damp pine incense, like Lu Shiqing at that time, overflowing from the glands in a strong, violent and desperate way, his glands were forced to bear the alpha The forced oppression of pheromones made the whole body almost trembling in pain.

But he was not surprised.It's just a pity.

He obviously didn't dislike the smell of pine branches, and even longed to cry in the embrace of pine branches smelling again.

But he could only walk into the rain and couldn't turn back.

How to turn back.

The wounds on his glands, the scars on his wrists, and the broken life should not be repaired by Lu Shiqing.

Holding Lu Shiqing's coat in his hand, Chen Fang lowered his head and brought the tip of his nose close to the neckline, and gently sniffed the scent that belonged to Lu Shiqing. Immediately, the glands in the back of his neck felt a little swollen and tingling, as if he was wishful thinking about him again warning.

It is true that it is wishful thinking, even today, some words are still correct.

Lu Shiqing has become an alpha who can do something, but he is still a worthless maggot.

Chen Fang shook his head, the corner of the jacket in his hand slipped and fell to the ground, he stretched out his hand to grab it, but the things in his pocket fell out of his pocket with a splash, as if he had grasped the timing.There were not many things, a few paper slips fell to the ground without a sound, which made Chen Fang feel like he could get away with it by doing something wrong.

Worried that the coat would slip off again, Chen Fang carefully folded the fabric twice, carefully hugged it in his arms, and then bent down to pick up the few slips of paper.The black and white letters were exposed on the surface, and the eyes inevitably glanced at the contents above. After a flustered glance, Chen Fang's fingers pinching the edge of the paper gradually turned pale.

He knew that it was bad behavior to peek at the personal belongings that fell out of other people's pockets, but after thinking about it, he felt that it seemed okay to say that the things belonged to him.

After all, the name is clearly written on the name column, Chen Fang.

Is there something with his name written on it in Lu Shiqing's pocket?

The sound of water in the bathroom has not stopped, it seems to give Chen Fang the courage to go beyond the rules.

The paper slip was folded twice, Chen Fang's fingertips trembled slightly, and he tried his best to unfold the paper in half, revealing a list of Chinese nouns and English abbreviations that he could not understand.But he wasn't stupid either. Seeing the words "The First Affiliated Hospital of Capital Medical University" at the top, he immediately realized that this was probably a paper report of a certain test result.

He remembered that when Lu Shiqing left last night, he told him to go to the hospital first and take him for an examination in the morning.But he was not obedient, and the inspection was not done.

Then why did the test results appear in Lu Shiqing's pocket?

In the early hours of the morning, Lu Shiqing was sitting on a bench in the corridor of the hospital, and found that his expression at the moment he sneaked out of the ward suddenly flashed in Chen Fang's mind.

No harshness or anger.His eyes were bloodshot, his eyes were dim, and his hunched body seemed exhausted, weak and helpless.